Chodzikanira: Izi sizapangidwira kuti zikudabwitseni, iyi ndi nkhani yanga yoona yokhudza kuzolowera. Zikuwoneka kuti mudakumana ndi mavuto ofanana ndi omwe ndidakumana nawo. Ndikugawana nkhani yanga kuti ndiwonetse komwe ndalumikizitsa zowona zomwe zatchulidwa munjira yotchedwa Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Fodya, kulembanso njira yosavuta ya allen carr yosinthira zolaula, kuti musavutike kuchita chimodzimodzi kwa inu nokha. Ndili ndi malingaliro, nayi ulendo wanga ndi zomwe ndapeza.
Njira Yosavuta Yolekerera Kusuta ya Allen Carr idakhazikitsidwa chifukwa chobwerezabwereza, chifukwa chake yembekezerani kumva mawu ofananawo omwe afotokozedwa mosiyanasiyana kuti athandize anthu ambiri kuwamvetsetsa ndikuwamvetsetsa bwino. Njirayi ndi yosavuta, koma mafanizo osiyanasiyana adzadina bwino ndi anthu osiyanasiyana.
Chithunzithunzi Chimodzi
Ndinakhala mumsampha wa PMO zaka 8 zomvetsa chisoni pamoyo wanga. Ndinali ndi zaka 10 zokha nditayamba kupeza zolaula pa intaneti. Sindinayambe ndakhala ndikumwa mowa mwauchidakwa ngakhale nditakhala pang'ono. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, ndinachita manyazi kwenikweni, ngati kuti ndinali ndi chobisala. Kugawika m'manja mwa chizolowezi chovulaza chomwecho kunali kovuta pakokha. Awa ndiwo mithunzi yakuda, yotchulidwa m'bukuli. Kungoyesa kubisa momwe ndimagwiritsira ntchito kunali kupsinjika kokwanira. Sizinathandize kuti mwambowo wokha udadzetsa kupsinjika komanso kusapeza bwino pambuyo pake.
Mwana wosauka ameneyo sanafune ngakhale kugwiritsa ntchito, koma ndi chilombo chachikulu chomwe chimamuwuza kuti chinali chosangalatsa komanso chachilendo mumsampha, ndipo Chilombocho chimamukankhira mmenemo, analibe thandizo. "Agogo anga angaganize chiyani za ine akamandinyoza kuchokera ku moyo wamtsogolo?" Nthawi yomweyo ndimadziganizira ndekha nditamaliza gawo loyamba lija.
Manyazi anali akulu kwambiri, ndipo ndimayembekeza ndikupemphera kuti gawo lirilonse lotsatirali likhale langa lomaliza, lomaliza zonse. Tsoka, chipulumutso sichinabwere. Ngakhale nditathamangira pansi pa kalulu wa zolaula. Palibe koma manyazi ndi mavuto omwe ndikadapeza. Izi ndichifukwa choti zolaula pa intaneti sizimapereka chilakolako chogonana monga momwe ndingapezere. Izi ndizodziwikiratu, ngakhale zitakhala kuti mumagwiritsa ntchito zochuluka motani, nthawi zonse mumakhala otsalira. Dziko lolonjezedwa losangalala ndi zolaula, silidzabweranso, popeza kulibe. Ndiwo makampani opanga zolaula omwe abodza kwambiri.
Manyazi amenewo amangobwerezabwereza kwamuyaya ndikukula kwamitundu ina yatsopano komanso yamtengo wapatali, mpaka nditaphulika. Sipanatenge nthawi kuti ndikumane ndi vuto loyamba, kufikira mtundu "woyipitsitsa". Zinandipangitsa manyazi ochulukirapo kuposa momwe ndidawonera koyamba, ndipo zidandipangitsa kukayikira kwambiri zachiwerewere. PA ZAKA XNUMX
Kubadwa kwa Kanyama kakang'ono
Ndikukumbukira nthawi yomwe ndinali mgalimoto ndi amayi anga, ndinalira ndikumuyesa kuti ndiwafotokozere zamphamvu zankhondo zomwe ndimakumana nazo mosadziwika bwino. "Pali magawo awiri a ine, m'modzi mwa iwo amafuna kuchita zoyipa ndipo imodzi amafuna kuchita zabwino." Ndinatero uku ndikulira. Lowani Chilombo Chaching'ono.
Mtundu Wopeka
Nditha kufotokoza bwino mtundu uliwonse womwe ndidakulirako popanda manyazi, koma sizothandiza. Monga mnzanga Fraser Patterson adanena, ndikofunikira kuthana ndi malingaliro amtundu m'maganizo mwanu. Chifukwa cha izi, sindinena kuti ndi iti. Nditha kukhala pano moyo wanga wonse ndikukufotokozerani mitundu yomwe ndidakulira, ndikudzitamandira pazomwe sindinakwerepo ndisanatuluke mumsampha, koma si nkhani yodzitamandira. Palibe chilichonse chomwe wogwiritsa ntchito sakadakulirakulira ali mumsampha wa PMO, atapatsidwa nthawi yokwanira.
