Kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya zolaula, izi ndi zomwe zidachitika mmoyo wanga:
- chidaliro changa chakwera kwambiri. Tsopano ndili wolimba mtima pazosowa zanga, zosowa zanga, nkhawa zanga, komanso momwe ndikumvera. Zotsatira zake, anthu amandilemekeza.
- Khungu langa limawoneka lowala kwambiri ndipo maso anga amawoneka oyera komanso amphamvu, osagwa monga momwe zinalili kale. Ndinali ndi tsitsi lowongoka mmbuyomo kotero kuti kunali kovuta kulipesa. Chodabwitsa kwambiri, tsitsi langa tsopano lasintha mwachilengedwe. Ndikudziwa kuti ndizachilendo, koma zitha kuchitika chifukwa chakusunga umuna. mphamvu zambiri, makamaka panthawi yolimbitsa thupi. Ndikhoza kukweza mochulukira komanso motalika.
- amachepetsa nkhawa zamagulu. Sindikumva kuti thupi lowopsya komanso lowopsya ndikakhala pakati pa anthu, zomwe ndi ZABWINO kwa ine.
- nthawi yochulukirapo. Izi zikuwonekeratu chifukwa sindimangowonongera zolaula. Zotsatira zake, ndimachita bwino kwambiri.
- abwenzi ambiri kuposa kale lonse m'moyo wanga kuzungulira tawuni yakwathu. Tsopano ndikudziwa pafupifupi aliyense kuzungulira pano ndipo ndili ndi chidaliro kwambiri pozungulira iwo. Ubwino wanga pakati pa anthu ndikudutsa padenga, makamaka chifukwa chazithunzithunzi zanga komanso zolimbitsa thupi.
- chimwemwe. Ichi ndi chinthu chachikulu kwa ine chifukwa sindinali wokondwa ndekha pazaka 6 zapitazi. Kusiya zolaula ndikupanga anzanga kuno kunandipatsa chisangalalo komanso chisangalalo.
- Akulu amanditenga ngati mwamuna, osati ngati mwana. Kukula kwa kudzidalira kwanu kumasulira momwe mumadzichitira.
- kugona ngati khanda. Palibe nkhawa konse monga ndinali nayo. Ngati ndichita zomwe ndiyenera kuchita patsiku, ndine wokondwa nazo ndipo chifukwa chake, kugona kwanga sikungakhudzidwe.
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Iyi ndi nkhani yanga yowululidwa kwathunthu. Kuyambira pano, ndili ndi masiku 148 PMO Aulere.
Kuwonetsa kwanga koyamba zolaula kunachitika ndili ndi zaka 9, ndinalandira mabuku azithunzithunzi kuchokera kwa amalume anga otchedwa Conan Wachilendo, omwe amaganiza kuti amapangidwira ana, koma sichinali. Pomwe ndimayamba kuwerenga nkhaniyi, zithunzi zolaula za Conan zidakopeka ndi akazi ena opusa. Ndidalumikizidwa pomwe ndidaziwona.
Ndili mwana, sindinadziwe kuti kuseweretsa maliseche kapena kumangirira, koma ndinachita chidwi kwambiri ndi zojambula zogonana zomwe ndimaziyang'ana tsiku lonse. Bukuli lidali ndi chithunzi cha mkazi weniweni wa bikini kuchikuto chakumbuyo, yemwe ndidaganiza naye maloto okonda zachiwerewere. Izi zidapitilira kwakanthawi, ngati miyezi itatu. Kenako ndidataya mabukuwo, ndipo zidatha.
Kenako vuto lina lidachitika lomwe ndili wamanyazi kulankhulapo. Ndikudziwa ndizachisoni kwa ine, koma chinthucho chinali… Ndidawawona amayi ndi abambo anga akugonana, nthawi 3 motsatizana. Ndinkangodzigoneka pakama panga, kunamizira kuti ndagona, ndikuyamba kuyang'anitsitsa kudzera m'maso anga otsekedwa aja kwa iwo usiku.
