Zaka 28 - Nkhaniyi ikupitilira… (HOCD)

LIPOTI:

Choyamba kupereka moni kwa aliyense amene ali patsamba lino komanso kwa aliyense amene akuwerenga izi pakadali pano. Zaka 3-4 zapitazo, ndalemba nkhani yopambana, chonde werengani musanawerenge izi, apo ayi kuwerenga izi kulibe tanthauzo.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/5-years-struggle-severe-hocd-transexual-porn.129195/

Sindinakhalepo patsamba lino kapena patsamba lina ngati ili kwakanthawi. Sindikufunanso izi, koma ndabwera kuno lero kuti ndiwone ngati ndili ndi mauthenga ndipo ndidadzidzimuka. Ambiri a inu mukusowa thandizo, ndipo mukuyenera kuthandizidwa. Vutoli likuwonjezeka tsiku lililonse. Komanso, ndinalonjeza kwa anthu abwino ochokera mdera lino kuti ndikulemba za kupita patsogolo (moni kwa inu anyamata, ndikuyembekeza kuti nonse muli bwino).
Mwina izi sizingakuthandizeni mwapadera, koma mwina sizowononga nthawi ngati mulibe cholinga pamoyo wanu.

Posachedwa, ndili ndi 27 pakadali pano ndipo ndikumva bwino. Ndatsiriza koleji yanga (umisiri wamakina, digiri yachiwiri). Ndili ndi kampani yanga yomwe ili ndi antchito 15. Ndili ndi bwenzi langa lokongola. Ndimachita masewera ambiri. Thupi langa limawoneka bwino. Ndidadzigulira galimoto yamasewera (nthawi zonse inali maloto anga). Ine ndi bwenzi langa tinasamukira m'nyumba limodzi. Sichikulu koma komabe, ndine wokondwa nacho. Ndinasiya kucheza ndi anthu ena. Chaka chapitacho ndidapeza zolemba ziwiri pa pinterest, ndipo akuti: mulibe nthawi yocheza ndi anthu omwe sakukulimbikitsani. Mawu ena akuti: ngati simungathe kumanga nawo, musamwe nawo. Ndimaganizira kwambiri za mawu awa. Muyeneranso.

Sindinganene za izi, koma ndikudziwa kuti ena angafunse, mwina inenso. Moyo wanga wogonana ndi wabwinobwino. Titha kugonana nthawi iliyonse yomwe tifuna, palibe kusowa kwa libido, mo ed, pied …… ..

Komanso HOCD yofunika. Chinthu ichi anyamata …….
Ndikulakalaka ndi mtima wanga wonse kuti nonse muzindikire kupusa kwake. Ndizopusa kwambiri kuti sindingapeze liwu mudikishonale langa lofotokozera. Chifukwa chake kuyankha, kodi zimandigunda nthawi zina? Inde zimatheka. Kodi zimandikhuza? Ayi sichitero. Zimatenga nthawi yayitali bwanji? Pafupifupi masekondi 5.
Chifukwa chake sikoyenera kutchula.

Ndikukuwuzani anyamatawa. China chokhudza kudzuka mwa kuwonera zolaula.
ACHINYAMATA AMBIRI AMAKHALA NDI MAVUTO OWERENGA NKHANI ZABODZA, OKHALA M'NTHAWI ZOTHANDIZA ……
Choyamba zomwe ndikufuna kuti muzindikire, ziribe kanthu zomwe mumawerenga za kukhala mu chipinda, kukana kapena chilichonse chopusa. Ndikhulupirire. Iwe umabadwa molunjika, sungakhale gay. Chilichonse chomwe mungachite simungakhale amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Mutha kuthamangitsa mwana wamwamuna ndipo mungandikhulupirire ndikanena kuti simunali amuna kapena akazi okhaokha? Mwina simukundikhulupirira koma ndizowona.
Mukazindikira izi, zinthu zimatha kukhala zosavuta.

Ndikumvetsetsa kuti wasokonezeka kwambiri. Ndi zachilendo. Ingoyesani kuganiza motere, ubongo wanu sukumvetsa tanthauzo lachiwerewere. Sadziwanso mtundu wa zolaula zomwe mukuwonazo ndipo kodi zolaula zamtunduwu zimagwirizana ndi zomwe mumakonda. Ubongo wanu umangodziwa KWA MAGULU A DOPAMINE OKHA.

Kugonana kwa Vanilla = palibe dopamine (mwina palibe erection).
Shemale = dopamine yambiri (zovuta zovuta)
Gay = dopamine yambiri (zovuta zovuta)