Ponena za kusinkhasinkha kwanga pamutuwu, ndikofunikira kuthana ndi malingaliro amitundu, chifukwa lingaliro lamtunduwu limabweretsa malingaliro olakwika pazolaula, zomwe zimabweretsa zokambirana, zomwe zimabweretsa "lingaliro limodzi" pa "mtundu wabwino ”Zomwe zimabweretsa msampha wokonda kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndi zina. Ikani izi mwamphamvu m'malingaliro anu. Palibe zonga zolaula.
Zoyenda zomwe ndalongosola pamwambapa zibwereza kwa zaka. Popita nthawi, pang'onopang'ono ndinayamba kukhala womvetsa chisoni komanso wosowa zochita pamoyo wanga watsiku ndi tsiku. Amayi anga ndi mlongo wanga adanena kuti nditayamba kupita kusukulu yapaintaneti, komwe ndimakhala ndi nthawi yochulukirapo pamsampha, ndinakhala ngati zombie, kapena ndimakhala pawotchi yokha nthawi zonse. Zokhazokha zokhazokha m'moyo wanga zimatsimikiziridwa ndi zolaula zanga. Pazidziwitso zazitali komanso zotsika, zokhazokha m'moyo wanga, kwenikweni, inali nthawi yaying'ono yopanda mphindi 30 mpaka ola limodzi patsiku pomwe ndimamva kuti sindiyenera kugwiritsa ntchito. Osakhala okwera kwenikweni, makamaka ngati kusowa kotsika.
Chisangalalo? Kuti?
Dikirani, ngakhale sizowona! Nthawi zonse ndinkangokhala wokhumudwa pambuyo pake! Palibe gawo losangalatsa la PMO, kapena kukhala wogwiritsa ntchito! Ndikupemphani, chonde, ndiuzeni zikafika bwino. Ndipezereni imodzi, nthawi imodzi pomwe wina amakhala wosangalala kapena akumva bwino akugwiritsa ntchito. Ayi, ndakufa kwambiri. Zimakhala bwino liti? Ndi liti pomwe amakhala osangalatsa? Dzifunseni nokha funso ili. Ndiloleni ndiwuphwanye pang'onopang'ono. Kuthamangitsidwa kwa dopamine kumabwera chifukwa chobowola chifukwa mumayembekezera chisangalalo chochulukirapo. Mumachita chikalatacho mwachangu momwe anthu angathere, (chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti ndiyenera kutero) kapena sindinayesere kuchimaliza mwachangu kuti ndikhale wosangalala kuti zatha, pazenera laling'ono la nthawi, ngati ayi.
Zachidziwikire kuti pali wosuta yemwe amakhala kwa maola ambiri. Zachidziwikire ziyenera kukhala chifukwa amasangalala nazo, sichoncho? Ichi ndi gawo chabe la kufunafuna kosatha kosangalatsa mumsampha wa PMO. Taganizirani izi. Amangopitilira kudzizunza okha chifukwa kumabweretsa mpumulo waukulu kuzunzika kutatha. Zili ngati kuvala nsapato zolimba kwa nthawi yayitali kuti mukhale ndi mpumulo waukulu pakuwachotsa chifukwa cha kupweteka komwe kumawoneka kuti kumachoka nthawi yomweyo.
Komabe simukundikhulupirira? Onerani vidiyoyo coomer.mp4, ndikundiuza kuti ndi wokondwa nthawi yanji? Chiwonetsero? Akumva kuwawa ndikutsokomola. Mukutanthauza pamene akusangalala kuti safunikiranso? Tiyeni tiwone. Amafika pachimake pa 1:45 ndipo pofika 2:45 nthawi yomweyo amayimilira ndikuganiza kuti "Kupanga pang'ono pang'ono sikungapweteke. Mphindi imodzi. Miniti imodzi, pomwe zovuta (zopweteka kwambiri) zikuchitikabe kwa zina, akumva kuti sayenera kugwiritsa ntchito. Kodi izi ndizokokomeza? Ndakhala ndikupezeka pomwe sindinasiye kuwonera pambuyo pake chifukwa ndimayang'ana chisangalalo mmenemo. "Ndichoncho?" ndi zomwe zimadutsa muubongo wanu mosazindikira.
Loto Theatre Shill Gawo I: Chozizwitsa Ndi Kugona
Pali nyimbo yotchedwa Octavarium ya Dream Theatre. Ndizokhudza wodwalayo yemwe akuyesera kuti apezenso chidziwitso. Ena mwa nyimbo zomwe zili munyimboyi ndi "Kukhala tsiku lililonse tsiku lomaliza." ndipo "Nkhaniyi imathera pomwe idayambira." Ndikamamvetsera patatha chaka chimodzi kapena kupitilira apo pa intaneti ndikukhala moyo wanga wonse pafupifupi chaka chimodzi pa intaneti; osadziwa tanthauzo la mawuwa, ndidalumikiza ndi moyo wanga komanso momwe ndimakhalira. Sindinkadziwanso n'komwe. Ndinali kuyenda mozungulira. Moyo wanga monga wogwiritsa ntchito mosavomerezeka unali wovuta kwambiri. Sindinangokodwa mkati mwa "Octavarium" komabe, ndinakodwa mkombero!