Izi zandisintha, ndikuganiza. Kugonana kunakhala kosangalatsa komanso 'cholinga chachikulu' cha moyo wanga pambuyo pake. Ndinkangoganizira za maloto olakalaka usiku. Ngakhale ndinali ndi intaneti m'nyumba mwanga, sindinayese kuyang'ana zithunzi zonyansa poopa kupezeka chifukwa desktop inali mchipinda chochezera.
Moyo unayamba kundisintha nditakumana ndi anzanga ena pafupi ndi kwathu pomwe ndinali ndi zaka 11, omwe pambuyo pake adakhala anzanga okondedwa kwambiri. Kukhala nawo ndikusangalala ndi moyo munthawi imeneyi kunandipangitsa kuti ndisinthe kwambiri kuchokera pa zomwe ndinali. Ndidayamba kudzidalira, ndidayamba kuyankhula papulatifomu pazinthu zakusukulu, ndipo luso langa litakula, ndidayamba kukamba nkhani zabwino mkalasi. Moyo unali wabwino. Ndinali ndi anzanga omwe amandisamala momwe ine ndimkawakondera. Tinkasewera ndipo tinkacheza tsiku lililonse. Zolaula sizinali kanthu pamoyo wanga masiku amenewo. Ndimakumbukirabe masiku amenewo.
Kenako ndinali ndi chiyembekezo chachikulu mtsogolo. Ndipo moyo unapitilira… mpaka makolo anga ndi ine titasamukira kumudzi wina, ndipo ndinayenera kusanzikana ndi anzanga.
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Kwathu kwawo kwatsopano, sukulu yatsopano. Ndinali ndi zaka 14. Ngakhale ndimasowa anzanga, tsogolo limawoneka labwino. Ndinkadzidalira, ndinali wokangalika ndipo ndinkatenga nawo mbali pamipikisano yolankhula pagulu mkalasi mwanga, ndipo moyo umawoneka ngati upita patsogolo.
Koma ayi. Sanatero. Zomwe zidatsata kwa zaka 6 zinali zoopsa zoyipa zomwe sindingafune kwa aliyense amene ndimamukonda. Zaka 6 izi zitha kufotokozedwa m'mawu awiri: kuzunzika kopanda tanthauzo. Umu ndi m'mene zidachitikira.
Nditangosamukira kumene ndinabadwira, ndinalandila foni yanga yanga yamapiritsi. Monga mwana yemwe analibe chida chamwini, ndinali wokondwa ngati chilichonse. Ndinali kusewera masewera ndi zinthu. Sindinadziwe kuti piritsi limenelo lidzakhala temberero langa lalikulu pambuyo pake.
Kenako ndikukhazikitsa malo ogulitsira ena omwe titha kulandira nawo masewera aulere. Inali ndimasewera, mapulogalamu, ndi gawo lina lotchedwa Wallpapers. Munali chiyani mmenemo? Makanema azimayi ovala zovala za bikini. Ndinakodwa nthawi yomweyo. Anali olakalaka kwambiri kwa ine ndimangowayang'ana kwa maola ambiri. Pamasukulu, ndimakonda kuyang'ana zithunzi zolaula kwa maola 4-6. Pa tchuthi, chiwerengerocho chinakwera ngati maola 7-9. Zithunzi zolaula zidakumananso ndi malingaliro anga, koma nthawi ino zinali zolimba kwambiri (chifukwa cha kutha msinkhu).
Miyezi 3-5 idadutsa choncho. Pambuyo pake, ndidazindikira kuti zithunzizi sizikundilimbikitsanso monga zimakhalira kale. Ndinkafuna zina zolaula, makamaka ma nudes. Chifukwa chake ndidayamba kufunafuna imodzi pa Google ndipo ndidapunthwa patsamba lomwe ndalipira. Anali ndi zithunzi zonse zamaliseche ngati tizithunzi tazakanema. Ndinali mkulu. Monga ndidanenera, sindinadziwe kuti malotowo anali maliseche mpaka nditakhala zaka 15. Ndakhala ndikuyang'ana ma nudes tsiku lonse limodzi.