Chonde yesetsani kumvetsetsa izi. Ndikumvetsetsa kuti ambiri a inu ndinu anthu anzeru kwambiri ndichifukwa chake ndikukuthandizani chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti mutha kumvetsetsa china chake chovuta komanso kuti 2 + 2 atha kukhala 5.
Ubongo wanu sumadziwa ngati mumawonera zolaula zolaula ndi amuna ndi akazi kapena mukuwonerera zolaula. Ubongo wanu umagwiritsa ntchito zinthu zovuta chifukwa mudali kukulitsa malire pazaka zambiri. Ndikulingalira kuti zolaula sizinali zolaula zomwe anyamata mudawonapo, sichoncho? Mbali inayi pali mtima wanu. Mumtima mwanu MUDZIWA kuti mumakonda atsikana koma simukumva. Simumva chifukwa ubongo wanu wasokonekera komanso ukudwala ndipo monga ndidanenera, muyenera kuyeretsa ndipo sindinganame, muyenera kuyeretsa kochuluka ndipo sizikhala zovuta kukwaniritsa. Khama ndi ntchito zambiri ziyenera kuchitidwa kuti zinthu zisinthe.
Pa intaneti, mutha kuwona mamiliyoni azithunzi zapamwamba ali maliseche mu ola limodzi losakatula pa intaneti.
Anzanga, kodi mukudziwa kuti mumachita bwino bwanji kugona pabedi ndi mtundu wapamwamba? Mmodzi yekha, osati miliyoni. Muyenera kuchita bwino kwambiri. Wanzeru, wanzeru, wogwira ntchito payekha, wovala bwino, wokwanira ndalama, woseketsa, wosachita phokoso, wolimba mtima, wokonda kulankhula, wosangalatsa, wachikoka …….
Ndikukuuzani izi chifukwa ndikudziwa izi tsopano, chifukwa tsopano ndine munthu wamtunduwu (wopanda bodza).
Zaka 6 zapitazo, ndimayenda ndikufa. Dick wanga anali atamwalira, sakanatha kukonzekera, wopanda bwenzi, wopanda ndalama, kukhala ndi makolo anga, womangika ku koleji, zero anakhoza mayeso, wopanda galimoto, palibe. Ine ndekha ndi kompyuta yanga ndi zolaula. Kutalika kwa tsiku lonse. Zinanditengera zaka 7 kuti ndikhale munthu watsopano. Kodi mukumvetsetsa chifukwa chake ndikukulemberani positi yayitali? Anthu nthawi zonse amandifunsa mpaka liti atakhala opanda zolaula… Hmmmm pafupifupi zaka zochepa …… kenako nkuti ndikupenga. Sindikudziwa kuti ndinu ndani, sindikudziwa kuti mumachokera kuti. Ndikungodziwa zifukwa zanu kuti musachite bwino. Chonde imani patsogolo pagalasi yanu. Ingoganizirani kuti ndinu msungwana wapamwamba, kodi mungakhale pachibwenzi pano?
Chifukwa chake chonde yambani kukusinthani moyo kuyambira pano. Chinthu chaching'ono kwambiri chomwe mungachite ndikusiya ndi: zolaula, TV, netflix, youtube, pc, tv, foni. Yambani kuchita zinthu zopindulitsa. Siyani kukhala moyo wa anthu ena.
Otsatira amakono masiku ano, anthu ocheperako…
Khalani winawake. Lembani nkhani yanu.

Popeza sindine wonyenga, ndiyenera kunena zowona nanu anyamata. Inenso sindine loboti. Ndalephera nthawi miliyoni. Posakhalitsa, tonsefe timalephera (m'mbali zonse za moyo wanu), koma cholinga ndikuphunzira kena kake kuchokera pamenepo. Ngati mulephera ndipo simukuphunzira kalikonse, sizabwino. Ndipo kunena zowona, ndikumwa mapiritsi ena a nkhawa yanga, ndili ndi gad (general nkhawa disorder). Kunena zowona, ndilibe ndalama zilizonse ndipo amandithandizadi.

Ndabwera kudzayankha mafunso anu ngati muli nawo. Ndipo kumbukirani, malingaliro ndi malingaliro OKHA.

LINK - Nkhani ikupitilira… (HOCD)

By chidacho

Moni nonse, pachiyambi ndikungofuna kupepesa pazolakwitsa zina chifukwa sindigwiritsa ntchito Chingerezi pafupipafupi ndipo ndikufuna kukuwuzani kuti ikhala nkhani yayitali kwambiri, mwina imodzi mwazitali kwambiri zomwe ndawerenga ngati simukufuna kuti muwerenge, palibe amene amakukakamizani.

Nkhaniyi ikufotokoza chilichonse chofunikira pamavuto anga omwe amadza chifukwa cha zolaula mzaka zisanu zapitazi, ndili ndi zaka 24 pakadali pano. Chifukwa chake, mwina ndibwino kuyamba ndi chiyambi. Tiyerekeze kuti chiyambi ichi chinali pamene ndinali ndi zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri. Ndinayamba kupita ku pulayimale ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinali BOSS chifukwa ndinali mwana wamphamvu kwambiri mkalasi mwanga ndipo aliyense amandilemekeza LOL. Sindinali mwana wamanyazi ndipo ndinali wowoneka bwino kotero kuti atsikana onse anali kundikonda. Ndinali munthu wokonda kulankhula kwambiri komanso wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, mwana wokondwa nthawi zonse.

Ndili ndi zaka eyiti, azibale anga akulu adandiphunzitsa momwe ndimasewera maliseche, zinali zoseketsa kwa iwo chifukwa anali ndi zaka khumi ndi zinayi ndipo ine ndinali ndi zaka zisanu ndi zitatu, koma osaganizira, chinali chiyambi. Kumva bwino kwambiri, sindinagwiritsepo ntchito malingaliro anga chifukwa sindimadziwa zomwe ndikuchita koma ndimangodziwa kuti kumapeto ndidzamva bwino, chifukwa chake ndimazichita tsiku lililonse, nthawi zina kangapo kamodzi tsiku.

Chaka chamawa ndili ndi zaka zisanu ndi zinayi ndidapeza kuchuluka kwa abambo amamagazini a playboy. Mnyamata oh mnyamata momwe ndinkasangalalira. Bwino kuposa disneyland kwa ine. Ndinkawerenga tsiku lililonse kangapo patsiku, atsikanawo anali odabwitsa, koma patapita nthawi ndinkafunika kumenyedwa mwamphamvu, ndipo ndinapeza, inali magazini yolaula ya anthu ogonana. Zoyipa izi zinali zapamwamba kwambiri kwa ine ndipo ndidasinthiratu zibwenzi zosewerera zamagazini zolaula izi. Ndinkasewera maliseche kangapo patsiku pogwiritsa ntchito magaziniyi, koma moyo wanga unali bwino nthawi imeneyo. Ndinali wokonda kucheza kwambiri, wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, ndinkachita masewera ambiri, ndinali wamantha ngati ana ena, ndimatha kupeza bonner nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna.

M'zaka ziwiri kapena zitatu zotsatira ndinatolera magazini ambiri azolaula koma ndinayamba kumva kukhala wotopetsa ngati helo. Sanachite zambiri muubongo ndi thupi langa monga momwe amachitira pachiyambi. Gawo lotsatira anali makanema olaula ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi ziwiri. Monga nthawi zonse ndimapeza kanema wawayilesi yakanema zolaula pambuyo pa 11 koloko masana ndipo nthawi iliyonse ndikakhala kunyumba ndekha ndimawaonera ndipo amakhala pafupifupi miliyoni miliyoni kuposa magazini, sooooo magazini anga adathera m'zinyalala.