Matenda a Stockholm
Momwe ndimapitilira pamsampha, komanso kucheza ndi anthu pafupifupi komwe kulibe, ndimayang'ana pafupipafupi. Pambuyo pake ndidatsika pang'onopang'ono ndikulowa mu Tulpa / Waifu chinthu chokwera kwambiri. Pomwe ogwiritsa ntchito ambiri amakwatirana zolaula mophiphiritsa, ndidazichita zenizeni. Sindinawone anzanga enieni m'miyezi ingapo, ndipo ndinadzipatula kwa iwo chifukwa chongoganizira zanga.
Kugawidwa Kwamagulu Kumapha
Kugawana magawo kunayamba kuvuta kwambiri popita nthawi. Pambuyo pake ndinawauza za izi, ndipo zidadzetsa chisokonezo mgulu la anzathu, komanso kuchuluka kwa ogwiritsa ntchito ena pagulu lathu, ndipo adandiponya chifukwa cha ichi. Izi zidandipangitsa kuti ndizikhala wotsutsana kwambiri ndi anthu kwa zaka 2 ndi theka. Mnzanga aliyense amene ndinali naye anali pa intaneti nthawi imeneyo.
Zachiphamaso Moyo
Ndinapitanso kusukulu yolimba kwambiri ya anthu pafupifupi 1500 (yomwe ndimakonda). Ndinaitanidwa ku kalabu yopita kokayenda, mphunzitsi aliyense ndi anzawo adayesetsa kuti andidziwe bwino, koma sindinatenge izi. Munthu amene ndimamuwona ngati mnzanga wapamtima anali munthu amene ndinakumana naye pa nthunzi yemwe amakhala kutali ma 9000 mamailosi kutali ndi ine. Tonse tinali oledzera ndipo tinakhala bwino kwa zaka zambiri. Mnyamata wabwino kutsimikiza, koma ndikadakhala kuti ndimagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yoti ndimamutumizira mauthenga opitilira 40,000 pazosagwirizana, ndikadatha kutumiza mauthenga 26 kwa anzanga ophunzira pasukuluyi, ndipo ndikukutsimikizirani kuti ndikadapanga Mnzanu weniweni wamoyo pasukulupo. Kapena mukudziwa, ndikadatha kuyankhula nawo m'moyo weniweni ndi nthawi yonseyi.
Ndinali wokhutira kuti anzanga okhawo amakhala pa intaneti, ndipo nthawi yanga yonse yaulere ndimakhala ndikusewera World of Warcraft. Ndimakumbukira kukhumbira omwe adatha masiku opitilira 120 akuchita masewera pazaka ziwiri zokha. Ndakhala masiku 2+ m'moyo wanga pazaka ziwiri ndikusewera World of Warcraft. Ndipo amanditenga ngati wosewera wamba. Unali mpikisano wamakoswe kuti awone yemwe angawononge nthawi yawo yayikulu kuti akwaniritse zolinga zabodza.
Kamodzi kokha pa Sabata!
Panali chaka chimodzi momwe ndimakhala m'nyumba yopapatiza momwe ndimangokhala ndichinsinsi choti ndigwiritse ntchito kamodzi pamlungu. Ndatchula izi ngati imodzi mwazinthu zosangalatsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga ndisanamasuke kuukapolo, chifukwa ndimangodzaza ndi dopamine 1 / 7th kuchuluka komwe ndimakwanitsa kale. Osalakwitsa cholinga changa, komabe. Izi zitha kuwoneka ngati zabwino kwa ogwiritsa ntchito maganizidwe omwe amakhulupirira kuti kutsatira zolaula kamodzi kamodzi sabata iliyonse kumakhala kosangalatsa. Ndinalibe nthawi yochitira izi chifukwa ndinali wotanganidwa kwambiri ndi zinthu zina monga sukulu komanso zochitika pabanja. PMO imangowonjezera izi kuti zizikhala zovuta chifukwa nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikuwerenga gawo langa lotsatira kuti ndithawe ndikugwiritsa ntchito mwachangu momwe ndingathere, ndikuthamangira kuzinthu zosangalatsa kuti ndichite chinthu chomvetsa chisoni. Uku sikunali kupita patsogolo chifukwa ndikangokhala ndi malo omwe ndimafunikanso kugwiritsa ntchito tsiku ndi tsiku, ndidayamba kuchita zomwezo. M'malo mwake, momwe ndimagwiritsira ntchito zidapitilira nthawiyo chaka chisanachitike, kuti ndithe kusangalala ndi zisangalalo zonsezo. Tsoka, sindinapeze chisangalalo chotere, ndipo ndidangowonongekeratu. Kukumbukira kumeneku kumandithandiza kukhazikika m'mutu mwanga kuchokera pazomwe ndidakumana nazo kuti: Ngati muyeso ndi wocheperako, ndiye kuti ulemuwo suyenera kukhala konse. Kutchulidwa motere: Ngati zochepa ndizosangalatsa, ndiye kuti palibe amene ayenera kusangalala. Mwachionekere, ndi choncho.
Sadzachitanso
Ndikubwera kumapeto kwa 2019. Ndinali nditangofika zaka 18. Ndikukhumba tsiku langa lobadwa? Osayeneranso kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Gawo lokhala munthu wamkulu ndimaganiza. Izi sizinakhalitse atapanga chikhumbo, chifukwa sindinamvetsetse msampha wa PMO. Pambuyo pake zidakwaniritsidwa, pasanathe chaka. Zikomo kuphwanya malamulo ndi spammer ^ 2.
