Ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 22 tsopano, mwina ndikumbukireni ndikupeza zomwe ndili nazo pakati pa miyendo yanga ku 10 kapena ngakhale ochepera. Pazaka pafupifupi 13 ndinawona kanema wanga woyamba wolaula. Pamene ndinali 15 ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula pafupipafupi, koma osati mochuluka momwe ndimaganizira, inali 2-3 nthawi sabata. Gwiritsani ntchito zolaula zamtundu uliwonse, zamitundu mitundu zomwe zimasintha ndi zaka. Ine ndi chikondi changa chachikulu sichinagonane. Tili paliponse ndimamva zolimba, koma sindinakhalepo ndi chikhumbo chachikuluchi cha akazi (ndinkaganiza kuti pambuyo pa masabata a 5 a noFap).
Chifukwa chakusowa kwa chikhumbo (mphamvu za abambo) kumbali yanga tidaleka kukumana. Pazaka 20 ndinali namwali.
Tidapita masiku ochepa, koma palibe chikhumbo chenicheni. Nditakumana ndi atsikana, ndimatsiriza madzulo anga ndi zolaula ... ndimaganiza kuti dick wanga ndiwokwanira. Kuchita maliseche popanda mafuta ndi dzanja lamphamvu.
Mu 2017-12-20 ndili ndi zaka 21, ndikakhala phwando ndimagona ndi mtsikana, ndimayamba kumamuyatsa ndi zala zanga, iyambanso, ndipo ndikumva kuti wokondedwa wanga ndi wopunduka. Nditasewera pang'ono ndikumva kuti wapita ... Nthawi yomweyo ndidamvetsetsa kuti ndili ndi vuto. Vuto lalikulu.
Ndamva za NoFap koyambirira, ndinayesedwa kangapo osaposa sabata. Mukuganiza kuti sindikusowa izo. Pambuyo pa tsiku lomwelo pamene ndimamva kuti sindili wovuta ndi atsikana. Ndinayamba kuganiza.
Mu Disembala 22 ndinayamba noFap. Pa kupemphako kunali kovuta monga nthawi zonse. Mu kanema umodzi wa YouTube ndidamvanso lingaliro mukafuna kumva zolaula.
"Sindingachite zimenezo"
Pambuyo pa masabata atatu a NoFap ndinapempha mnzanga wakale kuti adzakumane. Analandira pempho langa. Madzulo titalankhula sipanapezekenso mawu ndipo tinayamba kupsopsonana. Ndidapita naye pabedi, ndikuyika kondomu ndikuwona kuti mnzakeyo ndi wopunduka. Ndinatha kukhala, zonse zimawoneka bwino. Koma tsiku lotsatira tisanasanzike, tinagonana kachiwirinso, pomwe anali pamwamba, dick wanga anali atapita ...koma sindinenso namwali.
Ndidali kupitilirabe ndi mwana wanga wamkazi woyamba, anali kudziko lina. Pambuyo pa masabata a 5 a noFap ndidamva momwe mphamvu yamunthu imamverera m'thupi mwanga. Wanga mnzake anali wovuta, ndimatha kunena nthawi zonse. M'mawa, usiku, nditawona msungwana wokongola, ndikaganiza zachiwerewere. M'mutu mwanga ndimangoganiza za momwe ndingathere. Nditha kupanga dick yanga molimba mu 15sec. Zinatha milungu iwiri. Nthawi yomweyo ndimakonda mwana wanga woyamba. Chifukwa chake ndidanena kuti sindingadikirenso za iye. Adagula matikiti nati abweranso. Chifukwa chake ndidapanga chisankho chodikira. M'masabata awiriwa ndikudikirira sindingakhale ndi mphamvu zochulukirapo, kotero ndidachita masewera olimbitsa thupi katatu. Maganizo anga anali atsopano kwa ine, ndichinthu chomwe ndikufufuza pakali pano ndi GF yanga.
Adabwerera sabata yanga 7 ya noFap. Dick wanga wolimba anali atapita… Tinayesera kugonana koma sindinathe. O… zomwe zinali m'maganizo mwanga. Linali ngati tsiku loipa kwambiri m'moyo wanga… Ndinakwiya, kukhumudwa, kutaya mtima… Sizingafotokozedwe ndi mawu. Makandulo owala, achikondi ndipo sindinali kugwira ntchito.
Kunja kudali kozizira, pafupifupi -20C. Ndinatuluka ndekha, ndinathamangira pafupi ndi nkhalango. Adatenga zovala zanga zonse. Ndi kugwa mu chisanu, pakani kulikonse. Ndinali pafupi kulira… ndikukuwa.