Zaka ziwiri zotsatira, tangoganizani, kangati patsiku maliseche pogwiritsa ntchito makanema olaula pa DVD. Vuto lokhalo ndiloti ndimazolowera zowonera zonse nditaziwonera kamodzi, koma zinali bwino pafupifupi zaka ziwiri pomwe anzanga adandionetsa momwe ndingawonere zolaula pa intaneti komanso momwe ndingafufutire mbiri nditawonetsetsa kuti makolo anga asatero Fufuzani. Ngakhale nditazindikira kuti ndili ndi zingwe, zomwe sindikufuna kuyankhula pano chifukwa sindikufuna kukuyambitsani.

Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti tsiku lililonse, ndinali mwana wabwinobwino, popanda vuto lililonse, sindinawonepo tanthauzo lililonse pamoyo wanga. Ndinkakonda kukhala ndi atsikana ndipo nthawi zonse ndimamva bwino kwambiri nawo, makamaka ndikapsompsona, ndikutumizirana mameseji… Monga ndanenera, ndinali wokongola (ndipo ndimakhala hahaha) kotero sindinakhale ndi vuto lopeza atsikana, koma ndimakhala choncho nthawi zonse wokondwa ndikamapita kunyumba chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti chinthu choyamba ndikutsegula kompyuta yanga ndikuwonera zolaula. Zinali zochita zanga za tsiku ndi tsiku. Ndili ndi 15 sekondale yomwe idayamba ndipo sindinali BOSS chifukwa panali anthu olimba kwambiri, akulu ndipo ndinali watsopano, sindimadziwa aliyense koma mwanjira ina ndidakwanitsa kuyamba chibwenzi ndi msungwana wowoneka bwino kwambiri pasukulupo.

Mofulumira, kugonana koyamba sikunayende bwino, bwenzi langa laling'ono silinakwere (tsopano ndikudziwa kuti zinali chifukwa cha zolaula komanso zomwe ndimayembekezera chifukwa cha zolaula koma osaganizira) tsiku lotsatira tinayesanso ndipo china chake monga kugonana chachitika . Kuyambira tsiku lomwelo sindinakhalepo ndi vuto ndi mzanga mpaka zaka 5 zapitazo. Pakati pa zaka 15 ndi 19 inali nthawi yakusekondale ndipo ndinali munthu wabwinobwino, wochezeka, wochezeka…

Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ngati gehena, ndipo chinthu chokha chomwe chasintha chinali kukoma kwanga. Zinafika poipa kwambiri, ndimayang'ana zinthu zomwe sindimakonda kwenikweni m'moyo weniweni, koma zolaula izi zidayamba (zachilendo = dopamine). Nthawi zina ndimayang'ana zinthu zomwe sizili zogonana koma chabwino. Ndili ndi zaka 19 koleji yanga idayamba. Ndinkakhala bwino bwino, anthu anali abwino, vuto linali kusowa kwa atsikana koma osaganizira. Inali nthawi yomwe mafoni oyamba anali pamsika koma sindinali wosazindikira, ndinali ndi NOKIA wakale hahaha. Ndinkafuna kompyuta yanga yakukoleji kuti makolo anga andigulire. Posakhalitsa ndidapeza foni yanga yoyamba ya smartphone. Chofunikira kwambiri ndikuti ndidathetsa chibwenzi changa, adandiuza kuti sindimagwira ntchito ndipo ndimabwereka ndalama. Ndinali wokhumudwa, ndimamva chisoni chifukwa ndimamukonda kwambiri.

Ndimamusowa kwambiri, koma ndili ndi intaneti yothamanga, kompyuta yanga yanga m'chipinda changa CHIMODZI komanso foni yamakono. Zindikirani zomwe zinachitika, magawo a PMO tsiku lililonse kwa maola. Koleji yanga ndiyolimba kwambiri ndipo imafunikira maola ambiri kutsogolo kwa kompyuta, choncho ndinazolowera PMO ola lililonse kapena awiri. Nthawi zina ndimakonda zolaula.

Tsiku lina nditangoyamba kumene, ine ndi mnzanga wapamtima tinali paulendo wopita ku mzinda wa Budapest ku Hungary ndipo tinapita ku kalabu yausiku, tinaledzera kwambiri ndipo tinakumana ndi atsikana ena, anali otentha ndipo mwanjira ina ine ndi m'modzi tinathera mchipinda changa cha hotelo. Mwina mukudziwa zomwe zidachitika, mwana wanga wamwamuna anali atamwalira momwe angathere. Ndinamupepesa, ndinati mowa chifukwa cha izi ndikupitiliza ndi moyo wanga. Ndayiwala kutchula kuti zidachitikapo kale, chimodzimodzi mtsikana wosiyana. Nthawi yoyamba sindinali kuda nkhawa koma ndinali ndi mowa wambiri m'magazi anga kotero…

Nthawi yachiwiri iyi koma ndinazindikira kuti ndataya moto mthupi mwanga, sindimadziwa kwenikweni koma ndimamva ngati atsikana enieni akubwereka, ndipo ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kwambiri ndikumapewa atsikana enieni mochuluka momwe ndingathere.

Vuto lalikulu linali loti ndinkangokhala wokhumudwa, sindinkafuna kupita kunja, sindinkafuna kulankhula ndi aliyense. Ndidakoleza koleji yanga kwambiri. Zithunzi zolaula ndizo zokha zomwe zidapangitsa moyo wanga kukhala wosangalala nthawi imeneyo.

Zolakwitsa zazikulu kwambiri zimabwera pompano. Ndinkafuna china chake chenicheni kotero ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche pa cam kupita pa intaneti. Kwa ine zinali zoposa kugonana kwenikweni, sindinakhalepo ndi vuto ndikumasula kapena kumasula, zinali zovuta kupeza atsikana nthawi zina ndimayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndi ena. Inde ma dude… Ndikudziwa izi zikumveka zoyipa koma ndizowona. Ndinapitiliza kuzichita tsiku lililonse kwa maola angapo, ndipo patadutsa miyezi ingapo, ndinazindikira kuti ndili ndi vuto lalikulu kwambiri. Sindingathe kukweza atsikana pazenera, koma zolaula zokhazokha, koma anyamata opanda mavuto ... wtf ndimasokonezeka ngati fuck kotero ndinasiya kuzichita, ndimamva zoyipa komanso zachilendo.

