Ngakhale beji yanga, ndakhala ndikuchita izi kwazaka zopitilira ziwiri. Nayi malingaliro anga odabwitsa ndi kutsimikizika kwa mfundo. -Ndakhala ndikuwonera zolaula kwa zaka 6 ndisanayambe nofap, ndipo moona mtima [kusiya zolaula] chinali chinthu chomaliza chomwe ndinayesera pamzere wautali, wodabwitsa wazinthu zothandizira. Ndidayesa chilichonse kuyambira pakukhazikika kwachilengedwe, kuyang'ana kwambiri mphamvu zapano, kuwerenga mabuku onyamula, ndikuwongolera moyo wanga kuti ndikhale munthu wopindulitsa. Mukudziwa zomwe ndinaphunzira? Sindine munthu wauzimu, ndimadana ndi kusinkhasinkha, sindimakonda kuyang'ana zapano, ndipo sindisamala za kukhala munthu wosangalatsa kwambiri uyu. Chinthu chokha chomwe chinagwira ntchito sichinali kuwonera zolaula, ndipo momwe zimagwirira ntchito zinali zotsutsana.
Sanandipatutse, adandipukuta. Mfundo yoyamba:
Sinthani, musapatuke. Khalani yemwe inu muli, ndi kunyada. Mwachitsanzo, zakhala zikuchitika zambiri pamasewera apakanema. Ngati mumakonda masewera apakanema musanachite chilichonse, ndiye kuti sewerani masewera abodza achinyengo. Ndinachepetsa chifukwa NDINKUFUNA KUTI. Osayamba kutenga mndandanda wonse wazosangalatsa ndikulemba momwe moyo wanu uliri wosangalatsa pokhapokha mutazikondadi zinthu izi. Khalani weniweni. Pali anthu ambiri padziko lapansi pano omwe akuyesera kusangalatsa iwo omwe sakusilira momwe iwe ulili. Aliyense ndi wokongola. Mukamadzikondadi, simudzafunika kuvomerezedwa ndi aliyense kuti mukhale nokha, ndipamene nthawi yomwe mungathe… Chabwino kuti mwina mwamvapo zonsezi. Mudzafika kumeneko popanda fap ndikukhulupirira. Mukasiya kuyesa kukhutiritsa thupi lanu, thupi lanu lidzakhuta lokha. Mwachitsanzo, izi zikumveka zachilendo koma Arnold anali wolondola. Ndimapeza ziphuphu zazing'ono zogwirira ntchito tsopano, ndipo zimatha maola ambiri. Mtedza adawombedwa? Zero. Amphaka amapatsidwa? Zerooooooo.
Nambala yachiwiri yomwe ndikufuna kutsindika: zonsezi ndizowonjezera. Beji ndiyongowonetsera. Zaka ziwiri zapitazo pomwe ndidayamba kuchita izi, ndinali womvetsa chisoni komanso wamantha kukhala wofunitsitsa kutchuka. Ndingayang'ane maubale ngati njira yodzipulumutsira. Nthawi zonse ndimafunikira kukhala ndi anzanga, ndipo nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti mayi wina wokongola azindipulumutsa kwa ine ndikundipanga bulu woyipa. Ndinayamba kuchita zachiwerewere patadutsa masiku 56 kuchokera pa zolaula, ndipo nditabwereranso, ndinadzilimbitsa ndekha ndikuganiza za momwe ndinaliri wowopsa komanso moyo wabwino ndisanalephereke. Mukufuna kudziwa chinsinsi? Nthawi iliyonse ndikaganiza malingalirowa, ndimangopanga nthawi zabwinoko, ndekha komanso zokumana ndi anthu abwinoko. Kubwereranso sikukuyikani patsiku limodzi malinga ndi kupita patsogolo. Nthawi zabwino zomwe ndili nazo tsopano ndizabwino kuposa nthawi zabwino zomwe ndinali nazo kale. Choseketsanso ndichakuti tsopano ndikayambiranso, sizimandisintha… Ndine wolimba mtima kuposa momwe ndakhala ndikulankhulira kale. Mvetsetsani kuti si aliyense amene amafunikira nthawi yofanana kuti awone zotsatira zabwino.
Mfundo yotsatira ndiyosiyana ndi yomwe ndimakonda kuwona: dziwani zomwe zimawerengedwa ngati kubwereranso kwa inu. Ndinali ndi chizolowezi choipa chodzimva waliwongo ngati ndikadalakalakapo chilichonse. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ndimayang'ana kwambiri m'badwo wa atsikana komanso kuti ndimalimbikitsidwa. Ndizodziwikiratu, koma mukayika mzere wazomwe mukudziwa kuti zibwereranso, zinthu zimachepa kwambiri pamaganizidwe. Mwachitsanzo, ndimaganiza zowonera zolaula masiku awiri osiyana mwezi usanabwererenso. China chilichonse potengera zolaula ndikutulutsa. Kutanthauzira kubwereranso mokhudzana ndi kugonana ndi kovuta chifukwa ndichofunikira chake malinga ndi Gary (kutanthauzira), choncho yembekezerani zolimbikitsidwa ndipo musakhale ndi mlandu ndikulola machitidwe oyipa pazinthu zomwe mwina sizikukukhudzani.
Pomaliza, osangokhala chizolowezi chochita izi ... Izi sizomwe mwachita bwino kwambiri, komanso sichinthu chodzitamandira cha IMO. Mukadutsa izi, yesetsani kuti musabwezeretse. Mukapeza mapiko othawa pachisa, musabwerere ku chisa! (Pokhapokha mutayambiranso ndikusowa chithandizo kapena china chake) gwiritsani ntchito bwato kuti muwoloke mtsinjewo, koma musanyamule bwatolo kwamuyaya. Zilekeni zikhale. Limenelo linali vuto lalikulu kwa ine, nditamenya izi zovuta zidakulirakulira ndipo ndidatuluka. Ndipamene mumazindikira kuti iyi ndi njira chabe yotsegulira zitseko. Mufunikabe kuti ndulu idutse pazitseko zomwe zanenedwa.
Ndipo kwa aliyense amene amasamala za mbali ya akazi bwino. Zimakhala bwino. Ndakhala ndikudziyesa nthawi zambiri osayang'ana zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa amuna kuti azigonana kwambiri ndi akazi. Zinthu zoseketsa sizikunena izi: Nthawi iliyonse ndikachoka, ine ndi chibwenzi changa timasiyana… Chomwe chimayang'ana kuonera zolaula ndikuti chimasokoneza malingaliro anu masiku angapo nthawi zambiri, ndipo simuli nokha. Zimakhala zopanda nzeru komanso zotengeka. Msungwana m'modzi amafuna kwenikweni tambala wanga, ngati kuti andigulira zinthu, andikumbatila kwambiri ndikukopa ngati wopenga podziwa kuti ndili ndi gf. Chovala chimodzi cholaula ndipo adayamba kuzizira komanso kutalikirana. Adasanduka chidani. Ndimadana nazo kunena koma ndi momwe zakhalira.
Osayang'ana anyamata zolaula. Tsopano, ndikuyankhula ndi atsikana kulikonse, ndikukopana mosavutikira, kucheza ndi atsikana omwe ndimawakonda, ndipo sindine wosowa ku gf yanga monga momwe ndinkakhalira kale. Tsopano ndimamukonda kwambiri chifukwa sindimamufuna. Mukuwona momwe zimagwirira ntchito? Tsopano, atsikana omwe samakonda kundinyalanyaza makamaka, amanditumizira mameseji ambiri ndikufuna kucheza nawo.
Malo? Mukuganiza.
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