Ndili ndi masiku 55 oyera zolaula kuyambira pano. Izi zatha zaka zambiri za PMO. Pafupifupi zaka 15 kapena apo, perekani kapena tengani chaka. Kwa zaka zambiri, ndakhala ndikukumana ndi "utsi wamaubongo" nthawi zonse. Ndimakhala wotopa, wosakhudzidwa, wofooka, wodera nkhawa nkhawa ndikudzidalira nthawi zonse.
Tsopano popeza ndimayang'ana m'mbuyo, zinali zozizwitsa kuti ndidakwanitsa kumaliza maphunziro awo kukoleji ndikupeza ntchito. Nthawi zonse ndinali kuyiwala komanso kugona. Ngakhale ndimagona maola a 7-8 usiku watha. Inali nthawi yamdima. Chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti adandipanga kukhala chonchi. Zolaula zinasinthanso kaonedwe kanga kaubwenzi ndi azimayi. Zinandichititsa manyazi kwambiri kuti sindinkakhala ndi mipira yolankhula ndi azimayi konse, kochepera kukhala ndi abwenzi achikazi kapena atsikana. Ndinkathedwa nzeru, sindinkangomva chilichonse koma mkwiyo komanso kukhumudwa ngakhale pang'ono. Ndinkakhala wolemera kwambiri ku koleji, ndimawoneka ngati mpira pamiyendo, ndipo izi zinachepetsa kudzikuza kwanga. Koma ndisanabwere pa Reddit, sindinadziwe kuti vuto linali chiyani. Ndidapeza NoFap ndipo kenako ma redfree a subddit ndipo ndidaphunzira kuti zolaula ndizoizoni, zolaula ndiye ziwanda, zolaula ndi ndende.
Kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya zolaula, ndinazisintha ndikupita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi, kusinkhasinkha komanso kuwerenga zambiri. Ndipo monga matsenga osokonekera, ndinayamba kulimba mtima ndi azimayi. Nditha kulankhula, nthabwala ndi kuchita nawo masewera tsopano. Mitambo ikubowoleza ubongo wanga yakhazikika, masiku ano ndimayang'ana kwambiri ndikulangizidwa. Ndachepa thupi ndipo ndili ndi mawonekedwe abwino tsopano. Chidwi cha kuonera zolaula sichikupezekanso. Ndili ndi ulemu waukulu kwa akazi komanso malingaliro atsopano apabanjidwe apabanja pano. Sindinatope nthawi zonse ndipo ndimawoneka ngati pandala. Tsopano ndikuwoneka ngati munthu woyenera
Ndili ndi zambiri zoti ndichite, koma uku ndikusintha kwakukulu kwambiri komwe ndadziwonera ndipo ndikufuna kulimbikitsa aliyense amene ali ndi vuto lolaula kuti apeze thandizo kwa anthu ena komanso mwa inu nokha. Khalani omasuka kundiuza ngati mukufuna kuyankhula. Khalani olimba y'all!
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