Ndakhala ndikuchita izi kuyambira 13, ndimakhala ndimagulu oyamba okonda zolaula. Pomwe zaka zinkapitilira zizolowezi zanga zikukula pang'onopang'ono sindimatha kukhalanso ndi lingaliro pokhapokha nditayang'ana pa kompyuta. Sindinaganizirepo kanthu za izi ndipo ndinangokhala.
Pambuyo pake ndinayamba kusatha kusunga ubale ndi mkazi. Panali mfundo imodzi munthawi yomwe ndinali ndi kukongoletsa kumwamba pamadalo..i zikutanthauza kuti anali atakhazikika. Ndipo modabwitsa sindinathe kusunga mpangidwe. Zitatha izi ndidaganiza kuti mwina inali nthawi yoyipa kotero ndidaziwombera.
Zoninso monga momwe zinakhalira ndi mtsikana wokongola pabedi ndipo panthawiyi sindinathe kupeza mpangidwe. Chifukwa chake ndidachita mantha ndikuyamba kuyenda ngati wamisala ndipo ndidawona kanema koma mlongo wina dzina lake Gabe pa YouTube. Ndidaziwona ndipo malingaliro anga adawombera. Ndinapita molunjika pa yourbrainonporn.com ndipo ndinayamba kuwerenga nkhani iliyonse yomwe ndikanatha. Ndidapeza kuti amuna ambiri adakumana ndi zofanana ndi ine. Chifukwa chake ndidasiya kuyang'ana ndikuonera zolaula..so ndidaganiza. masabata angapo oyambilira anali ovuta, ndidathedwa nzeru ndipo ndinayamba kumva ngati kuti ndimwalira milungu ingapo.
Ndafika tsiku la 30 ndipo ngakhale kuti lil zolaula imapweteka ndimatanthauza kuti sindichita maliseche kotero sizipweteka. Chifukwa chake ndidapitiliza kuonera zolaula koma sindinachite maliseche. Ndipo ndidawona kupita patsogolo pomwe ndimapitilira. Ndinafika pafupifupi miyezi inayi osasewera maliseche. tsiku lisanafike mwezi wanga wokha ndimayenera kumasulidwa, chimodzi chokha..ndikadziseweretsa maliseche ndimamva chodabwitsa .. ndipo mwina ndimachigwedeza kasanu patsiku ndipo ndimagwiranso mwina kwa milungu itatu. Nditatha kumwa mowa mopitirira muyeso ndinali wokhumudwa komanso wokhumudwa ndekha. Ndinali nditayamba kuganiza ngati sindinakonze izi tsopano sindingathe kukondweretsa mkazi .. ndipo ndicho chomwe chinali chilimbikitso chabwino kwa ine ndipo zidandipangitsa kukhala kosavuta kwa ine.
Chifukwa chake ndidayambiranso ndipo nthawi ino sindinkaonera zolaula kapena kuseweretsa maliseche zinali zosavuta nthawi chifukwa cha mwezi watha wa 4. Ndinapanga masiku 30 kukhala osavuta ndipo ndinayamba kumva bwino.ndinayamba kucheza ndi azimayi ochepa patangotha ... ndipo ndimatha kuvutikira koma osati molimba monga ndimafuniranso ndipo pamwamba pake ndinali ndi PE !!!! Ndikanakhala mkati mwa masekondi 2.2. Ndipo izi zinali zokhumudwitsa kwambiri ndikutanthauza ndimamva zodabwitsa ndikabwera ndipo ndimatha kuvala makondomu ndikusangalala, ndimangobwera mwachangu kwambiri ndipo sindinali wovuta ngati momwe ndimakhalira. Ndimapitilizabe kugonana ndipo pang'ono ndi pang'ono ndimapanga kusintha, chabwino zosankha zanga komabe ndinali ndi PE.
Sabata yatha, ndinagonana, dziwani kuti ndinali nditaledzera ndipo ndinakhala nthawi yayitali. Adandithandiza ndikulimba mtima koma ndidaledzera ndiye ndikuganiza kuti ndi mowa basi. Ndine ngati chilichonse chomwe chinali mowa basi, koma koyambirira lero ine ndi msungwana wanga tinakhala ndi gawo ndipo ndimavutika ndimatha kukhala olimba motalika momwe ndimafunira popanda mowa !!!! Ndamasuka kwambiri chifukwa izi ndi zomwe ndakhala ndikufuna. Sindikulakalakanso zolaula. Ndipo ndikachita nditha kulimbana nayo mosavuta. Izi zizigwira ntchito ngati mungachite bwino momwemo poyamba ndikukayikira koma ndikukhulupirira 100% tsopano. Sindidzayang'ananso zolaula sizoyenera. Ngati ndidatero ndikutsimikiza kuti inunso mutha kutero.
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