Nditakhala wokhalitsa kwa nthawi yayitali, pamapeto pake ndidaganiza zolemba ndi kutumiza kuno, kuti ndibwerenso pagulu lothandiza ili. Uwu ukhala positi yayitali, yofotokoza ulendo wanga, kuyambira chifukwa chake, kenako ndikufotokozera zovuta zomwe ndidakumana nazo ndi njira zomwe ndidapeza kuti ndizithetse, ndikutsatira zomwe zidandisintha pambuyo pake.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yanga ikulimbikitsani ena a inu ndikupatsanso chidziwitso m'moyo wanu.
Chifukwa chake ndidasankha kusiya
Zolaula ndizachilendo kwambiri masiku ano. Mupeza anthu akubwereza kulikonse kuti ndizabwino kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula bola sizisokoneza moyo wanu komanso sizisokoneza moyo wanu waluso. Izi zidanditonthoza nthawi zonse kuti ndilibe vuto. Kupatula apo, ndili ndi gulu la abwenzi apamtima omwe ndimacheza nawo nthawi zambiri (ngakhale timakhala m'mizinda yosiyanasiyana nditamaliza maphunziro awo kukoleji posachedwapa). Ndili pafupi ndi banja langa ndipo ndimalankhula ndi makolo anga pafoni tsiku lililonse. Ndidamaliza maphunziro a Divisction ndipo ndili ndi ntchito yolipira bwino. Zonsezi zinkandipangitsa kumva ngati sindikupita kolakwika kulikonse ndi kuchuluka kwa zolaula zomwe ndimadya.
Ndisanasiye, ndimakonda kugona zolaula kamodzi pa tsiku. Kamodzi m'mawa komanso kamodzi bedi. Zinali ngati chizolowezi chosemedwa mwala. Koma sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lotchulidwa pamwambapa komanso sindinakhalepo ndimavuto azachipatala, ndiye ndiyenera kukhala bwino, sichoncho?
(Chenjezo kwa gawo lotsatira)
Koma kenako ndidakumana ndi izi nkhani (chithunzi cha NSFWish pang'ono mkati) chomwe chimafotokoza za kukhumudwa komwe munthu amamverera pa zolaula za vanila nthawi ikamapita, ndipo mwadzidzidzi idalira belu kwinakwake. Ndinayamba kuwerenga zowonjezereka pazomwe zolaula zimakhudza ubongo. Ndinazindikira momwe ine ndimayambira pa vanila wolaula kwambiri, ndinali nditasunthira zolaula zam'mawa kwambiri. Kenako pang'onopang'ono kupita ku zolaula za transgender, kufunafuna zachilendo. Ndiye pamene ndimamva ngati ndasanthula zambiri (makamaka zabwino "zabwino"), ndidaganiza kuti ngakhale zidutswa zopyola zolimbitsa thupi / zachinyengo zimandipusitsa, motero ndimangowononga maola ndi maola kufunafuna chojambula chabwino mpaka nditapeza chomwe ndimakonda. Onjezerani pamenepo, kuti ndine namwali, ndipo sindikudziwa kuti kugonana kwenikweni ndi kotani, motero zidazi zimandipangitsa kuti ndisamadziwe zogonana.
Zonsezi, kuphatikiza zina zinalephereka (zamtima wamtundu) kuyesa kusiya zidandichititsa kuwona zizindikiritso zina. Ndinadzimvera chisoni ndekha ndipo ndinasiya kudzikayikira chifukwa chosayang'anira malingaliro ndi zikhumbo zanga. Izi ndi zomwe zidanditsogolera kuti ndisinthe.
Momwe ndidayambira Ulendo
Gawo loyamba, ndipo mwina lofunikira kwambiri ndikuzindikira ndikuvomereza kuti ndili ndi vuto. Izi zikasamaliridwa, zinthu zina zidalowa m'malo mwakuyesayesa.
Lingaliro loyamba lomwe ndinapanga linali kusiya kusiya maliseche chifukwa cha uve. Chifukwa zolaula ndi maliseche zinali zitasokonekera kwambiri m'mutu mwanga mwakuti sinditha kuwona wina popanda mnzake. Nthawi zonse ndikalota popanda zolaula ndimaganizirabe zakanema zoonera zolaula zomwe ndimakonda, ndipo zimanenedwanso kuti zimakhudzanso zomwe zimachitika mu mphoto ya ubongo monga kumaonera zolaula mwachindunji. (Ndigwiritsa ntchito mawu oti zolaula ndi maliseche mosasintha kuyambira pano.)
