Ndinafikira masiku a 90 posachedwa, ndipo milungu ingapo ndisanafike tsiku lobadwa la 20th, zomwe zimandidzidzimutsa, mwanjira ina chifukwa nthawi idapita mwachangu. Kumayambiriro kwa chaka ndidayesetsa kuyang'ana kwambiri zanga, zomwe mosadziwa zidapangitsa kuti azigwiritsa ntchito zolaula, makamaka chifukwa chokhala kunja kwa nyumba ndikuwononga nthawi ndi ena. Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi zolaula kwa nthawi yayitali, koma ndinadziwitsidwa za zovuta zaka zingapo zapitazo nditatha kuyankhula kusukulu yanga yasekondale.
Kuyambira pamenepo ndimayesetsa kuyesetsa kuti ndichepetse, koma ngakhale ndinali nditapitabe mpaka zolaula kwambiri monga bdsm, kuchita zinthu monyanyira, komanso zochitika zachiwerewere.
Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kumandichitira manyazi m'moyo wanga, chifukwa sindinamvepo bwino ngati zomwe ndimachita "zinali bwino" ndikadakhala ndimaganizo ndikusilira zochitika izi ngakhale kuti sindinkagonana ndi munthu wina kapena sindinachite naye chibwenzi komanso ndili mwana . Sindinkafunanso kuchita nawo zomwezo ndi bwenzi lenileni, ndipamene manyazi ambiri amachokera. Ndinali nditapita patsogolo kwambiri ndikuwona zolaula chifukwa chothamangitsa zomwe zili zatsopano, ndipo sindimalakalaka nditakumana nazo.
Pambuyo pa miyezi ingapo yodziyang'ana ndekha ndikudula kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zokhazokha za vanilla ndinayamba kumva bwino ndekha. Ndinamaliza kucheza ndi mtsikana kwa nthawi yoyamba, koma m'mene tidapitilira gawo lachiwiri sizinakhale zovuta, ngakhale tinali kuyesera kangapo. Izi zinali chifukwa cha misempha yambiri ndikuyang'ana kuyesera kuchita zatsopano ndi manja ndi pakamwa zomwe sindinachite m'mbuyomu, koma kuthekera kwa zolaula kunali kumbuyo kwanga.
Zomwe zinandichitikirazi zinandipatsa kuzindikira kwakukulu; zolaula sizinali chilichonse chonga zomwe ndimafuna kuti zikhale zogonana, ndipo sizingakhale; ndipo kupitiliza kuzigwiritsa ntchito kumangotsimikizira kuti kundivulaza kwakanthawi.
Porn zilibe kupsompsonana, kapena kulankhula. Sichikukula pang'onopang'ono, kapena kukupangitsani kumva kuti mukufunidwa. Zithunzi zolaula zimangotsatira njira yolowera pakamwa 1 - kulowa 2 - kumaliza kumaliza komwe ndikadumphe ndikumva kusungulumwa, kupsinjika, komanso kudzidalira. Ndinkakonda zolaula ngati njira yothanirana ndi mavuto anga m'moyo.
Ndinalibe chilimbikitso chenicheni chodziseweretsa maliseche kwa nthawi yayitali zitachitika izi, koma ndidazichita kangapo. Gawo lalikulu linali loti ndinakhalanso wotanganidwa kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo ndinali wotopa kapena sindinakhale ndekha kunyumba, monga kale ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndikatopa.
Kusiya zolaula zimayanjana, ndikuthandizira kuthana ndi mavuto ena m'moyo wanga, monga kusayikanso ubale, kukonza malingaliro anga osokonekera a azimayi ndi maubale, kupanga zibwenzi zabwino, kupanga zoseweretsa, komanso kukonza kudzidalira kwanga, zomwe zakhala zikudziletsa zopindulitsa kwambiri.
Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi zina zambiri pachibwenzi komanso maubale kuyambira pamenepo, koma palibe zakuthupi. Kusiya zolaula kwandithandiza kwambiri mwachindunji komanso m'njira zina kuti ndikhale wosangalala ndi ine ndikuyandikira maubale munjira yabwino ndikukhalira wogwira ntchito m'moyo wanga.
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