Moni nonse. Ndangofika zolaula chaka chimodzi masiku angapo apitawa ndipo ndikufuna kugawana nanu.
Kuti tinene zambiri: Ndinakhala ndikuyang'anira pafupifupi zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri, koma sindinali kuwonera nthawi zonse. Zitha kukhala tsiku la 1-2 pa sabata mpaka tsiku lililonse. Koma zinali nthawi zonse kwa maola ambiri.
Chaka chimodzi chapitacho ndinaganiza zosiya zolaula. Poyamba, sindinkaganiza kwambiri. Sabata yoyamba inali yosavuta, monga momwe ndimachitira kale nthawi zina mwachilengedwe. Kenako masabata omaliza anali ovuta, koma inali nthawi yomwe ndimayamba maphunziro. Kusayang'ana zolaula kumandilola kukhala ndi nthawi yambiri, choncho ndimayesetsa kugwira ntchito yophunzirira ndikuwona anzanga. Ndikuganiza kuti kunditanganitsa ndi chinsinsi choti ndisamawonere zolaula chaka chino. Ndidasuzanso zochepa kwambiri pa intaneti.
Panthawi imeneyi, zonse zinali bwino. Ndinali miyezi yopanda zolaula, ndimachita bwino m'makalasi anga, sindimalingalira zolaula. Ndiye mkatikati mwa Disembala nkhawa zimayamba. Sindinakhalepo ndi nkhawa, motero izi zinali zatsopano kwa ine. Munthawi imeneyi ndinali ndi ntchito yambiri ndipo mayeso amayandikira. Kwa pafupifupi miyezi iwiri, ndinali ndi nkhawa, ndinalibe mphamvu zambiri, sindimamva bwino. Mobwerezabwereza ndidandifunsa funso ili: bwanji ndidakhala ndi nkhawa chaka chino? Zasintha? Kenako ndidaganiza kuti mwina sindinali kuonera zolaula. Zinandithandizanso kudziwa momwe ndimakondera zolaula: zinali zoti athawe kunja, tengani chowombera cha dopamine kuti muthane ndi nthawi yovuta.
Pambuyo pa miyezi yovutayi, ndinayamba kumva bwino. Ndinali ndi nkhawa, koma izi sizinali kawirikawiri. Ndiye pakubwera maholide. Zaka zapitazi, chilimwe inali nthawi yachaka yomwe ndimawonera zolaula zambiri. Zinali zovuta kwambiri kukana poyerekeza ndi chaka chonse: Nthawi zambiri sindikhala ndi nthawi yambiri yopuma kotero sindimaganizira kwambiri zolaula. Ndiye mwadzidzidzi ndilibe chochita chilimwe chonse. Chifukwa chake ndimachita zinthu zambiri kuti ndikhale otanganidwa monga kuwona anzanga, kuwerenga, kusewera, kupita panja.
Pomaliza, zikuyenda bwanji chaka chino? Zabwino kwambiri, ndili ndi nthawi yambiri. Ndine wolimba mtima kwambiri, koma ndikuganiza ndizambiri zodzikongoletsa padziko lonse lapansi. Ndinayamba kudzidalira ndisanasiye zolaula, zimandivuta kuweruza zomwe zolaula zimachitika. Koma palinso zovuta zina monga nkhawa. Tsopano sindingathe kubwerera, sindingathe kuthawa moyo. Ndiyenera kupanga chisankho, ndikufunika kuthana ndi nkhawa. Izi ndizovuta pachiyambi ndipo ndizovuta mpaka pano, ngakhale ndizolowera. Koma ndikuganiza kuti ndizoyenera.
Zikomo powerenga. Ndidayang'ana kwambiri pazinthu zina zonse zomwe zimabwera kuti ndisiye zolaula chifukwa izi sizinachitike mwadzidzidzi kwa ine.
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