Kuwona zithunzi za kumaliseche ndi zala zonyansa ndi zinthu zonsezo kunandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe kusanza nthawi yoyamba. Ndinanyansidwa nawo. Koma kunyansidwa kunasandulika kukopa pomwe mdierekezi adasokoneza malingaliro anga.
Koma pamapeto pake malingaliro anga adayamba kuchita dzanzi chifukwa cha zithunzi zamaliseche izi. Ndinkafuna kuyenda. Ndinkafuna makanema. Takulandirani Pornhub. Ndipo ndidapeza makanema ogonana kwambiri pa Youtube. Panali panthawiyi nditatulutsa nthawi yoyamba. Chilichonse chidatsikira mwachangu kuyambira pamenepo kupita mtsogolo.
Ndinayamba kusiya kukonda zinthu zonse kupatula zolaula. Ndinayamba kukhala mwana wamanyazi momwe ndinali kusukulu ya pulaimale kale. Ndinkakhala chete ndekha mukalasi ndipo sindimayankhula ndi anzanga kapena kukambirana ndi aphunzitsi. Ndataya mphamvu zanga zonse komanso changu chachinyamata. Kuonera zolaula kunandipangitsa kukhala wosavuta.
Zomwe ndimangofuna ndikupita kunyumba ndikukaonera zolaula. Anzanga m'kalasi adandifunsa chifukwa chomwe ndimakhala chete. Poyamba adandimvera chisoni, koma chisoni chidasanduka kukwiya, kenako ndikunyansidwa.
Ndinayamba kudzikayikira. Ndinkafuna chisamaliro. Ndinachita zinthu zopusa ndi zopusa kuti ndisangalatse ena, ndipo chifukwa chake ndinapondedwa. Ndinali mnyamata wogonjera. Sindinalimbikitse zosowa zanga. Mkwiyo ndi mkwiyo zidakhazikika mkati mwanga, koma ndimachita mantha kufotokoza malingaliro amenewo kuwopa kuweruzidwa.
Mnyamata yemwe kale anali ndi abwenzi miliyoni ndipo tsopano ali yekhayekha wovutika maganizo.
Aphunzitsi adawona kuchepa kwanga komanso machitidwe osagwira ntchito ndipo m'modzi mwa iwo adandiyitana ndikundifunsa, "Nkukhala bwanji chete? Ndizosiyana ndi inu. Kodi pali chilichonse chomwe chikukuvutitsani panyumba? ” Ndidampatsa zifukwa zopunduka zokhala ndi chimfine kapena china chake ndipo zidali zomwezo.
Kuchotsa nyini pafupipafupi ndipo zotsatira zake zimakhala kutaya umuna kumakupangitsani kukhala munthu wosiyana ndi wamwamuna wofulidwa. Kodi mwawonapo ng'ombe yamphongo yochedwa? Ndi nyama yosasamala yomwe imakhutitsidwa ndi udzu patsogolo pake. Samapikisana nawo pa ziweto zake ndipo chifukwa chake, amawoneka osakopa kwa akazi anzawo.
Ndinadziwa kuti zolaula zimandichotsera nthawi yochuluka, kuti ndiyime chifukwa zimandikhudza kwambiri. Ndinkadziwa mwanjira ina kumbuyo kwanga kuti kusachita, chidwi changa, kukhumudwa, kufatsa, komanso kuda nkhawa zimayenderana ndi zolaula zanga. Ndinayesa ndikukhala osasamala masiku atatu, koma ndinabwereranso. Kenako ndinafikira masiku 3, koma osapezekanso. Kenako zimawoneka kuti sindingadutse masiku 7. Pambuyo pake ndimayambiranso.
