Zamgululi Achinyamata okalamba. Nditayamba. Ulendo wanga. Ndikumva bwanji pakadali pano.
Choyamba, ndikufuna kuthokoza Mulungu pachilichonse ndikundithandiza panjira iliyonse kuti ndisiye izi. Ndipo, kwa anthu onse othandiza pamsonkhanowu.
Ngati mukuwerenga izi, zindikirani kuti simuli nokha paulendowu. Dziko lapansi lingawoneke ngati dzenje lotopetsa, lokhumudwitsa lopanda chiyembekezo. Koma pali kuwala kumapeto kwa ngalandeyo. Ngati ndingathe kupitabe pamenepo aliyense akhoza… ..
Patha miyezi yoposa 4 kuchokera pomwe ndatsegula tsamba lino.
Sindimakonda kulankhula ndekha. Koma ndiyesera kuti ndikhulupirire kuti wina awerenga izi, azilumikizana nazo ndikupeza mphamvu kuti apitilize mtsogolo monga ndachitira maulendo angapo paulendowu.
Zina zomwe ndikufuna kuzilemba ndisanayambe:
- Ndikulimbikitsanso chimodzimodzi chaka chatha. Ndili bwino kuthana nalo.
- Ine sindine mfiti ndi akazi. Ndimadzilemekeza.
Nkhani yanga ndiyakuti ndidayamba kuchepa ndili ndi zaka 12. Paulendo wanga wopita kudalipo ndidakumana ndi zinthu zina zachilendo (zidafika poipa kwambiri kotero kuti ndidawona zachibale, zachiwerewere komanso zachiwerewere. Izi zidadzipangitsa kudzidalira. Ndikadali mwana ndinali ndi nkhawa, kukhumudwa, kunenepa kwambiri komanso mavuto ena am'mapapo ndipo izi ndizomwe zimandilimbikitsa.Nthawi zina kamodzi patsiku kapena nthawi zina katatu patsiku, kaya kunyumba, kapena malo abale komanso ngakhale patchuthi kutengera Ndinali m'manda osafuna kuthaŵa kuti ndithawe mavuto anga onse. Namsongole ndi chikonga zidasewera pano.
Ndazindikira kuti izi zidachitika chifukwa cha zipsinjo zomwe ndidakumana nazo ndili mwana. Osandilakwitsa ndinali ndi zonse zomwe ndidafunsa kuti ndizifuna chuma koma sindinakhale nayo nthawi ya makolo anga… sindimakondedwa konse. Nthawi zonse ndimafuna kusangalatsa ndikudzitchinjiriza kwa anthu ena chifukwa cha izi. Izi pamapeto pake zidadzetsa kukhumudwa komanso kukhumudwa kwakukulu komwe kumayikidwa m'manda amoyo chifukwa chothamanga kwambiri kwa dopamine.
M'chaka cha 2019, ndinali pafupi kumaliza maphunziro, panthawiyi ndinazindikira kuti china chake chiyenera kusintha sindingathe kukhala motere wopanda maloto kapena zokhumba. Ndidamvapo za nofap kale koma sindinaziganizirepo.
Pomwe ndimayamba kuwerenga zolemba zonse apa ndidazindikira kuti izi ndizomveka kwa ine. Januware 2019 linali tsiku lakubadwa kwanga ndinalira masana ambiri chifukwa chakukhumudwa. Kenako ndinapita pa tsiku la 71.
Chinali chinthu chovuta kwambiri kuposa zonse zomwe ndinachitapo. Ndinabwereranso mobwerezabwereza kwa chaka chimodzi ndikuzimitsa. Munthawi imeneyi ndinali wotsika kwambiri. Ndinkafuna kudzipha, ndinali kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, kusuta komanso kumwa. Kuyambira kumaliza maphunziro kudziko lakutali ndi atsikana okongola anali chitumbuwa pa keke yokhudza nkhani yanga yolira. Ndinali wosokoneza .. munthu wansanje wosokonezeka, woseketsa komanso wopusa pa buffet ya anti-depressants.
Pa 25 Epulo 2020, ndidabwereranso dzulo lake ndipo ndidakhala tsiku lonse ku gehena.
Kenako ndinataya mankhwala anga onse opanikizika, ndinasiya kusuta, ndinalonjeza kwa mulungu kuti sindidzayambiranso kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndikupempha mphamvu paulendowu. Ndinalumikizana ndi achibale angapo patapita nthawi yayitali ndipo chikondi chawo chopanda malire komanso khutu lomvera zinali zopindulitsa. Komanso ndimachita chithandizo chamankhwala ndipo sindingathe kutsindika momwe zandithandizira kuyeretsa pang'ono. Njira ina yabwino kwa inu ndikumachotsa makanema onse chifukwa nthawi zambiri amatha kuyambitsa ubongo wanu.
Tsopano, ndimadziyang'ana ndekha kuyambira chaka chapitacho ndipo pang'ono zasintha koma zasintha komabe. Sindikuganiza zodzipha tsiku lililonse. Kudzuka pabedi m'mawa sikuli ngati kukwera phiri la Everest. Ndimakhalabe ndi zovuta koma ndimawagonjetsa podzithandiza ndekha. Mverani izi mosamala… ..
"Patsiku lopanda mavuto, ingoyang'anani m'mbuyo ndikudzinyadira nokha komanso kutalika komwe mwakwanitsa, ndiye chomwe chindithandizire pamoyo wanga."
Ngati ndingathe kutero, zowona ngati gehena ndi munthu woopsa ngati momwe mungachitire!
Nkhani zosangalatsa zomwe ndidapitiliza kuwerenga:
-https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comm…_source=amp&utm_medium=&utm_content=post_body (kuthekera kwakomwe momwe ulendo wanu ungakhalire)
-https: //forum.nofap.com/index.php? ulusi / zowonera-pambuyo-masiku 700-a-nofap. 266554 / (Mawu akulu kwambiri a IMO olembedwa pa intaneti)
-https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3810986/ (Kafukufuku wa sayansi pa chipmunks ndi maliseche. Ikuwonetsa momwe kuseweretsa maliseche kwa beta kumakupangitsira)
Mabuku omwe ndikupangira:
- Ubongo wanu pa zolaula
- Njira Yosavuta Yolekerera Kusuta Fodya ya Allen Carr
- Sipadzakhalanso mr. munthu wabwino
Kuyambira tsiku lomwe ndimalemba izi ndikukhala bwino pa izi:
- Ndidawerenga mabuku opitilira 10 chaka chatha
- Ndidaphunzira ntchito ndikamaphunzira zomwe zimandilola kulipirira maphunziro anga
- Nthawi zonse ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndipo ndimakhala ndi tanthauzo la minofu kuposa kale
- Chofunika kwambiri ndili ndi anthu m'moyo wanga omwe nditha kuyankhula nawo ndipo omwe amandithandiza kwambiri ndi ine ndi mulungu wanga.
- Ndakhala ndikuthandiza anyamata ena a 2 kusiya izi
- Ndipo, akuyandikira atsikana ayamba kukhala bwino
Sindikudziwa momwe ndingamalizirire izi. Ndimasokoneza moyo wanga wonse, ndimatenga chinthu ichi tsiku limodzi. Ngati mukuwerenga izi, simuli nokha… ulendowu ndi wovuta kwambiri ndipo ndizomwe zimapangitsa kuti ukhale wopindulitsa. Ichi ndi chothandizira chachikulu kuti mukwaniritse zomwe mukufuna m'moyo.
LINK - Chaka chimodzi ndikusintha
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