Sindikudziwa kuti nkhani yanga ndiyofunika kuiwala kuposa momwe ingachitire mantha owerenga anu kuti ayesetse kwambiri kuti ayambe kusiya izi. P yakhala vuto lalikulu kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Ndakhala wopambana modzinthu zina zambiri koma kusuta kwa Pazowopseza kwandiwopseza zonse zomwe ndimakonda ndikugwirira ntchito. Zabweretsa ukwati wanga pachimake, zidanditengera maola ochuluka, masiku, masabata, miyezi, zaka.
P yawononga maubale, idadzipangira kudzidana, idandisokoneza. P zitha kunditengera chikondi ndi ulemu kwa ana anga awiri, mkazi wanga wokongola, nyumba yanga komanso moyo womwe ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito molimbika kuti ndipange. Ngati simukuwerenga kupitiliza ndiloleni nditsindike pa mfundo iyi; Tengani zakumwa izi mozama, ziukireni ndikuziyikira kumbuyo. Osapeputsa izi! P si gawo lovomerezeka pa chiwerewere. Phunzirani Kudana ndi Porn !!
Ndimadana kwambiri ndi kukhala wokonda zolaula komanso kukana kuvomereza kuti ndisiye kusuta. Ndimagwedeza mutu ndikudandaula kuti helo nditha bwanji kukhala wokonda zithunzi zamanyazi. Zikuwoneka zomveka huh? Ndiliwerenga kwambiri, pa On NoFap ndi mawebusayiti ena ndinazindikira kuti ndatsatira njira yomenyedwa bwino (pun).
Nkhani ya mmbuyo ndizikhala yofupikitsa popeza ambiri ali ndi magwero ofanana. Zolaula zidayamba achichepere, kumayambiriro kwa intaneti komwe kunali pafupi kuyamba kwa achinyamata. Nthawi yanga yambiri ndinakhala ndikuonera kwambiri. Ndinali mwana wamanyazi, P sanachite chilichonse kuti athandize, ndinangokulitsa kudzipatula kwa akazi.
Palibe maubwenzi abwino ogonana mpaka ma 20 oyambirira. Kugonana kunali kovuta komanso nthawi zina kunali koyipa ndi nthomba za PIED komanso kusakhulupirira kwenikweni. Ndikuganiza kuti zinali mwayi kuti ndinali m'makhalidwe omwe anali ndi akazi ambiri osakwatiwa kuti akhale ndi maubwenzi ena koma nthawi zambiri amakhala osokonezedwa ndi zosokoneza, kusakhulupirika, komanso kudzikonda komwe kumachokera kwa P. Ndidalungamitsa kugwiritsa ntchito P pomuuza ndekha ndikadakonda PMO kuposa kutengera kunyumba mtsikana yemwe sindinamukonde ndikukhala ndi mawonekedwe a 1 usiku omwe ndikadandaula.
Ndinali kutali kwambiri ndikupanga kulumikizana kotero kuti zosokoneza bongo za P ndizomwe ndimangogwiritsa usiku wa 1 usiku, kuti anali ndi chisoni komanso kuti adakhala usiku wa 1. Maubwenzi ena ataliatali sanapite patali kuti ndidziwitse kukula kwanga kwachikondi ndi zovuta zakugonana komanso kudziwana.
Ndidaswa izi nditakumana ndi mkazi wanga. Anali amayi oyamba omwe ndinayang'ana ndikuganiza, ndikumtsatira 100%. Anali wokongola komanso wopambana. Ndinakopeka naye ndipo iye anali chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna mwa akazi komanso zina. Tinkakonda zinthu zomwezo, tinali ndi zinthu zofanana, tikutsutsana komanso kuyamikirana. Ndinkamukonda, ndikugawana masomphenya amoyo wamtsogolo komanso zabwino koposa zonse, ndiwotentha komanso mtundu wofanana ndi azimayi omwe ndimawakonda! Zolaula sizinafunikenso ,,,,, kapena choncho ndimaganiza.
Zosangalatsa Zolaula!
Zidalipobe, ngakhale titakhala pachibwenzi, titakwatirana, titakwatirana, atakhala ndi pakati, mwana wanga wamwamuna woyamba, mwana wanga wamwamuna wachiwiri. Sindikukhulupirira kuti ine, bambo woyenera, wanzeru, wodziwa bwino, wabwinobwino, bambo, komanso mwamunayo sitingasiye kuyang'ana anthu osawadziwa mopitirira muyeso pazithunzi.
Tsiku lotulutsira 1 linali lalikulu kwambiri. Mkazi wanga (wa kanthawi kochepa pamenepo) anapeza P yotseguka pa laputopu. Adali wokhumudwa, makamaka chifukwa moyo wathu wogonana sunali wabwino panthawiyo. Ndinalonjeza kuti ndizidula ndipo andikhulupirira. Ndikuganiza kuti ndimaganiza kuti "akumbiririka chiyani? Munthu aliyense amatero ”
D tsiku la 2, miyezi yambiri, mkazi adasokonekera. Nthawi ino ndinalonjezanso ndipo ndikutanthauza. Pakadali pano ndidanyansidwa pang'ono ndekha ndikuganiza, "sizili bwino kwa iye"
D tsiku la 3, miyezi pambuyo pake, yokhumudwa kwambiri. Ndinaganiza "wow, ndikubwera, koma sindingolola, ndiyenera kungoyang'ana chabe"
D day 4 ,,,,, "Sindine chidakwa, ndimadana ndi zidakwa, sindine wofooka, ndikonza izi, akuti akunyansidwa ndi ine koma sindine osokoneza bongo" banja lalikulu lili ndi zidakwa zingapo mmenemo kotero ndidadana ndi lingaliro lomwe moyo wanga ungathe kuwonongedwa ndi kusuta.
