Pambuyo pa tsiku langa lobadwa ndinaganiza kuti ndikufuna kuthana ndi zizolowezi zanga zolaula. Tsiku lobadwa langa lili mu Okutobala lomwe limayamba mu Novembala lomwe ndi mwezi umodzi kwa amuna ndipo chinthu chonse cha 'no nut November'. Ndinayesa kupanga zinthu za NoFap ena azaka zoyambirira za 20 koma ndidawona kuti ndizosatheka komanso cholepheretsa kuposa china chilichonse chothana ndi zolaula. Ndikudziwa kuti anthu ambiri amayang'ana zinthuzi m'njira zosiyanasiyana koma ndimangofuna kugawana zomwe ndakumana nazo mpaka pano. Ponena za chizolowezi changa, sindikudziwa ngati ndili / woyipa ngati anthu ena. Sindinakhalepo ndi ED kapena 'zolaula zomwe zinapangitsa ED' koma ndikuganiza ngati ndikadapitilizabe, ndikadafika pamalowo kotero ndimayenera kutenga udindo pazomwezi.
Pa miyezi 3 yapitayi sindinakhale wangwiro. Ndazindikira mwangozi zolaula pa Reddit kapena masamba ena chifukwa ndi choncho kupezeka mosavuta. Sindinazindikire kuti ndizosavuta kubwera mpaka nditayamba kudzipangitsa kuti ndisayang'ane tsiku lililonse. Nditasiya kuyang'ana zolaula tsiku lililonse, sindimakhulupirira kuti ndimamva bwino bwanji. Ndikumva kubadwanso. Kuda nkhawa kwanga kwatha, kukumbukira kwanga kwakanthawi komanso kwakanthawi kwakula, malingaliro anga asintha kwambiri kawiri. Zokolola zanga kuntchito komanso zambiri zadutsanso padenga mpaka kufika poti ndikagwire ntchito ndipo ndisanakwane masiku omaliza ndi sabata yolimba.
Ndimangomva ngati kuti ndayambiranso moyo wanga ndipo sindinazindikire momwe zinaliri zoipa mpaka nditayesetsa kuti ndisayang'ane zolaula tsiku lililonse. Cholinga changa pachilichonse m'moyo chabwerenso. Kwenikweni, ubongo wanga uli kugwira ntchito moyenera kachiwiri.
Chinthu china chomwe chiri chodabwitsa kwa ine tsopano ndikuti ndimathamangitsidwa ndikawona mtsikana tsopano. Sindikukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe sindinathe kuthana ndi kukongola kwa msungwana koma zonse zabwerera tsopano. Nsagwada zanga zatsika ndipo ndimamwetulira ndikukhala wosangalala kwambiri. Sindinaganize kuti ndidzakumananso ndi izi chifukwa pamene ndimayang'ana zolaula, ndinali wolungama kusefukira kwa ubongo wanga ndi zokuchitikirani mobwerezabwereza mpaka ndidakhala kwathunthu zosafunika kuchitikira izi. Potsiriza idabwereranso ndipo idangotenga miyezi itatu (makamaka pang'ono).
Ndikawona zotsatirazi patangopita nthawi yochepa, zimandilimbikitsa kwambiri. Ndaphunzira kudana ndi zolaula komanso kuwonongeka komanso kuwongolera komwe zidandichitira zaka zambiri. Tsopano ndikuyamba kusunga moyo wanga ndipo ndipitiliza kulimbana mwamphamvu kuti ndisayang'anenso nawo. Sipanga zokambirana zambiri pankhaniyi koma ndidayambanso kulowa muzinthu zachipembedzo mwezi watha ndipo zathandizanso.
Pomaliza koma osachepera kuchuluka kwa nthawi yaulere yomwe ndapeza chifukwa chosagwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndiyodabwitsa. Ndalandira zochuluka kwambiri m'miyezi 3 yapitayi ndipo ndalimbikitsidwa kuchita zinthu zambiri tsopano.
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KULUMIKIZANA - Momwe ndimamverera patatha miyezi itatu
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