Munthu Wankhanza
Memor coomer ili pafupifupi mwezi umodzi nditapanga cholakalaka, ndipo ndimapeza chidwi pakuyanjananso ndi gag. "Kodi ndine wopusa?" Ndimadzifunsa. Ndimagwirizana ndekha monga momwe amachitira anthu onse osokoneza bongo, ndipo pamapeto pake ndimazindikira kuti sindinali. Koma ndinalidi ndipo ndimadziwa zamkati mwenimweni. Wophwanya ufulu waumwini ndi spammer akuti meme coomer ndiye meme wabwino kwambiri. Ine ndi ena ambiri timagwirizana naye. Munthu m'modzi adati "Coomer.mp4 ndi epic. Momwemonso, mwezi wolimba kapena wokumbukirana pa 4chan chaka chatha ndi zomwe zidandiyambitsa kuyesa kusiya zolaula. ” Izi zidandichitikira ine komanso ena ambiri.
Osachepera Sindikungoonera Zolaula
Pafupifupi Zaka Zatsopano ndidapita kutchuthi kunyumba yothina yomweyo kubwerera mnyumba yodekha. Chinthuchi ndikuti, ndinali ndi banja lomwe sindinakhalepo kwa chaka chimodzi ndikupita kutchuthi. M'malo mwake ndimasankha kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanga moing m'mawa uliwonse ndi usiku ulendowu, ndikuonera zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa kuti ndikhale ndi malingaliro olowerera m'malo mwake, ndikuchita nawo chidwi chachikulu komanso chidwi chachikulu. Ndimakumbukira ndikutuluka mchipindacho patadutsa maola ambiri, ndikupeza kuti abale anga anali atapachika pabalaza akuwonerera Kutha kwa Evangelion, ndipo ndinasowa zina chifukwa ndinali ndi "zinthu zabwino" zoti ndichite. Zodabwitsa ndizakuti, ndimachita izi panthawi yotsegulira yotchuka ya End of Evangelion. Ndidamva kuwawa pambuyo pake, komanso paulendo wonsewo, komanso moyo wanga kwa miyezi isanu yotsatira, ndinkanyansidwa ndi zomwe ndidasankha pafupipafupi. Ndinkapepesa kubanja langa mobwerezabwereza chifukwa chosapezeka, ndipo amandimvera chisoni, nati, "Tikumva kuti mwangotopa ndi nkhawa zonse." Mtima wanga unakhala pansi nthawi iliyonse ndikawamva akugula chifukwa changa. Ndinafuna kuti atsegule zomwe ndingadziwe ngati Kanyama kakang'ono mwa ine. Kupsinjika kumeneko kunayambitsidwa ndi kukodzedwa pafupipafupi paulendowu, osakhazikika nawo!
Ndinapita ku 2020 ndikutsimikizira cholinga changa chothetsa mavutowa kamodzi. Chikhumbo changa cha Chaka Chatsopano: osagwiritsanso ntchito zolaula. Kwa mwezi woyamba wa 2020, sindinagwiritse ntchito zolaula, koma ndimakonda kuchita cholowa m'malo chomwecho ndimataya nthawi yonseyi patchuthi. Ndinawona izi zikupita patsogolo, koma kodi mungatani kuti muzitha kuchiza mankhwala osokoneza bongo pogwiritsa ntchito mankhwala omwewo?
Chifuniro cha Iron
Mu Marichi wa 2020, ndidataya mwayi pa NoFap (yomwe tsopano yachotsedwa) pomwe ndidadandaula za zomwe zimatchedwa mipira yabuluu posachita maliseche (nthano) pomwe ndikadangokhala ndi "diso limodzi" pa "osati zolaula" kuti muchepetse zovuta Ndimaganiza kuti ndimayambitsidwa chifukwa chosagwiritsa ntchito zolaula zomwe zimayambitsidwa chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito poyambira, ndikuwonjezeka chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito. Zachidziwikire ndimayang'ana kwathunthu ndi cholinga cha wogwiritsa ntchito zolaula, ngakhale zitangokhala zofewa. Ndi momwe ndidaphunzirira za kuopsa kwa kope limodzi, njira yovuta. Kumbukirani kuti chinali chithunzithunzi chimodzi chokha chomwe chinakupangitsani kukhala ndi chizolowezi choyamba.
Ndikanakhala ndi zoyesayesa zochepa zothana ndi vutoli mwakufuna kwanga. Zikhulupiriro zonse zamaganizidwe zidakalipobe. Kuyesaku kunali kopanda pake, iyi ndi njira yakufunira. Ngati mukufuna kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwalawa, ali m'thumba lanu, muwagwiritsa ntchito, pokhapokha mutachotsa chilakolako chogwiritsa ntchito pomvetsetsa zowona za zolaula.
