Ndisanayambe ndisiyeni ndinene kuti ndilibe chilichonse chotsutsana ndi anthu omwe amadziwika kuti ndi LGBT, izi zikunena za kupeza dzina langa. Ndisanayambe nofap ndimaganiza kuti ndimakonda zolaula, ndimangokhalira kusuta 3-4 patsiku (osachepera), ndikuyang'ana zolaula zambiri, ndimalakalaka zokhala ndi amuna ena, ndimakondabe akazi koma ndimaganiza kuti ndikakhala ndi munthu kukhala zokumana nazo zabwino, ndinali wosokonezeka
Ndili kumapeto kwa 20 ndipo ndinali ndisanakhalepo ndi chidwi chofanana cha kugonana m'moyo wanga. Ndinkadziwa kuti malingaliro anga ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha sanali abwinobwino [kwa ine], zifukwa 2, 1 panali zokhazokha zomwe ndimakopeka nazo, sindinakopeke mwanjira iliyonse ndipo chachiwiri ndinali kumapeto kwa 20s pomwe ndimamva Tiyeni uku.
Ndinaganiza zopanga nofap pakati pa chaka chatha, ndipo kuyambira pamenepo sindinakhale ndi zokopa zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Akazi ndiosangalatsa kwambiri. Ngakhale azimayi omwe samawoneka ngati ma bikini ndi nyenyezi zolaula amaoneka ngati azimuna, ndipo ndidayamba kuwona chimodzi, ndipo ndine wokondwa kukhala naye. Nofap imagwira ntchito anyamata, uwu ndiye wokondwa kwambiri kuposa kale lonse m'moyo wanga.
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ZAMBIRI - Ndikufuna kugawana nkhani yanga yolaula komanso maliseche ...
Ndidatumiza momwe zolaula zidayambitsa chisokonezo chogonana m'moyo wanga, ndikumva ngati ndikufuna kugawana nkhani yanga yonse. Izi zitha kujambulidwa pang'ono.
Zinayamba ndi kanema…
Ndinali ndi zaka 14 pamene ndinali kuwonera kanema ndi anzanga usiku wina, kanemayo anali ndi zowoneka zokongola momwemo, zomwe masiku ano ndimaziwona ngati zoyipa kwambiri, ndipo wazaka 14 zakubadwa ndidachita nazo chidwi. M'mawa mwake ndidazembera pa amayi ndi abambo kompyuta ndikulemba 'zolaula' ... Mmawa womwewo ndidadzuka koyamba.
Chotsatira chinali zaka 15 ndikukhala mwamanyazi, ndimapita kutchalitchi nditatsala pang'ono kukwanitsa zaka 17 ndikukhala Mkhristu, zolaula zidakhala chinsinsi chonyansa chomwe sindimatha kuuza mnzake wapamtima. Anandigwira ndikuyang'ana zolaula mwachangu, koma sizinayime, Mpaka ndili ndi zaka 4 ndimayang'anabe masamba a mitundu ndipo ndinabwereka makanema ambiri (mwachitsanzo Conan The Barbarian and Starship Troopers) kuti ndingoonera zamaliseche, ine anali kugwedeza kangapo kanayi patsiku. Ndili ndi zaka 17 ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti pakompyuta yanga ndipo ndinayambiranso kuwona zolaula zolimba.
Zolakwitsa zanga zidakulirakulirabe, poyamba ndimangokhala vanila, koma posakhalitsa, sizinali zokwanira ndi 20s anga oyambilira, ndinayamba kuwonera feteleza wowonjezera, hentai, ukapolo, kutsekula, ma shemales, kudziletsa kwamaganizidwe, kukana ndikukhala ndi malingaliro oti ndimafuna azimayi azimayi mazana ambiri omwe analibe chikhumbo china m'moyo kuposa kundisangalatsa. Pambuyo pake zinafika poti ndimayang'ana mkazi wachisangalalo mu chisangalalo ndipo ndinawona kuti mbolo ya mwamunayo imakhala ngati yobweretsa chisangalalo…. Ndimamva ngati ndikufunanso izi, ndipo ndidayamba kuganiza zokhala ndimnyamata.
Ndidakhala chonchi kwa zaka zambiri, ndimangowonera zolaula zambiri, ngakhale ndimakhala pakona ya uni kona kuti ndizitha kuwonera zolaula pafoni yanga, nthawi yopuma ndikugwira ntchito kwa mphindi 10 ndikuyang'ana mchipinda, sindinathe ngakhale kugona pokhapokha nditayang'ana zolaula ndikugwedezeka, ndipo sindinathe kutuluka pabedi pokhapokha nditachita.
