Ndinkakhala wokondwa komanso wochezeka ngati mwana. Sindinadziwe zomwe zinalakwika pa 12-13. Ndinayamba kukhala phee, osasangalala komanso wopanda nkhawa. Ndidakhala chonchi mpaka miyezi ingapo yapitayo. Khalidwe langa linasintha nthawi yomweyo ndinapeza kusefa ndipo ndakhala ndikuchita tsiku lililonse kuyambira pamenepo.
Ndapita masiku 135 ndisanachite zolaula ndikubwezeretsanso pang'ono.
Choyamba tiyeni tikambirane zongobwereranso zolaula zanga. Ndinalowa chizimbwizimbwi chomwe ndinali ndisanakumaneko nacho ndipo sindinathe kusiya. Ndinkayang'ana zolaula zanga zomwe ndakhala ndikuonera tsiku lililonse kwazaka zambiri.
Ubongo wanga unayamba kugwedezeka ndipo ndimamva bwino kwambiri kuti sindinamvepo izi. Ndimaganiza kuti ndimankhwala okha omwe angakukhudzeni ngati izi. Sindinathe kugona usiku wonse nditayambiranso kukhala ndi malingaliro ofuna kudzipha komanso nkhawa yayikulu (sindinakhalepo ndi izi). Zomwe ndidaphunzira pamenepa ndikuti ndidalowa kwambiri mu zoyipa kuti ndisadzakhalepo ndi mtundu wamtunduwu wazizindikiro. Ine mwachidziwikire ndidayambiranso.
Tsopano ponena za mapindulidwe:
- Matenda amisala amachiritsidwa.
Ndimadzimva ngati mwana kachiwiri: Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikudandaula kuti chifukwa chiyani anthu amafuna kukhala ndi zosangalatsa, kupita kokayenda, kupita kokachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kufunafuna mnzanga. Zonse zinali zopanda pake kwa ine ndipo INE TSOPANO ndinali ndi masiku abwino.
Ndinaganiza kuti sindinakhumudwe koma ndinali wanzeru komanso wanzeru. Ndiwo owonera kwathunthu. Kulowerera kumawoneka kuti kumayambitsidwa ndi mayankho achisangalalo, osati momwe inu mwachibadwa mulili. Sindikudziwitsanso - kucheza ndikumva bwino.
- Kuda nkhawa ndi anthu kumachiritsidwa.
Ndili masana 5-7 paulendo wanga, ndinazindikira china chake chomwe sichinachitikepo kale. Sindinapezekenso kuthamanga kwa adrenaline ndikamalankhula ndi anthu. Sindinatinso kung'ung'udza. Zinali zovuta kuti ndizicheza ndi anthu. Matsenga anali atachitika usiku.
Monga tafotokozera pamwambapa, kulimba mtima komanso kusangalatsa kucheza ndi anthu kumayenderana. Chifukwa chake sindinasowenso thandizo mpaka pano, chifukwa sindinamvepo chisangalalo.
- Mphamvu zakuthwa
Ndinawona china chodabwitsa patapita kanthawi pa NoFap - mitundu imawoneka yowala komanso yokongola kwambiri. Posakhalitsa ndinazindikira kuti mphamvu zanga zonse zidakulitsidwa ndikuti PMO sikuti imangotulutsa nkhawa komanso mphamvu zanu.
M'mbuyomu zinthu zonse zinkawoneka zoyera komanso zoyera ndipo nthawi yonseyi m'mutu mwanga sindinkazindikira zomwe zinkandizungulira. Ndinkangoyendayenda ngati loboti losawerengeka sindimva chilichonse kapena kumva chilichonse.
Tsopano ndimatha kusangalala ndi zinthu zazing'ono m'moyo. Zinthu zimanunkhira bwino, zakudya zimakoma bwino ndipo nyimbo zimamveka bwino kwambiri kuposa kale.
Ndikumva ngati mwana kachiwiri. Ndizovuta kufotokoza koma sindinadziwe momwe mungatherere kusangalala ndi zochitika za tsiku ndi tsiku pochita PMO.
