Ndizopusa kwa ine kuti zolaula zimatisintha bwanji. Mwanjira ina, tonse tinakhala ngati zombi zotsutsana ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu. Mukuwona kusiyanasiyana kwamakhalidwe anu ngati simumatha kwakanthawi. Ndinali ndi bwenzi limodzi lokha m'moyo wanga ndipo zinali zitatha kusekondale kuyambira 2015-2017. Unali chibwenzi choopsa kwambiri ndipo mtsikanayo analidi wamisala. Msungwanayo anali wopanda kudzidalira kwambiri ndipo sanali ndi kanthu koma nangula m'bwato langa.
Nditayamba kuphunzira 2017 ku koleji kunalibe mtsikana m'modzi yemwe ndimamukonda. Chaka china (2018) chidadutsa ndipo tinali ndi ophunzira atsopano. Ndinkalepheretsanso maphunziro onse chifukwa sindinathe kuyanjana (zolaula zinali pamwamba pa denga). Mwanjira ina nditazindikira kuti zinthu za nofap zidayenda bwino. Sindinafikire masiku 90. Wanga anali masiku 31. Chinthu chopenga ndichakuti ndikubwereza makalasi onse omwe ndalephera koyambirira tili ndi atsikana otentha kwambiri mu semesita yatsopanoyi. Ndine wodzipereka ku nofap.
Ndinakopeka apa ndi apo koma tsiku lina mkalasi, ndinawona gulu la atsikana okongola. Anali ma blond 4 ndipo panali mtsikana m'modzi wa tsitsi lakuda. Ndinati ndekha msungwanayu ndi woipa ngati gehena; zoyera ndizabwino lol. Masabata angapo adadutsa ndipo ndinali wolakwitsa kwambiri. Msungwana watsitsi lakuda ndiye mtundu wanga ndipo ndimamukonda kwambiri ndipo sindimaganizira zogonana konse ndi iye! Ndili ndi agulugufe m'mimba mwanga patatha zaka zingapo! Asa!
Nditchuleni kuti ndine wamisala kapena china chilichonse koma kukhumudwa kumeneku ndikokongola kwambiri. Sindinamvepo motere kwanthawi yayitali ndipo nanenso ndidagwetsa misozi. Chinthu china chopenga chinachitika Lachisanu. Ndinali m'mbuyomu mkalasi ndipo patadutsa mphindi zingapo, kupwanyika kwanga kunabwera. Ndinali m'mizere yakutsogolo ndipo anali mizere itatu kumbuyo kwanga. Ndidayimirira ndikupita kumzere wake lmao. Panali vuto limodzi lokha lomwe ndinali wokondwa kwambiri ndipo sindinathe kutsegula pakamwa panga ndikuyamba kulankhula naye.
Ndinayesera koma sindinathe ndipo mtima wanga unali ukugunda kwambiri. Sindinayambe ndakhalapo ndi zotere. Sabata ino ndiyamba kulankhula naye popeza ndili ndi masiku 15. Anandiyang'ananso kangapo ndipo anayang'ana kwa ine (Lachisanu lisanafike komanso Lachisanu nalonso). Tidalumikizananso chifukwa ali ndi chimfine ndipo amafunsira hankies. Ndinali ndi paketi imodzi ndikumupatsa ndipo adati 'nditenga ziwiri zabwino' ndipo ndidati kwa iye mutha kukhala ndi paketi yonse. Adadabwa nati zikomo ndipo bwenzi langa losalankhula bulu lidatisokoneza ndipo adatembenuka. Kwenikweni, linali vuto langa nanenso chifukwa ndiyenera kusunga zokambiranazo.
Kodi ndikutani kuwonera zolaula kapena kuwona alendo omwe akugonana nawo ndikukula. Zachabechabe ngati fuck. Ndikudandaula kuti sindinapezepo nofap kale m'moyo wanga koma sindingathe kusintha zakale. Ndiganizira zamtsogolo ndikupitilizabe kusintha. Ndine wokonda zolaula kuyambira 14 ndipo moyo wanga unali gehena mpaka nditapeza nofap. Ubwino wake ndi weniweni koma ndizovuta. Mukazindikira zoyambitsa zanu ndipo musalole kuti zinthu zanu zizikhala zosavuta. Kugwira ntchito mwakhama kwambiri + mvula yozizira ndichinsinsi chakuchita bwino.
Ndidzayang'ananso zowerengera kwambiri chifukwa ndili ndi kumaliza kwanga m'milungu itatu. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga ndikudziwa kuti nditha kukwaniritsa zolinga zanga zonse ndikukwaniritsa chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna. Ndikusinthani inu anyamata pakatha sabata limodzi kapena apo. Osataya mtima ndi kupitabe patsogolo!
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