Sindimaganizira kwambiri zamtsogolo kapena zomwe ndipindule ndi "kuyambiranso". Ndikanangokakamiza kufuna kwanga kufikira masiku a 90 zolaula komanso maliseche kwaulere, ndicho chinali cholinga. Zomwe mungachite pambuyo pake inali nkhani yoti muganizire pambuyo pake (izi zidathandiza chifukwa ngati chandamale chikuwoneka chachikulu ndiye kuti nkovuta kuyamba).
Nditakhala ndi cholinga chomveka m'mutu mwanga, ndidatsimikiza ndi mtima wonse kuti ndipitilizabe kukwaniritsa. Ndinkachita manyazi kwambiri ndi zizolowezi zanga mpaka pomwepo mpaka ndinadziwa kuti ndikabwereranso pambuyo pa kutsimikiza konseku kumakhala kovuta kuti ndiyang'ane ndekha. Izi zidandichotsera "khoka lachitetezo" ndipo mitengoyo inali yokwera nthawi ino.
Ndinaganiza zopanga mphamvu zanga monga minofu, ndikuzikankhira pang'onopang'ono. Popanda kuganizira mozama za ma streaks, ndinazindikira kuti nthawi iliyonse mukadzikana nokha zolaula, kumawonjezera kudziletsa kwanu. Chifukwa cha tsiku loyamba ndinadziuza kuti, sindichita maliseche tsiku lonse. Ndipo sindinatero. Ndiye patatha tsiku limodzi kapena awiri, ndimapita masiku 2 masiku angapo. Kenaka patatha masiku angapo, ndinayamba masiku atatu, koma ndinaganiza kuti ndipitiliza masiku 90.
Mavuto ndi Kuzindikira
Ndikuvomereza kuti ichi ndi chimodzi mwazinthu zovuta kwambiri zomwe ndidachitapo m'moyo wanga. Ndinali ndi zilembo zomwe sizinali zakufa koma zenizeni zenizeni. Panali masiku angapo pomwe ndimangogona pa bedi ndikukumana ndi zikhumbo zamphamvu kwambiri ndikumva ngati kukuwa pilo. Ndinkachita manyazi komanso kumva kuwawa, komanso ndikumwetulira kumaso kwanga. Chifukwa kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, ndidali wokhoza. Ndimamva kuti kuyeretsa kumachitikadi. Zinamveka bwino.
Kudzikhulupirira mophweka kunakhala kosavuta, mmodzi anapewa zolaula nthawi imodzi. Ndimamva kuwongolera kwambiri zomwe ndimachita. Tsiku lirilonse la streak linandinyenga ndikusintha ndikukhala wonyada komanso wopambana.
Zithunzi zolaula zochepa masiku ochepa, ndinazindikira kwambiri. Ndinawona kuti ndinkangokhalira kumwa nthawi yamvula. Ndimamvanso kuti ndikakamizidwa kuti ndiziwonera zolaula ndikakhala wokondwa. Kenako zinandigunda. Sikuti ndimangoseweretsa maliseche kawiri patsiku. Ndinali kuchita izi kuposa izi osasamala kwenikweni. Kusambitsana linali liwu lina lakusewera maliseche kusamba kwa zosankha zanga "Zosangalatsa kwambiri". Nthawi zovuta kwambiri ngati mayeso, ndimayang'ana zolaula kuti ndizisangalala komanso kupumula, ndipo chiwerengerocho chidakwera mpaka nthawi za 4-5 patsiku. Nditasangalala kwambiri ndidakondwerera zolaula. Ndikakhala wachisoni ndimafuna kutonthoza zolaula. Nditatopa, ndimayang'ana zolaula kuti iphe nthawi. Porn inali njira yanga yokhayo yolimbana ndi chilichonse.
Ndinamvetsanso bwino kuti sindinachite chizolowezi chodziseweretsa maliseche. Ndinkalakalaka kwambiri zolaula zolaula. Ili ndi gawo limodzi lomveka bwino lomwe sindinawonepo likubwera. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ndimaseweretsa maliseche ambiri kuposa anthu ena chifukwa ndimagonana kwambiri, komanso kuti ndimangoonera zolaula zothandizira maliseche. Zapezeka kuti ndinali wolakwitsa mwamtheradi za izi. Zinali zolaula kwambiri zomwe zolaula zanga zinali.
Kuzindikira kwaposachedwa kunalinso kokondweretsa kwa ine. Zomwe zolaula zitachoka mwadzidzidzi m'moyo wanga, ndimatha kumverera kusungulumwa momveka bwino mkati mwanga, zomwe ndimayesetsa kuyesa zolaula zonse. Sindinazindikire kuti ndine wosungulumwa mkati (nthawi zambiri ndimakhala kutali ndi kwathu, anzanga ndi mabanja chifukwa cha maphunziro anga ndi kugwira ntchito m'maiko osiyanasiyana, nthawi zambiri ndimakumana ndi zopinga zazikulu za chilankhulo) ndipo chifukwa chake sindinayese konse kutenga kusamalira vuto. M'malo mwake, mosadziwa ndidawasunga mkati mwa nyanja yamaliseche. Tsopano popeza ndimadziwa za vuto lenileni, panali gawo limodzi pafupi kuti ndikonzeke.
