Moni anyamata ndimafuna kugawana zomwe ndakumana nazo pano ndipo Idk mwina apereke chiyembekezo kwa winawake. Ndiyambe ndi kunena kuti ndili ndi zaka 23; Ndinali ndikuonera zolaula kuyambira ndili ndi 12-13. Poyamba, ndimayang'ana nthawi zina koma kwazaka 4-5 zapitazi mwina zochulukirapo zomwe zidasandulika kukhala zinthu za tsiku ndi tsiku ndipo sindimadziwa kuwonongeka komwe ndimachita muubongo wanga.
Kumayambiriro kwa chaka chino ndimagonana koyamba ndi mtsikana uyu waku koleji patatha usiku ndikumwa. Nkhani yayitali sindinathe kuyimvetsa, zinali zochititsa manyazi koma tonse tinkaganiza kuti ndi zakumwa ndipo ndimaganiza kuti mwina ndatopa chifukwa ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi (masewera olimbitsa thupi, masewera angapo ampira sabata imeneyo, ndi zina zambiri. .).
Tsopano kumbukirani kuti ndidagonana kangapo kale ndi atsikana angapo kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 19 ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi vuto kotero sindinadandaule kwambiri momwe ndinali kuchitira manyazi nazo. Mofulumira miyezi ingapo ndidakumana ndi msungwana wokongola yemwe angakhale bwenzi langa. Tinayesera kugonana ndipo sindinathe kuyimilira. Ndinamuuza kuti sindimadziwa zomwe zimachitika.
Tsopano ndinali ndi nkhawa kotero ndinayang'ana mmwamba zomwe zingakhale zikuchitika ndikupeza za PIED. Ndinasiya kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuwonera zolaula limodzi. Zinali zovuta koma ndimadziwa kuti mtsikanayo anali ndi phindu ndipo ndimafuna kudzikonzera ndekha monga momwe ndimafunira ine.
Pambuyo pa miyezi iwiri ya nofap, (anali woleza mtima pakati pomwe timayesera kugonana nthawi imeneyo kangapo) pamapeto pake tidagonana ndipo zinali zodabwitsa.
Tsopano ndimakhala ndimitengo yam'mawa nthawi zambiri ndipo ndimakhala wosachiritsika ngati ndachiritsidwa 100% koma ndikudziwa kuti ndili pafupi kwambiri. Moyo wanga uli bwino kwambiri ndazindikira kuti sindikufuna zolaula kapena zina mwa izo.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti nonse abale mutha kuchita bwino. Khalani oleza mtima ndikudziwa kuti pali kuwala kumapeto kwa mseuwo.
Nthawi zambiri, ndimafuna kusiya [Nofap]. Monga ndinakuwuzani kuti tinayesera kugonana ndipo sindinathe, ndipo sindinkawona kutha kwa nofap, ndipo ndinkakhala pansi ndikulakalaka kudya ngati shit, kutopa nthawi zonse komanso kusowa chidwi koma zonse zidasintha ndi nthawi.
Upangiri wanga ndikuti ngati muli ndi mtsikana amene mumamukonda mumufotokozere chilichonse, amvetsetsa ndikuleza mtima ngati ndi zenizeni ndipo akuthandizani kuthana ndi vuto lanu ndipo ubale wake ulimba chifukwa cha izi. Zabwino zonse okwatirana.
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