Poyamba chifukwa, chabwino ndinabwereranso ku zizolowezi zakale koma ndinkaganiza kuti ndiyenera kutumizira nkhani yanga iliyonse, chifukwa NDIDZIWA ntchito za nofap.
Popeza ndinali pafupi 13 Ndayang'ana zovuta zolaula pa Intaneti (Ndine 28 tsopano). Izi zandichititsa chidwi changa kwa amai enieni, zinandipangitsa kukhala ndi malingaliro odabwitsa omwe ndikanalota usiku, ndimakhala ndi PMO kangapo patsiku, ndikudandaula ndikudziletsa kwambiri.
Sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi, ngakhale ndinali wamtali komanso zomwe atsikana ambiri adatinso "okongola". Ndikukumbukira atsikana ambiri kusekondale komanso kusekondale omwe amkandikopa ine ndi vuto limodzi la mtsikana molunjika kundifunsa MNTHAWI ya 10th ..ndipo anali wotentha kwambiri. Koma ndinawakana ONSE. Ndinkachita nawo mantha komanso sindinkawasamala kwambiri…. Bwanji? Chifukwa ndimatha kupita kunyumba kukawona atsikana omwe ndimawakonda komanso PMO. Kodi ndinakumananso ndi akazi ati? Mkazi woyamba amene ndinagonana naye anali… hule. Akazi anali chabe chida chogonana kwa ine, m'malingaliro mwanga. Ndinali ndi zaka 16 pamene ndinachita zimenezo.
Ndili ndi bwenzi langa loyamba mchaka changa choyamba ku koleji… ndinamupeza bwanji? Chibwenzi pa intaneti, palibe chotsutsana ndi chibwenzi pa intaneti koma ndizodabwitsa kuti ndidazichita .. mukudziwa… ONLINE. Komabe zinthu zinkayenda bwino, koma nthawi zonse ndinkangokhalira kusokonezeka chifukwa chomwe libido yanga sinkawonekere kuti ndiyofunika kwambiri ndi iye. Tinali patali ndipo pamapeto pake, ndili ndi zaka 22, nthawi ina yomwe amabwera kudzandipeza… SINDINAKHOZE kudzuka. Palibe ngakhale kamodzi! Zinandichititsa mantha, koma ndimaganiza kuti mwina ndimangokhala wamanjenje… miyezi ingapo pambuyo pake ndidamuwonanso chimodzimodzi! Ndalephera kangapo kuti ndipeze! Paulendo wake wama sabata awiri, patsiku lomaliza lokha ndidadzuka kuti ndizigonana kwambiri.
Zinkawopsya kuti zindichotsera ine ndipo ine ndikudziwa kuti pali chinachake cholakwika, kotero ndinayesa kufufuza ndikupeza anubrainrebalanced: Ndinapita ku hardmode pambuyo pake ndikupita kwa miyezi 4 popanda kubwereranso.
ZABWINO ZABWINO: Ndinali pafupifupi 70% WOPHUNZITSIDWA ndi tsiku 30 mpaka 40 (osakumbukira tsiku lenileni). Ndidawonanso GF yanga yayitali ndipo ndidalimbikitsidwa ndikungondigwira! Zinali zosangalatsa! Zinali momwe ndimaganizira momwe ndikadakhalira. * Nthawi iliyonse * tikayesera kugonana, ndinali wolimba ndipo ndimatha kuchita! Ndinamuwonananso pafupifupi mwezi wachinayi wamizere yanga ndipo ndimavutikabe ... koma ndinayamba kutaya msanga msanga (kuphipha kwa thupi langa lomwe ndikuganiza kuti BC) lomwe ndikuganiza kuti likadatha "kuchiritsidwa" ndi ma kegels omwe ndikufuna yang'anani koma ine ndikupatuka.
Ndikudziwa kuti izi zikugwira ntchito, ndazichita kale. Nthawi yanga yambiri, ndinalibe malingaliro opusa, sindinaganizepo za mahule, ndinapanga anzanga atsikana (monga mwa atsikana omwe ndi anzawo) ubongo wanga wa ubongo unachoka, sindinakhumudwe kwenikweni, ndinayamba kugwira ntchito kunja (akuchitabe) etc.
Nkhani zoipa: mwachidule, popeza nkhaniyi ndi yopambana, pamapeto pake ndinayambiranso ndipo kuyambira 23-27 ndimayang'ana zolaula 2-3x pa sabata popeza ndinalibe NoFap kumbuyo kwa malingaliro anga ... kusintha kwakukulu kuchokera ku 2-3x yanga TSIKU koma osakwanira. Ndinayamba kukhala ndi malingaliro odabwitsika komanso kupsinjika kwakanthawi ... osati moyipa monga kale koma zidabweranso. Monga wa 2018, ndidabwerera ku 1-2x patsiku… ndipo zakhala zoyipa kachiwiri.
Pakadali pano masabata a 3 opanda zolaula (koma MO adachita zoseketsa sabata yapitayo kotero ndimawona kuti ndiyambiranso). Zimagwira, ndikudziwa kuti zimagwira ntchito, ndipo ndizokwanira kuti ndisiye zolaula. Ndikudwala PIED kachiwiri, koma ndikudziwa kuti ipitanso ... mwina zitenga nthawi yayitali kuposa nthawi yomaliza koma zikhale choncho. Ndikudziwa kuti zimagwira ntchito. Kwa aliyense amene awerenga izi, zikuyenderani inunso (yesani mayeso a PIED kuti muwone ngati sichachipatala).
Zikomo powerenga.
LINK - Mbiri yanga yapitayi yopambana, PIED yachiritsidwa kwathunthu.
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