Sindingathe kuyandikira azimayi, ayi kuyambira ndili wachinyamata, ndimadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa, wamanyazi sindimatha kuyankhula ndi mkazi chifukwa ndimaopa kuti zikhala zovuta. Sindingathe kuthana ndi manyazi. Ndinkavutikanso ndi nkhawa, kusowa ntchito komanso kukhumudwa.
Pambuyo pake ndidazindikira kuti ndiyenera kusiya, ndipo ndidangotopa ndikulakwa, manyazi komanso zinsinsi. Ndangoyima, ndinasiya kuyang'anitsitsa komanso kukopa mafunde ozizira, kusefukira kozizira, kusefa mapulogalamu komanso kufunitsitsa kuti ndisiye zolaula, patangopita miyezi ingapo ndinayamba Nofap, ndakhala ndikuchita Nofap pasanathe chaka chimodzi ndipo ndikumva bwino kuti ndachiritsidwa. Ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri, sindikhala wopanikizika, ndipo ndimadzidalira kwambiri azimayi, malingaliro anga pa akazi asintha, Akazi omwe samawoneka ngati ma supermodels kapena nyenyezi zolaula amawoneka mulu wokongola kuposa kale. Ndayambanso kucheza ndi munthu miyezi ingapo yapitayo koyamba mzaka zopitilira khumi. Ndikumva ngati nyama yomwe imatha kugwira nyanga zamphongo zamphongo. Moyo sunakhalepo wabwino kuposa kale lonse.
ZAMBIRI - Nkhani yanga yokhudza zolaula komanso kuchira
Zinayamba ndi kanema…
Ndinali ndi zaka 14 pamene ndinali kuwonera kanema ndi anzanga usiku wina, kanemayo anali ndi zowoneka zokongola momwemo, zomwe masiku ano ndimaziwona ngati zoyipa kwambiri, ndipo wazaka 14 zakubadwa ndidachita nazo chidwi. M'mawa mwake ndidazembera pa amayi ndi abambo kompyuta ndikulemba 'zolaula' ... Mmawa womwewo ndidadzuka koyamba.
Chotsatira chinali zaka 15 ndikukhala mwamanyazi, ndimapita kutchalitchi nditatsala pang'ono kukwanitsa zaka 17 ndikukhala Mkhristu, zolaula zidakhala chinsinsi chonyansa chomwe sindimatha kuuza mnzake wapamtima. Anandigwira ndikuyang'ana zolaula mwachangu, koma sizinayime, Mpaka ndili ndi zaka 4 ndimayang'anabe masamba a mitundu ndipo ndinabwereka makanema ambiri (mwachitsanzo Conan The Barbarian and Starship Troopers) kuti ndingoonera zamaliseche, ine anali kugwedeza kangapo kanayi patsiku. Ndili ndi zaka 17 ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti pakompyuta yanga ndipo ndinayambiranso kuwona zolaula zolimba.
Zolakwitsa zanga zidakulirakulirabe, poyamba ndimangokhala vanila, koma posakhalitsa, sizinali zokwanira, nditangoyamba kumene 20s ndinali nditapanga feteleza ochulukirapo, hentai, ukapolo, kutsekula, ma shemales, kudziletsa kwamaganizidwe, ndikukhala ndi malingaliro oti ndimafuna azimayi azimayi mazana ambiri omwe analibe chikhumbo china m'moyo kuposa kundisangalatsa. Pamapeto pake zinafika poti ndimayang'ana mkazi wachisangalalo mu chisangalalo ndipo ndinawona kuti mbolo ya mwamunayo imakhala ngati yobweretsa chisangalalo…. Ndimamva ngati ndikufunanso izi, ndipo ndidayamba kuganiza zokhala ndimnyamata.
Ndidakhala chonchi kwa zaka zambiri, ndimangowonera zolaula zambiri, ngakhale ndimakhala pakona ya uni kona kuti ndizitha kuwonera zolaula pafoni yanga, nthawi yopuma ndikugwira ntchito kwa mphindi 10 ndikuyang'ana mchipinda, sindinathe ngakhale kugona pokhapokha nditayang'ana zolaula ndikugwedezeka, ndipo sindinathe kutuluka pabedi pokhapokha nditachita.
Sindingathe kuyandikira azimayi, ayi kuyambira ndili wachinyamata, ndimadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa, wamanyazi sindimatha kuyankhula ndi mkazi chifukwa ndimaopa kuti zikhala zovuta. Sindingathe kuthana ndi manyazi. Ndinkavutikanso ndi nkhawa, kusowa ntchito komanso kukhumudwa.