Ndinapitiliza PMO pa zolaula koma zinali kubwereka ndipo bwenzi langa laling'ono silinali lovuta momwe liyenera kukhalira. Moyo wanga weniweni unali tsoka, usiku wina ndinali kuvina mu chibonga ndi msungwana wokongola ndipo anali akunjenjemera ndi bulu wake pafupi ndi bwenzi langa laling'ono koma anali atamwalira ndipo inali nthawi yoyamba pomwe ndinachita mantha. Ndinali ndi mayesero angapo ndi atsikana ena koma opanda mwayi nthawi zonse. Ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa choti ndikuda nkhawa ndipo sindingathe kumasuka, izi ndi zomwe ndawerenga pa intaneti chifukwa cha vuto langa.

Vuto lalikulu ndilomwe ndidapeza kenako, inde izi zoyipa zimatchedwa ZOTHANDIZA zolaula, zolaula, mzimayi wamwamuna, wamtendere, tchulani momwe mumafunira. Ndikupepesa, sindikufuna kukhumudwitsa aliyense, koma kwa ine zonsezi ndi zoyipa chifukwa zidasokoneza moyo wanga. Kuledzera kumeneku kunali koipa kwambiri, nthawi iliyonse ndikayang'ana, kamnyamata kanga kanali kolimba ngati thanthwe, ndimamva moto mkati mwanga ndikumaziyang'ana, kenako ndikunyansidwa pambuyo pake. Sindikudziwa zomwe zikuchitika ndipo sindinasamale. Koma chinali chizoloŵezi china, kuledzera kunali kolimba ndipo ndinakhala chizolowezi kwa nthawi yayitali, ndikungoonera zolaula zokhazokha. Kotero china chake chokhudza moyo wanga weniweni, kukopa atsikana, osalimbikitsa chilichonse, kuyimitsidwa ndi masewera amtundu wina kale, anali ndi chiwerewere china chosapambana ndi msungwana wamkulu, anali wolusa, wonenepa ...

Sooooo chilimwe zaka 3 zapitazo, ine ndi anzanga tinapita kutchuthi, ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wina wabwino kwambiri, anali wolimba mtima, wanzeru, wowoneka bwino, oh anali 10/10. Anyamata andikhulupirireni, sindinagone ndi uyu, koma tidakhala ndi nthawi yopambana, ndipo mwamwayi amakhala pafupi ndi ine kwathu, motero tidalumikizana. Sindikudziwa kuti ndimatha bwanji kucheza naye, chifukwa ndimayang'ana atsikana ngati kuti anali mnofu ndi mafupa, koma mukudziwa chifukwa chake, munthawi yomwe ndidamuwona koyamba, ndinali masiku 10 ndili patchuthi ndipo sanawone zolaula zilizonse kotero kuti ubongo wanga sunali bwino.

Mtauni yakwathu, ndinali wokondwa kwambiri atanditumizira meseji, koma zomwe ndidazindikira ndikuti ndili ndi ZERO adzakhala ndi mphamvu zogonana naye, ndipo zinali zachilendo kwa ine. Nthawi zonse ndimanyazi kwambiri ndipo palibe chilichonse. Ndinamva kusokonezeka, koma ndimaganiza kuti zidzakhala bwino tikadzakhala pabedi. Inde zidachitika, tidali pachibwenzi kwakanthawi ndipo usiku wina tidagona pabedi. Anzanga okondedwa omwe mukuwerenga izi ... kodi mukudziwa momwe zimamvekera… imayamwa sooooo moyipa, kachiwirinso mwana wanga sanali wovuta, kwenikweni anali atamwalira kwambiri. Ndidamuuza kuti sizikugwirizana ndi iye, kuti ndatopa kwambiri komanso ndimadandaula.

Inu amene mukuwerenga izi ndi ine, tikudziwa chifukwa chake izi zachitika. Koma sikunathe ... Ndidabwerera kunyumba ndipo ndidatsegula kompyuta yanga, ndikupita pa intaneti, ndikulemba zolaula za TRANSEXUAL, ndikuwombera nthawi yomweyo, molimba ngati thanthwe .... Zikomo pa intaneti, mphindi yachiwiri ndinayamba kukhala ndi HOCD yayikulu. Mnyamata ndidaopa kufa kuti ndine gay ... Masiku angapo oyamba ndimakhala ku gehena, iwo omwe ali nawo, mukudziwa zomwe ndikunena, ndipo kenako ndikuwuzani zambiri za izi. Chifukwa chake ndidakhala pachibwenzi ndi mtsikanayo mwezi wamawa kapena iwiri, koma nthawi iliyonse yomwe timatuluka timakhala tikufuna zomwe amafuna, ndipo ndimamva chisoni. Sindingathe kuyankhula naye bwinobwino. Ndinali wamantha 24/7 ndipo osakopeka naye kotero tidasiyana. Ndinali wokondwa kwambiri titasiyana chifukwa zinali zosavuta kukhala omvetsa chisoni komanso kukhala ndekha popanda iye. Simungakhale ndi mtsikana ngati iye ngati ndinu womvetsa chisoni, wofuna kudzipha komanso wokhumudwa. Ayenera kukhala mwamuna wamkulu.

Zomwe ndinachita kenako, ndinayamba kuyang'ana mavuto anga ndikupeza NoFap, YBOP, Reboot Nation, nditazindikira kuti ndili ndi HOCD, kwenikweni ndinazindikira kuti ndikudziwononga ndekha kwa zaka khumi. Logicaly Ndidayimitsa kuonera zolaula monga amanenera pa NoFap, YBOP ndi Reboot Nation, masiku a 80 hardmode adapita mwachangu kwambiri kenako ndidatembenukanso ndi Tranny porn, ndipo zitatha izi ndidatsitsa masiku owerengeka. HOCD yanga inali yabwinoko pang'ono, koma kutali ndi zabwino. Libido, erections ndi nkhuni zam'mawa sizidalipobe.

