Uku ndikuyesa kwanga koyamba ku No Fap, ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yanga imalimbikitsa anthu omwe akuvutika ndi izi. Monga ambiri pano, ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito ku PMO ndili mwana, zaka zambiri zomwe zimachokera ku khungu la khungu zimayamba kukhala zolaula. Mwanjira ina, ndimatha kukhala ndi moyo wathanzi komanso kumacheza pafupipafupi, ngakhale ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula; Kapena ndinali?
Ndinali kukana za kuledzera kwanga, kukhala wamkulu "wogwira ntchito" kunandipangitsa kukhulupirira kuti ndikhoza kukhala ndi ubale wabwino ndi zolaula komanso anthu ena.
Zaka zikamadutsa, kudalira kwanga zolaula kudakulirakulira ndipo ndidalephera kudzipereka ku chibwenzi chilichonse. Ndinagunda pansi 2015-17 pomwe ndidayamba kukulitsa malo osungirako anzanga, zosonkhanitsa bwino kuposa 4TB.
Kudalira kwanga kwa akazi enieni okhutiritsa zogonana kumachepa kwambiri, ndinali pachibwenzi koma ndinalibe chidwi chambiri chokwera kugonana; Ndinali ndi vuto la zolaula kuti ndibwerere, izi zinali zosavuta kuposa kuyambitsa kugonana kwenikweni.
Kutsogolo mwachangu ku 2017, ndidagwa molimba mtima chifukwa cha msungwanayu ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba zaka zingapo ndidatsata mkazi, mwachangu. Tidakhala miyezi ingapo, titakhazikika pa zolaula ndipo sitimayesa kutenga chibwenzicho, ngakhale tidakondana wina ndi mnzake ndipo ndimamufuna mwa njira iliyonse yomwe mungaganizire.
Ndidayesa kumuchepetsa porn kuti ndikhale wolimba naye koma zinali zovuta kwambiri panthawiyo, zomwe zidandilimbikitsazo sizimakhalapo ndipo ndimalephera mobwerezabwereza.
Pambuyo pake adakwera ndipo zochitikazo zidakonzedwera ife, mkazi wokongola kwambiri, wamaliseche, wodabwitsa, mmanja mwanga, chilichonse chomwe ndimaganiza kuti adzakhala. Anali wokonzeka, sindinali (monga ambiri a inu mukudziwa momwe zimachitikira… limp dikzit!). Nthawi yochititsa manyazi kwambiri m'moyo wanga; Ndimatha kuwona kukhumudwa m'maso mwake momwe amayesera kubisala, zimandipweteka kuti sindingathe kumupatsa chibwenzi chomwe amalakalaka.
Sindinagwiritse ntchito mbolo yanga patatha chaka chimodzi ndipo sindinadziwe chomwe chinali vuto ndi ine. Sindinagone usiku womwewo ndipo nditatha kuzindikiranso, ndinazindikira za PIED yoopsa komanso NoFap subreddit. ZOTHANDIZA ZINTHU ZINTHU, Ndinayenera kugwiritsira ntchito ubongo wanga chifukwa chonyansa changa chimangoyankha zolaula.
Ichi chinali cholimbikitsa changa kuti ndisiye ndipo sindinayang'anenso kumbuyo. Zinayamba pamene ine ndikufuna kuti ndisiye chizolowezi changa kuti ndikhale ndi ubale wathanzi, wokwaniritsa ndi msungwana wanga; tsopano zakhala zikukula kwa ine monga munthu.
Ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri masiku ano, ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi, ndimatha kugona osafinya. Makhalidwe a PIED nawonso apita, sindikufunikiranso zolaula kuti ndizivuta, zopukutira kumanja ndikwanira kuti ndipite. Mitengo yam'mawa yabwerera ndipo ndinalota maloto mozungulira tsiku la 44/45, AF yodabwitsa.
Zokopa zimabwera nthawi zina monga zimayambitsa pena paliponse, komabe, kupita masiku a 90 kwachita zodabwitsa ku kufuna kwanga. Ndimatha kusiyanitsa ndikangowona zomwe zikuyambitsa ndipo ndikungolakalaka kugona ndi akazi enieni.
Ndinachotsa zolaula zanga zilizonse zolaula za 4 + TB ndipo tsopano nditha kutsamira.
Kuyambira pamenepo ndagawana ndi msungwana wanga ndipo amandithandizira.
Mphamvu zazikulu zomwe nonse mumalankhula ndi abale enieni, lingaliro langa ndiloti ndizikhalidwe zomwe tidataya kwa PMO. Sindikufuna kutayanso iwo. Malo otsetsereka ndi enieni komanso zizindikiritso zakutha zimachokera ku gehena.
Ndikukuthokozani nonse chifukwa cha zolemba zanu ndi chilimbikitso, chonde omasuka kufunsa mafunso okhudzaulendo wanga.
Khala wamphamvu aliyense!
Ingotembenuka 28.
LINK - Masiku 90 oyera - nkhani "yayifupi"
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