D tsiku la 5 ,,,,
Tinene kuti ndasiya kuchuluka kwenikweni kwa zomwe ndidalonjeza kenako ndikubwerera kenako ndikumunamiza. Zachisoni ndizakuti ndinalonjeza moona mtima malonjezo anga koma osakonzeka kupita patsogolo ndikwaniritsa malonjezowo chifukwa ndimakana kuti sindinachite bwino.
Tsiku lomaliza la D, kumapeto kwa Marichi 2018. Mwana wanga wamwamuna wachiwiri anabadwa masabata a 3 m'mbuyomu. Ana anga ndi chilichonse kwa ine ndipo ndimawafera koma ndimaganiza kuti ndikadawataya monga amayi anga adandiwuza kale. P yapita kuyambira Januware koma M anali pamenepo ndipo ine ndimasinthitsa P ndimalodza. Ndili ndi zaka za 20 za P zomwe zimasungidwa m'mutu mwanga ndipo ubongo umakhala wopanda zingwe komanso wogonana. Nditha kupanga P yanga yanga, yowonongeka komanso yamphamvu monga tsamba lililonse.
Tsopano sizinali chowopseza kuti "mukapitiliza izi ndichoka" tsopano zinali "Sindikuganiza kuti nditha kukhalabe chifukwa mumandinyansa mukachita izi ndipo ndiyenera ndibwino" Zinali zomvetsa chisoni kuti vomerezani kuti ndimanyansidwa ndipo amayenera kuchita bwino komanso KUDZIPEREKA.
Zikomo mulungu, tsogolo, mwayi, mwamwayi ndinapeza NoFap ndipo ndinazindikira kuti sindinali wopotoza kapena wolakwika kapena woganiza. Ndinali munthu wokonda zolaula ndipo ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo.
Nkhani yabwino ,,, pamapeto pake, izi ndi zolemba kumbuyo. Masiku a 90 ndipo nditha kutsimikizira za mphamvu za Reboot! Sindimafunanso zolaula. Ndilibe zokakamira kuti ndiziziwonera kapena ndilibe chidwi chodzilingalira ndipo M. ndimanyoza kwambiri P ndi momwe ndinakhalira osatinso kuti ndiziphonye.
Ndidachita poyamba, ndidasowa kwenikweni lingaliro la kusaka ndi kupeza malo ena a P, palibenso zokonda kapena zitsulo zokutidwa zathunthu kapena maola omwe athera. "Palibe" adamverera ngati nthawi yayitali koma tsopano akuwoneka ngati ufulu. Zilidi, kumasuka ku msampha wama malingaliro, kuzungulira mobwerezabwereza manyazi a PMO, kubwereza, mobwerezabwereza. Ndine wosamala kuti sindingawerenge masiku a 90 kuti ndikwaniritse kwambiri koma ndimakhala wopanda nkhawa, ndikulimbikitsani, ndikufuna kukhalanso komweko. Ndiyenera kupitiliza kugwira ntchito njirayi ndikukhalabe wogalamuka komanso watsopano pa kusasamala kwanga kwa P ndipo sindiyenera kuchepera mphamvu yanga yakusirira.
Ndazindikira kale kuti masiku a 90 akhoza kukhala poyambira koma kosatha ndicholinga. Sindingathe P kuti abwererenso.
Tsopano ntchito yovuta yomanganso kukhulupirika ndi kupulumutsa banja langa iyamba. Masiku a 90 anali sitepe 1.
Monga bonasi, yomwe sindinadziwone. Ndafufuza mozama kwambiri pofufufuza kuposa kale. Ndikupanga luso komanso malingaliro pamakhalidwe omwe anthu ambiri amapereka pamasamba omwe ndawachezera komanso mabuku omwe ndawerenga m'miyezi yapitayi. Ndikupanga dongosolo lokhazikika ndikusanthula chikhulupiriro chomwe ndichatsopano kwa ine. Chimawoneka ngati nthawi ya kukula kwamwini. Zonse zomwe zimayambitsidwa ndimayambitsa bongo. Ili ndi dzenje lakuya la kalulu ndipo ndikuyembekeza komanso chidwi chofuna kupitiliza. Chisoni ndi manyazi zayendetsedwa pambali ndi kukula ndi zovuta.
Ngati nditha kudandaulira aliyense amene akufuna kutsogoleredwa, Reboot amagwira ntchito, kudalira dongosolo, kukankha mwamphamvu, kukhazikitsa Cholinga chanzeru koma kuzindikira kuti izi zitha, kumayenera kukhala kusintha kwa moyo. Yambitsaninso kuti musinthe momwe mumakhalira.
Kwayamba kucha, Zabwino zonse!
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