Lero kwakhala zaka 7 za moyo wanga ngati munthu wopanda pmo. Kuledzera kwatha - ndikutanthauza kuti ndilibe zokopa kapena zoyeserera zamphamvu. Nthawi zina ndimakopeka ndi pmo koma si vuto lalikulu kuti nditembenuke. Sizitanthauza kuti ndilibe mavuto ena. Inde, ndili ndi zovuta kuzithetsa koma osati ndi pmo.
Zaka 8 kapena 9 zapitazo sindinathe kupitilira masiku 2 - 3 pafupipafupi. Zinali zopweteka kwambiri kwa ine. Tsopano sindimakumbukira kawirikawiri kuti mwezi wamtendere womwewu udadutsa. Mipira yabuluu yomwe ndimakonda kukhala nayo koyambirira. Ndimangodziwa kuti ndiyenera kudikirira masiku ochepa kuti vutoli lithetse vutoli - ndikutanthauza kutulutsa usiku ndikagona. Pambuyo pake simumva mipira ya buluu kwakanthawi mpaka kutuluka kwamadzulo kotsatira (pafupifupi nthawi zonse kumakhala ndi maloto ogonana) ndi zina zotero. Ndimakhalabe ndi mpweya wotuluka usiku - kamodzi pamwezi kapena apo. Chikhalidwe chikuyenera kuthana ndi vuto la mipira yathunthu ndikudziwa momwe mungachitire (popanda maliseche).
Mukudziwa, ndichisankho changa. Sindisamala zogonana. Sindikutsutsana nazo ndipo ndikayesetsa kwambiri ndimaganiza kuti nditha kugonana ndi mkazi wanga koma… sindisamala. Ndikadakhala kuti ndikadapitilira zaka khumi ndimayesetsa kuti ndizisinthe koma… tsopano sindisamala. Sindikakamiza aliyense kuti asamagonane m'moyo wawo, ndimangofotokoza ndekha komanso malingaliro anga.
Mukudziwa kuti ndimakonda ufulu, kukhala womasuka komanso kumva mtendere ndipo ndimakumbukira momwe ndimamvera ndikamazolowera kugonana - zinali zoyipa: mantha, kuphedwa kwam'maganizo, kudziimba mlandu, kufooka, kungokhala chete, osasangalala kapena kusasangalala ndi china chilichonse kupatula kugonana , kutaya nthawi pa pmo, kutaya ndalama, machitidwe owopsa, kusowa mphamvu… zombie state.
Ndikudziwa kuti palinso moyo wogonana wathanzi ndipo ndilibe chotsutsana nacho. Sindikusamala ndipo ndikuganiza kuti kugonana ndikungowonjezera pa moyo. Palibe chosowa. Ndiyenera kudya, kumwa, kusamba ndekha, kukhala ndi ntchito, anzanga etc. koma ndi kugonana pali vuto lalikulu chifukwa masiku ano kugonana kwakhala chinthu chofunikira kwambiri, kunanyozetsedwa kungosangalala ndi kudzikonda kuphatikiza makampani onse azolaula,… . Ndikukayika kuti pali zogonana masiku ano pomwe pafupifupi anyamata kapena anyamata onse amawonera zolaula ndikuchita maliseche. Ndimasankha ufulu wanga ku ukapolo uwu. Kufunika kwa moyo wogonana ndikokokomeza kwambiri. Pali zinthu zambiri zosangalatsa m'moyo. Koma kamodzinso - ngati wina atha kukhala ndi moyo wathanzi wogonana ndibwino koma osakhala ndi zolaula, maliseche, kusintha anzawo ngati kusankha chokoleti m'sitolo, kupewa mahule….
[Maganizo anga pankhani yokhudza maliseche asintha. Tsopano ndikuganiza kuti] Sili wathanzi, yataya mphamvu. Ndikadakhala wachinyamata kapena wachinyamata ndikadapewa ngati moto. Ndingasankhe kukambirana ndi atsikana, kupita kokacheza, kuyitanira mtsikana ku sinema kapena zina, kupita ndi mtsikana kumapiri, kunyanja etc., matani amalingaliro. Pambuyo pa M. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi mantha, wopanda mphamvu, wopanda chidwi, wachisoni, wopanda chidwi, wopanda chochita chilichonse chovuta, osafunikira kukumana ndi msungwana kapena kumudziwa ndipo ndimachita mantha ndi atsikana ngakhale ndidawapeza wokongola kwambiri. Chifukwa chake, M. si yankho koma limabweretsa mavuto ambiri kuphatikiza M kumabweretsa zolaula mosalephera kenako mumakhala ndi vuto la pmo.
