Moni nonse, ndimangofuna kugawana zomwe ndikukumana nazo ndi noFap, ndi PMO onse. Adaganiza zosiya PMO. Choyamba ndidapita masiku angapo. Ndiye sabata. Ndiye mwina masiku a 8. Kenako 10. Kenako 12. Mitsinje yayifupi yomwe ndinayambiranso. Zochita nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi.
- Anayamba MO'ing asanakwane msinkhu, PMO nditangofika 12-13. Ndikukumbukira kuti wina anali ndi mawu achinsinsi a akaunti ya BangBros, panthawi yomwe ndimamva kuti ndimagunda koma anali satana wodzibisa.
- PMO'd nthawi zonse kudzera muunyamata, komanso zaka zanga zaku koleji. Zambiri zomwe zalephera. Ndinayamba kukhala womangika komanso kucheza ndi anthu. Ndinali ndi mitsempha yowopsa yokhudza atsikana. Nthawi zambiri sanakhalepo ndiubwenzi watanthauzo munthawi ino.
- PMO wodziwika anali nkhani yanga pamwamba pa 2017. Wopusa monga izi zikumveka, kupambana kwa a Donald Trump chinali chifukwa chachikulu. Aliyense anati, "sangachite izi!" komabe, nazi, wazichita! Ngati angathe kuchita izi ndi malingaliro azomwe "sangathe", bwanji sindingathe?
- Komabe PMO'd pafupipafupi, amapita kukavula kilabu koyamba mu Marichi. Zosatheka kukhala zovuta kwambiri. Pozindikira pano ndinali ndi vuto lalikulu popeza aliyense anali wosangalala kuposa ine - kwa ine ndimamva ngati ndawononga ndalama. (Sindikulimbikitsa kuti ndikavule kalabu ngati mkhalidwe wabwinobwino, koma kuwona matani azimayi amaliseche komanso osamva chilichonse ndikungodzuka)
CHOFUNIKA ngakhale kubwereranso, ndimatha kunena kuti kupita patsogolo kumapangidwa, chifukwa ma streaks anali osavuta komanso osavuta. Ndipo nditabwereranso, adakhala achilengedwe kwambiri .. ..kubwerera koyambirira kunali kolunjika kwa PMO. Ndiye mwina kuwala kwa PMO. Kenako MO ndi zithunzi zochepa chabe. Ndiye MO ndikungoganiza chabe. Ndiye MO monga kumverera kwachilengedwe, osangoganizira chabe P, amangokhalira kusangalala ndi "kumverera" m'malo mongokweza malingaliro anga. Ndipo ndikayambiranso, sindinakhalepo ndi manyazi kapena chilichonse. Ndidatsimikizira kupita patsogolo ndikupitilira.
- Pomalizira pake ndinayamba kupeza mikwingwirima yabwinobwino, yolowererabe kuzungulira sabata la 3 kangapo. Apanso, ndinatsimikiza kuti kupita patsogolo sikunadzimenyenso kwambiri.
- Munthawi zazifupi izi, ndinakumana ndi mtsikana, bwenzi la mnzake, adauzidwa ndi abwenzi omwe akuganiza kuti ndawotcha ndipo ndidasankha kutsatira.
- pa 8/8 NDAKHALA komaliza.
- Zinayenda ndi atsikana masabata angapo pambuyo pake, zinali zamagetsi, timapsompsona tili ndi tsiku labwino.
- Kukhala ndi wina yemwe amakupeza wofunika kwambiri kunali kofunika kwambiri .... Ndinayimbanso pang'ono poyambira ndipo ndinkangoyesetsa kuti ndiyambe chibwenzi. Amayenera kuzichepera pang'ono. Ichi ndi chifukwa chachikulu chomwe sindingalimbikitsire chibwenzi pa NoFap kwathunthu… .. panali nthawi yayitali yodzikayikira komanso kudzinyadira komanso kudzidalira kuti "ndimasokoneza ubale wathu" - zomwe zimachepetsa chidaliro chanu ndipo IMO imatenga kutali ndi zina mwazabwino zake, chifukwa zabwino zambiri zimabwera chifukwa chokhala ndi chidaliro cholimba.
