Zolaula ndi chizolowezi choyipa. Monga chizolowezi chilichonse chitha. Kunena zowona, sindinakhale ndi poleredwa ngati anyamata ambiri m'badwo uno. Banja langa nthawi zonse linkakhala yotsika mtengo kuchokera paukadaulo. Nthawi zambiri sindinkasewera masewera a kanema.
Sindinapeze foni yam'manja mpaka chaka chatsopano cha kusekondale. Ndidadalira chibadwa chachilengedwe.
Chifukwa chake sindinayambe kuwona zolaula pa intaneti pomwe ndinali 11 kenako ndinataya V-khadi yanga 6-7 patapita zaka.
Ndinagonana koyamba ndili ndi zaka 12 (tsiku lisanafike 13 yangath tsiku lobadwa) kenako adayang'ana zolaula koyamba ali ndi zaka 16.
Zolaula sizinakhalepo vuto kwa ine. Kuyambira wazaka 16 mpaka 22, ndimayiwona nthawi zina.
Sizinachitike konse komwe ndimayipenyetsetsa kwa maola ambiri mumdima wa nyumba yanga.
Nthawi zonse ndimakhala kunja kwa nyumba (kapena chipinda chogona) kumacheza ndi anthu enieni ndikupanga maubwenzi enieni ndi akazi.
Ndasiya zolaula kamodzi ndikuwombera ... inunso mutha.
Ogasiti 2010 mpaka Novembala 2011 anali TSIKU LANGA LABWINO.
Sindinkachita bwino kuti ndili ndi zaka zochepa ku koleji komanso semester yanga yoyamba ya Senior nyaka.
Ndinkakhala ndi zosangalatsa zambiri koma zinali zochuluka. Sanandipatseko fuck. Ndipamene ndinamwa kwambiri. Ndipamene ndinamwa mankhwala ambiri. Ndipamene ndidasilira atsikana ambiri.
Ndinkawoneka ngati kuti ndi a 80.
Zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula za pa intaneti zinali zofunikira kwambiri kuyambira Meyi 2011 (nditapeza smartphone) mpaka Novembala 2011.
Nthawi imeneyi, ndinkaonera zolaula kamodzi patsiku.
Sizinakhudze kugonana kwanga mwanjira iliyonse.
Zimangondilimbitsa mphamvu zanga pomwe ndimamva ngati ndikumwa masana zimandipangitsa kuti ndigone mkalasi (ndikamapita) kapena kuntchito.
Kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwalawa mwina kunathandizanso.
Ndagunda ROCK BOTTOM Lachisanu Novembala 17, 2011
Inali sabata yomaliza kuchita phwando aliyense asanapite ku Thanksgiving.
Ine ndi abwenzi ena tinapita ku kalabu ina yomwe ili mbali ya North Carolina.
Inali pafupifupi mphindi makumi atatu kuchokera komwe bambo a Michael Jordan adaphedwa.
Nditamaliza ndinakoka thukuta loyera la ratchet kubwerera ku ghetto ass motel / ufa wa. Ndinamukhomera m'chipinda ndipo ndinadzuka m'mawa wake nditatayika.
Ndidagona pabedi lonyansa ndi mwana wankhuku wina wamaliseche wokhala ndimaso amanja.
Kunali mapisi ponseponse. Ndipo poyang'anitsitsa pafupi panali zovuta zam'manda zomwe ndinalipo pakati.
Pambuyo pake, sindinathe kupuma ndikupita kuchimbudzi. Ndinatunga madzi ndikumva mtima wanga ukugunda pachifuwa panga.
Ndinaganiza zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala nthawi yomweyo… chimenecho chinali chosavuta.
Ndidakhala masiku angapo otsatirawo ndikudziguguda pachipumi chomwe ndidachipeza kuchipinda chapa motelo. Sindidzaiwala izi.
Sindikufuna kubwerera kumalingaliro amenewo.
Ndidakhala ndi lingaliro loti ndisiye zolaula mwangozi.
Ndinkangodzipatula ku Starbucks ndi anzanga awiri apamtima pambuyo pa Break Thanksgiving.
Unali Disembala 1, 2011.
Anangotchulapo momwe anali kuchitira zovuta kuti asasokere nati kwa masiku a 30.
Adandiuza zonse zokhudzana ndi zolaula za anyamata komanso tsamba ili:
Ndidatulukira. Inali ndi chidziwitso chochuluka kwambiri ndipo ndinadzozedwa ndi nkhani zonse zopambana.
Ndinkadziwa kuti zolaula sizinali chizolowezi kwa ine koma zinali zinthu zomwe ndimafuna kuyesera kuti ndisiye. Ndinkadziwa kuti nditha kuzichita kamodzi.
Ndidapita kunyumba ndipo ndidapeza imodzi yomaliza ndipo iyi idali…. Disembala 1, 2011 inali nthawi yomaliza kuyang'ana zolaula pansi.
Umu ndi momwe ndidachitira ...
1) Ndinkalumikizana ndi zolaula ndimunthu woipa kwambiri m'moyo wanga.
Ndinalumikiza zolaula ndi zokumana nazo zowopsa zomwe zimadzuka m'chipinda chapa motelo chonyansa.
Ndinalumikiza ndikusatsala pang'ono kupuma ndikumverera ngati mtima wanga ukuphulika.
Ndalumikiza kuti sichikuwongolera moyo wanga komanso kukhala chinthu choyipa.
