… Ndipo ndine wokondwa kwambiri kukhala pano. Ndine 36 ndipo ndakhala ndikuyesera kusiya zolaula kwa zaka zosachepera 7, ndikuyang'ana kwa zaka 18. Nditha kulemba magawo pazovuta za masiku, masabata ndi miyezi ya moyo wanga yomwe ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito kompyuta yanga kupita ku zolaula, koma ndikudumpha. Zaka ziwiri zapitazo nditafika masiku 35 kenako ndikulowa ndinangosiya kuyesera. Ndinaganiza kuti ndizo zabwino zomwe ndikanatha. Ndinakhazikika pakumayang'ana zolaula masiku angapo, ndikungoyesetsa kudziona kuti ndine wolakwa komanso kudzinyansa m'malo mochita chizolowezi ndipo sindinakhulupirire kuti nditha kudzilowetsa m'maganizo momwe ndimatha kulimbana ndi zolaula.
Mndandanda wamasiku awa a 90 udayamba pomwe ndimayang'ana bwenzi lina likuyandikira patali ndikudzipatula ndikudziyesa wonyansa komanso zolaula. Sindikuganiza kuti ubalewo ukadapulumuka, koma ndidazindikira kuti kukhumudwa kwanga kukukulirakulira ndipo ndimafunikira thandizo lakunja. Ndinadziwanso kuti sindimafuna kuti iye akhale wondithandizira pa izi. Kuyamba chithandizo ndikulankhula ndi munthu wina wodziwa ntchito yemwe amatha kupereka upangiri wosaweruza kwapangitsa kusiyana kwakukulu. Ndikudziwa kuti sizabwino zomwe aliyense ali nazo, koma ngati mungathe kuzipeza ndikupeza wina wabwino, zisonyezeni kukoma mtima ndikupatseni mwayi! Polephera izi, pitani kumsonkhano wa amodzi mwamagulu othandizira anthu ogonana. Ingopita. Muli ndi zonse zomwe mungapindule ndipo palibe chomwe mungataye kupita ku umodzi, ngakhale mutangopita kumsonkhano umodzi.
Chinthu chomwe ndaphunzira panthawiyi, chomwe chinali chosiyana ndi enawo ndikudabwitsidwa kuti ZOCHITIKA izi ndizokhudza zolaula komanso kuchuluka kwake pazinthu zomwezi zomwe zimapangitsa zizolowezi zonse: kudzipatula kwamalingaliro ndikusokoneza njira zothanirana nazo. Kuchira kwanga kwakhala kwakukulu kwambiri pakulimbikitsa kulumikizana kwanga ndikutseguka ndi anthu m'moyo wanga kuposa momwe ndimaganizira chifukwa chake ndimayang'ana zolaula. Ngakhale kusinthira mafayilo anga a hosts.ini pamakompyuta anga kuti nditseke masamba anga onse anali njira yanthawi yayitali yoletsa.
Ngati mukuvutika kuti muyambe, pitirizani kuyesa kuti mufike masiku asanu kapena masiku khumi ndikulephera… mutha kutero. Koma zimafuna kuti musinthe. Mwinamwake muyenera kukhala okonzeka kuvomereza kuti simungathe kuchita izi panokha. Mwina muyenera kuuza wina m'moyo wanu momwe mumamvera ngakhale mukuchita manyazi komanso mantha. Osati kwenikweni zokhudzana ndi zolaula, mwina za njira ina yomwe mukumvera. Sindinafike patali ndi mphamvu zamaganizidwe: sindingathe kuchita izi ndekha. Ndafika pano ndikuthandizidwa ndi chikondi kuchokera kwa anthu omwe ndimakhala nawo pafupi omwe ndidawamasulira.
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