Wosangalatsa; ilidi pamutu, koma mtunda pakati pa malingaliro awiriwo ndi woposa zaka 14. Zinayamba mwachisawawa pomwe mnzake wabanja adandidziwitsa tsambalo la achikulire. Ndikukumbukira kuti ndimawona izi osapanga zochuluka za izo. Mpaka miyezi ingapo nditayamba kufufuza mawebusayiti ena, osachitabe kalikonse. Koma usiku wina ndinamugwirira Dick wanga ndikuyamba kuchita zoseweretsa zithunzizo, kenako ndinabwera. Kusefukira kwamphamvu kudutsa muubongo wanga ndi thupi langa nthawi imodzi, ndikupangitsa kuti ndiziiwala kuti ndinali m'chipinda chimodzi.
Izi, kuphatikiza TV, masewera apakanema, zosagwiritsidwa ntchito mopanda tanthauzo zidapitilira zaka zonse zasekondale. Sindinaganizirepo kwambiri, ndimamva bwino. Panalibe chaka chimodzi kuyambira 2017 pomwe sindinachite maliseche kuposa masiku ena kalendala. Nthawi zina tsiku lililonse, nthawi zina ndimapuma sabata, kenako ndikubweza ndikubwezera ndikupita katatu katatu, mpaka kumapeto kwa chaka ndalama zimakhala motere: timesMasturbated> daysInAYear.
Ndinali nazo zonse. Chitonthozo cha nyumba, makolo achikondi, zosangalatsa mwakufuna kwawo, ndipo sindinkagwirira ntchito. Koma zidamveka zolakwika. Chifukwa chake ndidalemba ndikulowa kuyunivesite kunja kwa dziko langa, ndipo posakhalitsa ndidayenera kuchoka panyumba. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndiyenera kupangitsa moyo wanga kukhala wovuta mwadala, chifukwa apo ayi sindinachite chilichonse ndipo posakhalitsa moyo ungandigundire kumaso ndipo sindingakhale wokonzeka. Zaka zopewera ntchito, mikangano, khama, kudzipereka, chiopsezo zandipangitsa kukhala wofewa. Chifukwa chake "ndidadziwononga ndekha", ndikupita kutali ndi kwawo, kuchokera kumtunda, kwa omwe amandidziwa. Ndinalibe anzanga kumeneko, ndipo ndinali woipa pakupanga anzanga.
Ndinkadziwa kuti nthawi izandipanga kapena kundisokoneza. Ndipo kuphwanya sikunali kotheka. Zinali zovuta, ndipo ndimavutikira chifukwa maphunziro kumeneko anali enieni. Kuthawa kwanga mpaka nthawi imeneyo nthawi zonse kunali masewera apakanema, zosokoneza bongo (nkhani, facebook) komanso zolaula. Koma m'mene ndimaphunzirira, zonse za ine zimazungulira mwambi wakale "Zosankha zosavuta, moyo wovuta. Zosankha zovuta, moyo wosavuta ”. Koma zisanakhale bwino ndinayenera kuzindikira kuti zinali zoipa. Sindingathe kuyamba ntchito yanga, ndimangochedwetsa kwambiri ndi facebook komanso zolaula kuti zitheke.
Posakhalitsa ndidaphunzira ndikuyamba kusinkhasinkha, zomwe zidapangitsa kuti ndizindikire kwambiri zizolowezi zanga. Ndinachotsa facebook chaka chatha, koma ndimayesa kuchita zofananira ndi zolaula, ndimabwereranso. Apa ndipamene mumadziwa kuti ndikumwa. Ngati mukufuna kusiya, koma simungathe, ndikubwereranso, ndichizolowezi.
Ndinkadziwa bwino motero chifukwa ndimachita izi kawirikawiri, koma ndimayenera kugwiritsa ntchito mapulogalamu kuti nditseke masamba. Pomwe zolaula zolaulidwa ndidapita kuma cams kenako kupita ku masamba operekeza. Sindinasinthe. Mwanjira yoopsa.