Munali munthawi imeneyi pomwe ndidapunthwa patsamba la Gary Wilson yourbrainonporn.com. Chilichonse nthawi yomweyo chimakhala chomveka atatha kuwerenga zolemba zake ndikuwona zomwe awonetsa. Ndinkadziwa kuti zolaula ndizo zokha zomwe zinayambitsa mavuto anga.
Koma kudziwa china chake sikutanthauza kukupangitsani kuti muchitepo kanthu. Ndinayesa kusiya kangapo konse koma nthawi zonse zimangobwereranso mochititsa manyazi.
Ndinayamba kuwona akazi ngati zinthu zogonana osati monga anthu. Lingaliro langa pa zakugonana ndipo akazi adayamba kupotoza. Monga munthu wamanyazi, apanso ndinazunzidwa ndikumenyedwa. Anandikankhira mozungulira osalangidwa. Sindinabwezere. Chidani changa ndi mkwiyo zidakulirakulira.
Zizolowezi zanga zolaula komanso kukhumudwitsidwa kwa ubongo zidasokonekera ndipo ndidayamba kuganizira za anzanga akusukulu ndikuwachita maliseche. Ngakhale zinali zoyipa kwambiri, ndinayamba kudzipangitsa kuti ndizichita zinthu zoterezi.
Ndikamatuluka, ndimamva kufooka kwambiri. Khungu langa limawoneka louma komanso lotuwa, maso anga akuwoneka olowa, mawonekedwe anga agwa, thupi langa limawoneka lofooka. Ndinali 16 ndipo inali nthawi imeneyi nditapeza zomanga. Ndinayamba kukhala ndi mnofu pang'ono, koma ndimavutika kuti ndizidzikakamiza ndikatha. Manja anga ndi miyendo yanga imatha kukhala yofooka nditachita zolaula. Nthawi zonse ndimatha kumva kufooka m'miyendo ndikadzayambiranso, ngati mafupa anga atha kulephera kulemera mwadzidzidzi.
Ndinali ndi anzanga zero m'tauni yakwathu. Anthu ozungulira pano nthawi zambiri amalankhula za makolo anga kuti ndine wokonda kupita kunyumba. Ndinadana ndi moyo. Nthawi zambiri ndinkakonda kuganiza zodzipha nthawi imeneyo. Ndinkabwera kunyumba ndikaweruka kusukulu ndipo ndinkangogona pansi ndikulira pansi kapena pabedi. Usiku, sindinkagona. Kubwereranso kamodzi kumachotsa chidaliro changa ndi mtendere wanga - ndipo ndimavutika kugona pabedi osapotoza kapena kutembenuka. Ndinali wopanikizika kwambiri ndipo ndimakonda kuyenda ndikubwera usiku m'chipinda changa. Kwanenedwa kuti zomwe mumamva usiku mukamagona tulo zimatanthawuza mkhalidwe weniweni wa moyo wanu - kodi muli pamtendere, podziwa kuti mwachita zonse zomwe mungathe patsikulo, kapena mukuvutika kuganizira za moyo womwe Mudalephera kukhala ndi moyo ndi malonjezo onse omwe mudapanga omwe mudapanga? Ndinkadziwa kuti zolaula ndizo zinali zovuta, koma palibe chomwe ndinachita kuti ndithane ndi vutoli osabwereranso. Moyo unali gehena. Palibe chomwe ndidachita chomwe chidagwira.
Ngakhale ndinalonjeza kangati kusiya zolaula ndikulemba zolinga ndikusainira kudzipereka kwanga, ndimalephera nthawi iliyonse. Mtsinje wapamwamba kwambiri womwe ndinali nawo nthawi imeneyo unali ngati masiku 21 kapena kupitilira apo. Ndipo izi zidapitilira mpaka pomwe ndidayamba koleji.
