Moni akuluakulu. Ndinachoka ku Reddit kwakanthawi kuti ndikadzisonkhanitse, ndikugwira ntchito zanga zomwe ndimafunikira kumapeto kwa sabata / kumapeto kwa sabata, ndipo, ambiri, ndimayesetsa kuti ndiyambe kuyenda panjira zazikulu zomwe ndili nazo chaka chamawa. Zambiri zachitika! Patha miyezi itatu. Sanamvekenso ngati nthawi yocheperapo kapena yochulukirapo; zimangomveka ngati miyezi itatu chimodzimodzi.
Ndizosavuta kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimaganizira. Mukadutsa, monga, mwezi woyamba, zimakhala choncho, zosavuta. Ndimadzipeza ndekha ndikudziona ndekha bwino, nthawi yopuma, komanso lingaliro labwino pazomwe ndimaika patsogolo.
Poyamba ndinkakonda zolaula kuti ndithane ndi thupi langa, kudziona kuti ndi wopanda pake, komanso kugona tulo. Thupi langa dysmorphia silichiritsidwa kwathunthu. Ndimavutikabe. Koma ndikudabwitsidwa ndikudzichepetsera kwanga m'malingaliro miyezi itatu yapitayi.
Ponena za kugona, chabwino, ndadzipeza ndekha ndikuwerenga, kuyeretsa, ndikugwira ntchito mwaluso kwambiri, chifukwa chake sindinapeze tulo tambiri. Mwina ola limodzi usiku uliwonse. Komabe, ndikadakhala kuti sindinachite bwino nthawi imeneyo kuposa kungoyang'ana zolaula. Tbh.
Ndinagunda mu February koma ndinadzipeza ndekha kuti ndikhale ndekha. Ndikadali, mwatsoka, ndikulimbana ndi chilichonse chomwe chidachitika m'mwezi woopsya wa mulunguyo, koma ndili bwino kwambiri kuposa momwe ndidaliri mu February, ndipo mwina ndimalimba (umunthu wanzeru) chifukwa chake.
China chachikulu… Lachiwiri ndi tsiku langa lopuma. Poyamba ndinkakonda kunena zoona, ndimangogwiritsa ntchito nthawi imeneyo kuonera zolaula kapena kungodzisangalatsa. Tsopano, Lachiwiri lililonse, ndimayesetsa kutuluka. Ndikumana ndi mnzanga, ndikamwa zakumwa ku cafe, kapena… ndipita kwina kuti ndikachite kena kake. Lachiwiri lino, ndinayendetsa maola awiriwo kuti ndikakumane ndi mnzanga wina wakale. Lachiwiri likubwerali, ndikuwona Nkhondo yopanda malire kachiwirinso (Ndimayang'ana koyamba Lachisanu masana! Fuck inde! Thanos ndi fav wanga!). Mwambiri, ndizabwino kuti tsopano ndayika Lachiwiri ngati tsiku lapaderali pomwe ndimangodziuza kuti nditha kuchita chilichonse. Ndimasunga ena mwa maupangiri anga sabata ino, chifukwa chake ndimakhala ndi ndalama yakumwa, kapena ndalama ya gasi yotulutsira kwinakwake, kapena ndimangotulutsa china chaulere. Laibulale yanga yapagulu ndiyabwino kwenikweni. Ndi kusintha kwabwino kwambiri. Ndizomwe ndimakonda pakusintha konse, chifukwa tsopano, tsiku langa lopumula limakhala losangalatsa komanso latsopano.
Zonsezi, ndi TL; DR: Zithunzi zolaula ndizabwino. Ngati wina akufuna kuti ayambe, koma akudabwa kuti angayambire bwanji: ingopita kozizira kozizira. Osangodzikhululukira. Sabata yoyamba, osadzipatsa nthawi yopuma, chifukwa mukatero mudzangopenga. Sabata yoyamba kapena kupitilira apo, ingokhalani ndi zochuluka kwambiri momwe mungathere, kuti musaganizirenso za izi. Pamene kufunika kolaula kumatha, mutha kuchepetsa katundu wanu.
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