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Ndinasamukira ku Sweden kupita ku London mu Januware kuti ndikaphunzire semester pano monga wophunzira wosinthana. Ndinali ndimavuto akulu komanso amakhumudwitsa a ED ndisananyamuke ndipo izi zinali zowonadi ndi chifukwa chondipatsa NoFap kuwombera.
Ndisanasamuke ndinali nditawerenga pang'ono za gulu lapaderali ndikuwonera makanema a "Ubongo Wanu pa Zithunzi" ndikutha kupitilira mwina masiku 20 musanabwererenso kuzikumbukiro. Nditasamukira ku London komabe, ndinawerenga "Ubongo Womwe Umadzisintha Wokha" ndipo ndidaganiza kuti sindikhala moyo wanga ndikugonana ndekha - mwina ndipita kukapeza msungwana woti ndikhale naye kapena sipadzakhala kumasulidwa kulikonse - nthawi!
Zinkandivuta kwambiri poyamba koma patapita kanthawi ndidakwanitsa kupeza lingaliro lakukutira m'mutu mwanga ndipo zinthu zikuyenda bwino. Ndidayipanga kukhala chinthu chofunikira kwambiri kucheza ndi anzanga omwe ndimasinthana nawo chifukwa kusinthana ndikofunika (chinthu chodziwikiratu) ndikofunikira komanso chinthu chomwe ndakhala ndikulimbana nacho kale.
Ndipo moyandikira miyezi 2.5 - 3 yapitayo ndidabwerera mu "masewera achikondi" 😉 Choyamba ndidachita mosasamala kwa msungwana yemwe ndimaganiza kuti ndimamukonda koma ndimamaliza ndikukana nditachita kangapo (Inde - ndikumva kuwawa! Koma ine anapepesa modzipereka. Tonse timalakwitsa, chofunikira ndikuphunzira kuchokera kwa iwo). Nditangotsatira mtsikana yemwe anali kumbuyo kwa malingaliro anga nthawi yonseyo; Waku Kupro / waku America wokongola kwambiri. Sindikunyoza pano, nkhope yake inali yokongola, tsitsi lake linali lachi Greek mulungu wamkazi ndipo, chabwino, kuchuluka kwake kwa chifuwa / matako / chiuno sikunakhulupirire!
Tidayamba kulemberana mameseji kwambiri (ndidamutumizira uthenga wofunsa kuti akupita bwanji tsiku lotsatira atakhala ndi vuto loledzera ku kalabu) ndipo zidapezeka kuti talumikizana bwino ndipo ndikosavuta kuyankhula naye. Sikuti ndimakhala ndi mavuto akulu kulankhula ndi atsikana kale kapena china chilichonse koma ndimangomva mwachilengedwe ndikulankhula ndi msungwanayu.
Mwinanso patatha mwezi umodzi kapena kupitilira apo tinali ku Ministry of Sound club kuno ku London ndipo, kuti tifupikitse nkhaniyo, zinthu zinatentha ndikulemera! Ndidapita naye kunyumba komwe ndimakonzekera kupita ku bizinesi. Vuto linali loti timadziwa kuti tilibe nthawi yochuluka chifukwa mnzanga yemwe ndimagona naye nawo anali nawo paphwandopo ndipo abweranso posachedwa (amakhalanso ndi wokhala naye, zomwe zimapangitsa zinthu kukhala zosasangalatsa). Tidakhala amaliseche ngakhale ndinali nditatha mwezi koma sindinathe kuchita ndi nkhawa zonse.
Kwa masabata angapo otsatira tinatenga kusintha kulikonse kuti tikhale tokha limodzi ndipo zinali zosangalatsa. Ndimaganiza kuti ndathana ndi mavuto anga a ED pofika nthawi imeneyo popeza sindinathe kuwona kapena kuwona zolaula kuyambira koyambirira kwa Januware. Komabe, zinthu sizinakhale zophweka kwambiri… ndimatha kuvuta akandithandiza ndi manja ake koma tonse tili maliseche ndikufuna kuchita zina ... Immersive kuposa ntchito zamanja sindinathe kuzilimbitsa. Ndinakhumudwa kwambiri, zomwe sizinandithandizenso kuti ndizisangalala, komanso kuchita manyazi. Ndidamuuza za mavuto anga am'mbuyomu ndikumuuza kuti ndikufunika kukhala womasuka komanso womasuka ndikakhala naye ndikhulupilira kuti zigwira ntchito. Mwamwayi, anali womvetsetsa ndipo sanadandaule kundithandiza mulimonse momwe akanathera mpaka nditakhala (okhutira / mwamaganizidwe) okonzeka kupitilirabe. Zachidziwikire kuti sindinanyalanyaze zosowa zake chifukwa choti sindinathe kuchita!