- Ndinayamba kumwetulira
Amayi anga adati sanandiwone ndikumwetulira kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 13 ndipo tsopano akudzifunsa kuti ndimamwetuliranji nthawi zonse. Sindinamuuze za nofap. Moona mtima, sindinamwetulirepo kale. Sindingathe. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake. Sindinakhalepo ndi kuseka kwaulere komanso koona mpaka nditaledzera.
Tsopano ndili ndi vuto la kumwetulira kwambiri pagulu. Nthawi zina ndimayenera kukoka foni yanga kuti ndiyeserere ngati kuti ndikuwona chinthu choseketsa.
- Ndili ndi chidwi chachikulu chochitira zinthu:
Kuchuluka kwantchito iliyonse kunali kambiri kwa ine m'mbuyomu. Sindinathe kumvetsetsa momwe anthu angakhalire ndi kudziyang'anira okwanira kuti azichita zinthu komanso momwe amapangitsira padziko lapansi kuti azigalamuka m'mawa uliwonse.
Ndinkalimbana ndi maphunziro chifukwa ndinalibe zolinga. Sindingathe kukhazikika. Ndingakhale ndi chinthu choyipacho chotchedwa chifunga cha ubongo.
Tsopano ndizosiyana. Ndimakhala ndi chitsogozo chachikulu komanso chodzikakamiza kuti ndichite zinthu moyenera ndipo ndimamva bwino mukamalimbikira ntchito. Nditha kuyang'ana kwambiri kuposa kale.
- Palibenso kulimbana ndi zizolowezi zina
Ndakhala ndimavuto akulu ndizakumwa mowa. Ndinkangomwa kamodzi pa sabata koma nthawi iliyonse ndimamwa mpaka nditafika. Ndinalibiretu ulamuliro, kumangokhalira kumwa kwambiri.
Nthawi zonse ndimkaganiza kuti ndi mowa womwe umandipatsa nkhawa. Ndinkakhulupirira kuti ndimangokhala ndi mitundu yoyipa yokhala ndi mowa kotero sindingathe kuigwiritsa ntchito moyenera. Ndinali kuyesera kusiya mowa kwa mwezi umodzi koma sindinakhale oledzera kwa milungu yopitilira 3.
Nthawi zonse, ngakhale ndimamwa ndi anzanga, ndimamwa ndekha. Kulumikizana ndi ena anali chabe chifukwa chomwa mowa kwambiri kotero kuti ndikadabwerenso.
Zomwe zidachitika mwachangu atasiya zolaula zinali zamatsenga: kulimbikitsanso kumwa. Chomwe chinali chodabwitsa kwambiri ndikuti ndidazindikira kuti nditha kumwa mowa, kusangalala ndi kukambirana komanso kumwa pang'onopang'ono. Sindilinso ndi chidwi choledzera.
Ndinapewanso chizolowezi chodyera mwachangu. Ndinasiya kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti. Chodabwitsa ndichakuti kuthana ndi zosokoneza bongo sikunafunike kuyesetsa. Zinangochitika mwachilengedwe momwe zolaula inali chizolowezi chachikulu cha zonse ndipo mwa kusiya izi ndidalimbikitsidwa kuti ndikhale dopamine.
Kotero kwenikweni mmasiku omwe ine NDINAKHALA tsiku lililonse, ndimayesetsa kulimbana ndi vuto langa lililonse koma vuto langa koma sizinagwirepo kanthu. Vuto linali loti ndimakhala ndikumakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito dopamine yochepa chifukwa chogwiritsidwa ntchito mozama ndi PMO kotero ndimayesetsa kufunafuna zochitika zonse zomwe zikukwera kwa dopamine.
Ndinkakhulupirira kuti ndasiya kutengera majini chifukwa ndimawerengeka, ndimaganizidwe okhumudwa omwe amakhalanso ndi majini omwe amamwa mowa. Palibe chomwe chimawoneka kuti chikugwira ntchito kwa ine. Tsopano ndikumvetsa kuti zosokoneza zilizonse zimalumikizidwa ndipo ngati mungachotsere chizolowezi choyambirira, mwawina kale onsewo.
Sizodabwitsa kuti sindinathe kuwona kuti vutoli linali chiyani. Ndizomvetsa chisoni momwe ndidawonongera unyamata wanga. Koma pali chiyembekezo mawa.
LINK - Masiku 135 mu - moyo udasinthiratu
by Thanx
;