Kusintha: Pano ndili pa tsiku la 120 la ulendo wanga. (Background)
Zopindulitsa zonse zomwe ndikukumana nazo zikungowonjezereka.
Potsirizira pake ndimamasuka ku kumwerekera kwanga ndipo moyo wanga uli bwino kwambiri kotero kuti ndatsimikiza kuti palibe njira yoti ndibwerere ku njira zanga zakale.
Sabata yatha ndinakwanitsa kugonana kasanu ndi kamodzi pamasiku awiri ndi chibwenzi changa. Ndinkacheza ndi mtsikanayu popeza ndinali ndi masiku 6 osaonera zolaula koma ndinali busy ndi ntchito moti ndimayenda kwambiri moti sitinali pachibwenzi kwenikweni. Tinapitako masiku angapo ndipo pafupifupi tsiku la 2 tinaganiza zogonana ndipo ndinatha.
Ponena za zongopeka za P, zokonda zanga zolaula [zinali] zidakula kwambiri ndipo ndimayang'ana zinthu zina zomwe sindimapeza zodzutsa m'moyo weniweni. Ndikuganiza kuti patatha miyezi 2-3 malingaliro a P amenewo adachepa kwambiri.
Ndidalimbana ndi PIED nthawi yayitali ya moyo wanga kuyambira pomwe ndidakonza ubongo wanga kuti ungoyankha zolaula kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 10.
Ndinkawopa kuti ubongo wanga udalumikizidwa kwanthawi zonse kuti ndiyankhe zolaula zokha koma makolo athu onse adaberekana bwino ndipo maulendo athu ogonana muubongo wathu akadalipo timangofunika kuwadzutsa.
Ichi chinali chipambano chachikulu kwa ine ndipo sindinakhalepo wosangalala m’moyo wanga.
Kungopatsa chiyembekezo kwa aliyense amene akuvutika. Moyo umakhala bwino kwambiri koma muyenera kusiya ndi zokopa zogonana. Palibe chabwino mmenemo.
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Ubwino womwe ndikukumana nawo:
Zopindulitsa pazagulu - Zopindulitsa zambiri zomwe ndidaziwona ndizachidziwikire. Pamene ndinali wozama m'chizoloŵezi changa ndinali chipolopolo cha munthu. Kuopa chikhalidwe, mantha akazi, mantha kunena maganizo anga, kwambiri chikhalidwe nkhawa. Kuyambira pamene ndinasiya chizoloŵezi chimenechi ndinaona kusintha kwa mbali imeneyi tsiku lililonse. Tsiku lililonse ndikukumana ndi mapindu ochulukirapo. Ndine wachikoka, ndine woseka kwambiri, wodekha kwambiri m'malo ochezera, kuyankhula ndi akazi kumakhala kosavuta tsiku lililonse likadutsa . Ndine wotsimikiza komanso wodalirika pazochitika zamagulu. Pamapeto pake ndikuyamba kumverera kuti ndikugwirizana ndi zomwe ndimakonda ndikalankhula.
Sindikudziwa kwenikweni sayansi kumbuyo kwa izi. Ngati wina ali ndi kufotokoza kwasayansi ndikufuna ndikumve. Ndikungolingalira. Kuwonera zolaula ndi kuseweretsa maliseche ndi chinthu chamanyazi. Palibe amene amanyadira . Palibe amene amapita kukacheza ndi abwenzi ndi achibale kuchuluka kwa zolaula zomwe amawonera komanso kangati amaseweretsa maliseche. Tonsefe timachita manyazi ndi mchitidwewu. Ichi ndichifukwa chake timamva post nut kumveka. Ndi apamwamba athu akutiuza kuti zomwe sitiyenera kuchita izi. Sindikudziwa kwenikweni koma ndikuganiza kuti ndichifukwa chake timakhala ndi nkhawa komanso osadzidalira. Kodi tingatani kuti tikhale olimba mtima podziwa zimene tikuchita tikakhala tokha komanso kuchita manyazi kwambiri? Sitinganamizire chidaliro. Iyenera kubwera kuchokera mkati ndipo iyenera kukhala yeniyeni. Tikanyamula manyazi kwambiri kuti chidaliro sichingakhale chenicheni. Ngakhale titayesa kuchita zinthu motsimikiza timadziwa kuti tikunama, sitikhala oona mtima kwa ife eni. Sitingathe kungokhala ndi kudzidalira kwabwinoko kumakambitsirana. Ngati ndife omvetsa chisoni ndipo tikudzipereka tokha kuonera zolaula sitingangosankha kudzimva bwino ndikukhala odzidalira komanso kudzidalira. Si zenizeni. Tikasiya ndipo nthawi ikudutsa, ndipo timamva kuti tagwira chizolowezi ichi ndipamene tingayambe kudzidalira. Ndipamene manyazi akuyamba kuzimiririka. Ndimamva bwino kwambiri za ine ndekha komanso ndimadzidalira kwambiri chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti munthu yemwe amawonera zolaula chaka chatha sindinenso. Munthu ameneyo wafa. Ine sindidzadzipereka ndekha. Sindibwerera komweko m'moyo wanga.
