Ndinali wonenepa kwambiri, wotayika, wodya tchipisi komanso kusewera masewera - Tsopano, mphamvu, mphamvu, kuganizira, kudzidalira, mphumu ndibwinonso

Kwa masiku 586 apitawo ndakhala ndikupezeka pa NoFap tsiku lililonse. Osati tsiku ndi tsiku sindinkawona zolaula. Osati kuti lirilonse la masiku amenewo ndinali womasuka mwamanyazi. Ayi.
Sizokhudza izi. Sizinakhalepo.
Ndizokhudza kumasuka ku ukapolo komwe ndidadziyika ndili ndi zaka 13. Zinali, ndipo zikhala kuti ndikhalanso osalakwa, ndikumverera momwe ndimamvera ndili mwana. Ndikudziwa ndikafika kumeneko.

Momwe zonse zinayambira.

Kugona pabedi, ndikukankhira mbolo yanga kumbuyo ndi mtsogolo osadziwa zomwe ziti zichitike. Ndi ine ndekha, kama ndi malingaliro okhudzana ndi mtsikana wosasinthasintha yemwe ndikufuna kugonana naye.
Ndimasokonekera, ana anga amalingalira chilichonse chomwe chingachitike kumeneko, ngakhale sindinawone P mwina kamodzi kapena kawiri.
Komabe ndimaganizira.
Mwadzidzidzi china chake chachilendo chimachitika. Sindinadziwepo malingaliro awa kale. Ndi choncho… Zachilendo. Sindingathe kufotokoza nthawi imeneyo ngakhale pano - sindingathe kufotokoza momwe zimamvekera.
Zinthu zidakhala zachilendo kwenikweni, ndinali wosokonezeka. Kuthamangira kuchimbudzi kuti ndizindikire - Ndangokhala ndi vuto langa loyamba.
Ulendo wopita kugehena ndi kubwerera unayambika apa…

Machimo, machimo… Machimo oopsa.

Khalani pamaso pa abale anga laputopu tsiku lonse. Kusewera masewera, kucheza ndi anthu osasintha pa skype ndipo osangosangalala ndi moyo konse. Ndiwo wazaka 13 zakubadwa ine.
Usiku umayandikira ndipo aliyense akugona, kuphatikiza ubongo wanga.
Koma osati machimo. Amakwawa, amalowa m'mutu mwanga. Amayatsa moto mu labu la dopamine ndipo umangoyaka ngati gehena. Ndizoyipa, koma ine wosakhwima ndimakonda. Kuwonera chilichonse chomwe chimandipangitsa kumva kuti ndikuthamangira. Ndikungokumba kuposa kale. Amamva bwino kwambiri, ngati paradaiso.

Patapita miyezi ingapo, ndinasamukira m'nyumba yomwe makolo anga ankakhala. Sindinkaikonda kwenikweni. Sanapeze intaneti. Koma magazini ndi atsikana amaliseche? NTHAWI YONSE! Makolo anga akangopita ku shopu yapafupi yomwe inali ngati makilomita 6 kuchokera kwathu, ndimangotaya. Katatu patsiku, kanayi patsiku. Nthawi zina kumangozichita kuti mudzachitenso mtsogolo. Panalibe tanthauzo lililonse - ndidagwidwa ndikulowetsedwa m'malo amenewo.

Kodi ngakhale CHIYANI moyo?

