Chifukwa chake ndidayamba ulendowu miyezi itatu yapitayo pomwe ndidaganiza kuti ndikufuna kusintha ubale wanga ndizogonana. Mwinamwake ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndili ndi 13 kapena apo. Mpaka pafupifupi chaka chatha ndimatha kunena kuti sindingathe kuseweretsa maliseche osawona zolaula. Ndinkazichita tsiku lililonse ndikaweruka kusukulu, chifukwa; kwenikweni panalibe chifukwa. Ndinangoyamba kukayikira machitidwe anga pomwe ndimayamba kusinkhasinkha, kuphunzitsa thupi langa ndikungodziwa zambiri. Nditayesa NoFap kangapo ndipo nditawerenga 'Ubongo Wanu pa Porn', ndidasankha kuti ndiyeneranso kusiya zolaula ndikuyambiranso - zomwe ndidachita.
Mwezi woyamba sunali wapadera kwenikweni, gawo lalikulu sikungomvera ubongo wanu chifukwa watengeka. Ndinalibe ngakhale galimoto yochuluka yochitira maliseche koma ndinkafunitsitsa kusiya zolaula.
M'mwezi wachiwiri ubongo wanga udayamba kusintha. Ndikadakhala wokondwa nthawi zonse ndipo anthu ambiri amatha kundiuza momwe ndimawonekera. Izi zinandipatsadi kudzidalira. Ziphuphu zanga, zomwe zinakula kwambiri panthawi ya kutha msinkhu, zinakhala bwino - ngati msinkhu wosiyana. Sindinganene kuti wapita kwathunthu koma zimandisangalatsa momwe ziliri kale. Chifukwa apa, ndinkangokhala wotopa nthawi zonse, pamapeto pake ndinathetsa nkhawa zanga zolankhula ndi atsikana. Ngakhale ndimadziona kuti ndine munthu wovuta, sindingafotokozere momwe ndimakondera atsikana omwe ndimawakonda. Ndidamufunsa kuti ndithane naye, adati inde koma mwatsoka sizinapitilire pakati pathu - komabe, zazing'ono momwe zikuwonekera, kwa ine chinali chinthu chachikulu kwambiri.
Chinthu chachikulu chomwe ndidazindikira m'miyezi itatu ndikuti ndimatha kugona modabwitsa nthawi yambiri. Kamodzi kwenikweni, ndidasinthidwa mausiku awiri otsatira, mwina 7-8 mwezi wonse. Pomwe mwezi umodzi woyamba ndimalakalaka zolaula kapena zachiwerewere izi zatha tsopano.
Komanso ndimakopeka kwambiri ndi atsikana omwe ndisanawaganizire zoyipa, ngakhale anali anthu abwino kwambiri. Tsopano ndazindikira kuti ndidawanyoza chifukwa sanali ma 10s, ndimakonda kuwonera zolaula - ngakhale ndimadzilimbitsa mtima kuti nditha kupita ku 10s yomwe yandizungulira.
Nditha kupitiliza ndi ulendowu, sindikudziwa. Ndikumva ngati ichi chinali chimodzi mwazinthu zothandiza kwambiri zomwe ndidazichita kuti ndidzisinthe ndikukhala ndi moyo wathanzi. Ndikumvadi kuti ndachiritsidwa - osatinso zolaula, konse.
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