Ndine 38. Chikhumbo changa chosiya kuonera zolaula chinayamba nditafika poti sindinadzimve bwino ndekha nditatha kuonera zolaula-Ndinayamba kuona kuti kuwonera anthu ena akugonana inali ntchito yosasangalatsa, yopanda umuna. Ndinkanyansidwanso ndi makampani ogulitsa zolaula omwe anali ovuta kwambiri, ndipo sindinkafuna kuwathandiza kuti apindule. Chifukwa chake ndinalonjeza kuti ndidzasiya. Komano, ndinkayambiranso — makamaka ndikamwa mowa. Ndinazindikira kuti ndinali ndi vuto losokoneza bongo - Ndinkafuna kusiya, koma sindinathe. Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndizofunikira kwambiri kwa ine, kuyambira pomwe ndimakula, kuti ndiyime.
Ndimangobwereranso ndikamamwa. Zomwe zimachitika mukamayambiranso, ndipo ndikukuyesani kuti mukudziwa zomwe ndikunena, ndikuti chidwi chachikulu chowonera zolaula chimaposa mphamvu zanu-ndikuganiza kuti ndizofanana ndi zomwe osokoneza bongo amakumana nazo. Pobwereranso, ndakhala ndikulungamitsa kugonja pakulakalaka kovulaza ndikudziuza ndekha kuti "Ndimachita izi nditaledzera" kapena ndidangodzipereka kumayesero osalungamitsa.
Kwa miyezi iwiri yapitayi, ndakhala ndikudzipereka ndikudzikumbutsa kuti ngati ndigonjera mayeserowo, tsiku lina ndidzadzimvera chisoni - kunena zoona, ndalamazo zimaposa "zabwino" zake. Ichi ndi chizolowezi chowononga, ndibwereza, makamaka ndikadziwa kuti ndidzamwa usiku womwewo.
Inde inde, ndikulingalira munganene kuti ndakhala ndikulimbikitsa malingaliro anga kuti ndisatengere chiyeso chowononga- kudzera mukuzikumbutsa kwanu za chifukwa chomwe ndinasiyira zolaula komanso chifukwa chodzikhululukira (mwachitsanzo, muzidzudzula mowa) ndi wapolisi wopanda chifukwa chomveka.
O ndipo izi ndizofunikira: m'miyezi iwiri yapitayi, ndikukumbukira kamodzi kokha pomwe chidwi chowonera zolaula chinali chachikulu kwambiri chomwe chikadandidula kale. Mwamwayi, ndinagonjetsa. KOMA, ndikudziwa kuti maphunziro anga okhwima achepetsa mphamvu zoyeserazo - monga kuchita mobwerezabwereza (kapena kusachitapo kanthu) kumabweretsa chizolowezi. Kupatula apo, choyenera ndikuti tisayesedwe kuti ndiwonerere zolaula, sichoncho? Mwinanso ndikufika pamenepo, koma sindikulola kukhala tcheru, osangokhala chete - ngati mdani angabwerere, ndine wokonzeka kulimbana nawo. Ndipo ndipitiliza kuphunzitsa malingaliro anga kumenya nkhondo ngati mdani abwerera mwamphamvu monga kale. Ndikudziwa, modabwitsa kwambiri!
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