Gawo loyamba laulendo wanga latha. Ndinkafuna kufikira masiku a 90 ndisanatumize. Ndiye izi zikupita.
Zonsezi zidayamba mu 2009 ngati ndikukumbukira bwino ndinali mgiredi la 10. Chomwe ndidakumana nacho koyamba ndi zolaula zinali zolaula zolaula zomwe njira yakomweko imagwiritsa ntchito usiku kwambiri chifukwa cha zovuta ndimakhala nditawonera. Ndikukumbukira usiku wina ndidadzigunda ndekha pafupi pachimake, man the bloodrush was amazing, popeza sindinamvetsetse zomwe zinali kuchitika (pokhala namwali nthawi imeneyo) ndimaganiza kuti munthuyu akumva bwino.
Kenako mwachangu miyezi ingapo mzere mnzanga adandibwereka chimbale chovuta kwambiri, ndipamene ndidayamba kuseweretsa maliseche. Zikanakhala kamodzi pa sabata, ndiye kamodzi pamwezi ndimatha kuwongolera pamenepo (kapena ndimaganiza). Chotsatira ndinadziwa kuti ndikuthamangira kuseweretsa maliseche pofuna kungopeza chitonthozo, ndimabwerera kunyumba ndikudziyika mchipinda changa ndikuyamba kuseweretsa maliseche.
Kamodzi pamlungu / mwezi kenaka kunkawonjezeka tsiku ndi tsiku, maphunziro anga anakwiyitsa, ndinayamba kulanda aliyense yemwe angafune kuyandikira kwa ine. Ndidakankhira abwenzi kutali (zikomo Mulungu ena adatsalira), kenako ku 2012 ndili ku koleji ndidazindikira kuti ndinali wosiyana ndi ana ena, china chake sichinali bwino nane. Ndinaganiza zofika kumapeto kwake koma sikunali maliseche, anali mzanga yemwe adandilimbikitsa kusukulu yasekondale. Ndinaiwala ndipo zinali mu 2013 pomwe ndidaganiza zofufuza pa Google "Zovuta zolaula", ndidapeza tsamba lanu Ubongo Wanu pa Zithunzi, ndidaganiza zotenga zovuta zamasiku 90.
Ndinali woyang'anira mpaka zizindikiritso zakubwezeretsa zitayamba ndipo ndinalowa mkati mwa masiku 17 mzere wanga wautali kwambiri pamenepo. Komabe ndi zomwe ndapeza kuti ndimakana kuti "bwenzi langa labwino maliseche" ndilo vuto. Ndinapitiliza njira zanga mpaka 2015, pomwe ndinawona kufunikira kowonjezeranso zomwe zingachitike ndikasiya PMO. Ndidalemba mndandanda wazinthu zomwe ndikadatha ndikasiya, sindinasiye ndi chidziwitso chonse chomwe ndidapeza ndikupitilira 2016.
Tsopano mu 2016 zochitika zingapo, ndidadzipeza ndekha bwenzi langa loyamba lomwe anali wofunitsitsa kupita nane, ndikuganiza kuti pofika nthawi yomwe tinali ndi sabata kuti tiseweretse maliseche ndipo mzere wonyentchera unali utandigunda kale. Tinapita kuchipinda ndikuyamba kupsompsona, ndinali ndi boner. Nthawi yolowera itakwana zonse zidapita kummwera chondichitikira changa choyamba ndi PIED. Adatsikira pa ine palibe chomwe chimayesa chilichonse kuyambira bj to hj ndikadalibe kalikonse.
Kenako tidaganiza zogona, pakati pausiku ndidadzuka ndikundikwiyitsa kuti nditha kukhala ndi mtsikana patsogolo panga koma osapeza mpangiri. Tinaganiza zosiya njira zathu. Panali patatha milungu itatu nditalumikizana ndi ina ndikumatula bat kwinaku atatha kunena kuti ndinali wamanjenje ndipo adandipatsa ndikumwa kuti ndipume, kugonana kudali kodabwitsa koma nthawi yogonana ndimatha kumva kuti kulumala kumatha. Pambuyo pausiku womwewo chaser ine ndidakumana ndi ine ndipo ndidapita kunyumba ndikudziwitsa.
Ndili paulendo wanga ngati kuti palibe chomwe chidachitika, tidakhala pachibwenzi kwa 2016 yambiri ndikukhala ndi zovuta zakugonana ndipo sindinadulidwe panthawiyo. Chifukwa chake usiku wina tikamagonana tonse tidauma ndipo tikamalowa khungu lidadulidwa, pomwepo kenako ndidaganiza zodulidwa.
