Ndinazindikira kuti ndimakonda zolaula / maliseche zokhudzana ndi 2,5 zaka zapitazo. Nthawi imeneyo ndidali wokakamira. Kuti sindingathe ngakhale masiku 2 popanda pmo. Zaka zotsiriza za 2.5 izi zomwe ndinali ndimakhala ndimataya mtima ndikubwereranso, ndidaphunzira zambiri nditayambiranso. M'mapeto anga obwezeretsanso, ndidadumpha masiku angapo a 3 kangapo patsiku ndipo ndidathedwa nzeru komanso wopanda chiyembekezo kotero kuti ndidayamba kudzifunsa ngati ndili ndi moyo, malingaliro owopsa.
Chabwino ndimadziwa kuti ndimayenera kupanga kuti zinthu zichitike… Kotero ndidagula buku; mankhwala osokoneza bongo ochokera kwa a Matt Peplinski, omwe kale anali osokoneza bongo ndipo ndinaphunzira kulingalira zambiri zomwe ndingagwiritse ntchito pakakhala zovuta. Ndinawerenga buku lathunthu kwa sabata, ndipo zitatha izi ndinayenera kuchoka panyumba… sindinathe kukhala chifukwa ndinali wovutika maganizo kwambiri. Chifukwa chake 3 koloko usiku ndidasungitsa ndege yopita ku Canarian Islands (inemwini ndimakhala ku Nice, French Riviera, ndi kumwera kwa Europe). Ndipo adapita kumeneko masabata awiri. Kuti malingaliro anga agwirizane. Zochita zanga zomwe ndidachita ndi malangizo omwe ndingapereke:
Makamaka mwezi woyamba: khalani buzy, kulimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi, mverani nyimbo zomwe zimakupangitsani kukhala osangalala, osaganizira kwambiri za nofap yomwe imayikidwa tsiku ndi tsiku kwakanthawi komwe mutha kuwonera nofap vid kapena kudziwa zambiri. Pewani Zoyambitsa… Limenelo linali vuto langa lalikulu. Chifukwa chake ndidasiya kuwerenga nkhani yanga ya facebook, yochotsedwa pa instagram (6months ago). Chepetsani zochitika zanga. Komanso palibe ma vidiyo ochezera omwe akuwonera chifukwa ambiri mwa iwo ndi njira zoyambitsa zambiri. Ndikumva kuti ndimatulutsa nyimbo zolaula, zomwe zimandipangitsa ine, ndipo pa TV sindinathe kuwona zinthu zambiri chifukwa cha zoyambitsa .. chifukwa .. kugonana kuli paliponse pazofalitsa, ndizopenga.
Potengera ma URGES ... M'zaka zapitazi za 2,5 ndapanga zovuta kuyambira masiku 2 mpaka 48 ndipo nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimabwereranso chifukwa cha zolakalaka komanso malingaliro anga amandipusitsa. Chifukwa chake ngati mukumva chilakolako chikufuna, dziwani kuti ndi lingaliro chabe, osati zochulukirapo. Ngati ndikulakalaka, sindimenyana nawo, ndimawawona ndipo ndimangodziwa zokopa zawo, ngati chithunzi cha kavalo wamapiri pazenera. Ndipo samalani kuti ubongo ukupusitseni. Ngati ndimalimbana ndi zolimbikitsazo ubongo wanga umayamba kunena; Bwerani pa Mat, zolaula sizabwino kwa inu? aliyense amaziyang'ana! Kapena; eya mubwere ola limodzi lokha pa sabata, kapena: munthu amene mukusowa moyo…. Ndipo ndikadzabwereranso pazifukwa zilizonse, mphindi yomwe ndimatuluka, KUMVETSETSA KUKHALA.
Ndipo ndikumverera kovutirapo kwambiri ndikudziwa kuti mwangosokoneza nthawi yanu ya 100st ndi malingaliro anu musanabwerenso pomwe zonse zolakwika .. Chifukwa chake njira zatsopanozi zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito zinabweretsa kuti mpaka lero pa tsiku la 32 ndidakhala 0 amalimbikitsa kwambiri. Chifukwa pamene ndinamva wina akubwera kumbuyo kwanga ndimayigwira mosiyanasiyana ndipo sindinayambe kukayikira zamakhalidwe oyipa kapena kulimbana ndi zikhumbo m'njira zolakwika. Ndikhulupirira kuti sindikumveka modzikuza kwambiri; Ndikungofuna kunena kuti ngakhale mukungoyambitsa zochitika ndipo mukuyenda mozungulira kapena mukusowa chilimbikitso china. Osataya mtima.
Ndakhala ndikumadwala kovutanso kwambiri, kukhumudwa, ndidawawuza makolo anga za chinthu chomwe chidawopsa pamoyo wanga. Ine ndimaganiza kuti ndikupitiliza kusuta ndikuyambiranso kuyambiranso. Ndi tsiku la 32 lokha koma ndili ndi chidaliro kwambiri pakuyenda kwanga kwa masiku a 90. Nazi zabwino zina zomwe ndikufanizira ndi tsiku langa 0.
Ndimakhala ndi zolimbikitsira zowonjezera, mphamvu zowonjezera, makamaka masewera olimbitsa thupi. Chidaliro chowonjezereka komanso chidwi chokhala pagulu, ndimayamba pang'ono pang'ono kumverera pang'ono kuti ndikumakhalanso mwana. Zovuta zanga zakukhalapo kale ndizochepa ndipo sindisamala zomwe anthu amaganiza za ine.
Moyo ulinso ndi tanthauzo kwa ine ndipo ndine wokondwa kukhala ndi moyo, kusangalala ndikungokhala pagombe ndikuwona mbalame zina, zinthu zazing'onozi chifukwa cha zolandila zanga kubwezeretsa. Ndikubwerera kuntchito, ndikuyamba kuphunzira pang'ono pafupi ndi iyo ndikuyamba kuphunzira Chispanya. Zimamveka zonse zatsopano koma ndizabwinobwino popeza ndikubwera pang'onopang'ono mu msewu wamdima tsopano. Nkhani yanga yotsatira ikhala masiku a 6à ndipo atatha masiku a 90, chifukwa tsopano ndi chiyambi koma chiyambi chabwino.
Guys osataya mtima !! zidzatenga nthawi koma pali zotsatira zake kukhala ndi abale odala ndipo ngati wina ali ndi mafunso ndichisangalalo changa kuyankha iwo! Mat
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