Bwererani kwa iye pakapita nthawi. Anali wabwinobwino za izi, adati sizabwino kwenikweni. Timakhala masiku atatu titagonana wina ndi mnzake ndikupsompsonana, kukumbatirana popanda kugonana. Ndikumva chisoni kuti ndikufuna kuti azikhala ndi ine, chifukwa sindikufuna ubale wapamtunda. Ndipo ngati sitikwanirana titha kumvetsetsa izi mwachangu. Anavomera.
Mwinanso sitinagonepo milungu iwiri kapena kupitilira apo. Ndidamuuza zaulendo wanga wa noFap. Ndimayesera kugonana koma sindinathe. Nthawi zina ndimaganiza kuti ndiyeneranso kuyesa. Koma ndinayesa. Ndinkamvetsetsa kuti pamenepa sipangakhale chilichonse chomvetsa manyazi.
Kenako ndidatha kulowa mwa iye. Ndinali wokondwa, koma osakhutitsidwa. Ndinaganiza mwachangu kwambiri, nditangolowa, ndinatsala pang'ono kuphulika.
Mu Epulo ndidayamba kufunafuna zitsamba zachilengedwe zomwe zitha kundithandiza. Anali masiku anga opitilira 90 a NoFap ndipo sindinkagonana bwino. Ndinapeza tiyi wa masamba a damiana ndi catuaba, izi zinali zosavuta kugula. Palibe zotsatira zapadera zomwe zidamveka. Mwinanso nthawi yayifupi kwambiri yogwiritsa ntchito. Kotero ine ndinakhala wosadyera. Tinayamba kuwerenga za ntchofu m'thupi mwathu, momwe mitsempha yadzaza. Zosintha zambiri m'moyo wanga chaka chino.
Komanso m'mutu ndimakhala ndi lingaliro loti NoFap yonseyi ndi yopanda ntchito, koma onerani kanema pang'ono za izi, werengani nkhani zochepa ndikumvetsetsa msewu womwe ndikhala.
Ndinkaona kuti sakupeza zomwe akufuna. Ndinapanga lilime, kugwira ntchito zala. Ankamva ziphuphu, koma sizomwe amafuna. Nthawi zina ankati ndinyengerereni ndipo ndimawona m'maso mwake chilakolako chogonana. Ndinayamba kumvetsetsa kuti sizingakhale motalika chonchi. Ndimaganiza kuti ngati sichichokera kwa ine adzachipeza kwina. Ndiye ndidamuuza kuti ndikumva kuwawa koma ndikuganiza kuti ndibwino titasiyana. Anali chakumapeto kwa Meyi. Koma tidakhala limodzi. Inali nthawi yovuta ku yunivesite kwa ine.
Nthawi zina timagonana katatu patsiku, koma sizabwino. Dick anali wolimba pang'ono. Ndinali wokondwa, koma ndikuyembekezera zambiri. Ndimaganiza kuti mwina ndikawonerera zolaula ndidzakhalanso wolimba… ndikadzayamba zolaula ndinawona zosiyana, ndinawona zenizeni. Kuchita pazenera sikunali kochititsa mantha kwa ine. Panalibe zomverera. Ndinkakonda kwambiri mnzanga kuposa kanema.
Nthawi imeneyo ndimamvetsetsa kuti ndinali wozama bwanji ... Ulendo uno usanachitike ndimangokhalira kunyinyirika pafupifupi 30%, ndimawonera makanema apa zolaula. Tsopano ndimatha kuzipeza za 80% -90%, koma ndimadzimvera chisoni pamaso panga ndi GF yanga. Chifukwa chake ndimatulutsa kanema ndisanamalize ndekha. Ndipo sungani mphamvu ija kwa GF yanga.
Pobwerera kunyumba timagonana ndipo adayamba kumva bwino m'moyo wake momwe adanenera. Mwa kunena choyamba amatanthauza kuti orgasm pomwe Dick ali mwa iye.
Dzulo tinagonana ndipo pafupifupi nthawi zonse chidwi changa chinali mkati. Ndikhoza kukhala motalika momwe ndikufunira, ndikudziwa zomwe ndimachita, ndimamva zomwe ndimachita, ndimamumverera. Iye anali ndi chilakolako chachitatu, ndipo malingaliro anga anali ochuluka kwambiri… nthawi zoposa kuposa kungopuma. Zolaula sizingafanane ndi izi. Zimamveka ngati zaumulungu.
Chifukwa tsambali lidandithandiza kwambiri, ndiyesetsa kubwezeretsanso china chake.
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