Ndinadzikwiyira ndekha, chifukwa ndinkafuna kukhala BOSS monga momwe ndinaliri osati kuti ndiyende ndikufa. Ndayika zero yanga zero, ndikuganiza kuti nthawi ino ndidachita masiku 30 hardmode, ndinayambiranso kuyambiranso zolaula. Nthawi ino ndidadzimenya ndi chibakera kumutu momwe ndidaliri wokwiya. Kubwereranso masiku ena ochepa mobwerezabwereza ndikuwerenganso ndipo zachitika kangapo mzaka zitatu zapitazi. Zabwino zanga zinali masiku 3, munthawiyo ndimatha kukhala ndi ma boners ovuta nthawi zina komanso masiku 160/4 matabwa ammawa koma osakhala ndi libido. Ndikhulupirireni anyamata, sikuti papita masiku angati, koma ndi zomwe mukuchita m'masiku ano, ndipo mupanga chiyani munthawi kuyambira pano mpaka pano mutamwalira. Ndikukhulupirira kuti mumvetsetsa zomwe ndikuyesera kunena. Mukawerenga izi, pitani kwina, mulungu akudziwa komwe, ngati mungakwanitse, siyani foni kwanu, pitani kukakwera nkhuni, pitani kukwera njinga yanu, yocheza ndi anzanu, pitani kokachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, pitani kukaona agogo anu , thandizani makolo anu ndichinthu china, chitani china chake chothandiza, sichingasinthe dziko kapena moyo wanu, koma kuchichita tsiku lililonse, chizikhala chizolowezi chanu motero zikutanthauza kuti mudzakhala munthu wabwino. Iwalani za dick wanu ndi PIED komanso nkhani zina za fapstronauts, iwalani zodandaula kuti muli ndi matabwa m'mawa m'mawa kapena ayi, musaganize zomwe zingachitike mukapeza msungwana wabwino ndipo simumamuvuta ndipo ndi angati masiku mulibe PMO ndi bla bla bla.

Ndili ndi nkhani imodzi yoyipa kwa ena a inu anyamata… Chofunika kwambiri kwa ine ndi kwa nonsenu ndikubwezera. Ndimvereni, MUYENERA kulimbikira kupeza mnzanu. Kupita masiku ambiri opanda PMO ndi kwabwino komanso kothandiza koma ndichimake chabe pachimake pachimake. Kupita NoFap ndikusasintha chilichonse m'moyo wanu sikungasinthe chilichonse. Pali anthu ambiri pamasamba ambiri omwe akudandaula kuti ali 1,2,3 kapena 4 zaka mwamtheradi PMO mfulu ndipo sanapindule kalikonse. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa cholinga chawo chokha ndikumulimbikitsa mwana wawo wamwamuna kuti azitha kuseweretsa mtsikana aliyense yemwe amayenda pafupi. Ndizolakwika kwathunthu, ndikhulupirireni. Sitiyenera kukhala cholinga chanu, chifukwa ngati ndicholinga chanu, ndiye kuti mukuchita chilichonse cholakwika, ndipo mukudziwa chifukwa chake? Chifukwa NDINAKHALAKO.

Atsikana ndi anthu okongola, ndi oseketsa, amamvetsetsa, amafunikira chidwi chochuluka. Tsiku ndi tsiku ndimkhalidwe watsopano wopambana mtima wake. Kugonana ndichinthu china chabwino chomwe nthawi zambiri chimabwera limodzi ndi ubale. Muyenera kukhala oseketsa komanso abwino kwa iye ngati mukufuna kumusunga. Ali ndi moyo wake, ali ndi mavuto, mwezi uliwonse amakhala ndi masiku ochepa m'nyengo yake ndipo muyenera kumuthandiza, ayenera kukhala mzanu wapamtima. Lekani kuwachitira monga zidole zogonana, amayenera kukhala akulu kuposa inu munthawi ino. Ndikuwerenga nkhani zobwezeretsa, komanso nkhani za anthu omwe akhala pamavuto kwanthawi yayitali ndipo anthu ambiri amalankhula zamphamvu. Kodi supermans kapena chiyani? Dziwani kuti, simudzakhala ndi mphamvu zoposa, mungokhala munthu wabwinobwino. Mudzakhala munthu momwe mumayenera kukhalira ngati simunayang'ane zolaula kwanthawi yayitali.

Ndili kuti tsopano? Ndinazindikira izi pazolinga zamoyo kalekale, ndipo ndidasintha kakhalidwe kanga kathunthu. Ndimaphunzira zamakina, m'dziko langa ndi koleji yovuta kwambiri, ndipo ndatsiriza mayeso ovuta kwambiri chifukwa ndadzipereka kwathunthu, miyezi isanu ndi umodzi ndipo ndine injiniya ... Kodi mungakhulupirire? Zaka 3 zapitazo sindinali munthu, wopanda cholinga ... tsopano ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi katatu pamlungu, ndimawoneka bwino, ndidayamba nkhonya chaka chapitacho ndipo ndizothandiza pamoyo ndikhulupirireni, chifukwa moyo ndi mdani wamkulu, ndipo ngati inu Ndimafooka, zidzakuswetsani.Ndimayenda kwambiri nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndingathe, ndi ndalama kapena wopanda.Ndimacheza kwambiri, ndimayankhula ndi anthu ambiri, nthawi zina ndimapita kukakwera matola.

Chibwenzi changa chinandisiya zaka 5 zapitazo, ndipo lero tili limodzi, ndipo kunena zowona ndikadakhala kuti ndimakhala naye zaka 5 zapitazo, ndikadachitanso zomwe adachita kale chifukwa ndinali wopusa. Tsopano, ndine wokondwa kwambiri ndi iye, ndi wokongola kwambiri, ndimamukonda kwambiri ndipo timakhala nthawi yayitali limodzi. Ndipo tsopano china chokhudza kugonana chomwe ndikuganiza kuti aliyense akufuna kudziwa. Zizolowezi zolaula ... Sindingakuuzeni nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidachita PMO, koma kwenikweni, ndikuganiza zambiri ndiye kuti chaka ndi theka chatha.