- Kuwonongeka koopsa kuyambira koyambirira / pakati pa 20 mpaka pafupi tsiku la 50. Izi zidagwirizananso ndi pomwe zinthu zimawoneka ngati zikuyenda ndi msungwanayo. Osatsimikiza ngati ndimakongoletsa kwambiri kotero kuti ndimapanga mapiri kuchokera ku molehill (malingaliro anga anali osasinthasintha), kapena ngati kupsinjika kwa zinthu ndi msungwanayo kudapangitsa kuti ndikhale pansi.
- Ndinkachita masewera olimbitsa thupi mosalekeza, ndipo ndili bwino kwambiri.
- Ndimafika kwa atsikana patapita milungu ingapo (pafupi ndi Halowini) ndipo ndimakhala paubwenzi ngakhale kuti ndimakondabe zibwenzi. Timawonana wina ndi mnzake masabata angapo, kamodzi pa sabata, kangapo pa sabata.
- Kutengeka mtima ngakhale. Ndikumva bwino kwambiri koposa zonse. Chenjerani kwambiri. Pamafunika kugona pang'ono kuti mumve ngati mupumula. Ndine zamagetsi zamagulu, ndimatha kulankhula komanso kukhala wakuthwa komanso kumalankhula pa ntchentche, chinthu chomwe sindingathe kuchita.
- Chokopa chachikazi… chikuwoneka chikukula pa NoFap. Sindinakhale pachibwenzi kwazaka zambiri ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi chilichonse chofunikira, komabe pano ndikupita masiku okhala ndi mtundu weniweni. Anzanga abwenzi amaonekanso… ..zambiri mwa ine. Osati kuti angabere anyamata anzawo, koma kusintha kwakukulu momwe amandichitira. Wochulukirapo ambiri. Olankhula zambiri. Tsitsi lambiri limazungulira LOL. Ndinkakonda kukhala munthu yemwe samatha 'kunena chilichonse ndipo abwenzi anzanga samavutikanso ndikungolankhula pang'ono kuposa nkhani yaying'ono yovuta. Tsopano, tikakhala pagulu la anthu, ndine munthu woyamba aliyense kuyankhulanso, ndipo ndimayankhula bwino.
- Mwadzidzidzi, ndazindikira nditatuluka ndi maanja, pofika usiku mwana wankhuku amawoneka kuti wamukwiyira kwambiri. Zachitika ndi maanja angapo. Pafupifupi ngati, alibe aura yomwe ndili nayo - kapena anapiye amva aura yanga ndipo amakhumudwa ndi anzawo omwe alibe. Ndikumva kupusa ngakhale kuwonjezera izi ngati mfundo, koma zachitika nthawi zokwanira zomwe ndimaona kuti ndiyenera kuwonjezera.
- Ndikukhulupirira kuti mumalandira aura, koma ndikukhulupirira kuti zimabwera chifukwa chodzidalira komanso kukhala opambana kuposa phindu lililonse la "kusungidwa kwa umuna".
- Sindinakhalepo ndi maloto onyowa moyo wanga wonse, ndinalota loto lalikulu tsiku la 127. Ndinali ndi nkhawa kuti zindisokoneza, koma ndinali nditadzikonzekeretsa m'maganizo kuti ndisapanikizike kwambiri ndi WD ndikuti mphamvu zimachokera mkati, osati umuna wosankha kusunga. Zotsatira zake, ndimadzimva kuti ndikuchepa tsiku lotsatira (lowoneka koma kwenikweni), koma ambiri sindinachite manyazi ndipo sindimamva ngati ndataya chidaliro kapena mphamvu zanga. Ine do ndikuganiza ngati ndikanapanikiza kwambiri lingaliro la "kusungidwa kwa umuna ndiye phindu lalikulu" lomwe mwina ndikadakhala ndikudziyesa ndekha kuti nditayike "aura" - pafupifupi ngati ulosi wodziyimira wokha. Popeza sindinayikepo chilichonse, sizinandikhudze. Koma ndikadakhala kuti ndidapanikizika ndikuyika katundu wambiri pamenepo, ndimamverera ngati zoyipa. Ndikuganiza kuti ndichifukwa chake anthu ambiri amachita manyazi atabwereranso (zomwe nanenso sindinakhalepo)
- Pang'ono mwa flatline / funk mwezi watha. Chilimbikitso chidakalipo, koma mwina ndazolowera ndipo zangokhala chizolowezi changa chatsopano. Ndiyenera kudzikakamiza kuti ndizisintha tsiku ndi tsiku, pomwe zisanamveke ngati kuti ndimasintha mwachilengedwe. Ndabwereranso kumachitidwe achikulire posachedwa, palibe PMO koma masewera olimbitsa thupi, kumwa kwambiri, nthawi yopumula yochulukirapo. Cholinga ndikupitiliza kudzaza nthawi yanga yaulere ndi zinthu zomwe zimandisangalatsa ndimunthu.
