Pomwe ndikukumbukira kale, ndinali ndi mwana wachikazi. Ine sindikudziwa komwe izo zinachokera, momwe ine ndinalowerera mu izo, chirichonse cha izo. Kunena zowona, sindikusamala za momwe ndazipezera. Ndinawona zolaula zanga zikukoka ma fetus anga osalamulirika, mpaka pomwe ndimangoganiza za izo nthawi zonse ndipo sindinapeze chilimbikitso chilichonse chomwe sichinakhudze mwanjira ina. Ndikumaliza maphunziro anga akusekondale komanso chaka changa choyamba ku koleji, pang'onopang'ono kumkawonjezereka ndikukulira
mpaka pomwe nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimatsiriza, pamene ndimayang'ana mmbuyo momwe ndimayang'anirako, kapena kuyang'ana pa zomwe ndinali kuvala, kapena zomwe ndinkangoganiza, manyazi anali oipa kwambiri kuti ndisadziyang'ane pagalasi , podziwa kuti izi zakhala zochuluka kwambiri zomwe ine ndiri ndi zomwe ndimachita.
Kutha kwa kasupe chaka changa chatsopano ku koleji ndidaganiza kuti ndathana nazo. Sindingathe kuzichita; Sindingakhale wokonda zachiwerewere. Sindingakhale munthu yemwe sangapeze boner pokhapokha atavala kabudula wamkati. Ameneyo sanali amene ndimafuna kukhalanso. Kotero ndinali ndi lingaliro la choti ndichite, ndipo ndinatsatira lingaliro langa ku kalatayo kwa masiku khumi otsatira. Ndipo zonsezi zidayamba ndikuti sindikonda chokoleti.
Tsiku Loyamba
Sindimakonda chokoleti. Koma sizinali zoona nthawi zonse. Ndili mwana, ndinkakonda chokoleti. Ndinali nayo pafupipafupi momwe makolo anga amalolera, m'njira iliyonse yomwe ndinkatha. Koma pa Halowini ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi chimodzi kapena khumi ndi ziwiri (sindikukumbukira, osati zofunika), ndinali ndi chokoleti chochuluka kuchokera ku Chinyengo kapena Chithandizo, ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba makolo anga sanandipangitse "kudya pang'ono tsopano ndi kusunga zina zonse pambuyo pake ”. Ndidakhala tsiku lonse pa Novembala 1st ndikudya chokoleti chochuluka momwe ndingathere mkamwa mwanga, ndipo momwe zimakhalira nthawiyo, ndimamva kuti ndikuwopsya masiku angapo otsatira. Ndipo kuyambira pamenepo, sindingadye chokoleti osaganizira zakumva kuwawa kwathu nditadya chokoleti.
Chifukwa chakumapeto kwa kasupe watha, ndidatenga tsiku limodzi ndikupenga moseketsa. Nditavala zonse, nkhope yanga ili ndi zodzoladzola, ndikumachita zolaula monga momwe bandwith anga amalola ndikuzimenya ngati ndikupanga izi. Mwina ndidayang'ana zolaula maola khumi tsiku lomwelo ndipo ndidapumira katundu wanga maulendo khumi ndi awiri. Ndipo zinali zosangalatsa - poyamba. Pakutha kwa tsikulo, ndimakhala nditatopa, ndikudetsa, ndikuchita manyazi, ndipo ndimangomva chilichonse pansi pachiuno. Ndinachotsa zonse, kusamba, ndikukagona ndikumva ngati kuwonongeka kwa sitima.
Masiku awiri ndi atatu
Ndakhala masiku awiriwa ndikuchotsa zonsezi pa moyo wanga. Kupereka kapena kutaya zovala zanga zonse ndi zipangizo zina. Kuwonetsa zolaula zonse kuchokera ku akaunti yanga reddit. Ine ndinatuluka, ndinagula magalimoto otsika mtengo, ndinasuntha zolaula zanga zonse zomwe ndinasungidwa kuchokera ku kompyuta yanga kupita ku galimoto, ndipo ine ndinathamangira pansi ku gombe ndinataya zolaula zanga m'nyanjayi. Mulungu, uko kunali kumverera kodabwitsa. Zovuta.
Nthawi zina ndimaganiza kuti kung'anima kumayenderera kunyanja kupita kutsidya lina la dziko lapansi, ndipo mozizwitsa kumagwirabe ntchito, ndipo kwinakwake kuli munthu wina yemwe adapeza pagombe ndikudabwa kuti ndichiyani chomwe chidadwalitsa chomwe chimayendetsa ndimagigabytes angapo zolaula zachikazi zachikazi pa izo.
Pakati pa masiku awiriwa, sindinachite maliseche konse; ngakhale kulingalira za izi kunandipangitsa kumva kudwala m'mimba mwanga pambuyo pa zomwe ndinachita tsiku loyamba, ndipo mipira yanga inali yowawa chifukwa chovutikira kwambiri komwe ndidawapatsa. Kuyanjana kokha komwe ndinali nako ndi zolaula masiku ano kunali kuchichotsa kapena kuchisunthira pagalimoto kenako Atlantic. Osati chilichonse chomwe ndikadachiwona m'masiku awiriwa chikadandichitira chilichonse, popeza ndimanyansidwa kuyambira dzulo.