Nkhawa ndi kupsinjika maganizo zinachotsedwa- Ndikumva bwino kwambiri kuyambira pamene ndinasiya ndi zonyansazi. Nkhawa ndi kuvutika maganizo ndi nkhani yovuta ndipo sindikufuna kunena kuti zolaula ndi maliseche anali 100% chifukwa chake . Koma ndithudi zinachita mbali yaikulu mu zimenezo.
Chilimbikitso chochulukirapo, chikhumbo komanso kuyendetsa - ndikumva kukhala wolimbikitsidwa komanso wofunitsitsa. Tonse timadziwa momwe chizolowezi cholaula chingawononge dopamine yathu ndipo timataya chilimbikitso chochuluka ndikuyendetsa kuti tikwaniritse zinthu zina m'moyo. Kuyambira pamene ndinasiya ndikumva kuti ndikubwerera. Ndinayimitsanso zinthu zina zotsika mtengo za dopamine monga kungoyang'ana pa Instagram, Facebook, Youtube, ndinasiya kudya shuga. Ndikupanga dopamine detox ndipo imandithandizadi. Ndimalimbikitsidwa kwambiri kuchita zinthu m'moyo wanga.
Ndikumva kukhudzika mozama kwambiri - ndiziwona ngati phindu ngakhale kuti si onse omwe angavomereze. Ndinati kuledzera kumeneku kunandiphunzitsa zambiri za ine ndekha. Chinthu chinanso chimene ndinazindikira chinali chakuti ndinali kugonja maganizo anga ndi chisangalalo ndi kumwerekera. Nthawi zonse ndikamva ululu uliwonse wamalingaliro ndimatha kuzimitsa ndi zolaula. Nditasiya, maganizo amenewo anabwerera mwamphamvu. Moyo ukhoza kutipweteka ndipo ndi zina zomwe zinandichitikira m'moyo ndidakumana ndi chisoni, kukhumudwa, mkwiyo, nsanje, kusweka mtima komanso zomverera sizimasangalatsa koma ndizomwe zimatanthawuza kukhala munthu. Sindingasinthe chifukwa cha dzanzi la m'maganizo lomwe ndinali kumva. Chifukwa chake zinthu zabwino zikachitika, ndimakhala wosangalala komanso wosangalala mozama kwambiri.
Kusintha: Tsiku 166 la nofap
Panopa ndili ndi masiku a 166 opanda kuwonera zolaula. Ndili ndi zokhumba za 0 kuti ndiwonerenso zolaula. Sizikudutsanso m'maganizo mwanga.
Ndikuganiza kuti ndikuchira chifukwa ndikupitilizabe kuwona zabwino zonse zomwe ndatchulazi. Ndine munthu wosiyana kotheratu ndi pamene ndinali mu chizoloŵezi changa chozama.
Ndimakhulupirira kuti ndikuchiritsabe pogonana. Ndinayamba kuonera zolaula kuyambira ndili wamng'ono kotero zimatengera nthawi kuti ndisinthe zowonongeka zomwe ndachita.
Panopa ndili paubwenzi ndipo ndimagonana sabata iliyonse ndipo ndinali kulimbana ndi PIED kale koma tsopano ndikuganiza kuti ndachiritsidwa 90%. Sindingathe kuyimilirabe nthawi zina kuzungulira 3rd koma sindingaganize kuti ndi vuto. Nthawi zina kupsinjika ndi kutopa ndi zovuta zina zamoyo zimatha kuyambitsa izi ndipo ndi kuzungulira kwachitatu kotero sindingadandaule kwambiri za izi.
Ndimachiritsabe pogonana chifukwa ndimawona kuti ma erections anga amakhala bwino sabata iliyonse ndikagonana ndi bwenzi langa. Komanso ndimazindikira kuti kukhudzika kulikonse ndi bwenzi langa kumandibwezera ku flatline komwe ndilibe libido kwa sabata. Kodi zimenezi zingandichitikire ngati sindilola kuti ndizionera zolaula? Sindikudziwa kwenikweni. Kodi izi zidzasintha nthawi yowonjezera? Nthawi idzanena izi ndipo ndilabadira zimenezo.
Komabe ndili wokondwa kupitiriza ulendowu ndipo sindidzabwereranso ku moyo umenewo. Tsiku ndi tsiku ndimawona momwe moyo ulili bwino popanda zolaula. Ndiwowopsa ndipo moyo ukuchulukirachulukira tsiku lililonse popeza ndamasulidwa ku chizoloŵezi changa.
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