Koma ndidakumana ndi msungwanayu ndipo kwakanthawi zizolowezi zoyipa zidasiya. Kwa nthawi yoyamba ndimayenera kuvomereza kuti ndinali ndi ED. Dick nthawi zina amagwira ntchito, koma nthawi zambiri sankagwira ntchito. Ndidamuuza, ndiye kuti ubale wathu udakhazikitsidwa - chowonadi. Anali wamphamvu kwambiri komanso womvetsetsa. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo ndimazindikira kuti zimapweteka kwambiri. Amadzimva kuti sanali wokwanira komanso zinthu zonse zamtunduwu. Mofulumira chaka chimodzi, pakati pazinthu zina zokhudzana ndi kupsinjika, ndidayamba kubwerera munjira zanga zakale. Koma nthawi ino zinali zoyipa kwambiri. Sindingathe kuchita, ndinali wokwiya, wamantha. Zinali zopusa. Ndinayamba kukhala wosowa ndi gf wanga munthawi yomwe anali pamavuto. Sindinadzizindikire nkomwe.
Zinathera poti ndinasiyana naye, ndikuganiza kuti ndi vuto lake. Koma posakhalitsa pozindikira kuti anali ine. Ndipo ndizo zonse zomwe ndimayenera kudziwa. Ndinayamba kuwerenga mitundu yonse yamabuku onena za chilakolako, redpill, chachimuna <-> mphamvu zachikazi, ybop, fightthenewdrug ndipo panali machitidwe obwerezabwereza ogwiritsa ntchito zolaula.
Ndidasiya kuonera zolaula nthawi imeneyo, ngakhale ndimakayikira kuti ndizomwe zidayambitsa. Pali zinthu zina zomwe zidandithandiza:
1) Kupeza chifukwa changa - Wanga woyamba chifukwa chiyani ndikuzindikira kuti ndawononga ubale wathanzi. Ndinalonjeza ndekha kuti sindidzawononga ubale wamunthu chifukwa cha zolaula. Ndizachilendo, koma ndi zomwe zimandilimbikitsa m'masiku oyambilira. Kenako ndidayamba kumanga chifukwa chake, ndikuwona kuti zolaula ndizomwe zili: phindu lochulukitsa popanda kuda nkhawa ndi moyo wa anthu (kuchokera munkhani zakugulitsa anthu, za anthu omwe amangodikira mipata yomwe idasiyidwa ndi zochitika zina m'miyoyo ya anthu). Mwa zabwino zake zabwino zotsika mtengo, kuthawa moyo weniweni, kumavuto amoyo weniweni. Poipa kwambiri, zimangokhala zonyansa. Ndili poti ngati ndikadakhala ndi mwayi wokoka makampaniwa ndikuwononga, ndikadachita mosazengereza. Umu ndi momwe ndimamvera za izi. Ndizogwirizana ndi chinthu china chomwe ndidamva "Malingaliro omwe adakufikitsani kuno si malingaliro omwe angakutulutseni kuno".
2) Kuimitsa chikhulupiriro ndikudalira njirayi - Izi ndizabwino kwambiri. Padzakhala nthawi zomwe simukhulupirira kuti izi zikugwira ntchito, mudzakayikira kuti mungasinthe, mungakayikire kuti ili ndiye vuto. Kubera komwe ndidapeza ndikuimitsa chikhulupiriro. M'malo mokangana pakati pa "zimagwira ntchito" ndi "sizigwira ntchito", ndinene kuti ndikuimitsa chikhulupiriro. Sindikukhulupirira kalikonse, koma ndikufuna umboni wina ndikunena kuti "ndibwerera ku lingaliro ili m'miyezi 6". Pochita izi, mumakhala ndi nthawi yolumikizana ndi zolaula kuti muchepetse ndikuyenda pamtsutso waukulu womwe ukuchitika m'mutu mwanu. Njirayi imafunikira nthaka yachonde ndi nthawi kuti ikule kukhala yatsopano, ndipo ndimaganizo awa mumagula nthawi imeneyo.