Njira Zomwe Ndidayendera Kuthandizira Thupi Langa
Mukasiya zolaula, mudzatsala ndi nthawi yayikulu m'manja mwanu. Zimamveka ngati mukukhala masiku a 30 ora mwanjira ina. Ndikofunikira kuti mukhale otanganidwa nthawi yonseyi. Ndipo pali chinthu chabwino pazokakamiza mwadzidzidzi, zimayenda mwachangu momwe zimawonekera. Chifukwa chake ngati muli ndi kofunikira kuyankha pazokakamira, zitha kugwiritsidwa ntchito nthawi zonse kuthana nazo. Kuchitapo kanthu kungakhale kosavuta ngati kuyenda mozungulira kwa mphindi zochepa, kapena kumwa madzi, ndipo mwanjira imeneyi mutha kukulitsa zizolowezi zabwino mukamasiya zoyipa. Chisangalalo chachiwiricho chimamasulira ndikulimbikitsa kawiri kuti mupitebe patsogolo.
Ndinkayesetsa kukhala m'malo opezeka anthu ambiri ngati malaibulale, komanso kucheza ndi anthu ambiri momwe ndingathere. Izi sizinandithandizenso kudzisungira ndekha, komanso zinandithandizanso ndi vuto lozama la kusungulumwa. Kuyimbira foni anzanu omwe mumacheza nawo kwinaku mukumva kukakamizidwanso ndi njira yabwino yothandizira kukupangitsani kukhala osungulumwa, ndikuchotsanso zolimbikirazi mwachangu.
Monga njira ina yolimbana ndi zovuta, nthawi zonse ndinkanyamula buku limodzi. Imodzi yomwe imafunikira kugwira ntchito pang'ono kuti kungowerenga mopepuka sikukwanira. Ndinkagwiritsa ntchito "Power Power Made Easy" yolembedwa ndi Norman Lewis. Chinali china chake chomwe ndimakhala ndikuchepetsera zaka 4 zenizeni, ndipo ndidachimaliza miyezi itatu ya streak yanga. Chinalinso chilimbikitso china choti ndipitilize kukankha.
Ngati mukuvutika kugona popanda zolaula, mutha kuyamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ngati simukutero. Ndinayamba kusewera basketball kwakanthawi. Zinathandizanso kukhala ndi mayanjano abwino, thupi labwino komanso thanzi labwino, komanso kugona bwino usiku.
Monga mukuwonera, sikunali kokha kuti sindinawonenso zolaula. Ndinasinthiratu moyo wanga wonse. Ndinakwanitsa zochuluka masana. Ndidawerenga kwambiri, ndikulemba zambiri. Ndinayamba kudzisamalira ndekha mwakuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Pangani abwenzi atsopano, ndikulimbitsa maubale anu akale. Nditakhala ndi nthawi yokwanira kukumbukira komanso kuyikira zonsezi zidandithandizira kupitiliza kukhala wanga tsiku labwino kwambiri.
Koma mwina chinthu chachikulu kwambiri komanso chofunikira kwambiri chomwe ndidakwanitsa kupeza nthawi ino ndikukhala woona mtima kwa ine ndekha. M'mbuyomu pomwe ndimayesetsa kusiya zolaula, ndidabweranso chifukwa ndinayesetsa kukhala nazo zonse monga "Zolaula kwenikweni ndi ziti?" Ndinayesera kufotokoza malire, kuti ndikhoze kuyandikira pafupi nawo momwe ndingathere. Ichi ndiye chinthu choyipitsitsa chomwe mungachite kwa inu nokha. Mumakhala ndi mpumulo, pomwe zonse zomwe mukuchita ndikupangitsa kuti chinthucho chikhale chovuta kwambiri pa inu nokha. Nthawi ino ndidapita ndi lamulo loti "Ngati ndifunsa za izi, sindiziwonera." Ndipo mosiyana ndi zomwe ndimaganiza, ndikosavuta kusiya kuzizira ngati izi kuposa kungodziyesa nokha kuti ndi chifukwa chani chifukwa chake kopanda maliseche ndibwino kuti muwone. Izi zitha kukhala zovuta m'njira ina chifukwa cha zolaula zomwe zimafala kwambiri. Chilichonse kuyambira makanema anyimbo, makanema apa TV, kupita ku Reddit AMAs nthawi zambiri zimakhala ndi zolaula zambiri. Koyamba zitha kuwoneka ngati palibe chilichonse choti mugwiritse ntchito nthawi yanu yaulere. Koma mukaganiza za izo pali dziko lalikulu kwambiri kunja kwa makanema ndi makanema pa TV. Mwina kunyamula gitala. Mwina kuyamba kulima. Mumachita chilichonse chomwe mukufuna, koma ingokhalani kutali ndi chilichonse chomwe chimakusekani. Kwa inu omwe mumatenga baji mozama, izi zikutanthauza kuti ngati mukufuna kuyikonzanso, muyenera kukhala oona mtima kwa inu nokha ndipo musachite nawo tsiku lowonera zolaula momwe muyenera kukhazikitsiranso. Zindikirani kuti kuchita izi ndikuti mukudzipusitsa nokha ndikuwononga zonse zomwe zingalimbitse kupindula kwa minyewa yomwe mwakhala nayo mpaka pano. Nthawi zonse zolaula zomwe zimapewa ndi gawo lopita patsogolo, ngakhale zitakhala kuti mutabwereranso.