Osandifunsa. Sindingayankhe. Kutanganidwa kupewa.
Ndinkakwanitsa zaka 14 ndipo ndinkasandulanso nyama yovunda. Ndinalibe umunthu. Ndinalibe malo ochezera kapena anzanga enieni. Ndinangokhala ndi kompyuta… Sanali anga. Ndipo mphamvu yakukhumbira - molondola - imeneyo inali mphamvu pa ine, osati mphamvu yomwe ndidalimbana nayo.
Ndinkakhala ndi mlongo wanga nthawi imeneyo. Atangotuluka kukagwira ntchito kapena kuti akangokhala moyo - ndinataya zanga ndi zolaula komanso makanema apa vidiyo.
Ndinamva chisoni. Koma sindinadziwe chifukwa chake. Ndinali ngati ... Kungodya, kugwiritsa ntchito PC, kupita kusukulu ndi kubwerera. Palibe chomwe chinali ndi tanthauzo, palibe chomwe chinali ndi cholinga.
Kusukulu ndinkasekedwa ndi anzanga, popeza ndinali ndi zaka 14 zokha, ndipo ambiri azaka 14 kusukulu kwathu sanali ochezeka. Ndizachilengedwe pano ndikuganiza.
Sukulu inkandipweteka. Sindinkafuna kukhala ndekha mu ubongo wanga.
Ndidasintha ngati masukulu 4 izi zisanachitike. Ndasunthira kwina - ndipo ndinali wotopa.
Sindinali wochokera kubanja lolemera. Ndinali wosauka. Zovala zinali zoyipa, ukhondo unali zoyipa ndipo ine ndekha - ndimamva ngati zoyipa. Mutu wanga unali wodzaza ndi phokoso, kupsinjika komanso malingaliro oyipa amtsogolo komanso moyo wamba. Wopanda moyo, wopanda chikondi, wopanda chochita. Komanso mwana woopsa mwachilengedwe.
Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wosiyana ndi ana ena. Zosiyana kwambiri, osati mwachikhalidwe chokha. Ichi ndichimodzi mwazifukwa zomwe zidandivuta kulumikizana ndi dziko lapansi. Zingwe sizinafanane ndi madoko omwe ndinganene. Ndimayesetsa kuti ndipange abwenzi, koma malingaliro anga ndi malingaliro anga omwe ndinali nditasiya amangokhalira kupotoza zinthu m'njira zosiyanasiyana ndikupangitsa kuti zizikhala zoyipa tsiku ndi tsiku. Komanso njira yanga yosonyezera kutengeka ndiyosiyana, chifukwa chake zinali zoyipa zokha kumeneko.

Ndinkafuna kutuluka.

Ndiye ndine ndani?

Apanso ndinasintha sukulu. Iyi inali nthawi yomaliza tho. Koma sizinali zophweka. Kwa zaka pafupifupi ziwiri sindinkalankhula ndi aliyense. Ndinali chete, wamanyazi, ndikubisala ndekha komanso anthu ena.
Ndinali mchipinda changa tsopano. Ndili ndi kompyuta yanga komanso zolaula zanga. Zinali zoyipa kuposa kale. Ndinali ndikuipiraipira kuposa kale, moyo nawonso.
Ndinali mwa ine ndekha kotero kuti… Anthu adandiwona kuti sindinakhalepo chifukwa chongokhala chete. Ndinali ndekha kwambiri, wosungulumwa komanso wotsutsana ndi anthu kuti ndizovuta kukhulupirira tsopano kuti wazaka 16 uja anali ndi ine tsopano. Zachidziwikire kuti inunso muyenera kukula, ndiye kuti izi zimasintha, koma ndikukhulupirirabe kuti zolaula zimadzipha ndekha kuti ndimasowa kale. Moyo wanga unali wamanyazi. Ndinali wonenepa kwambiri, wotayika, ndikudya tchipisi ndikusewera zaka za maufumu 3 ngati chilimwe chonse, ndikungodzisiya. Kusambira mu chipinda changa ndikufuna kufa.

Komano ...

Zosintha kugunda

Ndipo amamenya kwambiri. Ine, amayi anga, abambo ndi agalu awiri tinayenera kuchoka panyumba chipinda chimodzi.
Osandifunsa kuti ndichifukwa chani, ndi zaka zakumwa zoledzeretsa komanso zovuta ndi zovuta ... Osati kuloza zala kwenikweni.
Apo ine ndinali. Amayi ataledzera, atagona pansi, abambo ataledzera - atagona pabedi. Agalu atagona pafupi ndi amayi, ine - nditaima pamenepo - wamisala padziko lapansi. Kuwawa ndi chisoni. Tsopano aliyense m'tawuni yaying'ono yatsopano yomwe ndimayenera kukhala mchipinda chaching'ono ichi ndimavuto onsewa…