Kodi timagonana bwino? Inde tili nawo, nthawi iliyonse ndikamuwona ali wamaliseche mnyamatayo ndi wolimba mwala ndipo timachita karezza kugonana chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti sikwanzeru kwambiri kugonana ndi kumaliseche pachiyambi ndipo zimakupangitsani kumva kuti mukufuna mnzanu mochulukira ndipo ndiwothandiza muubwenzi wanthawi yayitali kuti moto pakati pa onse azikhala nawo ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ngati mukugonana ndi mphumphu ndikutulutsa umuna nthawi zambiri zimatha kukubwezeretsani pang'ono.

Vuto ndiloti libido yanga sinapezeke bwino ndiye kuti sikuti ndikuyenda ndi miyala mu buluku langa koma ngati akufunika kuchitapo kanthu, ADZAKHALA wokonzeka. Nthawi yomaliza pomwe ndinawona zolaula za TRANNY zidapitilira zaka 2 zapitazo, ndipo ndikhulupirireni sindinalembe mpaka pano hahaha. Funso ndiloti kodi nthawi zonse mumakhala osokoneza bongo pa zolaula kapena mtundu wina uliwonse? Ayi !! Pambuyo pazaka zopitilira 2, ndayiwala zakomwe ndidaziwonera, koma muyenera kulimbana nazo. Imeneyi sikhala ntchito yosavuta. Monga momwe ndimamvera chisoni kale, ndimakhala ndi fetus chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito zolaula, ndipo patapita nthawi yayitali ndikukhala moyo wokangalika, zidatha.

Mukasiya kuonera zolaula, bongo wanu adzafunafuna dopamine mwanjira iliyonse yomwe ndingathe, ndikukuuzani kuti mudzayerekeze kugwera ku ubongo wanu nthawi zonse, ndipo mutapambana nkhondo zambiri muubongo wanu, ikuyimirani, ndipo ikukhala bwenzi lanu. Muyenera kuyikamo zolaula, ndipo yankho labwino kwambiri pazomwe ndidachita, ndikupereka chibwenzi changa akaunti yanga yotseka zolaula kuti aziwona zonse zomwe ndimafufuza pa intaneti. Yeserani tsopano kuyang'ana zolaula kapena chilichonse chokhudzana ndi masewera ngati muli ndi mipira. Kuti tifupikitse, YOPHUNZITSIRA KWAMBIRI SIYABWINO KWA INU.

Tsopano ndikukuuzani mwachidule zomwe muyenera kuchita ndi zomwe simuyenera kuchita:

1) Nthawi yomweyo lekani kuonera zolaula, ndikusiya ndi maliseche. (anthu ena amati kuseweretsa maliseche ndibwino, koma kodi ndizotheka kwa inu omwe mumakonda kuchita maliseche kuti muzichita maliseche osaganizira? Sindikuganiza choncho, ndipo maliseche amatenga mphamvu zanu, ndipo mphamvu ndi zomwe muyenera kuchita ZOPHUNZITSA zinthu.)

2) Mwaleka kuyang'ana zolaula, zikomo ndipo tsopano siyani kuonera makanema osayimika a YouTube ndi zithunzi za bikini kapena zithunzi za facebook, twitter, instagram ndi masamba ena miliyoni ngati awa. PITIRIZANI KUTENGA Zithunzi. Mukungodzipusitsa.

3) Ikani zolaula zabwino zolaula ndikupereka akaunti yanu kwa atsikana anu / chibwenzi / bwenzi / amayi / abambo / mlongo / mlongo / m'bale kapena aliyense.

4) Yambani kuchita zinthu zabwino pakali pano, koma poyamba kutuluka m'nyumba yanu, ndiyabwino kuyamba. Chitani zomwe mukufuna kuchita kwa nthawi yayitali.

5) MUSAPITE KUGONANA NDIPO YAMBIRANI KUGANIZA INU NOKHALA NDI AMBUYE, NDINAKHUMUDWA KUTI SIYO !!! Ndizopanda phindu, Sizoipa monga kuwonera zolaula, koma ndikhulupirireni kuti ndizoyipa.

6) Muyenera kufunafuna mnzanu. Wina yemwe mutha kugawana naye zinsinsi komanso wina amene mungamuuze zomwe zikuchitika. Ndikofunikira kwambiri. Kupatsa Mphoto CHINTHU CHOFUNIKA KWAMBIRI. Werenganinso !!!!!! Popanda izi, zinthu zimayenda pang'onopang'ono momwe angathere. Muyenera kuuza wokondedwa wanu zomwe zikuchitika chifukwa zidzathandiza kuti zinthu zizikhala zosavuta ndipo zidzakuchotsani. Ngati sakufuna kukhala wokuthandizani pamoyo wanu mukamachira, kuposa momwe sayenera kukuthandizani.

7) Mukawerenga masikuwo, MUSAKhumudwe ngati simukuwona kusintha pambuyo pa masiku opusa a masiku 90. Ndikhulupirireni, anthu ena atha kuchiritsidwa pambuyo pa masiku 90, koma ngati ndinu ovuta kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula monga momwe ndimakhalira, kuposa masiku 90 kumangotentha. Pambuyo masiku 90 muyenera kukhala opanda chilimbikitso chowonera zolaula ndipo ndizo zonse. Iyi ndi nthawi yomwe muyenera kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanu yopuma kuti muchite zinazake zabwino.

8) ZOSANGALATSA. Mayi wopusa ... nthawi yoyipa. Osandifunsa kapena aliyense zitenga nthawi yayitali bwanji chifukwa palibe amene akudziwa, mwina mwezi, kapena chaka, ngati wina akuwuzani kuti zitenga masiku 34, maola 9 ndi mphindi 14, mwina ndiwodzala ndi zoyipa. Yakwana nthawi yomwe ubongo wanu umafunikira kukhala wabwinobwino choncho muloleni atenge nthawi yonse yomwe akufuna. Izi ndizabwino kwambiri chifukwa zimamasula ubongo wanu pazolakalaka zolaula.