3) Kulimbana ndi moto - Padzakhala masiku, masiku amdima pomwe kulakalaka kudzakhala kwamphamvu simudzakhala ndi nthawi yambiri yoganiza bwino. Masiku amenewo mumayamba kuchitapo kanthu. Zolakalaka zikafika panali zinthu zingapo zomwe ndachita chaka chatha, mwina:
- pitani panja kukayenda
- pangani pushups mpaka wina akumva kuti manja ake akutentha komanso kupuma kwake kulemera
Wolemba; Chaka 1 + chopanda Porn, masiku 90+ opanda PMO. Zosankha zosavuta, moyo wovuta. Zosankha zovuta, moyo wosavuta. Mapindu ake samapezeka motsatira mzere - mvula yamkuntho kapena mtundu uliwonse wamanjenje mthupi womwe umalepheretsa malingaliro kuganiza
Pambuyo pa miyezi 7 yopanda zolaula, koma kuseweretsa maliseche, ndinasiya shuga (momwe ndingathere, chifukwa sindimadya maswiti). Pambuyo pa miyezi 3, nditawerenga nkhani zambiri zaumwini, ndi sayansi ndinazindikira kuti ndiyenera kuchita masiku onse a 90 opanda PMO. Pambuyo pa masabata a 4, ndidayamba kuzindikira malingaliro abwino. Ndinanyadira ndi zomwe ndachita, sindiyeneranso kukondedwa, sindikhala ndi nkhawa pagulu. Ndachita zinthu zambiri zomwe ndimaopa ndisanasiye PMO. Ndapereka magazi, ndakhala ndikuwonetsera pamaso pa anthu osadziwika a 40, ndidayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndikwezedwa pantchito, ndimakopeka ndi atsikana ena (osamva ngati ndiyenera kuchita china chilichonse), adauza anzanga ambiri (amuna ndi akazi) zokhudzana ndi zolaula zanga. Inenso ndinazembera kamodzi ndikumalota maloto 3-4.
Ndinamva ngati wamisala kuti ndimatha kugona, osayika manja anga. "Taonani ma ', opanda manja!". Ndipo chinthu choseketsa kwambiri chidachitika masiku angapo apitawa, nditauza mzanga wina yemwe wakwatiwa ndipo ali ndi ana za izi. Zomwe anandiuza zinandisangalatsa. Anandiuza kuti adakambirana nkhaniyi (PMO) kanthawi kapitako ndi mwamuna wake ndipo adamuuza kuti adachita maliseche kamodzi m'moyo wake, sanawone tanthauzo lake kenako osachitanso. Ndipo ndiyenera kukuwuzani nditamva izi, pafupi ndi masiku anga a 90, ndinamva ngati kuyitanidwa kuchitapo kanthu.
Mofulumira lero, tsiku la 91, ndiyenera kunena kuti ndine wonyadira ndekha komanso amuna onse omwe akutenga vutoli, ndikudzilekanitsa ndi zabodza, zopangira komanso zomwe zitha kusewera masewerawa. Ndikuthokoza nonsenu, omwe mwawonapo vutoli mwachangu, ndipo mwakhala olimba mtima ndikulankhula. Ndizowopsa kutaya, makamaka nthawi (zaka za moyo wanga), koma ndizabwino kuthetsa zotayikazo nthawi isanathe kuti ndiyambirenso. Komanso kwa iwo omwe amanga mudziwo, iwo omwe adakula mudziwo ndi omwe alowa nawo. Popanda nonse mwina sindikadakhala ndi mwayi lero woti ndiyambirenso moyo wanga.
Ndikudziwa kuti yawerengedwa kalekale, koma ndikuganiza kuti muyenera kudziwa momwe zinthu zinachitikira kuti mumvetsetse momwe chizolowezi chazolaula chidatulukira, komanso momwe ndimayenera kulimbana ndikudzitonthoza ndikupusitsa moyo wanga wakale kuti ndithe kupambana nkhondoyi.
Wosangalatsa; Chaka cha 1 + chopanda Porn, 90 + masiku PMO-free.
Wokondwa kuyankha mafunso.
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