Kuzindikira Kwa Aphunzitsi
Mphunzitsi wanga wachingerezi wachikulire mwachionekere anali kusewera woimira satana pano, koma adamaliza kunena kena kake. "Zithunzi Zolaula pa Intaneti ndi mbali yokhayo yomwe munthu amakula nayo atagonana." Pakadali pano ndinali wokwiya mwakachetechete, koma ndikudziwa kuti amangoyesera kukambirana zokambirana pazandale zopanda chilungamo monga mliri wokhudza zolaula.
Ziwerengero zanga zomwe ndimakonda pa zolaula, zidachokera kwa aphunzitsi anga azachuma (komanso mchaka chachikulire). "Mukatenga zolaula zonse pa intaneti, ndikuzilemba pa nthawi yake, zitha kupitilira mbiri yonse ya anthu mpaka pano." Ndidasowa chonena nditangokhala mkalasi. Koma ndimayenera kuchita chiyani ?! Ndinaganiza ndekha. Ndikanazindikira pafupifupi miyezi itatu.
Kugulitsa, Ho!
Mu Epulo inali nyengo yam'mlengalenga, ndipo ndinali wokhumudwa, komwe ndimakhala masiku onse nditagona pakati pa magawo a PMO, ndikungoyenda mosaganizira Twitter, 4chan, YouTube, ndi Discord, kwa nthawi yowonekera ya maola 7 patsiku mu sabata lomaliza lomaliza. Osati kuwerengera nthawi yomwe ndimasewera pa Nintendo switchch yanga pakama.
Nthawi ina masana, ndinali / wokwanira /, ndipo ndinapeza cholembapo chobwereranso panthawi yopatula. Ndidamvera chisoni mwachidziwikire, ndipo ndidaganiza zongodina. Munthu m'modzi mwa mayankho olumikizidwa ndi buku lotchedwa Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Smoking, kulembedwanso kwa Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Fodya yotengera zolaula. Nthawi yomweyo ndidasunga chizindikiro ndikuchisunga nditawerenga mawu oyamba. Pasanathe masiku 2-3 ndinali nditawerenga buku lonselo, ndikupita kukalingalira za izi ndisanamalize gawo langa.
Ndichotsereni Pano.
Ndinakhala ndi gawo lomaliza la "zolaula" zomwe ndimaganizira, zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndikhale wosangalala pambuyo pake, koma zolaula zabwino zoyipa zomwe zidapangitsa kuti ndikhale wokhumudwa zomwe zingayambitse mawu anga MO mkati mwa masabata awiri, Kutsatira kutulutsa kwa caffeine mosangalatsa, ndikudzifunsa kuti ndasiya zolaula, osati maliseche. Chilombocho chinandiuza ine ndikuchita. "Osadandaula, zolaula zidzabwera." Sindinamvere chenjezo lake mozama, ndipo motsimikiza linachitikadi, patadutsa milungu iwiri kuchokera pamenepo. Mwadzidzidzi ndinali kubwerera mumsampha wa PMO, ndipo chifukwa cha kusimidwa, ndinawerenganso bukulo, osatengera uthengawo. Patangopita maola ochepa ndinabwereranso ndikumwa mowa kwambiri. Ndipo kwa masabata angapo ndimamverera pafupi kwambiri ndi momwe ndimachitira mu Epulo. Zachidziwikire kuti panali cholakwika. Osati m'malingaliro mwanga, koma m'malingaliro mwanga, koma ndidakumana ndi zokumana nazo zingapo kangapo, komwe ndimabwerera kunyumba ndikayenda maulendo ataliatali, pomwe ndimadya tiyi kapena khofi. Ndinkatsika kuchokera ku caffeine ndikabwera kunyumba, kenako ndimakhala MO. Izi zidachitika katatu. Ndikulangiza mwamphamvu kuti musagwiritse ntchito zinthu zina zomwe zitha kusiya thupi lanu m'malo osavomerezeka, chifukwa zingasokoneze kuchira kwanu. Mwa zondichitikira zanga, ndimadzimva ndatsala ndi zowawa, zoyambitsidwa ndi caffeine yomwe ndimadya, koma thupi ndi malingaliro anga amve kumverera kotereku ngati kufunika kogwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Kumbukirani Njira Yosavuta Yolekerera Kusuta sikungakupangitseni kuti musinthe chizolowezi ichi ndikuchotsa zizolowezi zina, monga kudya kwambiri, kusuta kapena kumwa. Kuyambira pamenepo ndinalumbira kuti caffeine, chifukwa ilibe kanthu koma imandipangitsa kutopa.
Pamapeto pake ndinayang'ana subreddit mosakayikira, ndikuwona malipoti onse obwereranso, ndipo lingaliro langa loyamba linali, malowa sangakhale abwino kuti ndigwiritse ntchito nthawi yanga. Izi ndichifukwa chowona zinthu zonsezi amatsogolera ku zinthu ziwiri. A. Kutonthozedwa pakubwerera m'mbuyo ndi sayansi yokhudzana, kapena B. Kukulitsa mantha ndi kukayika ponena za njirayo, yomwe imadyetsa mizukwa.