Achinyamata ambiri amaonera zolaula chifukwa cholephera kudziletsa. Osati ine. Ndinali wodziletsa. Sindinabwererenso kudzimva wopanda thandizo. Chonde.
2) Ndinkadziuza kuti kuonera zolaula ndi zachinyengo. Zabwino.
… Palibe njira yozungulira. Mukudzikhudza nokha mukuwona mwamuna wina akugonana. … Mapeto a nkhani.
3) Ndinadzikumbutsa kuti agogo anga onse omwe anali atamwalira amandiyang'ana kuchokera kumwamba ... angandichite manyazi akandiwona ndikuonera zolaula. Ndinali bwino kuposa pamenepo.
Ndine mwana wa sukulu wakale ndipo ndimanyadira banja lomwe ndimachokera.
Chinthu chomaliza chomwe ndikufuna kuchita ndikubweretsa manyazi ku mibadwo ya amuna amphamvu omwe apangitsa kukhalapo kwanga kukhala kotheka.
Musati muziipotoza… Ine sindine wonamizira. Ndimasewera masewerawa pamoyo wanga chifukwa chonyadira banja langa, osati kupambana pamodzi.
Nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimayesedwa, ndinabwereza ziganizo kwa ine ndekha. Ndinkadziuza kuti: “Ndili bwino kuposa pamenepo.” “Musalole.” “Musadzinamize.”
4) Ndinachoka pa Facebook ndikuchotsa kusakatula konse konse pa intaneti.
Kungosankha zopanda pake pa Facebook ndi kusakatula pa intaneti sizabwino kwa inu.
Ndife gulu lotengera chikhalidwe.
Zonsezi zomwe dopamine imatulutsidwa zapangitsa kuti anthu ambiri masiku ano azikhala ndi vuto lokonda kusiya osadziwa.
Mukukhulupirira kuti izi zimathandizira kuledzera. Ndiwothekanso kwambiri. Werengani zambiri za izo Pano.
5) Ndinachotsa ukadaulo wonse kuchipinda changa chogona ndisanayambe kugona.
Ndinkakhala m'chipinda chogona awiri chaka changa chachikulu koleji.
Ndimakonda kuonera zolaula nditangophunzira mkalasi kapena pogona. Ine-foni m'manja. Tambala mbali inayo. Ndi m'mene zidatsikira.
Poyamba ndimakhala ndi chizolowezi chowonera pa smartphone yanga ndisanakagone.
Kudzipatula ndikungodina pafupipafupi sikunali kophatikiza… kumapeto kwake, ndimapeza malo a Porn.
Ndidathetsa vuto lakelo popanda kukhala ndi ukadaulo pachipinda chogona.
Ndasiya laputopu yanga ndi foni pagome la khofi mchipinda chochezera. Zosavuta.
6) Ndinayambanso kuwerenga mabuku munthawi yanga yopuma.
Ndinkakonda kuwerenga mabuku nthawi zonse ndili mwana.
Pakadali pano adandithandizira kuti ndikulibwezeretsanso.
Nthawi iliyonse, ndinkaona ngati sindingathe kuzilandira… ndimalemba chikwangwani kuti ndibwere kapena ndikudziyike m'mutu m'buku kuti ndichotse zinthu zanga.
Ndikofunikira kuti amuna azaka zonse azitha werengani.
Pankhaniyi, zidandithandizira kuchotsa malingaliro anga pazovuta zanga.
7) Ndinkapewa chipinda changa chonse osagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanga mchipinda chochezera.
Ndikadakhala mchipinda chochezera, sindikadatha kuwona zolaula.
Yemwe ndimagona naye amatha kulowa nthawi iliyonse. Sikuti ndiziika pachiwopsezo chifukwa choopa manyazi.
Ndidangolowa kuchipinda changa nditafunika.
Zinali choncho. Sindinachitenso zoseweretsa zolaula.
Nthawi yoyamba kuzungulira, sindinadzaza nati kwa masiku a 15. Ndinayesa kupita masiku a 30 koma sindinathe kuyithandiza.
Ndinamaliza kukumana ndi mwana wamkazi ku laibulale ndipo amapitilizabe kumangokopeka ndi anzanga chifukwa ndimatha kugonana naye.
Nthawi zokhazo zomwe ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula kuyambira nthawi imeneyi zinali zochepa zomwe ndidatulutsa ndi anapiye ena a kinky omwe amafuna kuti aonere zolaula pa nthawi yogonana.
Zonsezi zimabweretsa kudziletsa.
Pomaliza, ndiwe amene uyenera kulimba ndikugonjetsa mayesero.
Nthawi zonse mudzayesedwa munjira ina kuti musonyeze ndikuonera zolaula za pa intaneti.
Ndiwo m'badwo womwe timakhalamo chifukwa cha ukadaulo wosatha womwe tili nawo tsiku ndi tsiku.
Upangiri wanga ukhoza kukhala ndi zikhulupiriro zomwe zimakupangitsani kuti muzikhulupirira kuti mukudzivulaza.
Kenako, chitani zonse zomwe mungathe kuti mupewe kudzipatula pa intaneti.
Mukuyenera kukhala nawo uzikhulupirira ndikudalira anu mzimu wopikisana kukhalabe odekha.
Pomaliza koma osafunikira, muyenera kutsimikizira kuti izi sizowona.
Chowonadi ndichakuti potengera zolaula pa intaneti… mukusowa moyo weniweni (kugonana ndi mwana wankhuku weniweni)…
Chofunika kwambiri, zimathandiza ngati mukuyanjanitsa ndi chiopsezo chaumoyo.
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