Moni nayi nkhani yanga, patatha chaka chimodzi ndidasankha kuti ndisiye zolaula pambuyo poyesetsa ndi akazi angapo. Poyamba sindimadziwa chomwe chikuchitika ndi ine ndidasokonezeka / kukwiya ndekha kuti sindingathe kuchita ndimakhala ndi nkhawa yayikulu. Kenako ndinapumira pa webusayiti ija ndipo ndinazindikira kuti vuto langa ndi chiyani, ndimapikisheni ochuluka kwambiri osakwanira.
Ndinali nditasinthiratu ubongo wanga. Nditangoganiza kuti ndizochokera pa zolaula ndidayimitsa zonse palimodzi, popanda p kapena m, machitidwe olunjika basi. Zinkandivuta kwambiri poyamba koma pomalizira pake zidakhala zosavuta ndikusintha.
Pafupifupi miyezi 4 ikudutsa ndipo ndikumva kudabwitsa, kuyendetsa kwanga zogonana kunali kutabwereranso, ndimayamba kuvuta ndikungowona azimayi kuti ndiye abwino. Pambuyo pake ndinakumana ndi mtsikana patsamba la zibwenzi. Poyamba ndinkafuna kumwa pang'onopang'ono chifukwa ndinali ndi lingaliro ili m'mutu mwanga kuti sindinakonzekere kugonana. Chifukwa chake ine ndi mtsikanayo timazengereza pang'onopang'ono, kumangopsompsana ndikupanga sabata zingapo za 2 pakudziwana. Pomaliza tsiku limafika, tonse tonse timafuna kugonana, ndinali wokonzeka, ndinali feelin chidaliro. Boom Ndinavutika kuti chilichonse chinali chabwino kuposa kusinthasintha kwakanthawi, motero sichinatenge nthawi monga momwe ndimafunira. Mtsikanayo adakhutitsidwabe ndipo anati amakonda kugona ndi ine, zimandisangalatsa.
Kupitilira, ndimatha chibwenzi ndi mtsikana uyu, kugonana kunali kwabwino kwa miyezi ingapo yoyamba chibwenzi china kupatula kuti sindinathe kukhalitsa nthawi yayitali pokhapokha ngati ndikuchepetsa pang'ono. Za nthawi ya 5month mu chiyanjano chomwe ndinawonera zolaula koyamba, sindikudziwa chomwe chinayambitsa koma ndinangokhala ndi chidwi chofuna kudziwa bc ndimangoganiza kuti ndachiritsidwa ndikuziyang'ana nthawi ina sizingandipweteke. Ndinali wolakwa. Sindinathenso kuzolowera kwambiri koma ndimapumira kamodzi pa sabata mwina kawiri, ndimagonabe ndi bwenzi langa, koma ndinayamba kuganiza mosiyanasiyana tikamagonana ngati timaganiza atsikana ena, zimanditembenukira zina. Chifukwa cha izi zonse ndinali ndimizeremizere angapo, ndipo bwenzi langa limadandaula kuti bwanji sinditha kugonana kapena chifukwa choti dick wanga sangagwire ntchito. Ndinamuuza kuti timangofunika kupuma pang'ono kuchokera pakugonana ndipo ndingakhale bwino sabata limodzi.
Pafupifupi chaka chimodzi chibwenzi, tinali kumenyana kwambiri ndipo sitinachite zogonana monga kale. Pamapeto pake izi zimabweretsa kuti tisiyane pafupifupi mwezi wapitawu. Chiyambireni kupatukana sindinawonepo p ndipo sindinakhalepobe. Ndimamva kuti mwina sindingakhale 100 peresenti chifukwa ndimakumana ndi pme ndipo ma d anali sikuti nthawi zonse anali 100 peresenti anganene za 75 peresenti yomwe ndikananena. Koma funso langa ndi ili, ndakumana ndi mtsikana watsopanoyu ndipo akondana nane kwambiri ndipo timalemberana mameseji tsiku lililonse. Ndine wamantha kwambiri kuti ndigone naye chifukwa ndikufuna kumukopa ndipo ndimakhala nthawi yayitali ndikukhalanso wokonzeka nthawi zonse. Kodi nditani? Sindingamuuze vuto langa chifukwa likhala posachedwa, ndili ndi zaka za 23 ndipo atsikana ambiri azaka zanga amachita zogonana ndipo sangakhale ndi iwe pokhapokha kugonana nthawi zonse. Pakadali pano ndikutuluka mu lathyathyathya ndipo sindikudziwa choti ndichite. Ngati wina aliyense ali ndi upangiri womwe ndingakonde kwambiri, sindikufuna kuwononga zomwe ndili ndi mtsikana watsopanoyu koma ndikudziwa adzafuna kugonana posachedwa.
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