King dogshit ndinali.
Koma zinandisintha. Ndipo ndibwino.
Mwanjira ina yodabwitsa ndidataya ngati ma kilogalamu a 8 a kulemera. Kodi zinali chifukwa chakukula kwanga? Mwina. Mwina zakudya zosiyanasiyana kapena… Ngati ndi momwe mumazitchulira. Mwina. Palibe amene akudziwa, koma chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndingatsimikize - chinali gawo la unyolo. Pang'ono ndi pang'ono ndinayamba kusintha.
Osati nthawi zonse zabwino, koma ambiri ndinayamba kudzidalira, ndimapereka zochepa ndikumakhala moyo wabwino ngakhale mchipinda chimodzi chaching'ono ndi makolo oledzera.
Ndinakhala munthu wokonda kulankhula kwambiri pasukulu, ndinali wolimba mtima, ndimangokhala… Mwana kachiwiri.
Ayi, sindinasiye kuonera zolaula - koma sindinachite izi. Ndinazindikiranso kuti palibe chomwe ndingachite pakusintha uku. Zinangochitika ndipo ndizomwezo. Nditha kuyikweza ndikukhala nayo.
Ndipo ndidatero.
Osangopita pazambiri, tiyeni tidumphe tsiku lomwelo.

Ndi m'mawa wokongola bwanji

Adadzuka ndikugwira foni yanga. Ndinkafuna kudziwa chifukwa chake ndikuwonera zolaula. Ndinayamba kufunafuna zabwino zolaula (ndi chitsiru chotani) ndikupeza… Nofap!
Nthawi yomweyo ndinayamba kuvomereza kuti ndine wokonda zolaula ndipo ndiyenera kudzipulumutsa ndekha. Ndikuganiza kuti ndimadziwa mosazindikira kuti NDIFunika Kukula! Zili mkati mwa aliyense wa ife.
Madzulo omwewo ndinakhala pagombe ndi galu wanga ndikuganiza za momwe sindidzawoneranso zolaula.
Madzulo omwewo ndimayang'ana makanema ndichisangalalo chotere. Ndinadzimva ngati ndidzakhalanso mwana wosalakwa.

Pambuyo masiku 4 ndasaina patsamba lino ndipo ulendo weniweni udayamba.
Ndinadutsa nthawi zovuta komanso zovuta. Panali mphindi zabwino. Euphoric - paradiso wokha pachimake.
Ngakhale nditabwereranso ndinadziwa kuti ndikuchita bwino kuposa omwe sakudziwa za nofap. Nthawi zonse ndinkasunga m'mutu mwanga - ndadalitsidwa. Anthu pa nofap - adalitsidwa. Tonse ndife odala! Uku ndiye kukongola kwenikweni kwa moyo - kumasuka ku ziwanda zako !!

Nazi zinthu zomwe ndidazindikira ndili paulendo wa Nofap:

• Zilibe kanthu kuti mwakhala mukuonera zolaula masiku angati. Zowonadi, chingwe ndi chinthu chabwino - koma chingwe chopanda maziko olimba sichinyalala. Mukamadziwa zambiri zokhudzana ndi zolaula, lupanga lanu limakhala lakuthwa. WERENGANI ZOKHUDZA KWAMBIRI! Dziphunzitseni NOKHA!
• Akazi ndi okongola kwambiri kuposa amuna mwanjira ina; iwo sali zida konse. Zomwe ali nazo ndi matsenga, kukongola kowona. Sapangidwe kuti azunzidwe. Osati mokakamiza osati ndi diso.
• Moyo ndiwokongola kwambiri ngakhale nthawi zakuda kwambiri!
• Zomwe muli pakati pa miyendo yanu ndi mphamvu. Osati mipira iwiri ndi mnzake - koma mphamvu! Muli ndi thupi, malingaliro ndi moyo. Gwiritsani ntchito malingaliro anu kuwongolera thupi lanu ndikulola thupi lanu likhale ndi moyo wosangalala. Musalole kuti chilakolakocho chikulamulireni.
• Palibe chinthu monga "kungoyang'ana"; ndikubwerera. Siyani kubwerera m'mbuyo! Musayang'ane china chake chokhudzana ndi zolaula. ZONSE!
• Simuyenera kuyang'ana zolaula konse. Sizabwino kwa inu. Sanakhalepo ndipo sadzakhalaponso. Omwe amapindula ndi zolaula ndi omwe amapanga. Chonde - Musagwirizane ndi mafakitale a mbalame poyang'ana mbalame!
• Simuyenera kuganizira kuti musaganize zolaula. Tangoganizirani china chake. Pezani luso lotha kulanda chilakolako kuti muchite chinthu china chopanga. NdikOFUNIKA KWAMBIRI.

