Ndimamva kuti ndichofunikira kuchita izi, ndimamva ngati chinali chinthu chachikulu chomwe ndidachita kuyambira zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zokhala ndi nkhawa, osakhala bwino komanso okwiyitsa mpaka njira yolimba mtima, yoseketsa komanso yocheza. Ndikuti ndifotokozere zonse zomwe ndadutsamo komanso momwe moyo wanga umapangidwira kuti ndi gehena wamoyo ndi momwe ndidafikira ku NoFap. Moyo Wanga Unali wa Messy. Zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zamasewera zomwe abambo amatulutsa (Nthawi imeneyo sindimakhulupirira zosewerera kupatula kusewera pang'ono) .Pamene zotsatira za "zolaula" ndizotani?
Apa ndipomwe ndimayamba kusintha, nditatha kuyendetsa zolaula ndikumva manyazi nthawi yomweyo ndikalandira. Nthawi zonse zolaula kuyambira pomwe sindinadziwe kuwotcha mfuti yanga sindinachitepo kalikonse ndipo sindinamvepo manyazi.
Manyazi zinandibweretsera manyazi pagulu kenako ndinaphunzira kuchita bwino moyenera nthawi ya chilimwe nditayamba kupezanso mphamvu zochulukirapo ndiye ndinayamba kusokonezeka Ndinayamba kukhala wolephera komanso wosayanjika bwino mu giredi sikisi ndipo apa ndipomwe ndidayamba mvetsetsa zomwe zakhudzidwazo koma osanyalanyaza ndikusunga.
Patatha zaka zitatu ndidabwerera kwathu komwe ndimakhala… ndikumva bwino. Tsiku loyamba la sukulu limadzutsa ma alarm nthawi yoti ayende bwino komanso mwatsopano osati mwatsopano mantha ndi nkhawa. Ndimayenda ndikumva kutentha ndi zikhomo motsutsana ndi thupi langa lonse ndimayang'ana pansi kotero kuti palibe amene amandiyang'ana ndikugwedezeka chifukwa chiyani ndikugwedezeka? Ndani amasamala amafika mkalasi. Ah osadandaula amalola kuchita izi kachiwiri… ..
Dzuwa! Kuwala kukafika ku bafa kusamba chakudya cham'mawa ndikukumana ndi bwenzi langa lapamtima. Tikukumana pakati pathunthu kupita ku nyumba zamtundu uliwonse zitatha izi khalani naye koma ndimakumana ndi bwanayo wina ndikuwachotsanso tambala ena omwe timakhala tikuyenda limodzi kukakambirana za tsiku lomwe lakhala lili kuyambira chilimwe chakumapeto kwake ndikupita kunyumba.
Nthawi yachilimwe! Tiyeni tikwere madenga ena kuti muwone zolaula, kusuta udzu ndi ndudu izi tsopano, koma pang'onopang'ono zimatha kugwa kwanga nditakokedwa ndi apolisi kuti ndigwetse zonse za mwezi wa Seputembala ndipo zonsezi zidatha kuvomereza mu Ogasiti yapitayi pomwe ine onerani nkhani ya Ted pakukonda zolaula ndipo mwanjira ina ndidasiya mwezi wonse ndikubweretsa chidaliro koma chilimwe changa chidatha.
Yep kotero amalola kupita Sepemba nditakhazikitsidwa. Izi zidabweretsa kusaka pa intaneti za momwe ndingakhalire ndi chidaliro chowonjezereka chomwe chimanditsogolera pang'onopang'ono ku NoFap ndi ma foramu omwe ndimawakonda komanso njira yaying'ono yomwe idandibweretsanso koma ndimakondabe.
Pambuyo poti ena alephera ndipo pamapeto pake tsiku lolekerera la December 27th nditatha kuonera vr porn ndimatulutsa chikondi mwa ine ndekha ndikudziuza ndekha kuti ndisadzachitenso izi pokhapokha ndikufuna kukhalabe motere. Malangizo ambiri omwe ali patsogolo ndimapanga 30-30 yanga yopanda PMO ngakhale izi zidatha posachedwa kuyambiranso MO ndikadalibe zolaula za porn zomwe zimapangitsa moyo wanga wonse kukhala wabwinoko. Uwu udali wa positi yayitali komanso kusala kudya kwa intaneti kotero ndikabwerera ku positiyi ndiyankha chilichonse!
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