Ine ndawonapo modabwitsa, monga kochititsa, kusintha m'moyo wanga wogonana mchaka chatha kapena apo. Ndilibe nthawi yochuluka motsatizana ndikuonera zolaula kapena kuseweretsa maliseche, inde dzulo ndatha - osanyadira nazo koma ndi chowonadi. Komabe, ndikuti pamene ndinali woyipitsitsa ndimachita maliseche zolaula za 6-7 nthawi patsiku ndili ku koleji. Munthawi imeneyo libido yanga inali onse ndinathamanga ndipo ndikutha kawirikawiri Nditengereni naye chibwenzi (tsopano mkazi). Ngati ine ndikanawukweza iwo sindikanakhoza nkomwe kusunga izo, ndipo ngati ine zasungidwa izo ndimatha kutulutsa mkati masekondi.
Ndiko komwe ndinali zaka 6 zapitazo. Mwamwayi bwenzi langa / bwenzi / mkazi wanga amandikondadi amene Ndinali osati kuchepa kwanga kwakugonana. Pamene nthawi yadutsa yanga pafupipafupi kuchuluka kwa momwe ndimawonera zolaula zakhala zikutsika ... Zidayenda pafupifupi nthawi 7 patsiku mpaka 4, kenako 3, kenako 2, kamodzi kamodzi .. Ndipo tsopano ndili ndi nthawi yomwe ndimatha kupita masiku pafupifupi 30 opanda zolaula koma kenako kubwereranso, ndiye mwina kamodzi tsiku lililonse ... Ndimakhala ndi milungu komwe kumakhala tsiku limodzi mpaka ndikayambiranso kuyambiranso ndikupita milungu ingapo kapena zina.
Chimene ndazindikira ngakhale kuti nthawi zambiri ndimaona zolaula zatha, momwemonso ndimangokhalira kukweza, sindinathe kuimirira ndikumangokhala, komanso kufulumizitsa komwe ndakhala ndikukonzekera. .
Dzulo ndinagwa mumsampha wolaula pang'ono, koma mwamwayi ndinatseka ndisanapite patali… Kenako ndinapita kunyumba ndikumaliza ntchitoyo popanda chosangalatsa. Pambuyo pake usiku ine ndi mkazi wanga tinakhala pachibwenzi ndipo timakhala ogonana komanso amuna, tinali ndi zina za bwino kugonana komwe tinali nako mu yaitali nthawi. Tonse tinakhutitsidwa ndipo ndinakhala pafupifupi mphindi 20-25 (ndizodabwitsa kwa munthu uyu.)
Ndikuganiza kuti zovuta zanga za libido zomwe zimayambitsa zolaula zikukhala zakale ngati sindingabwererenso kangapo patsiku; tsiku lililonse.
Ndikulakalaka kusiya zolaula zabwino zomwe ndizomwe ndikugwirabe ntchito koma sizinakhalepo bwino masiku otsatizana; koma sindikufunanso kusiya chifukwa chokhacho chomwe chimasokoneza magwiridwe antchito anga; Ndikufuna kusiya chifukwa ndichinthu chomwe ndikufuna kundichitira chifukwa ndichinthu choyenera kuchita polemekeza mkazi wanga komanso ine.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zimathandiza wina, ndipo zonse zomwe ndikuyesera kunena kuti pali chiyembekezo ngati mukuwopa kuti libido yanu ibwereranso kapena kubwerera. Zitero, ngakhale mutakhala ndi zolaula pano ndi apo. Sindiopanso kugonana ndi mkazi wanga koma ndimasangalala kwambiri nthawi zonse. Ndimalandira ndipo ndili munthawi yomwe zichitike.
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