Malangizo popewa zolimbikitsa!

1. Gwiritsani ntchito malingaliro anu. Kungoti muli ndi chilakolako sizitanthauza kuti muyenera kusiya.
2. Chitani zokankha, zokoka - china chakuthupi. Gwiritsani ntchito mphamvu zanu.
3. Mvula yozizira. Amathandizira kuthana ndi zovuta tsiku lililonse.
4. Chitani chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe mumakonda kwambiri tsiku lililonse. Onetsetsani kuti si zolaula. Ngati mukufuna kuwerenga - werengani. Ngati mumakonda kusewera ng'oma - sewerani ng'oma! Ingochitani zomwe simukuyenera kuzikakamiza kuti zizitenge nthawi yanu komanso mphamvu zopangira!
5. Werengani, werengani komanso kamodzinso - werengani za zolaula. Ndidanenapo izi kale, komabe - nthawi zambiri anthu ambiri samanyalanyaza. Khalani ogwirizana nazo. Osasiya kuchita. Pangani mwambo. Werengani zolemba chimodzi kapena ziwiri pa nofap / zolaula patsiku. Ingotengani muubongo wanu.
6. Nzeru. Khalani nawo. Zimathandiza ZAMBIRI.
7. Kulemba. Kulemba nkhani kumathandiza. Sindingathe kufotokoza momwe, koma basi… Zikutero!
8. Kukweza zolemera. Ngati mutha kukweza china cholemetsa kuposa inu, ndiye kuti mutha kusiya zolaula. Zolemera sizongokhudza zinthu zakuthupi zokha. Ndizinthu zamaganizidwe zomwe zingakuthandizeninso kudutsa ulendowu wovuta.
9. Landirani kuti nofap ndi yovuta. Koma musachite mantha ndi izi. Ngati mungavomereze kusiya zolaula ngati chinthu chosavuta - sizingakhale zophweka, komanso kuti mumadzinamiza mudzasokoneza zinthu kwambiri.

Ndipo pamapeto pake - maubwino

1. Zowongolera bwino
2. chidaliro
3. Kudzimva wosalakwa.
4. Osasangalala ndi zomwe zimatchedwa "nthabwala zakuda" kuchokera ku 9gag kapena zoyipa monga choncho. Ndinkakonda kuseka zinthu zosokonekera, chifukwa ubongo wanga unali wosokoneza. Ndinadzisokoneza ndekha, sindinasamalire kwenikweni. Osati pano. Ndikuganiza kuti ubongo wanga umakhala wabwino kwambiri komanso umayandikira kwambiri monga momwe ndimakhalira ndili mwana.
5. Mphamvu ndi mphamvu zambiri. Ndikumva bwino kwambiri kuposa kale.
6. Osasamala kwambiri. Titha kungonena kuti chidaliro, koma ndikuganiza kuti chidaliro chimabwera chifukwa chodziwa luso lanu. Izi sizikusamala kwambiri za winawake kuseka zolephera zanu ndi zina zambiri.
7. Kusintha kwachisangalalo.
8. Maganizo omveka. Nditha kuwongolera malingaliro omwe amabwera muubongo wanga. Maganizo otayika a fuck. Chitani zomwe muyenera kuchita kuti mukhale omwe mukufuna kukhala. Osadandaula za momwe zinthu zakuyendereni. Sangalalani nazo zomwe muli nazo.
9. Kuyamikira. Zowonadi, zimandisangalatsa kwambiri kuti ndikuthokoza. Inde, ndanena - Ndine woyamikira chifukwa chothokoza!
10. Kupuma kwasintha. Pomwe ndimakhala wothandizira, ndimadwala mphumu. Ikupezekabe, koma ili ngati nthawi zochepa kwambiri za 10. Kawirikawiri matenda a mphumu.
11. Ndikungofuna kuti ndikhale wokhazikika tsopano! Ndikufuna kukhala amuna ochulukirachulukira! Ndikumva ngati ndikukula mwauzimu kuposa kale. Kumveka kwamaganizidwe kumathandiza kwambiri.

LINK - Njira yanga.

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