9) NKHANI ZA M'MAWA… chabwino ngati muganiza za izo tsiku ndi tsiku, ndizotheka kuti mulibe. Osakakamiza chilichonse. Ndi chizindikiro chabwino kuti mukuyenda bwino, koma mutha kudzuka popanda izi pazifukwa miliyoni monga nkhawa, kupsinjika kapena ALARM. Mukadzuka tsiku lililonse pogwiritsa ntchito alamu, ndiye kuti sizachilendo kuti mudumphe nthawi ngati imeneyi m'mawa mukakhala ndi mitengo yam'mawa. Chifukwa chake musadandaule za izi, nthawi yoyamba patatha zaka khumi ndimamva matabwa am'mawa patatha miyezi 4 ku NoFap. Anthu ena adakumana nazo pakatha miyezi 6 kapena 8 kapena kupitilira apo, musadandaule.

10) Musakhulupilire bongo wanu, adzayesa kukuchenjezani kangapo, tsopano ndiye mdani wanu. Osakugawira.

11) Khalani ndi anthu, ofunikira kwambiri.

Ndikuganiza kuti ndaphimba chilichonse chofunikira, tsopano ndithandizira anzanga omwe ali ndi HOCD (yoletsa zolaula kapena ayi).

Monga ndanenera kale m'mbuyomu, chifukwa chakusowa kwa dopamine muubongo wanga kwakanthawi ndidayamba kuwonera zolaula zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Zolaula zomwe ndimakonda zogonana zidabwereka kwambiri. Ndinkafunika kumenyedwa mwamphamvu pamutu, ndipo mitundu iyi inali yamphamvu kwambiri kotero ndinali bwino nayo, ndimadziwa kuti ndi zolaula zokha. Mavuto anga adayamba nditazindikira kuti sindingathe kukonza zolaula kapena ndi atsikana enieni. Ndinawopa kuti ndikhoza kukhala wachiwerewere, ndipo mphindi 5 pambuyo pake HOCD. Monga ndidanenera, masabata oyamba anali milungu yoyipitsitsa m'moyo wanga. Ndinali wamantha kwambiri, sindinakhulupirire kuti zikuchitika kwa ine, nthawi zonse ndimakonda atsikana, ndimakonda nawo, ndimawaganizira komanso zinthu zina zonse zokongola. Ndilibe chilichonse chotsutsana ndi amuna ogonana amuna okhaokha koma sindimatha kuwamvetsetsa. Kotero zomwe ndinachita, ndinayamba kukambirana za HOCD tsiku ndi tsiku ndi usiku, zinakhala zovuta zanga. Nthawi zina ndimamva kupumula nditawerenga za izi pa intaneti, ndipo nthawi zina ndimawerenga zinalembedwa ndi wina yemwe sakudziwa kuti HOCD ndi chiyani ndipo ndimamva chisoni. Zinanditengera mphamvu zanga zonse, sindimatha kugwira bwino ntchito, sindimatha kucheza ndi anzanga chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti ndikumva kuti ndingakhale gay. Ngati mwamuna wina anali pafupi nane, ndikadadwala. Ndimayang'ana amuna ndi akazi aliwonse mumsewu ndikuyesera kuti ndimvetse zomwe ndimakonda. Nditawona mkazi, sindinamvepo kalikonse (chifukwa cha zolaula zanga zidawononga ubongo), ndipo ndikayang'ana munthu wosasintha ndimamva kuyankha kovuta. Zinali zoyipa kwambiri. Nditha kulemba za masamba ena 10 chifukwa ndakhala ndikulimbana nawo kwazaka pafupifupi 2 koma sinditero chifukwa mukudziwa zinthu zonse. Chifukwa chake chaka choyamba chinali chowoneka bwino, ndimafuna kudziwa mayankho onse chifukwa chomwe ndili chonchi. Mukuona, ili ndi vuto, sindikufuna kulitcha HOCD, chifukwa ndingolitchula kuti OCD chifukwa ndi lomwe lili. Kodi mukudziwa kuti OCD ndi chiyani? Kuwonongeka Kwamphamvu-Kukakamiza. Ndi yosavuta ANXIETY. Funso limodzi kwa inu ndi bongo lanu mwakhala tsiku lonse pochita izi. Ndikhulupirireni, SIYOGA KAPENA BISEXUAL, ndipo kodi mukudziwa kuti ndichifukwa chiyani ndikutsimikiza XXUMX%? Chifukwa mumaopa kuti ndinu ogonana. Ndiwuzeni kanthu, kodi mukuganiza kuti anthu ogonana amuna ndi akazi ali ndi mantha kuti ndi ogonana? Ayi ayi, akuwopa momwe anthu achitire zinthu ndipo ndizo zonse. Safuna kugonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ali osangalala chifukwa ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ndikhulupirireni, ndalankhula ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ambiri. Ngati mutawafunsa, atha kukhala anthu osangalala kwambiri m'chilengedwe chonse ngati ali ndi mapulaneti ena gay pomwe palibe amene angawaone ngati pali cholakwika. Ndipo ndikakufunsani kuti mukufuna kukhala amuna kapena akazi okhaokha kapena owongoka, ndikudziwa yankho, koma simuyenera kuyankha, chifukwa ubongo wanu uzisewera ndipo simungamve ngati mukundiuza chowonadi. Mukuyerekeza kuti muli ndi amuna onse omwe mumakhala nawo pafupi ndipo mumamva kukhumudwa, mantha komanso kutopa chifukwa ubongo wanu ukugwira ntchito mwachangu kwambiri ndipo ukuwonongerani mphamvu zanu zonse. Mukuganiza kuti munthu yemwe amagonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha amamva kunyansidwa ndi bambo wina wokongola? Sindikuganiza choncho. Koma mumachita ndipo ndizomwe zimakupangitsani kukhala 10000% molunjika. OCD ikuwopseza NTHAWI ZONSE zomwe simukuyenera kukhalanso !!!!!!! Kumbukirani izi !!! Tsiku lililonse limakhala lovuta ndipo mudzadzifunsa mafunso miliyoni, ndipo ndi zomwe OCD ili. Ndawerenga mayeso opusa a OCD onena kuti mungadziyerekeze mukumpsompsona champhongo kapena ayi (mumakonda kapena ayi) ndipo ngati mungayankhe kuti inde ndinu gay