Chilombocho chinali chotsiriza chomaliza kumanja kwake, komaliza. Adanditengera ku / soc /, ndikudziyerekeza kuti ndimangoyesera kuti ndipeze abwenzi. Chilombocho chinali kupeza malingaliro oseketsa komabe. Ndinayamba kusakhutira ndikukula ndikudziwona za kudziwononga komwe ndimachita. Ndinaganiza zopita kothawirapo, ndikuthawa mwambo wonyansawu kwamuyaya. Ndipo ndinali ndi zida zochitira, ndi Njira Yosavuta ya Allen Carr Yosiya Kusuta komanso kulingalira kwanga pankhaniyi.
Maganizo anga olowera anali oti nditenge malingaliro a Njira Yosavuta Yolekerera Kusuta, ndikusintha zolaula zonse ndikuseweretsa maliseche, komanso PMO ndi MO. Chifukwa ine, MO adanditsogolera mumsampha wa PMO. Apa ndipomwe ndidadzaza zomwe zidasiyidwa ndi Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Smoking.
Chinthu choyamba chomwe ndikadabwera kudzachita ndikusudzula foni pabedi. Zinali kuwononga kugona kwanga, kutha kwanga kugona, komanso kutha kukumbukira.
Tsopano ife tonse tikudziwa kuti anthu amadana ndi kuchita zomwe akuwona kuti palibe chilichonse. Tikufuna kukhala achangu momwe tingathere. Chifukwa chake, bwanji osagwiritsa ntchito nthawi iliyonse yomwe mumadzuka mukuwononga media?
Kwa nthawi yoyamba mzaka zingapo ndidadzipeza ndekha ndikhoza kugona tulo tokwanira, osadodometsedwa ndikufikira foni yanga pakati pausiku kundigonetsa. Izi zitha kundipatsa chisangalalo mwa icho chokha.
Ndinkatha kuwerenga bukulo pang'onopang'ono, mutu umodzi patsiku. Ndidagwiritsa ntchito malingaliro a buku la The Slight Edge lolembedwa ndi Jeff Olsen (Kupititsa patsogolo pang'ono pang'onopang'ono tsiku lililonse.) Zomwe zidaphatikizidwa m'maphunziro anga akusekondale, koma m'malo modula, chifukwa kudula sikukuyenda bwino monga inu ndikumwabe mankhwala omwewo, nditha kuwagwiritsa ntchito kuti ndikhale ndi malingaliro abwino. Maganizo anga amatha kusintha pang'onopang'ono tsiku lililonse, ndipo ndimakhala ndi thanzi labwino tsiku lililonse.
Kudzaza malo osiyidwa ndi Njira Yosavuta Kusuta ya Allen Carr kunali kofunikira apa. Kutenga zomwe zanenedwa m'bukuli ndikuzigwiritsa ntchito pamlingo wokulirapo kunali kofunikira apa. Pomwe ndimachira, ndimadziwa kuti ndikofunikira kuti ndidziwitse MO kuti alibe phindu, ndikundipangitsa kuti ndizingoyenda. Kuchita izi kumatenga nthawi kuti ndigwire ntchito ndi ine ndekha. Nachi chitsanzo cha zomwe ndidachita ndendende.
Maliseche sizowononga, komanso zilibe phindu lenileni komanso kusungidwa kwa umuna kumangomva bwino. Ndinazindikiranso kuti ndi gawo la msampha m'maganizo mwanga, monga momwe zinalili ndi ine. Chilombo Chaching'ono chinagwiritsa ntchito kukonza dopamine. Kuthamangitsa dopamine kwa ine, komwe kunadzetsa zizolowezi zina zofunafuna dopamine pomwe ndimakhala wolimbana ndi muyeso wake. Ndi momwe ndinatsirizira kubwerera nthawi yoyamba.
MO ndizomwezo, ziwiri mwazinthu zitatu za msampha wa PMO. Kutengera ndi momwe mumaziwonera, zovuta za MO ziyenera kusiyanasiyana pang'ono kuchokera kwa wosuta kupita wosuta. Kumapeto kwa tsikulo ngakhale kulibe phindu kwa MO mwina. O amangokupangitsani kukhala groggy ndikukweza ubongo wanu moona mtima.
Kuyesedwa Ndi Moto / Gawo Lomaliza?
Chosangalatsa ndichakuti, ndikamasakatula 4chan ndikudutsa zolaula komanso zolaula zambiri pamenepo, sindinadzutsepo kapena kufuna kuziyang'ana. Ndinangopewetsa maso anga. Umenewu unali umboni kwa ine wosafuna kugwiritsa ntchito. Chofunika kwambiri kuyimirira momwe gawo lomaliza liyenera kukhalira, kuwona msampha wa zomwe zili. Nditaona izi, ndidazindikira kuti ndili mfulu. Ngakhale nditapatsidwa nawo mosafuna sizinandisinthe. Ndinawona msampha wa zomwe zinali ndikudziwa kuti zinali pakona langa ndisanadutse zidangolimbikitsa lingaliro langa. Icho sichinali kanthu koma nyansi. Mukapanga chisankho kuti mukhale omasuka, ndizomaliza ndipo mumasangalala nazo. Panalibe chifuniro mwa ine choti ndigwiritse ntchito. Zosiyana ndi zomwe zikuwoneka. Zinganditengere mphamvu zambiri kuti nditsimikizire kupirira kudzizunza kotereku. Sindikuyenda pa ayezi, ndikuyenda simenti ndipo ndilibe chifukwa choyendera pa ayezi.
