Chingerezi ndiye chilankhulo changa chachitatu, choncho pirira nane pa zolakwitsa zomwe ndimapanga.
Ndinayamba kudziwa za nofap mkatikati mwa 2017. Mpaka nthawiyo, ndinali ngati ambiri a inu. Wosuta zolaula, owopsa, alibe lingaliro lakutsogolo, amawopa kukhala pagulu ndi zina. Ndinayesa kusiya izi koma ndinayambiranso. Nthawi zambiri, mobwerezabwereza.
Ndidayamba kucheza ndi PMO ndili ndi zaka 12 pambuyo poti wina wa anzanga mkalasi 'adanenetsa. Kalelo, chinali chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe chidandichitikire. Ndidayamba ndi zinthu za vanilla, ndimayang'ana m'magazini komanso TV kuti ndimalakwitsa. Kenako ndinayamba kuonera zolaula pafoni ya abambo anga pamene palibe. Ndili ndi zaka 15, ndinakhala ndi foni yanga yoyamba ija ndipo ndidayamba kugwa. Podzafika mu 2017 ndinali nditayamba kusuta. Wodwala yemwe ali ndi ziwonetsero zambiri ngati abale, achifwamba, okonda chidwi ...
Ndinkatha kuonera zolaula usiku, mpaka mbandakucha ndipo mwina kugona maola awiri ndi kupita ku sukulu / koleji. Mopanda kutero, ndinapumula kugona m'sukuluyi chifukwa mamasukulu anga anali otsika pafupifupi. Maluso anga ochezera anali opanda. Sindinathe kulankhula ndi aliyense, ngakhale ndi anthu ochepera ine. Sindinkalankhula ndi msungwana aliyense ndipo msungwana aliyense samalankhula ndi ine. Ndili ndimavuto pafupipafupi chifukwa cha kugwiritsa ntchito kwambiri foni. Ndasokoneza maso anga ndipo ndikuvutikabe ndi matenda anga.
Kenako, ndinapeza nofap. Koma monga ambiri a ife, inenso ndalephera. Anayambiranso kangapo. Unali Januware 12, 2018. Ndinali ndi gawo langa lalikulu la zolaula tsiku lomwelo. Ndidali ndekha kunyumba ndikusokonekera ngati nthawi 8. Pomaliza, ndinali nditatopa, mbolo yanga idamva kupweteka komanso kupweteka nthawi yomweyo, ndimamva kupweteka kwambiri m'mimba mwanga ndikulira. Ndinagunda mwala pansi. Patsikulo, ndinadziwa kuti ndikapitiliza moyo uno kwa nthawi yayitali sikudzakhala ine, ndipo ndidasankha kusintha.
Tsiku lotsatira, pa 13 Januware 2018, ndidachotsa ma akaunti onse azama TV, ndikuphwanya foni yanga ya smartphone, yosaletseka kuchokera pa intaneti ndikubwezera modem ku kampani ya intaneti. Ndidapita koyamba kuzizira. Koma chomwe chinandithandiza kwambiri ndikakhala ndikulimbikitsidwa (zongoganizira, kuganiza, zina zogonana kapena kungobwerera m'mbuyo) Nthawi yomweyo ndinapereka malingaliro anga china choganiza ngati nyimbo, mayeso omwe akubwera, manambala osasinthika etc. ...… kuyambira lero mpaka lero lino.
Pamodzi ndi nofap ndidachita masewera ena olimbitsa thupi monga kupita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi, masewera olimbitsa thupi otentha (ngakhale nthawi yomwe ndimakonda kuzizira, ngakhale sindinalimbikitsa), ndipo ndinadya wathanzi. Kudya wathanzi ndichinthu chachikulu kwa ine. Ine sindimanyengerera ndi izo. Chifukwa chake ndine 'Dick' amene samadya 'zakudya zopanda pake' ndikakhala ndi anzanu. Ndine 'munthu wonyada' amene samadya zakudya zopanda pake kapena zakumwa zilizonse zomwe abale amandipatsa ndikadzawachezera. Koma ndimadya zakudya zopanda pake kamodzi pachaka. Patsiku langa lobadwa. Patsikulo, sindisamala zomwe zimalowa m'mimba mwanga. Koma kuyambira tsiku lotsatira, ndibwerera momwe ndimakhalira.
Tsopano pakati pa zonsezi, ndinaphunzira molimbika. Sindikudzitamandira ndekha koma ndinazindikira kuti ndine wokhoza kwambiri momwe ndimaganizira kuti ndinatha. Ndinkamaliza maphunziro a Bachelors. Kenako ndidalowa nawo Masters ndikumaliza maphunziro amitundu yowuluka. Zasowa mayeso ophunzitsira pamodzi ndi kulowa kwa PhD. Masiku ano, ndine profesa wothandizira kukoleji ndipo ndikuchitanso PhD yanga nayo. Kalelo, sindinathe kuyika mfundo yanga patsogolo pa mzanga koma lero, ndimaphunzitsa makalasi ndi mphamvu pakati pa 40-50, katatu pa tsiku, ndi masiku 3 pa sabata. Chidaliro changa ndi kumwamba. Muli ndi layisensi yanga yakuuluka mlengalenga Novembala yapitayi. Ndimatha kuyankhula ndi aliyense popanda mphamvu. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga ndinganene kuti ndili ndi abwenzi omwe ndi akazi.
Sindinachite bwino zaka ziwiri zapitazi. Inde, ndakhala ndikufikiridwa ndi akazi nthawi zina koma ndidasankha kukhala motere. Kunena zowona mtima, ndiyenera kuchita zambiri m'moyo wanga. Ndipo mu ulendowu, sindikuganiza kuti ndingakwanitse kupeza mkazi, ngakhale azikhala ndi nthawi yochepa (ngati mukudziwa zomwe ndikutanthauza).
Chifukwa chake, iyi ndi nkhani yanga. Ndinali nditachotsa akaunti yanga ya reddit zaka ziwiri zapitazo ndikuganiza kuti sindidzabwerenso. Koma lero, pazomwe ine ndiri, gawo laling'ono ili lidatengapo gawo lalikulu mu izo. Chifukwa chake, ndikuganiza ndiyiperekenso china ndichomwe ndidapangira akauntiyi kuti ndiyike izi. Ndikuganiza kuchita izi ngati AMA. Chifukwa chake, anzanga amamasuka kundifunsa chilichonse.
Sinthani: - Kwa osadziwika- zikomo chifukwa cha golide. Zimatanthauza zambiri kwa ine.
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