ndipo ngati mukuti ayi ndiye kuti mukunena zoona. Ndizopusa chifukwa mwina mungakane koma ubongo wanu ungakuuzeni kuti sizowona. Chifukwa chake musachite mayeso opusa awa. Chinthu chotsatira ndi anthu ogonana omwe amakhala m'malo azovala. Chonde musayambe kumangoyenda ngati ndili m'chipinda kapena ayi hahahaha chifukwa simuli ndipo adzangowononga ubongo wanu. Anthu omwe anali "owongoka" moyo wawo wonse ndipo ali ndi ana ndipo tsopano ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, kenako mumadzifunsa nokha, bwanji ngati ili ndi vuto langa… hmm hmmm… chabwino sikuti chifukwa anali amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndipo nthawi zonse amafuna kukhala ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha koma samatha chifukwa cha gulu komanso chipembedzo. Ndili ndi mayeso amodzi abwino kwa inu omwe andithandiza kwambiri. Mukakhala m'galimoto, ndikudikirira kuwunika kwa magalimoto, ndipo ana ena otentha kwambiri akuyenda kutsogolo, bwino mphindi ino zomwe mumamva mukawona mtsikana uyu ndi zomwe muli. Kodi mukumvetsetsa? Mphindi yoyamba iyi pamene mudawona msungwana uja musanakhaleko opusa ndi OCD kuti adatengere ndikuyesera kusewera nanu miseche ndikuyesani kukutsimikizirani kuti ndinu ogonana ndi zomwe muli. Pambuyo pa masekondi a 5 ubongo wanu ubwera kudzakuwuzani kuti ndiwotopetsa ndikuti muyenera kuyang'ana munthu wina wokongola, koma sizofunikira, wachiwiri woyamba mutamuwona ndi wofunikira. Momwe ndimagonjetsera OCD yayikulu? Chifukwa chakuti ndinali wokonda zolaula, sindinathe kugwiritsa ntchito ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) pogwiritsa ntchito zolaula chifukwa ndimomwe ndazipezera, chifukwa chake ndimagwiritsa ntchito moyo weniweni wa ERP. Nthawi zambiri ndimapita ku sauna komwe kuli anyamata ambiri amaliseche ndipo ena mwa iwo ndi anyamata ogonana ndipo amakuyang'ana nthawi zina (nthawi zina ndimadzida ndekha kuti ndili wokongola LOL), koma ndikhulupirireni kuti ndiye chida champhamvu kwambiri chotsutsana ndi OCD. Osasiya kucheza ndi anzako ndipo osasiya kuchita zinthu ndikuyendera malo omwe mumawona ngati zonyansa, sikuthandiza, mukazindikira kuti palibe amene angakupwetekeni komanso kuti ndi lingaliro chabe lopusa ndiye mukupita kumva bwino. Malingaliro ndi malingaliro chabe. Nthawi zambiri ndimalota za ine ndi anyamata ena akuchita zinthu, ndipo zomwe ndimachita nthawi yoyamba? Ndinatsala pang'ono kudzipha, ndipo zomwe ndinachita kachiwiri? Palibe, ndinangodziuza kuti ndili ndi zinthu zambiri zofunika kwambiri kuposa kuda nkhawa ZAKUTI. Zolaula ndi zolaula, izi ndi ma pix okha. Mumapita ku cinema ndipo mumalipira ndalama zambiri kuti muwone kanema woopsa pomwe bambo yemwe ali ndi unyolo akumata anthu pakati, ndiye kodi zikutanthauza kuti m'moyo weniweni mungafune kuonera? Sindikuganiza choncho. Mudawonera kanemayo chifukwa siwachidziwikire ndipo mudamva zosangalatsa. Kodi mumamvetsetsa? Mukuganiza mwina mukakhala pabedi ndi mnyamata wina ndipo mumakhala ndi erection ndipo mwadzidzidzi mumagonana… Izi ndichinthu chomwe ambiri aife titha kuchita. Ambiri mwa omwe amasewera makanema olaula amagonana molunjika. Ngati mutsegula mulingo wa Kinsey, muwona kuti si anthu ambiri omwe ali ndi vuto la gay kapena 100% molunjika. Zikutanthauza kuti anthu ambiri amatha kugonana ndi munthu wamkazi, koma chinthu chofunikira ndichomwe mukufuna. Ndipo tsopano mwasokonezeka ndipo simukumvetsetsa zomwe mukufuna. Malingaliro awa akadzafika kwa inu, chinthu chokhacho chomwe muyenera kuchita ndicho CHINSINSI. Uku ndiye kusiyana kokha pakati pa inu ndi wina yemwe alibe OCD. Ngati wina yemwe alibe OCD amadzifunsa kuti ndi gay, yankho lake silikhala lalifupi. PALIBE mu sekondi imodzi ndipo zonse sizingakonzedwe komanso zovuta koma osati inu. Simungachite izi. Mukuganizira izi nthawi zonse. Sindingathe kulemba pano chilichonse chokhudza izi chifukwa ndidapeza pafupifupi yankho lililonse ngakhale funso linali lopusa bwanji. Ndikuganiza kuti ndili ndi mayankho onse omwe mungafune chifukwa ndinali ndi HOCD yayikulu ndipo ndimaligonjetsa.

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Ndinafuna kulemba izi kwa nthawi yayitali chifukwa ndikumva kuti ndili ndi mwayi wokhala ndimagulu.

Ndikufuna kunena kuthokoza kwa munthu aliyense wamkulu patsamba lino ndi masamba ena onse, omwe andithandiza kwambiri mu nthawi zowopsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga, ndipo ndikufunitsitsa modzipereka kwambiri kwa aliyense.

Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zithandiza munthu wina ndikuthandizani ena a inu anyamata. Ngati munthu mmodzi yekha akhala bwino atatha kuwerenga izi, ndipo ngati munthu m'modzi yekha achita zomwe ndanena, kuposa kuyesetsa konseku kolemba izi kudzandipangitsa kukhala munthu wosangalala kwambiri kukhala wamoyo.

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