Lero ndi tsiku 90 ya mode wanga wolimba, NoFap streak. Ndakhala ndikusangalatsidwa pamaforamu awa kwa zaka zingapo, posachedwapa ndimalumikizana nawo pazokambirana zina. Ndaphunzira zochuluka kwambiri kuchokera kuzosiyanasiyana zambiri, ndipo ndimafuna kugawana zomwe ndakumana nazo komanso zomwe ndizimva pa masiku anga a 90. Pakuwona zaka zamtsogolo, ndikulakalaka ndikadakhala kuti ndayenda ulendo uno kuti ndikhale ndi zolondola pazomwe zidachitikadi komanso momwe ndikumvera ndikumachita izi pakadali pano, koma ndiyenera kukhazikika kuti zikumbukiridwe pano.
Landilani kupepesa kwanga.
Ndidachita 105 tsiku lowitsa nthawi imodzi m'mbuyomu, ndimawopa kuti sindinawononge nthawi yonseyi. Kusiyana pakati pa chingwe ndi ichi (chomwe ndinasiya kutsata mapulogalamu a masiku pafupifupi 80) pafupifupi usiku ndi usana, ngakhale izi zitha kukhala zazodabwitsa. Pali kusiyana kwakukulu pamlingo wokonzanso, komabe, pakati pa awiriwa.
Ubwino wopindulitsa kwambiri
Kutha kuthana ndi zovuta / kusiya zina / kudzinyansa mwachangu kwambiri kuposa kale (ziwonetsero zozizira, kutsika, CBT, ndi masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikudya zakudya zabwino zonse ndiyenera kunena). Zambiri za DGAF pamalingaliro a anthu ena za ine. Osati bulletproof koma bwino. Ngakhale ndikulimbikitsidwa kwambiri ndi mkwiyo wamkwiyo, womwe ndikudziwa, ndi mphatso yomwe iyenera kuvomerezedwa, kulemekezedwa, ndi kuwongoleredwa. Mitengo yam'mawa yayamba kutuluka pafupifupi 1-2 sabata imodzi, ndiye kusintha.
Hei, izi ndizabwino
Ndinapezanso ntchito yanga yoyamba pafupifupi miyezi ya 18 munthawi iyi. Sizinachokera kwa mzanga kapena kubwezeretsa banja, ndinali wolemba ntchito wozizira, ngati ungalole. Woyang'anira yemwe wandibwereka anati kawiri tsiku langa loyamba, kamodzi pa zoyeserera komanso kamodzi pafoni yotsatira: "Ndimakukonda". Momwe ananenera kuti zinali zowona komanso zosatetezeka. Sindinamvepo munthu wina m'malo mwake woleza wantchito kunena mawu amenewo moona. Ndalandiridwa ndikuyamikiridwa ndi anyamata ena ochepa omwe ndimagwira nawo ntchito. Ndidandiwuza kudzera mphesa kuti manejala yemwe adandigwiritsa ntchito adati ndakhala wolembapo zabwino kwambiri mzaka zake za 5.
Masiku 1-30
Mosavuta. Ndikuganiza izi chifukwa m'zaka zingapo zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita NoFap, ndikuchita mosiyanasiyana, mwezi wa 1 sinali vuto lopezekanso patali. 10 (mwina ngakhale zaka za 5 zapitazo) zaka zapitazo, zikadamveka ngati zamuyaya. Ndinafika kanthawi pomwe sabata inali yowombera chala ndipo masabata a 2 sanali ovuta. Monga momwe zidakhalira, zidakhala zachilengedwe kupitilira masabata a 1-2 pakati pa kuziwombera (sindingakhale ndikuyesera zopanda pake kuti izi zichitike.) Izi zikuchokera kwa munthu wina amene adawukitsa katundu patsiku (pafupifupi, kapena zikadakhala kuti 2 tsiku?) Kuyambira zaka 14-26 mpaka zolaula.
Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinali ndi nkhawa komanso ngati kuti aliyense anali kundiyang'ana (ngakhale sanali) mwezi woyamba pamene ndimapita ku laibulale. Ndidayamba chizolowezi chopita kumeneko, koma kudzidalira komwe kulibeko (pokhudzana ndi nkhawa yakulaibulale, makamaka).
Masiku 31-49
Chingwe chokulirapo. Kukhumudwa ndi kukayikira. Ndimakumbukira nthawi zina ndikudzifunsa, kodi izi ndizomwe moyo ungamve ngati ukupita patsogolo? Pakadali pano, idayamwa, chifukwa sindinathe kuwona kuwala kumapeto kwa ngalawo, ndi okha chinthu chomwe chimandipatsa "kuwala" ndikakhala zolaula komanso kumangika. Ndizovuta kwambiri kupeza chifukwa chokhulupirira kuti simuyenera kumwa mankhwala panthawi imeneyi.