Ndikulingalira m'mutu mwanga momwe moyo ukanawonekera ngati sindinapezeko zolaula kapena kubwereranso. Ndikuganiza kuti nditha kuiwala zenizeni zomwe zandizungulira. Kodi mudawonako kanema woti 'Moyo Wachinsinsi wa Walter Mitty', pomwe Walter nthawi zambiri ankangokhalira kutengeka ndi zochitika zongopeka zomwe sizinafikepo kwenikweni. Ndinali CHONCHO monga choncho. Nzosadabwitsa kuti ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri.
Chifunga cha ubongo chinali choipitsitsa. Ndinkachita chibwibwi m'mawu anga, sindinathe kuyankhula mwadongosolo, ndikulanda zidutswa zamawu ndikungodziphatikiza. Ena anali ovuta kundimvetsa. Ndimalankhula mwachangu kwambiri chifukwa chamanjenje komanso kusadzidalira kuti ndine ndani, zomwe zimapangitsa kuti ndisamve mawu / zilembo. Sindikukumbukira nkhope za anthu atsopano omwe ndimakumana nawo nditawawona kamodzi kapena kawiri kuti ndiwanene. Kukumbukira kwanga ndi ubongo wanga zinali ngati SUPER pang'onopang'ono. Sindingathe kuganiza pamapazi anga. Nthawi iliyonse wina akabweretsa mutu pokambirana, ndimavutika kuti zokambiranazo zizikhala zopanda pake zomwe zingandibweretsere ubongo. Pambuyo pake kukambirana kumatha mpamene ndimadzipezera malingaliro amomwe ndingakambirane momasuka ndi munthu winayo.
Ndinkadzidalira kwambiri. Nthawi zambiri ndinkabwera kunyumba ndikamaliza sukulu ndikulira. Ndinkachita ngati wonyada, koma ndinalibe chilichonse mwa ine. Ndinali chabe wotayika.
Anthu amalankhula zakudzikonza komanso zonse koma ngati muli ndi vuto lachiwerewere, zimakhala zovuta kutsatira zomwe mumakwaniritsa tsiku ndi tsiku chifukwa chosowa chidwi, osadzudzulidwa chifukwa cha kukokoloka kwa kotekisi, kutopa, komanso momveka bwino Kukwiya komanso kuyabwa komwe kumachitika mutangobwereranso.
Ndataya milungu yambiri ndikuwonera zolaula ndikugona mozungulira ndikudandaula ndikabwereranso. Zomwe ndimanong'oneza nazo bondo.
Sindikudziwa bwanji, koma m'modzi mwa aphunzitsi anga aku sekondale adatinso pa ine kuti "simukadakhala monga chonchi. Unali ndi kuthekera kwakukulu ”Izi zinandipweteka. Monga zambiri. Ndinali nditamaliza moyo.
Lingaliro lodzipha linkawoneka mowirikiza ndikukopa momwe ndidayambira kuvutikira. Pakati pa nthawiyi, ndinapeza buku la Jordan B. Peterson lotchedwa 12 Rules For Life, ndipo kuti, ndiyenera kunena, linali buku limodzi la PHENOMENAL. Ndidaliwerenga ngati kuti linali buku lopatulika. Zinandithandiza kumvetsetsa momwe ndingayendere moyo m'njira yoyenera.
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“Ndikadakhala phulusa koposa fumbi!
Ndikadakonda kuti mphamvu yanga ipse ndi moto wowala kuposa momwe iyenera kuponderezedwa ndi kuvunda kowuma. Ndikadakonda kukhala meteor wapamwamba, atomu iliyonse yanga yowala modabwitsa, kuposa dziko logona komanso lokhalitsa.
Ntchito ya munthu ndiyo kukhala ndi moyo, osati kukhalapo.
Sindidzataya masiku anga poyesera kutalikitsa. Ndigwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanga. ”
–Jack London's Credo, The Bulletin, San Francisco, California, Disembala 2, 1916
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