Tsopano zimakhala zachilendo, ndinadulidwa, milungu iwiri kuti ndichiritse ndikumangirira ndi chilichonse chomwe ndapeza njira yodziseweretsa maliseche. Mnyamata anali wowopsa komanso wopusa, mwamwayi panalibe kuwonongeka kulikonse. Tsopano kale komanso pamene ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche mopitirira muyeso kumapeto kwa chaka ndinadzipatula kwa iye ndipo anachitcha kuti kusiya. Mwamuna ndinali wosweka koma ndidapitilizabe kuseweretsa maliseche mu 2017, ndipo mu 2017 ndidapeza msungwana watsopano. Izi zidatha posachedwa pomwe zidayamba chifukwa ndimapwetekabe pachibwenzi changa choyambirira. Ngakhale ndi chidziwitso chonsecho ndimakhalabe ndi maliseche ambiri a 2017 mpaka Meyi pomwe ndidalowa nawo NoFap. Kenako ndidayamba kukhazikitsa ma streaks ndikuwaswa motalika kwambiri omwe ndidapita chaka chatha anali masiku 29 ngati sindikulakwitsa.
Kenako ndinapitiliza kuchita zoseweretsa, ndiye kumapeto kwa Seputembala ndidaganiza zoyesa njira yatsopano. Nditha kukhazikitsa chingwe ndikuswa mwadala. Ndinayamba kukhazikitsa masiku a 7 kenako ndidaswa, ndiye idali masiku a 14 omwe ndidaswa ndiye kuti inali masabata a 3, adachitanso chimodzimodzi. Ndidachitanso momwe zidakhalira kwa mwezi umodzi ndiye ndidasweka ndipo ndidali ndodo yomaliza yomwe ndidasweka chifukwa mukapita mwezi osadziseweretsa maliseche mumayamba kumva bwino kwambiri ndipo simukufunanso kubwerera munjira zomwezo zomwe mudakhala nazo kale .
Unali sabata loyamba la Disembala 5th pomwe mzere wanga wapano unayambika ndipo mpaka 23rd ya mwezi womwewo pomwe ndidaganiza zobwerera ku NoFap. Tsopano ndikumva bwino kuyandikira 120 yayikulu, kuyambira pachiyambi ndadzipeza ndekha bwenzi labwino labwino lomwe ndidatsegula kwa yemwe wakhala akundithandiza komanso womvetsetsa.
Chidaliro chakwera kwambiri, azimayi ena amakhala ofunda mkati ndi mozungulira ine ndikulamula ulemu ndi ma gents. Liwu langa ndi lakuya kwambiri anthu ambiri andiuza izi ndipo tsopano ndikamayankhula anthu amamvera poyerekeza ndi nthawi imeneyo ndimatha kulowa mchipinda ndipo anthu amakhala chete. Tsopano ndine munthu wokonda kulankhula kwambiri. Ndimadzikwiyitsa nthawi zina momwe ndimayankhulira kwambiri komanso masewera omwe ndimanyoza nawonso awombera. Ndimvera kwambiri nthabwala.
Ndimakumbukirabe nthawi yina chinthu chimodzi chidachitika kwa ine. Ndimayenda pamsewu ndikudutsa sukulu yanga yasekondale (sindimakhala kutali ndi komweko) kotero m'mene ndimaganizira zanga, msungwana uyu amandipatsa moni ndipo ndidamuyankha ndi moni wopanda chidaliro koma adapitiliza anandiuza kuti ndili ndi bulu wamkulu ndipo zikuwoneka ngati ndikupota ndikungoyenda panjira. Tinaseka kwambiri za izi ndipo tinasiyana.
Mndandanda wa zabwino ndizosatha ndipo ndaphunzira kuthana ndi zovuta zanga. Chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe ndazindikira ndikuti muyenera kukhalabe ndi hydrate chifukwa mukangomwa madzi osakwanira ndikudya chakudya chopatsa thanzi zomwe zikuwoneka ngati zikuchulukirachulukira ndipo mudzabwereranso kuzinthu zakale. Malingaliro anga sakuwonekeranso utsi wamaubongo ndili ndi malingaliro odabwitsa omwe ena a iwo sindikudziwa choti ndichite nawo, koma nthawi ino ndikuwongolera chilichonse kuposa momwe ndimawonera zolaula. Kukhazikika kwanga kwasintha ndipo ndimaseka kwambiri. Dziko ndi lokongola ndipo ndikhulupirireni ngati mwangoyamba kumene ulendowu mwezi woyamba ndi wovuta kwambiri koma mukadutsa kale ndikuwona zabwinozo mufuna zambiri paulendowu.
Mukamayandikira kwambiri kwa PMO mukhala ndi ulamuliro wambiri ndipo mudzatha kulemba tsogolo lanu. Chimodzi chomwe ndikuyenera kuchita ndikukwaniritsa zina mwazomwe ndidasunga chaka chatha. Zaka 9 zolaula zatha ndipo ndikupitabe kuzinthu zabwinoko.
Ndikudziwa kuti ndi yowerenga nthawi yayitali ndipo ndikuthokoza kwambiri anyamata chifukwa chondithandizira. Tikuwonani tsiku 180.
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