Ndinafika tsiku la 74, ndipo ndine wofatsa kuposa pomwe ndidayamba. Ndikuwona momwe nkhawa imachepetsera tsiku ndi tsiku, ndikukhala wabwinobwino. Sabata yoyamba yopanda pmo ndimamva zolimbikitsidwa mthupi langa ndi mphamvu zambiri. Ndimaganiza kuti sindidutsa sabata lachiwiri, koma ndidaganiza zodzisamalira - ndipo lero ndili tsiku la 74.
Sizinakhale zophweka, pakhala nthawi zowopsa, komanso zododometsa zomwe zitha kuyambitsa zovuta. Ndidaganiza poyesa masiku a 30 NoFap, koma ndiye ndimakonda momwe moyo unakhalira popanda izi ndipo ndidasankha kupitilira masiku enanso a 30. Masana 60 ndimaganiza kuti ndiyambiranso, koma ndidakumbukira momwe zidalili zoyipa pomwe ndimasinthasintha ndipo ndimasankha kupitiliza. Chifukwa chake ndikupita masiku a 90, koma cholinga changa chachikulu, ndikusiya pmo mpaka kalekale, sindidzakhalanso. Ndizovuta koma osatheka.
Ndimakonda moyo momwe ziliri tsopano popanda pmo. Chifukwa chake ndimangoganiza moyo wonse wopanda izi ndipo mosakayikira ndiwokongola. Chifukwa chake ndidzawusiya kosatha. aka ndi nthawi yoyamba m'zaka 8 kuti ndiganizire zoyesayesa kusiya chizolowezi choyipa ichi, ndidayesapo kale ngati nthawi za 3 ndikutha, koma mwamwayi ndimatha masiku a 7,… panali nthawi pomwe ndidakwanitsa kuyesetsa tsiku la 3, osati zokhazo, koma ndinali mumsampha wadzaoneni. Ndimaganiza kuti sindidzatulukamo, ndimayang'ana zolaula pafupifupi tsiku lonse, ndikuchita maliseche 3-7 patsiku, inde zinali zoyipa kwenikweni.
Koma tsopano ndakwanitsa kufika tsiku la 74… moyo ndi wosiyana ndi ine tsopano. Sindikumvanso kuti ndakodwa ndi zolaula kapena maliseche. Ndimamva kukhala womasuka. Ndimalankhula bwino ndi anthu, kuseka popanda nkhawa, komanso kusangalala ndi anzanga. Sindikumva kuda nkhawa ndi kufunikira kolaula, kapena kuda nkhawa ndi maliseche. Malingaliro anga ndi otseguka, ndimamva ngati pali zambiri zoti ndiphunzire, ndikupeza. Nditha kuyang'ana kwambiri pazinthu zofunika. Malingaliro anga akuchepetsa kufunika kokopa dopamine ndi zolaula.
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