[Kuyankha funso] Ndangowerenga positi yanu yoyamba munkhani zopambana ndipo ndidadziwa kuti mwakhala mukuthandizako ndipo wothandizirayo 'adakupatsirani' maliseche opanda zolaula ndipo mwachepetsa kugwiritsa ntchito M. kuyambira 4/5 sabata mpaka 1 kokha. Chifukwa chake mlandu wanu ndiwodziwika bwino chifukwa mumalimbana ndi pmo, musayang'ane zolaula ndipo choyambirira mumakonza moyo wanu wonse kulangizidwa ndi wothandizira. Zabwino zonse.
Pomwe ndidakuyankha sindimadziwa za izi. Pomwe ndidakonzekera chiukiro changa chomaliza kuti ndichotse pmo ndidagwiritsanso ntchito njira yofananira yochepetsa kuchuluka kwa pmo. Zinali zovuta kwambiri kuti ndipite kuzizira. Ndinkakonda kugwiritsa ntchito pmo malinga ndi malingaliro anga (a malonjezo) osowa kwambiri mpaka ndimadzimva kuti tsiku lina nditha kunena pmo kwa nthawi yayitali. Ndinazindikiranso kuti pmo ndimankhwala okha kwa ine ndikamva kuwawa, malingaliro olakwika komanso zoyeserera zogonana zomwe zimandikakamiza kutero. Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndimasintha moyo wanga (popanda chithandizo) koma ndimapita komwe mankhwala amagwiritsidwira ntchito. Ndimachita zofanana ndi magawo 12 koma payekhapayekha.
Chifukwa chake nkhani yanu ndiyachindunji. Ndinalemba m'malo mwa M. gwiritsani ntchito pomwe wina samalandira chithandizo chifukwa nthawi zambiri sasintha moyo wawo koma amaganiza kuti ayenera kuchepetsa kapena kuchotsa pmo koma vuto lenileni ndi moyo wawo ndikuganiza ndipo amafunikira kuchiritsidwa. Popanda izi ndikuganiza kuti M. nthawi zonse amatsogolera ku pmo chifukwa mwamunayo amafunafuna zosangalatsa zambiri.
Muli kuchipatala ndipo pakadali pano M. kamodzi pamlungu koma mwina nthawi ina mungaganize zochepetsa izi ngakhale kamodzi pamasiku 10 kapena pang'ono pang'ono pamwezi ndi zina. Koma zimadalira mulingo wa "kuchiritsa" panthawi ya mankhwala.
Ndi chifukwa chilichonse cha M. ndi gawo lamphamvu lomwe mwamunayo amataya. Nditha kugwiritsa ntchito mphamvu zowonjezerazi komanso chidwi changa pamasewera (ndimakonda masewera a karati) kapena kuphunzira zina ndi zina. Ndipo komaliza, musaganize kuti mudzakhala ozolowera moyo wanu wonse. Ndinaganizanso chimodzimodzi koma zidasintha panjira yopita kuufulu. Mankhwalawa atha kukuthandizani kuti muchepetse chizolowezichi kamodzi tsiku limodzi kapena kuti muchepetse zowonjezereka za M.
[Ndinkagwiritsa ntchito zolaula] zaka 33. Chifukwa chake, pali chiyembekezo nthawi zonse. Ndimaganiza kuti ndili wopanda chiyembekezo patadutsa zaka makumi atatu nditafuna kutuluka.
Tsopano ndili ndi nthawi yochuluka komanso mphamvu komanso chilimbikitso chochitira zinthu zambiri zomwe ndinasiya pamene ndinali woledzera. Ndimanong'oneza bondo kutaya zaka zambiri pa pmo chifukwa panthawiyo ndinali wopanda pake, wosagwira ntchito. Ndikadakhala kuti ndili msinkhu wanu ndikadayamba kuchita masewera andewu ngakhale kangapo pamlungu, nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ndi atsikana (koma osagonana), kumayenda kuzungulira dziko lapansi ndi zina zambiri. ndi chidwi chofuna kuchita zinthu zathanzi.
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