Sindingaganize, kuti tsiku lina-lero- ndikadalemba nkhani yanga yabwino. Koma pambuyo pa masiku 525 palibe PM, ndikhoza kunena, nofap imagwira ntchito! Aliyense, amene amakayikira za izi, kapena wotaya chiyembekezo (zinali chimodzimodzi kwa ine paulendo wanga) ayenera kudziwa izi! Ndikuganiza kuti ndichofunika kwambiri paulendowu. Anthu onse ndi osiyana, koma tonsefe timachita ulendowu, ndipo ndizofanana kwa aliyense. Matenda okhumudwa, opanda malingaliro, opanda libido, flatline, anhedonia, osalimbikitsidwa, kulimbikitsidwa, kusowa chiyembekezo, ndi zina zambiri. Kwa ine, inali nthawi yovuta kwambiri pa moyo wanga wonse !!!
Ndine wazaka za 24 tsopano, ndipo ndinali 8-9 wazaka zambiri zakubadwa. Nditapeza chibwenzi, 2,5 zaka zapitazo, ndidaganiza zosiya izi. Kugonana kunali kowopsa nthawi imeneyo. Ndinali pied, motero zinali zopanda chiyembekezo kwa ine. Ndidakhala ndi chaka cha 1 kuti ndiyambe kutsata masiku a 525, izi zisanachitike, ndinali ndi zovuta zambiri zobwerera. Panthawi yomwe ndimayambiranso, ndinali ndi nkhawa ngati izi, nkhawa, kusasangalala, komwe kunali gehena weniweni. Sindingathe kulemba m'mawu, momwe zidalili zovuta izi! Ndinalibe chiyembekezo chilichonse, ndipo ndinawerengera malo ambiri ku nofap, zomwe zidathandiza kwambiri.
Pafupifupi kuyambiranso kwanthawi yayitali, masiku 90 osakwanira, masiku 150… osakwanira, chaka chimodzi… sikokwanira… Chifukwa chake ndi gawo lovuta kwambiri la izi, sungani chiyembekezo… Chifukwa Aliyense akhoza kukafika kumeneko! Ngati simutaya mtima! Ndili ndi zaka 1, ndipo ndikumva kuti ndikulibwino. Tsopano ndimatha kukhala moyo wanga watsiku ndi tsiku ndikulimbikitsidwa, osati kukhumudwa. Moyo wanga wogonana ndiwodabwitsa. Ndinali pafupi ndiulendo wanga wonse, zomwe zikutanthauza kuti ndinalibe libido, kugonana sikunali bwino.
Wopambana, koma wosasangalatsa. Koma tsopano, mbali zonse za moyo zikuwongolera, momwe ndimamvera, chilimbikitso changa, sindikumva kukhumudwa konse (mwina nthawi zina, koma sizili zovuta chaka chimodzi chatha ...).
Lero ndi dzulo ndidaganiza zoyamba. Ndidaona 1-2 kanema, kuti ndiyese ngati ndingathe kukhudzidwa ndi izi. Zinali zopindulitsa zina kwa ine, atatha masiku a 500, mutha kuchita izi, koma zisanachitike, sindingalangize Tsopano ndikutsimikiza, ndili pa njira yanga yabwino, sindidzawonanso zinthu zamtunduwu , koma Linali mayankho abwino kwa ine. Ndili ndi chikhulupiriro kuti ndipitiliza ulendowu, pamoyo wanga wonse. Ndizotheka kusintha kosakwanira, Ngati muli olimba mokwanira (ndipo ndikudziwa nonse muli), mutha kusintha moyo wanu modabwitsa!
Nditha kunena, ndi zinthu zamtundu wanji zomwe zidandithandiza paulendowu kuti ndibwere kuno, koma chofunikira kwambiri ndicho NTHAWI! Werengani masiku anu, mukakana moyo wanu udzakhala wabwino kwambiri komanso wabwino.
Mulole mphamvu ndi Inu nonse!
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