Chinthu chomaliza chofunikira kukumbukira ndikuti musangowonera zolaula zanu, koma machitidwe anu onse. Mwa zomwe ndakumana nazo, nditasiya zolaula, ndidayamba kudya kwambiri, mpaka nditazindikira kuti ndimachita ngati njira ina yothanirana ndi mavuto. Chifukwa chake ndikofunikira kuti muchepetse zizolowezi zanu zolaula, ndikofunikanso kumvetsetsa zomwe zolaula zimadzaza m'moyo wanu ndikuyamba kuyesetsa kuzichiritsa, kuti musakhale ndi zovuta zina monga kususuka kapena uchidakwa mukamalimbana ndi zolaula .
Zotsatira
Ndinafikira chizindikiro cha tsiku la 90 pa 4th ya Disembala 2017. Sizinali zovuta ngakhale pang'ono kuti ndichoke kumeneko. Phindu lake linali lalikulu. Zowonongera pamapeto pake zidachotsedwa mu zongoganiza zolaula. Makanema onse a zolaula omwe amawoneka ngati atsegulidwa mu ubongo wanga anali atangotulutsa mawu osamveka bwino, omwe akanazimiririka kwakanthawi. Mawu ngati blonde ndi brunette samandikumbutsanso zolaula za PornHub zamagulu awa.
Pafupifupi miyezi ya 5 itakhala yopanda zolaula ndidapeza bwenzi lokondeka ndipo nditanena za kulimbana kwanga ndikuchoka ku zolaula, adandiuza kuti kumwa zolaula ndikumuletsa, komanso kuti amasangalala kuti ndamasulidwa. Ndidakhala ndi mwayi kwambiri tsiku lijali chifukwa mtsikanayo anali wanthawi yayitali.
Miyezi ya 11 muulendo wanga zovuta ndizochepa kwenikweni komanso zapakati. Nthawi zina ndimakhala ngati wotsalira ndikamva ngakhale zonena zabodza za anthu amtundu wina. Nthawi zina ndimalemba pa NSFW AskReddit pa nkhani ya kugonana yowutsa mudyo. Koma mwamwayi, ndikutha tsopano kuzindikira ndikamafuna kudzinyenga ndikachokapo pomwepo osawonongeka.
Kusintha komaliza komaliza komwe ndimamva ndikomwe ndimayang'ana akazi. Tsopano ndimalemekeza kwambiri ndipo sindiganiziranso mkazi aliyense yemwe ndimamuwona pafupi nane ngati chikhalidwe m'malingaliro anga azakugonana. Ndizoseketsa kuti nditangodziwa kuti moyo wanga sunadalire zolaula, malingaliro anga oponderezedwa pamakampani adachoka paumbuli komanso osalabadira "Ayi, zonse ndizogwirizana komanso zosungidwa moyenera ndipo mafakitale alibe banga mbali zambiri" kwa wachifundo komanso wachifundo "Inde pali zochulukirapo komanso zotsutsana zomwe zikuchitika pamakampani".
Ndikukhulupirira kuti kufotokozaku kukuthandizani kuti muzimvetsetsa bwino, ndipo mwina mungavomereze ngati muli ndi vuto. Ndikupangira aliyense kuti ayesetse zolaula kwa kanthawi, ngakhale simukumva ngati zikuyambitsa mavuto. Nthawi zambiri muphunzira kanthu kapena ziwiri za inu. Ndikumvadi kuti ndatsimikiza mtima kupitilirabe ndikakumbukira komwe ndidayambira komanso kupita patsogolo komwe ndidachita.
Ndikukufunirani zabwino zonse pazabwino zanu.
LINK - Momwe Mungachitire ndi Chifukwa chani Miyezi yanga ya 11 yaulere
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