Panali malingaliro oti "sichingakhale choyipa" ndikuti "chavuta ndichani, muyenera kugunda". Ndimakumbukiranso panthawiyi, ndikudziyankhula mofuula mchipinda changa chosambira, mphindi yakuzindikira: “Sindikuganiza kuti ndakumanapo ndi ine.” Imeneyo inali mphindi yomwe ndimalingalirabe.
Masiku 50-80
M'mawonekedwe ambiri. Ndimatha kubwereranso kumbuyo chifukwa chokhala kunyumba komanso kusakhala wotanganidwa. Nthawi zina ndimakhala ngati ndikumva bwino kukhala ndi gawo, koma sindinatero. Munthawi imeneyi, ndinayamikiridwa ndi mawu anga ndi mzakazi wovala chipinda chamasamba ndikamagula tsiku lina. Sindinakhalepo choyamikiridwa pa liwu langa m'zaka zanga za 30 mpaka pamenepa. Zinali zosangalatsa kumva izi.
Masiku 81-90
Ndinkasungulumwa ndipo ndinayambiranso kudandaula. Masiku otsiriza ano akhala ena mwa owopsa kwambiri mwanjira yoti akhoza kuyambiranso. Ndakhala ndikulingaliranso zambiri m'masiku angapo apitawa kuposa momwe chidutswa chonse chidapangira.
Ubongo wanga ndikuzindikira ntchito yabwino monga yotembenuzira mafayilo a atsikana omwe ali ndi mwayi wokumana nawo ndikuwapatsa mwayi. Izi zimandipatsa dopamine mwachangu pomwe ndimagona pabedi langa ndikuyembekeza chidziwitso kuchokera pafoni yanga kuti ndiwone ngati angayankhe mwamasewera masewera anga anzeru, zolaula.
Ndani akudziwa, ngati ndamugwira pa nthawi yoyenera, mwina akufuna tikumane usikuuno kuti timwe zakumwa kenako ndikugonana? Palibe cholakwika ndi izi, koma chomwe chiri "cholakwika" ndi malingaliro omwewo ndi oterera mwa ine omwe akufuna kumenya chidule changa. Choyipa chachikulu, tsopano zomwe zili m'maganizo mwanga ndi azimayi, kumawagoneka, ndikudikirira kumva kuchokera kwa iwo tsiku lililonse. Imapha ndikumvetsetsa komanso ufulu womwe streak imandipatsa kwa mphindi zambiri za tsiku langa, apo ayi. Apa ndipomwe ndili mu streak yanga. Ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kufufuta mapulogalamuwa kapena ndikungokopeka ndikubwereranso kwina, mwina.
Malingaliro ena
Ndidavutabe kuyenda chingwe cholimba ichi. Sindikumvetsetsa momwe maubwenzi ndi maubale amagwirira ntchito. Chidaliro changa ndichokhazikika, koma nditha kugwiritsa ntchito ntchito yambiri. Ndimasinthasintha kuchokera ku chitonthozo ndi chidwi (osati mozama, koma ndimatha kumva) ndi mphamvu yomwe ili kwambiri pachikhalidwe chamakono. Ndili ndi mkulu T. Ndine wamphamvu kwambiri. Ndimamva kuti ndiyenera kudzilimbitsa mtima kuti ndikhale bwino ndi anthu ogwira ntchito, kuyenda, kuyenda masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndi zina zotere. Nthawi zina kudzera mukuyesetsa kukhala wamba, ndimalolera kukhala wokayikakayika, wosungika, Ndiponso. Kuchokera kunja, sizingakhale choncho kwambiri zooneka kapena zoonekeratu ayi (Ndilimbikira ndekha, ngakhale izi zikuyenda bwino), koma ndikudziwa kuti ndikubisalira kuthekera koopa kuti anthu angapangidwe osatetezedwa ndikuwala kwanga. .
Pali zambiri zomwe ndimatha kuzimveketsa bwino kwambiri ndipo ndimvetsetsa zambiri zomwe ndingakonde kupereka pazomwe ndapeza komanso zokumana nazo pazaka zonse. Imelo ndi TPLR kwenikweni pazomwe ndikufuna kunena ngatiopenga momwe izi zingamveke.
Zikomo powerenga.
LINK - Tsiku 90 lathunthu- Njira Yovuta
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