Ndimakumbukira kuti inali kalasi ya 5th pomwe anzanga achikulire adandidziwitsa zolaula. Ndinali wokonda chidwi, wokonda chidwi komanso wosadziwa, wolumikizidwa. Palibe chikumbukiro chenicheni chomwe ndidakhala nacho nditayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Zinali pafupifupi zaka 3 nditaziwona koyamba koma ndimangowonera mpaka pamenepo.
Zomwe ndimakumbukira ndikuti ndili mgiredi la 10th, ndinali wokonda zolaula. Ndikukumbukira tsopano, ndimatsutsa atsikana azaka zilizonse, ndimakhala ndimaganizo azakugonana ndipo ndimayamba kuseweretsa maliseche nthawi zonse. Ndili 24 tsopano komanso zaka zapitazi za 8, zolaula zanga & maliseche zidakulirakulirabe mpaka pomwe ndimatha kudzuka (nthawi zina mozungulira 3) usiku, kuwonera zolaula ndikuchita maliseche, pambuyo pake ndimakhala womasuka.
Lero, ndikumaliza masiku 180 a NoFap. Chaka chatha ndakhala ndi masiku 90 masiku ndi masiku 69 motsatana pambuyo pake ndidaganiza kuti sindidzabwereranso. Maliseche & Porn zimadya gawo lalikulu la moyo wanga ndipo ndakhala ndikuyesera kuti ndizibwezeretse.
Masiku oyambilira ndi ovuta kwambiri koma wogwiritsa ntchito NoFap nthawi ina adati "mphindi iliyonse yosaphulika ndi kupambana kwina kwa inu. "Ndidapitilizabe kuthandizidwa ndikusinkhasinkha, kulimbitsa thupi, kulingalira, kuphunzira Chifrenchi ndikuchita chilichonse chothandiza. Palibe kafukufuku wasayansi yemwe amati ndi wamphamvu ndipo inenso sindipitako. Koma ndidalemba zosintha zambiri m'moyo wanga zomwe ndikufuna kugawana nanu -
Mkwiyo wanga unasanduka chipiriro. Ndinawona kuti ndikamakula koyambirira, ndimakhala wankhanza. Popanda fap, ndinakhala wodekha komanso wodekha, osakwiya pachilichonse. Banja langa lidazindikira kusiyana ndipo ndikunyadira izi.
Kuyambira pomwe ndimakamba za banja langa, ubale wanga ndi iwo udawongolera kwambiri. Ndimaganiza kuti samandimvetsa koma ndinazindikira pambuyo pake paulendo wanga kuti mwina sindinawamvetsetse. Kuwamvetsetsa kwanga kwachuluka kwambiri ndipo nthawi zonse ndimayesetsa kukonza ubale wanga ndi iwo.
Ndinakhala wamphamvu kwambiri, ndinayamba kuchita zinthu moyenera ndipo ndinayamba kuyang'anira. Mwakutero, luso langa la utsogoleri lidayamba bwino nditazindikira kuti kuwongolera chizolowezi changa kumathandizira kuti ndikwaniritse zochitika, magulu & zochita.
Kusintha komwe kumachitika ndikuti ubale wanga ndi akazi udakula bwino. Sindimawaonanso ngati zinthu ndipo ndimawaona kuti ndiopambana anthu kuposa amuna. Ayamba kuonetsa chidwi ndi ine, kuntchito kapena anzanga. Mwanjira ina, abwenzi atsikana omwe adatayika kale adalumikizananso nane ndipo akumva kuti ndakhala bwino ndi nthawi, ngati "vinyo wabwino wakale" (mtsikana wina adati, kwenikweni)
Kugonjetsa kuledzera ndi chinthu chodzitamandira chokha. Masiku a 180 anali nthawi yaitali ndipo zinayesayesa zomwe ndikukhulupirira kuti zimapindula bwino (Zosintha zina sizodziwika, muyenera kupewa kuziwona). Kudzidalira kwanga kunakhala bwino ndi nthawi pamene ndinaganizira zazing'ono zanga zomwe ndinakwaniritsa ndikukhulupirira kuti ndingakhale bwino kwambiri kusiyana ndi momwe ndakhalira tsopano.
Palibe Fap yomwe yakhala moyo wanga tsopano. Mukadakumana nane zaka 8 m'mbuyomu ndipo tsopano, muthanso kuzindikira zosintha m'moyo wanga. Nkhope yanga idasintha ndikuwoneka ngati chule wosachedwa nthawi iliyonse ndikukhala kalulu wokondwa. Ndakhala bwino pakufotokozera nkhani zaluso ndipo nditha kutenga akazi, kamodzi m'moyo wanga.
Anyamata, kusiya zolaula & kuseweretsa maliseche ndichinthu chomwe sichimadziwika. M'badwo wazaka zikwizikwi wagwidwa chifukwa ndichinthu chapamwamba kuchita. Koma sichoncho. Ngati mukufuna kubwerera kwanu, lekani kuonera zolaula & maliseche. Ngati mukufuna kuti mumvetsetse za dziko lapansi, lekani kuonera zolaula & maliseche. Ngati mukufuna malingaliro anu abwinoko, lekani kuwonera zolaula & maliseche. Ngati mukufuna moyo wanu, mukudziwa.
LINK - Tsiku 180: Moyo umakhala ulendo wopanda ntchito (Kutalika Kwambiri, kungasinthe moyo)
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