Ndakhala ndi mikwingwirima ngati 100, 130, 30,40 ndi zina zotero. Munali mu Epulo, 2018 ndidayamba ntchito yanga yoyamba nditavutika kwambiri ndikudandaula. Unali Disembala, 2018 ndidagonana ndi munthu wina ndi mnzake koyamba. Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinali m'ndandanda wa 90 + nthawi imeneyo. Tsopano nkhaniyi chifukwa reddit idandipatsa alendo ambiri omwe amandithandiza m'njira ndipo ndibwino kuti tisadziwane bwino. Mukudziwa, Reddit adandipatsa zinthu zambiri ndipo ndiyenera kubwezera kena kake. Chifukwa chiyani ndikunena zonsezi?
Pamaso pa nofap panali zipinda zonse zamdima zokhala ndi zowonera zochepa ndikuwerenga mabulogu amomwe mungapezere atsikana. Ndinayamba zolaula ndili ndi zaka 14 ndipo tsopano ndili ndi zaka 27. Ndinali ndi zibwenzi zochepa kale koma sindinakhalepo ndi chidwi chowagona. Mwinamwake ndinganene kuti ndinali waulesi kwambiri kukonzekera zonsezi. Mukudziwa, bwanji mukuika pachiwopsezo chowatenga, kukhazikitsa malo achikondi, kuyandikira ndi zinthu zonse zenizeni m'moyo. Zomwe ndimayenera kuchita ndikutseka maso anga ndikuwayerekezera mpaka dzanja langa litatopa. Kapena yatsani laputopu kuti mupeze msungwana wabwino. Chifukwa chocheza ndi kudzipangitsa kukhala wabwinoko.
Nthawi iliyonse ndikatsegula YouTube pazofuna zamaphunziro, mbiri yanga yakusakatula sigwirizana ndi malingaliro anga. Ndikayamba kuwerenga buku, malingaliro anga amakonza nthawi yotseka chitseko.
Nthawi inali kuthamanga. Anzanga ambiri adayamba kulandira kale. Sindimapita ngakhale paphwando chifukwa sindinathe kukumana nawo. Ndinazindikira kuti ndakhala wotayika. Iwo anali atachedwa kale koma osati mochedwa kwambiri.
Ndinaganiza zosintha ndekha. Ndinkafuna wachikulire ine yemwe anali champ pakati pa abwenzi ake. Ndinkatsata njira zakale kusukulu - zizolowereni zabwino. Anachotsa chilichonse chomwe sindingathe kuuza banja langa monyadira.
Damn ndinalira tsiku langa loyamba la 90th la nofap. Zinathandiza. Zomwe ndimayenera kuchita ndikuti ndisataye mtima komanso kuti ndisataye chiyembekezo. Pafupifupi miyezi isanu ndi itatu yakulimbana ndidapeza ntchito yanga yoyamba ndipo malipiro anali abwino kwambiri mgulu langa. Ngakhale sindinadziwe kuti ndinali ndi kuthekera kopeza zochuluka chotere. Sindinachedwe. Ndinasunga mayendedwe omwewo. Chifukwa ndikudziwa zomwe ndiyenera kuchita ndikungotaya chiyembekezo. Pakati pa miyezi 8 ndinalandira kuchokera kwa kasitomala ndi malipiro atatu. Sindinali wokhoza kuchita nawo timu yanga koma ndidatenga zisankho zowopsa. Pambuyo pake ndinalibe choti nditaye. Ndawona zoyipa kwambiri.
Tsopano ndili ndi nzeru zomvetsetsa zomwe zidasokonekera nthawi imeneyo. Ndinalibe nthawi yodzipangira bwino. Ndinkalakalaka kugula buku lolimbikitsa. Ndinapitiliza kufunafuna buku labwino koposa m'malo mongowononga nthawi powerenga chilichonse chomwe ndingapeze. Ndikutha kuona chifukwa chake sindimapita kukalankhula ndi anthu chifukwa ndimaopa kuti ndimanunkha cum. Tsiku lonse ndinali ndi tulo. Damn ndimatha kuwona mosavuta anthu ngati okalamba ine panjira.
Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake ndikulemba izi koma ndikufuna kuti nonse mupange zisankho zabwino. Siyani malo ochezera. Siyani zonse zomwe zimakuchedwetsani. Reddit yasinthadi moyo wanga. Ngati nofap ndiye gawo loyamba la makwerero, kukwera makwerero kapena ayi kumadalira inu. PANGANI ZISANKHO ZABWINO. Khalani munthu yemwe mungakondwere naye. Idyani wathanzi. Mugone munthawi yake. Werengani mabuku ambiri. Osachita chilichonse mumdima. Khalani chirombo chomwe mdierekezi amamuopa. Musalole kuti mdima ukuwonongeni
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