Zinanditengera nthawi yayitali kuti ndifike kuno. Sindingathe kuchita izi popanda bwenzi langa. Kwa inu nomwe mukuchita izi nokha, mumandilemekeza kwambiri. Mwina sindipeza mavoti ambiri pazomwezi, koma sindikuwuzani kuti ndili ndi mphamvu tsopano, chifukwa ndilibe. Ndimakhumudwitsabe, ndimakhala ndi masiku oyipa, ndipo nthawi zina ndimayesedwa kuti ndizitsatira zolaula. Zanga zamtundu wanga sizinasowepo, koma zachepetsa kwambiri.
Izi ndi zinthu zoyipa zomwe zachotsedwa. Tsopano pali zabwino:
• Zovuta. Abwerera. Monga, kubwerera kwenikweni. Private Morning Wood amalipira ntchito tsiku lililonse.
• Kukhalapo. Ndimakhalapo kwambiri makamaka panthawi yogonana. Nthawi zambiri ndimaganiza za wina nthawi yogonana. Zimachitika nthawi zina, koma sizocheperako kuposa momwe zimakhalira. Chifukwa sindikufunika kutero. Chisangalalo ndiubwenzi zili bwino kuposa kale.
• Kumveka kwa lingaliro. Sindinakhalepo ndi ubongo waubongo kwanthawi yayitali ndayiwala pafupifupi momwe zimamvera. Ndine wolankhula bwino komanso ndimalankhula. -Kudziwitsa. Ndimadziwika bwino kwambiri zondizungulira ngakhale ndili ndi njira zopitira.
• Kudzidalira. Ndimadzidalira kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikhoza kuzichita ndikayika malingaliro anga. Ndimayang'ana m'maso ndikusamalira, makamaka ndi amuna ena. Ndikumva ngati ndikhoza kudziwa ngati wina amaonera zolaula komanso kusamvetseka kwambiri. Amawoneka ngati akunena kuti amachita manyazi ndi china chake. Ndikudziwa bwino.
Momwe ndiyenera kuyankhulira za momwe zidanditengera nthawi yayitali komanso zoyipa zimamveka panjira. Zithunzi zolaula zimatha kukuthamangitsani. Ndakhala ndikuziwona kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 15. Ndinayamba zolaula - inde, ngakhale nthawi yanga yoyamba kugwedezeka. Ndinagona ndi operekeza opitilira. Ndakumanapo ndi anthu osawadziwa pa intaneti omwe amagonana osadziwika m'zipinda zamdima. Ndinayamba kuyang'ana sissy hypnosis, ndikufunsa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndikukhala ndi nkhawa yayikulu komanso kukhumudwa. Ndinatsala pang'ono kutha ndi chibwenzi changa chifukwa cha chiwonongeko chomwe chikubwera chomwe sindingathe kumenya izi, zikhumbo zanga, zolimbikitsa zanga, kudzidalira kwanga koopsa. Ndavala pamtanda ndikudzipusitsa chifukwa chofuna kukhutitsa kugonana.
Mwamwayi, sindinafike mpaka pa moyo wa "wachikazi", koma ndiyo njira yomwe ndinali, mpaka bwenzi langa litafika powonekera. Ena a inu simudziwa chomwe izi zikutanthauza. Ena a inu mutero, ndipo kuwerenga izi kukupatsani mpumulo. Ngati mumvetsetsa zomwe ndikunena, mvetsetsani kuti mulibe tsogolo. Mukuyang'anira moyo wanu wamagazi, zirizonse zomwe mumakonda.
Sindinazindikire kwa nthawi yayitali kuti zambiri, izi zidachokera manyazi. Maganizo osayenera kanthu. Osakhala woyenera. Ndinali ndi abambo owopsa omwe amandilanda nthawi zonse ndikuphwanya kudzidalira ndili mwana. Izi zandithandizanso pakukula kwanga kwamaganizidwe ndi kugonana. Abambo anga amwalira tsopano ndipo ndakwiya kuti sindidzakhala ndi mwayi womuuza momwe analiri. Kwa nthawi yayitali, sindinkafuna ana chifukwa choopa kukhala bambo woyipa ngati iye. Koma sindikhala.
Ndikufuna kufotokoza kuti ndilibe chilichonse chotsutsana ndi anthu opitilira, kapena opendekera pamtanda, kapena azimayi, china chilichonse mderalo. M'malo mwake, ndili ndi chisoni chachikulu komanso ndimakopeka nawo, ndipo ndatsala pang'ono kukhala ndiubwenzi nawo. Koma kwa ine ndekha, ndimafunikira kuchotsa gawo lamanyazi lomwe ndimalumikizana ndi anthu amenewo. Iwo sanali oyenerera, kaya pagulu kapena mkati, ndipo kwa ine ndekha, zoyipa zonsezi zimachokera ku zolaula.
Ngati ndingabwerere ku zoyipa zomwe ndachita, atha aliyense. Sindikubwerera ku zolaula. Ndipo inunso simuyenera kutero.
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