Moyo wanga unali wovuta, ndinali nditachoka kuntchito imodzi chifukwa cha nkhawa ndipo ndinayamba kugwira ntchito limodzi ndi kampani yayikulu kwambiri padziko lonse lapansi, ndinali nditapatsidwa mwayi wopemphedwa ndipo ndinamupereka kwa munthu wina yemwe amakhala wopanda vuto lililonse. analibe chidziwitso cha IT. Sindinkagwira ntchito kachiwiri pasanathe chaka chimodzi.
Kwa pafupifupi sabata ndimangokhala mchipinda changa osachita china chilichonse koma kubisala mchipinda changa, kuwonera zolaula komanso kugwedezeka. Ndimalankhula ndi m'modzi mwa anzanga aku Tchalitchi ndipo adati anali ndi nthawi yolaula ndipo adandiuza momwe zolaula zilili zoyipa, ndipo china chake chimangodina, nthawi zambiri sindimayang'ana zolaula ndikakhala kutali ndi anzanga komanso Ndinaganiza kuti masiku atatuwa anali mutu wabwino. Ndinafika kunyumba ndikuyika pulogalamu yosefa pakompyuta yanga. Koma ndimapitilizabe kutuluka nthawi 4-10 patsiku. Ndinawona kuti zinali zovuta kwambiri kuti zikhale zovuta. Kukula kumatenga nthawi yayitali mpaka kufika pachimake ndipo ziphuphu sizinali zabwino chifukwa sindinathe kuvuta ngakhale nditayesetsa motani.
Miyezi ya 2 pambuyo pake ndimasanthula reddit ndikuwerenga za NoFap zomwe zimakhala zovuta kupita masiku a 90 popanda kuseweretsa maliseche, m'mawa wotsatira ndidagona pabedi ndipo ndidangojambula ndipo china chake chidasokonekera. Ndimatha kupita ku 90 masiku osasefera. Masabata awiri oyambilira kapena apo anali ovuta kwambiri; Ndimamwa ndikudziletsa kuti ndisasefa (monga kusefa ndi chikhodzodzo kwathunthu kumapangitsa kuti mbolo yanga ivute). Patatha milungu iwiri ndinazindikira kuti mbolo yanga yonse inali yaing'ono komanso yaying'ono kwambiri kuposa kale, koma zinali zomveka bwino, ndimatha kumva thupi langa likuchira. Komanso ndinalimba mtima ndikamakhala ndi azimayi, ndipo ndinkaona kuti azimayi akufuna kulankhula nane. Zolankhula zanga kuzungulira azimayi zinali zowonekera bwino komanso zopanda zovuta. Ma bonon anga adabweranso, ndipo pafupifupi m'mawa uliwonse mbolo yanga imakhala yolimba kwambiri. Ndinaonanso kuti zikhumbo zanga zokhudzana ndi kugonana kwa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha zidatha ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba zaka sizinasokonezenso malingaliro anga okonda kugonana.
Ndinayamba kutsatira mtsikana amene ndimamukonda kwambiri. Patadutsa mwezi umodzi, adandizunguliza ndipo ndidakhumudwa, masiku 60 kupita ku Nofap ndidabwereranso. Ndimamva ngati zopanda pake pambuyo pake koma kuyang'ana kumbuyo kunali mbali yabwino, Zinanditengera masekondi kuti ndikhale ovuta, ndinabwera mwachangu kwambiri ndipo sindinayang'ane zolaula kuti ndichite ndipo chinali chodabwitsa kwambiri chomwe ndimamverera nthawi yayitali, ndipo panali ubwamuna wochuluka kwambiri. Ndinazindikiranso kuti mtsikanayo sanali zonse, wina amabwera.
Masiku 50 kupita ku Nofap ndinalandiranso ntchito yatsopano, ndipo ndi ntchito yabwino kwambiri yomwe ndakhalapo nayo, sindinapanikizike kwambiri ndipo sindikuwerengeranso maola asanafike nthawi yakunyumba. Ndidazindikira kuti nkhawa yanga idatsika kale; Sindinkafikiranso mwamantha kwa abwana kuwopa kuchotsedwa ntchito. Ndimakonda ntchito yanga komanso moyo wanga. Ndimayandikiranso kwambiri kwa Mulungu ndipo ndidayambiranso kudzipereka ndikuwerenga Baibulo. Ndinayambanso kuwona msungwana wina kumapeto kwa chaka chatha. Sitili pachibwenzi pano, koma takhala tikuchezera pang'ono ndipo ndimakonda komwe ikupita, timalumikizana kwambiri ndipo izi zalimbitsanso chidaliro changa. Tsopano nditakwaniritsa zovuta zamasiku 90, moyo wanga wachita zonse 180, ndine bambo tsopano ndipo sindine mwana wamng'ono yemwe wamwalira miyezi 9 yapitayo. Nofap ndiye wabwino kwambiri, ndikupangira izi kwa aliyense.
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