Tsiku lachinayi
Tsiku lachinayi linali limodzi la masiku abwino kwambiri kwa ine. Ndakhala ndikuyesera zovuta zanga kuti ndisamangopewera zolaula zanga, komanso kuti ndiyesere kuganizira mozama za zomwe zinandichititsa ine poyamba. Ndipo pamene ine ndinatenga pafupi kuyang'ana pa izo, panalibe kalikonse kotentha kapena kokongola pa izo. Ndinanyansidwa nazo. Kotero tsiku lachinayi litakulungidwa, ndinaganiza zoganizira za kugonana kwa vanilla nthawi zonse ndi mtsikana amene ndinkakhala naye m'kalasi langa la maganizo. (Mbali yoyamba: kuwerenga maganizo ndi nkhani yosangalatsa. Ndikuganiza kuti zonsezi ndi za psychology, pamene mukuziwiritsa kwenikweni.)
Zinkawoneka ngati zodabwitsa panthawi yomwe ndimadzimva kuti ndikulakalaka zogonana zachilendo ndi munthu wina. Tsiku lomwelo, zidamveka ngati zopambana. Masiku atatu opanda zolaula komanso osasangalatsa mwana wanga wamwamuna, ndipo mwadzidzidzi ndimatha kukhala ndi boner ndikafuna chilichonse chomwe ndikufuna? Ndizodabwitsa! Tikakumbukiranso, ndizo zachilendo. Sindinazindikire kuwonongeka kwa zaka zopitilira khumi ndikulola mwana wanga wamwamuna, ndipo zolaula zomwe zimayendetsa, zimandilamulira.
Best wank yomwe ndinayamba ndakhala nayo.
Masiku asanu mpaka khumi
Ndinagula kope laling'ono mthumba m'mawa m'mawa tsiku lachisanu. Sindinachite maliseche kapena kuyang'ana zolaula zilizonse masiku ano. Ndinabweretsa kabukuko pafupi ndi ine, ndipo nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna kuyang'ana zolaula kapena malingaliro okonda akazi adabwera m'mutu mwanga, ndidatulutsa kabuku kameneka ndikulemba chiganizo ichi mobwerezabwereza mpaka chikhumbo chidatha:
Izi sizomwe ine ndiri.
Ndinasankha tsiku la khumi kuti ndisiye kuchita izi chifukwa linali tsiku la khumi kuti nditafika kumapeto otsiriza a tsamba langa. Bukhuli litadzaza, ndinalitengera kumbuyo kwanga, ndikuwotcha, ndikuponyera mapulusa m'nyanja, pamphepete yomweyo yomwe ndinataya zolaula pa sabata ndi theka kale. Monga kale, izi zinamveka bwino kuposa momwe ndingafotokozere.
Pambuyo pa kuyesa
Tsiku lotsatira komanso tsiku lililonse pambuyo pake zinali zachilendo. Ndinganene kuti "kubwerera mwakale", koma izi zinali zatsopano. "Zachizolowezi" inali gawo losadziwika. Koma Mulungu, "wabwinobwino" amamva bwino. Tsiku lakhumi la kuyesera kwanga linali nthawi yotsiriza yomwe ndimamva kuti ndikofunikira kuti ndisamachite maliseche, chifukwa ndi pomwe ndidazindikira kuti sichinali chiwerewere chomwe chinali vuto. Sindinaonenso zolaula kuyambira Tsiku Loyamba, koma ngakhale nditatero sindimaganiza kuti ndingapeze chilichonse chokongola pankhaniyi. Ndili ndi zolaula pagalasi loyang'ana kumbuyo sizimandisangalatsanso. Ndipo zimamveka bwino.
Moyo wanga wasintha kukhala wabwino kuyambira pomwe ndidachita izi. Ndinatuluka m'gulu langa, ndinalowa nawo gulu, ndipo ndinapeza anzanga apamtima omwe ndakhalapo nawo. Ndidamaliza kufunsa otentha kuchokera m'kalasi yanga yamisala, koma nditatha masiku angapo azakudya zidawoneka bwino kuti sitinasankhidwe wina ndi mnzake. Koma Hei, ndi momwe zimakhalira nthawi zina. Moyo samayenda nthawi zonse choncho. Nthawi zina zinthu sizimayenda ndi msungwana wa Psych. Nthawi zina mumakumana ndi msungwana wabwino kwambiri miyezi ingapo pambuyo pake ndikucheza ndi zamatsenga ake ndikupeza osangalala kuposa kale. Ndikangomaliza kutumiza izi, ndikupita kukadya naye limodzi ndi makolo ake.
Wakhala chaka chimodzi nditachotsa mwana wanga wamwamuna ndi chizolowezi changa, ndipo zizindikilo zonse mpaka pano zionetsa kuti onse apita bwino. Malingana ngati ndikupitirizabe sindikuwona kusintha kumeneko.
Ndine makumi awiri. Ndawona kulimba mtima kwakukulu, ndikutsatiridwa ndikusintha kwina kulikonse, koma ndili ndi 90% ndikutsimikiza kuti chidaliro chidathandizira china chilichonse, ndipo ndikutsimikiza kuti kulimbikitsidwa ndikudzidalira kunabwera chifukwa chodula poizoni kuchokera m'moyo wanga.
TL; DR: Dziwani zomwe zikukulepheretsani ndikuzipha. Ufulu ndi gehena yakumverera.
LINK - Momwe ndidachotsera mwana wamwamuna m'masiku khumi - ndi momwe ikugwirira ntchito chaka chotsatira
By trjd97
;