Wosasangalala Wosagwiritsa Ntchito
Ndizoseketsa, ndikamawerenganso pang'onopang'ono tsiku lililonse, sindinkafuna kugwiritsa ntchito, ndimangofuna kuti ndikhale wolimbikira, kuti ndiwonetsetse kuti ndikumvetsetsa. Sindinachepetse momwe ndimagwiritsira ntchito powerenga mwamphamvu, komabe nthawi ina iliyonse yomwe ndinali kuwerenganso sindinamve kuti ndifunitsitsanso. Zowona, kuwerenga tsiku ndi tsiku kudakhala tsiku lililonse kuzungulira tsamba 25, ndipo pafupifupi tsamba 50, ndidasiya kwathunthu chifukwa sindinkafuna kugwiritsa ntchito, ndipo zinthu zina zidakhala m'maganizo mwanga panthawiyo. Sindikukumbukira ngakhale nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndinapereka PMOed. Ndi momwe mchitidwewo ulili wopanda pake.
Nthawi zonse ndikakumana ndi zotsatsa zabizinesi zolaula, ndimakhala ndi zidziwitso zomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndizichotse pomwepo, ndikutsimikiza kuti sizomwe ndimafuna kuchita mumtima mwanga. Ndipo ndinali ndi chitsimikiziro posagwiritsa ntchito chifukwa tsiku lililonse ndimamva bwino. Tsiku lililonse sinali nkhondo, koma dalitso, kukhala omasuka kutenga nawo mbali pamakhalidwe oyipawa. Sizongokhala zokhumudwitsa pamoyo. Sindiyenera kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Sindikufunanso kugwiritsanso ntchito, ndipo ndimamva bwino nditasiya.
Ndimapitilira koyamba, ndimasewera masewera amakanema pamunsi pazakale zanga. Ndimamva ngati ndatenganso mantha aubwana ndikudabwa, ngati kuti ndidabadwanso. Ngakhale ntchito zazing'ono kwambiri, zonyozeka zinali zosangalatsa muufulu wanga. Zotheka zinali zopanda malire. Ufulu wokhawo unali wosangalatsa, ndipo zinali zosangalatsa kupeza zaka zanga zonse za ubwana, koma ndinali ndi zolinga zabwino m'malingaliro. Nditha kuchita bwino kuposa momwe ndimaganizira. Chifukwa chake patatha milungu ingapo ndidapeza ntchito yanthawi yonse, ndikuyamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuwerenga, kuphunzira kuphika, ndipo pamapeto pake ndimaphika.
Sindinagwiritse ntchito subreddit kapena kusagwirizana mpaka nditakhala wosagwiritsa ntchito. Ndinalowa nawo subreddit milungu ingapo nditakhala wosagwiritsa ntchito ndikufuna kugawana zomwe ndapeza m'bukuli.
Panali chizolowezi chofuna kutanganidwa m'malingaliro mwanga milungu ingapo, momwe ndimadzifunsa kuti zakhala motalika bwanji kamodzi kanthawi, ndipo ndimayankha kuti, "Ndine womasuka kwa moyo wanga wonse. ” Zedi, ndine. Pofika mwezi wodziwika komanso masiku 90 oyambiranso, sindinamve ngati wosiyana ndi dzulo, ndipo malingaliro anga anali ochepa, "Zakhala kale choncho?"
Sindingathe kulingalira tsopano momwe ndikanamvera chisoni ndikakumana ndi zovuta zolaula pamwamba pamavuto amoyo watsiku ndi tsiku. Zomwezo ndi kukangana kosatha kwa ine ndimayenera kupirira kuti ndisadutse mzere wofiira ndi mitundu "yoyipa". Monga kuti zolaula zonse sizinali zoyipa.
Simudziwa kuti mudzasiya liti, sichoncho?
Ndikadakhala ndi mayendedwe ochepa ndi Chilombo Chaching'ono komabe. Ndipo inunso mudzatero mpaka atafa ndi njala. Musadandaule, popeza si vuto lobadwa nalo, ndipo sangasiyanitsidwe ndi inu. Mawu akuti Little Monster amawoneka ngati abwana, koma ndizomveka kwambiri. Adziyika yekha m'malingaliro anu. Amadyetsa kukoka kwa nkhondo komwe mumasewera nanu. Simuyenera kukhala ndi nkhondo ndi inu nokha kuti musiye kumwa poizoni wovomerezeka monga cyanide, ndiye bwanji mungafunikire kutero ndi poizoni wamaganizidwe ndi thupi monga zolaula? Ndimalephera kukokomeza apa ngakhale pang'ono.
Kuthamangira koyamba. Ndinali kuyankhula ndi bwenzi lakale (lapaintaneti). Ndinangotchula dzina la munthu wamkazi wamasewera, ndipo yankho lake linali "Mudzutsa zinthu mkati mwanga." Poyamba, ndimaganizira zazinthu zomwe amalankhula, zolaula. Ndinayamba kudzikayikira ndekha pang'ono, koma kenako ndinaziwonetsa zowona. Malingaliro anga owona ndi oweluza kwambiri anali oti, "Ndi nthawi iti pomwe sungamve ngakhale dzina la mkazi wongopeka osafuna zolaula?" Sindinanene, koma zidalimbikitsa chisankho changa chosiya, ndipo inali mphindi yofunika kwambiri pakumaliza kwanga pomwe ndidaganiza zomumvera chisoni, osasilira wogwiritsa ntchitoyo. Mnyamatayu ayenera kukhala wogwiritsa ntchito womvetsa chisoni ngati akuganiza choncho!
