Moona mtima sindinaganize kuti ndingafike pano. Nthawi zambiri ndimangokhala ndi tsambali kuti ndikhale ndi kuwerengera tsiku kosavuta… ndidangochita chifukwa mzanga adalowererapo pamoyo wanga ndipo adandiuza kuti ndiyenera kusintha china chake.
Mpaka pomwe ndidalowa nawo tsambali kutalika kwambiri komwe ndidapita kunali masiku a 14, nthawi zambiri sindinapangitse tsiku lapitalo 7. Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinafikira pano ndidapanga masiku a 30 ndisanabwererenso tsiku lililonse kapena awiri kwa mwezi wopitilira ndisanabwerere pa track.
Tsopano ndili pano, miyezi 3 mkati ndipo sindikulimbana ndi malingaliro ndi zolimbikitsa nthawi zonse. Sindiyenera kudziwa nthawi zonse zomwe malingaliro anga akuchita chifukwa sichikhala ndi PMO. M'malo mwake akukonzekera zamtsogolo ndikukonza zinthu ndikudziyeretsa. (Ndikukhulupirira kuti idalemba ntchito elf mind)
Anthu amati malo ano sangakusintheni, sangapangitse zozizwitsa kuchitika. Ndikunena kuti akunena zoona. Koma zimathandizadi kudziwa kuti pali ena kunja uko omwe angakuthandizireni. Sindingathe kupita kubanja langa chifukwa cha ichi chifukwa sindikadalandira thandizo lomwe ndimafuna. Koma ndidafika pano ndipo makamaka ndimangowerenga zolemba za anthu ena ndipo zidandithandizira. Chilimbikitso choyesetsabe ngakhale mutalephera zoposa 100 m'mbuyomu komanso ena khumi ndi awiri pambuyo pake.
Ndinapezanso chidziwitso apa chomwe sindikanazindikira mwanjira ina, ngati lathyathyathya.
Ndikukonzekera kusunga izi kwa moyo wanga wonse. Ndikumva bwino kuposa kale lonse ndipo kudziimba mlandu komwe kunachokera kwa PMO kukuyamba kutha. Mankhwala anga aubongo akhazikikanso koma thupi langa lonse silikugwirizana nazo. Mnzanga m'modzi yemwe amaphunzira zinthu zosadziwika anandiuza kuti zitha kutenga miyezi 9 ndisanaganizire zolimbana nazo chifukwa sindingakhale nazo chidwi.
Chifukwa chake, pano pali miyezi 9 ina nanu anyamata yomwe ipitilira moyo wanga wonse. Tithokoze chifukwa cha thandizo komanso chilimbikitso chomwe nonse mumapereka.
NoFap sikuti ndi wochita zozizwitsa, koma zimakudabwitsani mukaganiza kuti simudzatha tsiku la 7.
Zikomo.
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Mawa likhala nthawi yayitali kwambiri popanda kuchita maliseche
Sindinakwanitse masiku 14 okha. Tsiku la 15 likangobwera kumene ndimakhala, nthawi zina pamabwera china chomwe chimandipanikiza kapena kundichititsa chidwi. Ndimasokoneza malingaliro omwe ndimakhala nawo ndikadziloleza kuti ndizisangalala…
Palibe njira ku gehena yosangalatsa. Nthawi zonse ndimatulukamo ndikumva kuwawa kuposa kale. Zachidziwikire, zimamva bwino panthawiyo koma zimawononga moyo wanga ndikupangitsa kuti ndizisowa zina. Sindikudziwa ngati ndimakonda kwambiri kuseweretsa maliseche m'mbuyomu, ma 10-15 nthawi patsiku anali pafupifupi, nthawi zina mpaka nthawi 20. Zinandipangitsa kulephera chaka changa chomaliza kusekondale ndipo zatsala pang'ono kundichotsa kangapo chifukwa ndimazifuna kwambiri kotero kuti sindimasamala komwe ndinali panthawiyo. Chifukwa chake ndimagwira ndekha masiku ambiri ndimangopita kubafa kwa maola ambiri…
Sindikufuna kudzipereka nthawi ino. Ndapereka kangapo m'mbuyomu. Ndimayang'ana ndekha ndikuwona zomwe ndapindula chifukwa chofuna kusiya izi. Ndili ndi zifukwa zambiri zolimbikitsira kuchita zinthu zomwe sindinakhalepo nazo kale. Sindimayendayenda ndikumverera ngati wopanda pake chifukwa chinthu chokha chomwe ndidakwanitsapo m'moyo ndikudzipangitsa kukhala wabwino. Sindikufuna kubwerera.
Koma ndizovuta. Mchemwali wanga wadzipereka kuti anditengere ku shopu yogulitsa zoseweretsa, anthu amangonena kuti ndibwino kwa ine. Ndikupita patsogolo ndipo ndine wamfupi kwambiri ndi anthu kuposa momwe ndinkakhalira ndikuyembekeza kuti ndikungosiya.
Pakadali pano ndikumva bwino, sindikulakalaka konse, koma mawa? Nanga bwanji dzuwa likamadzabweranso? Sindikufuna kubwerera…
Ndiyenera kutulutsa izi, bola ndikudziwa kuti anyamata mukumvetsa… Ndikugona tsopano.
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