- Ndili pachibwenzi ndi mtsikanayo kuyambira pachiyambi - chibwenzi chenicheni choyambirira chomwe ndinganene. Zikuyenda bwino. Anali wangwiro pankhani yoyambiranso, osati kuti ndinamuuza, koma adawonetsa kuti amafunikira nthawi asanakhale pachibwenzi. Chifukwa chake ndidamupatsa nthawi, chifukwa sindimafuna kuthyola nati 🙂 Ndine wokondwa kuti kumasulidwa kwanga kotsatira kudzakhala ndi munthu wina osati dzanja langa!
- Ndili ndi kukweza chaka chino. Zinali zopindulitsa kwambiri pantchito kuposa miyezi yanga ya noFap.
- Ndili bwino kwambiri moyo wanga.
Ponseponse, ndizo chosankha chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidapangapo. Mudzafunsidwa nthawi zina, ndidangochita usiku watha, koma zimadutsa mwachangu ndikukhala otanganidwa, mudzakhala bwino - zolimbikitsazi zimachepa pakapita nthawi pa IMO.
Ndikupeza mafuta obweretsa zachilengedwe pafupi ndi akazi pano, ndipo ndimakhala ndi mitengo yabwino yam'mawa. Mawu anga ndi akuya kwambiri, ndili ndi tsitsi lowoneka bwino, tsitsi lambiri thupi, ma dick anga amakula pang'ono ndikuganiza izi chifukwa chakuti ma androgen receptors anga akugwiritsa ntchito T yanga munjira yabwino kwambiri. Kuyika ndiku futsa ma receptor anu a androgen mmwamba. Komanso, mphete za miyendo kapena chilichonse chozungulira maso anu, changa ndi chamdima kwambiri.
Sindimachita mvula yamkuntho, ndimangosinkhasinkha… .. ndimangokhala ngati ndimayenda m'maganizo mwanga ndikudziwonetsera.
Ndimagwiritsa ntchito udzu pafupifupi tsiku lililonse, koma osachulukitsa.
Ndimasuta ndudu, mankhwalawa adakwera pomwe ndimata, koma kugwiritsidwa ntchito sikokwanira.
Ndimamwa ……. Koma ndichifukwa choti ndilibe zochulukira pafupi nane ndipo mabowo othirira am'deralo ndichomwe muyenera kuchita sabata. Sindikumwa mopitirira muyeso kapena kuwononga mawonekedwe, makamaka masiku omwe ndimamwa mowa mwa njira iliyonse amakhala apamwamba kuposa momwe analiri, koma ndimakhalanso ochezeka komanso ndikudziyika ndekha mikhalidwe. Sindinayambe ndamwa mowa ndekha kunyumba.
Ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi kangapo pamlungu, ngakhale ndimadwala, maholide komanso ulesi zimandibwezera m'masabata angapo apitawa ndipo sindinapite pafupipafupi momwe ndikufunira. Kupita lero ngakhale!
Ndinkakonda kuchita masewera ovuta, sindinakhudzepo masewera kuyambira nthawi yanga. Nthawi zina. Makonda kuwerenga kapena kuphunzira kapena kutuluka kenako zombie kutsogolo kwa TV. Sindikukhulupirira kuti pali vuto pakusewera pang'ono, osangogwiritsa ngati dopamine. Chimodzimodzi ndi ndudu, udzu, mowa, ndi zina zotero. Kuchita bwino ndikwabwino, osangotengera chizolowezi chomwe mumakhala nacho ndikuzolowera.
Cholinga changa ndikhale kwa PMO mfulu, KWAULERE. Ndimamva kuti ndaphimba chilichonse koma ngati wina ali ndi mafunso omasuka kufunsa, ndikhulupirira kuti izi zitha kupereka malingaliro ndi malingaliro kwa ena omwe akufuna kusintha moyo wawo.
Ndine 26, ndinali ndi PIED, khulupirirani kuti wachiritsidwa kwambiri 🙂
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