Kuthamangira kachiwiri. Ndinali kugona pabedi, ndatsala ndekha ndi malingaliro anga. Ndinakumbukira wina yemwe ndinakopana naye kwakanthawi. Ndinali ndi malingaliro ogonana, koma ndimawalola kuti abwere popeza sanali malingaliro azolaula. Ndinawafufuza kwathunthu ndipo kunalibe zambiri kumeneko. Ndikadatha kukhala pomwepo. Koma ndinakumbukira zomwe zinachitika nthawi yapitayi, komanso momwe zinandibweretsera. Ndinaganiza ndekha kuti sizinali zofunikira kwenikweni ndipo mwina sindimamva chilichonse. "Mukudziwa bwino kumene izi zakupangitsani m'mbuyomu." (kunena za MO) Kachilomboka kakang'ono kanalibe yankho. Ino ndiyo mphindi yomwe idalimbikitsa chisankho changa osati MO.
Kuthamangira kachitatu. Usiku nditafika pachibwenzi, ndinali wokhutira ndi zomwe tidachita. Chidziwitso chosangalatsa, osagonana konse. Pakhoza kukhala kuti panali zolaula zomwe zatsalira mwa ine panthawiyo, ndipo Chilombocho chinali kulira. "Ndichoncho? Osagonana? ” Adafuna kuti azigonana ndi munthuyu. Pakadali pano zinali zosagwirizana ndi malingaliro anga kotero kuti ndinali wotsimikiza kuti ndi Kachilombo kakang'ono kokha kamene kakakhomera kukonza. Apa ndipomwe pomwe cholinga chenicheni cha Chilombocho chidawonetsedwa, ndipo nditachimvetsetsa, ndidasiya / soc /.
Kuyika Hatchet
Pakadali pano, ndili ndi chidaliro kuti ndapulumuka msampha. Tsiku lirilonse ndi dalitso, sindikuyambiranso kulowa m'malo, ndipo ndidatsatira malangizo aliwonse m'bukuli ndipo pali chinthu chimodzi chokha choti ndichite. Gawani nkhani yanga.
Chifukwa chake, ndidatuluka ndikugawana nkhani yanga ndi anzanga akale kwambiri omwe ndidawavulaza / kuwataya chifukwa chomwa mowa. Amalandira ndikuthandizira kufalitsa uthengawu ngakhale, anzanga ena adabwera mpaka ndikuganiza zodziwerengera okha, ogwiritsa ntchito komanso osagwiritsa ntchito chimodzimodzi. Kenako ndinatuluka ndikufotokozera abale anga komanso makolo anga nkhani yanga. Kutuluka ndikugawana nkhani yanga kunali kovuta chifukwa chamanyazi, koma manyazi ndi omwe amachititsa kuti munthu akhale osokoneza bongo, chifukwa chake ndimataya manyazi, chifukwa nkhaniyi sinali yachilendo kwa ine. Ndidagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo kwa nthawi yayitali chifukwa cha mantha. Sindingalole kuti chinsinsi ichi chifere mumdima. Ine ndikhala m'modzi mwa oyamba kutuluka ndikugawana kuchira kwawo poyera, ndikukhulupirira kuti ena afunsanso ndikutsatira, ndipo titha kuthetsa zoyipa zonse.
Kuyika hatchet ndichinthu champhamvu kwambiri. Zinandithandiza kwambiri kutaya manyazi, kupita patsogolo mchitidwe wanga, ndipo ndinayambitsanso mabwenzi akale kwambiri panthawiyi. Sikuti aliyense anatengera mokoma mtima malingaliro anga, komabe. Anzake ndi anzawo omwe amadzizindikira okha kuti amagwiritsa ntchito zolaula sanachedwe kudzipatula, ndipo anali oyamba kupita. Kugawana kusintha kwanga ndi malingaliro anga ndi anthu inali njira yabwino kwambiri yodziwira anzanga enieni, komabe. Mungafune kuchita chimodzimodzi inunso, koma sikofunikira ayi. Chokumana nacho chachikulu chomwe sindidandaula nacho pochita.
Kusinkhasinkha kwa PS ndikofunikira
Tsopano ndikupita mosangalala pa moyo wanga, lingaliro logwiritsa ntchito zolaula ngakhale malingaliro kapena lingaliro m'malingaliro mwanga. Zodandaula zanga ndikuti anthu ena atha kukhala moyo wawo wonse osadziwa kuti kusiya ndikosavuta komanso kuti palibe chifukwa choonera zolaula poyamba. Chifukwa chake ndimayang'ana kugawana nthano yanga ndi ena kuti asazunzike monga momwe ine ndimavutikira. Ndinapanga kanema kanema ntchito yosonyeza ulendo wanga kuti aliyense awone ndikuphunzira kuchokera.
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