Pambuyo pokhala limodzi nthawi yayitali limodzi, kupita kokacheza ndikugona limodzi ndi zina zambiri, pamapeto pake tinakwanitsa kugonana ndipo zinali zosangalatsa! Zinali mpumulo waukulu kwa tonsefe; Sindinachititsenso manyazi ndipo amatha kunyoza kudziona kuti ndiwosakwanira. M'malo mwake, ndinadzinyadira ndekha nditazindikira luso langa lachiwerewere pakamwa, ndikupangitsa kuti abwere kawiri motsatana anali munthu wonyada haha
Kupitilira mwezi wopitilira adayamba kuthana ndi ine komabe. Sanathe kugwira ntchito ndikuti anali atasamukira ku kontrakitala ina kumapeto kwa nthawiyo, pomwe ine ndimabwerera ku Sweden. Ndinkafuna kuti zinthu ziziyenda bwino ndikuyesetsa momwe ndingathere koma anali atatsimikiza kale. Tidakali kucheza ndikutumizirana mameseji ambiri koma zinali zabwino kwambiri. Ndinakhumudwa / kukhumudwa / kukwiya koma sindinalole kuti malingaliro amenewo andilande. Kuphatikiza apo, ndimayembekezerabe kuti ndikonza izi tisananyamuke ndipo chiyembekezo ichi ndichomwe chinandisunga paulendo wanga wa NoFap.
Lero linali tsiku lomwe adachoka pomwe adati pomwe adalankhula zomaliza usiku watha ndidamva chisoni komanso ndidapezanso chiyembekezo chotseka. Ndiye popeza ndinalibe wina aliyense woti "ndidziwombole ndekha" zidandigwira ndipo ndidasankha, nditazilingalira mosamalitsa, "kubwerera" chifukwa ndimangofunika kumasulidwa ndipo ndimadziwa kuti sizingachokere kwa wina mu pamene. Sindikumva kukhala wachisoni pambuyo pake chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti chinali chisankho chanzeru chomwe ndidapanga osati "kubwereranso" kovuta komwe sindinathe kudziletsa.
Kudziletsa ndichinthu chimodzi chomwe ndidapeza m'masiku anga 133. Kudziletsa komanso kudzitamandira pakupanga chisankho chovuta ndikumamatira kwa icho komanso nthawi yonseyi osawuza aliyense za kulimbana kwanga. Zomwe amati ndizapamwamba kwambiri zomwe zafotokozedwera mu subReddit sizinaperekedwe kwa ine modabwitsa monga ena mwa inu anyamata koma ndakhala ndikumva "ogalamuka" ndipo kudziletsa kwanga pa zolaula kwandisinthiratu momwe ndimaganizira zogonana komanso momwe ndimaonera akazi.
Chofunika kwambiri, sindingathe kuyanjana ndi msungwanayo (mtsikana yemwe ndimaganiza kuti ndikhale wopanda pake pakati pa mgwirizano wanga!) Ndidachita popanda NoFap ndipo sindingathe kusangalala ndi chisangalalo komanso ubale wa kugona naye! Ndikukhulupirira kuti kusajambula ndi kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwayambiranso mavuto anga a ED 🙂
Zikomo ngati mungawerenge nkhani yayitali yanga iyi! Ndipo zabwino zonse paulendo wanu wa NoFap!
TL; DR Ndinasankha kusakhala PMO kwa semester yonse kunja, ndinamaliza kuthana ndi mavuto anga a ED ndikugonana ndi Mulungu Wamulungu Wachi Greek! Nditamasulidwa dala usiku watha ndikutsimikiza mosadukirira njira ya NoFap