Kodi mukukumbukira momwe zimakhalira kukhala mwana kachiwiri? Kodi mudakumanapo ndi agulugufe mukagwira dzanja la msungwana wapaderayu kwa nthawi yoyamba, ndipo amaigwira mofunitsitsa? Mtsikanayo mumamukondadi, osati kungokhumba khungu kuchokera mumitima yosweka ndi yosweka. Mukamuuza momwe mukumvera, ndipo akunena kuti akumvanso chimodzimodzi. Mumamuyang'ana kwambiri, mumatha kungoyang'ana maso ake kwanthawi zonse ndikukhala okhutira, mawonekedwe ake oyeserera akuwonetsa anu. Mukakumana ndi boner wokwiya kuchokera pamilomo yake pamilomo yanu… Mukayamba kukonzanso, ichi ndi chimodzi mwazinthu zambiri m'moyo zomwe zimayambanso kukhala zatsopano komanso zodabwitsa.
Kunena zowona ndakhala zaka zambiri ndikudabwa chomwe chinali vuto ndi ine. Sindinatuluke m'nkhalangomo, ngakhale NoFap imachita zodabwitsa pakukhumudwa, ndiye mtolo womwe ndiyenera kunyamula mtsogolo. Koma zimasintha kwambiri. M'chilimwe chapitachi ndidadutsa magawo angapo a masiku 7-14 ndisanabwererenso, komabe nthawi yonseyi ndimapeza nkhondoyi. Kutha kwa chilimwe kudafika pachimake ndikubwera mchaka cha sukulu ndikulemba masiku 40 pansi pa lamba wanga. Ndinganene moona mtima kuti chinali chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidamvapo kuyambira ndili mwana. Sindikudziwa kuti ndi chiyani, koma ndizowona kuti zolaula ndi poizoni m'malingaliro, ndipo maliseche amatulutsa mphamvu yanu yamtengo wapatali. Pambuyo pongobwereranso kwakanthawi pang'ono kenako pang'ono, ndabwereranso ndi 19 day streak ndipo sindikukonzekera kuyimitsa posachedwa. Simungalole kuti kubwereranso kumutu kwanu.
Kuda nkhawa kwanga kwatha kwatha, tsopano ndikungogwira ntchito zotsalira zazovuta kuyambira zaka zosatheka kuyankhula ndi anthu. Ndikhoza kuyang'ana aliyense m'maso, ndikulankhula molimba mtima m'njira yomwe sindinathe kutero. Ndikumva kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zolimbitsa thupi kuposa kale lonse, ndipo kulumikizana kwanga ndi masewera azisangalalo (zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita zoyipa) zawonjezeka. Mtambo wamavuto womwe umandivutitsa nthawi zonse umakhala wofatsa, ndipo ndikuyamba kukhala wokondwa. Zosangalatsa zazing'ono m'moyo zomwe ndakhala ndikufa zaka zambiri zikuyambiranso kundichitira… mankhwalawa akuyenda bwino, mphotho yake ikugwiritsidwa ntchito moyenera. Ndili ndi bwenzi labwino kwambiri tsopano lomwe ndikadakhala kuti sindinakhalepo moona mtima ngati sichoncho chifukwa cha zabwino zomwe ndakhala ndikukumana nazo.
Sindingathe kunena zonse zomwe zikusintha mwa ine, koma kwa inu nonse omwe mukumenya nkhondo yabwino, khalani ndi chiyembekezo, ndipo khalani olimba mtima. Ngati mumamukhulupirira, pempherani ndikupempha thandizo kwa Mulungu, Iye akufuna kuti akuwoneni bwino koposa china chilichonse.
Mutha kuchita. Ndipo zimakhala bwino kwambiri.
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