Ndasankha kugawana nkhani yanga pano kuti ndithokoze chifukwa chosiya masiku 50 tsopano. Sindimadziona kuti ndine wopambana, koma ndikuganiza kuti ndiyofunika pano.
Chenjezo loyambitsa: Sindingafotokozere mwatsatanetsatane za kudziphukira lokha, koma nthawi zina ndimafotokoza "kukhazikitsa" ndikukonzekera magawo anga kutsindika kuya kwavutoli. Chifukwa chake ngati mukumva kuti mwina mungakopeke ndi izi ingosiyani kuwerenga. Ndiyesera kuyisunga ngati SFW momwe ndingathere.
Ukapolo wanga wa PMO udayamba zaka zambiri zapitazo zimatengera nthawi yochulukirapo kupanga ma kinks enaake. Mwinanso kupatuka kwanga koyamba kunali "fetus fetish" yomwe idakula mwachangu "kuvala pamtanda". Ndinachita izi kwa zaka zambiri ndipo gawo lina la moyo wanga ndinali ndi thumba lalikulu logulira lodzaza ndi zovala zamkati zazimayi komanso zovala zamkati. Ambiri amagula china chake chobedwa m'masitolo kapena azimayi enieni. Ngakhale ndiyenera kubisala sindimawona ngati chinthu chovulaza. Kink wosalakwa basi.
Koma zimandipangitsa kuganiza. Kodi ndili gay? Kodi ndikusintha? Ngakhale ndimakondana ndi atsikana ndimamva kuti sindili ndi vuto logonana. Kupatula apo ndimapanganso zina zotengera ngati hentai, mafinya komanso zoophilia. Sindinazisiye chilichonse cha izi.
Ndipo kenako ndinazindikira kuti ndi wopanda pake. Inakulitsa kuvala zovala zamtanda ndikuyamba kulowa mwakuya mu vortex iyi. Mavidiyo a Hypno, faproulette (ndizoyipa bwanji!) Komanso zoseweretsa zamasewera, zovala ndi zina zofunikira.
Ngakhale ndinali pachibwenzi ndimapitilizabe ndi izi. Ndinkayembekezera nthawi yomwe ndinali ndekha ndikuchita zonyansa zonsezi. Nthawi zonse ndikafika kunyumba mofulumira kuposa SO yanga ndimakhala ndi udindo mpaka atabwera kunyumba. Zachidziwikire kuti ndimayenera kutsatira ndandanda yake ndikumufufuza kuti asadziwulidwe. Zinali zopenga komanso zochititsa manyazi. Ndinayamba kusiya kukonda zogonana. Tinasiyana kangapo chifukwa cha izi. (Sindinazindikire kuti ndichifukwa chake - ndimaganiza kuti ndimafunikira malo oti ndidzifotokozere, koma kwenikweni zomwe ndimafuna ndimangopeza).
Ndidatsegula akaunti yakubanki pazolakalaka zanga ndipo mwezi uliwonse ndimatumiza x% ya ndalama zanga kumeneko kuti ndizikawononga pazoseweretsa zachiwerewere ndi zovala zapadela. Pamene SO yanga idachoka kwa sabata kapena apo ndinatha kukhala sabata lathunthu mu gawo lachilendo la PMO. Anagula zovala, zoseweretsa, zodzoladzola, amakhala masiku azovala zamkati zachikazi, adachita maphunziro achikazi, enemas, manyazi. Inu mumatchula izo. Ndinkangokhalira kumenyera masiku ambiri kuti ndingothawa, nthawi zina ndimagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Magawo awa atatha ndimamva ngati ndikulephera. Ndinanyansidwa ndi ine ndekha, ndinataya zinthu zonse zomwe ndinagwiritsira ntchito ndalama zanga, ndimakhala sabata lathunthu ndipo sindimakwanitsa kalikonse koma kachisangalalo kamodzi kokha. Ndinali wosokonezeka. Ndipo ndimayembekezera mwachidwi! Wopusa bwanji.
Nditha kupita milungu ingapo miyezi ingapo, koma ndimakhala nthawi yayitali ndikuganizira izi. Ndinkakhulupirira kuti ndi momwe ndiliri. Kuti ndasweka zododometsa zachilendo. Ndinavomera ndidzakhala chonchi. Kuti ndikwatire msungwana, kukhala ndi ana ndipo ndikabisala kubafa kuti ndikule. Kuti ndikhala moyo wanga wonse ndikunama.
Ndinayesa kusiya kangapo. Koma ndimakhulupirira kuti sindingathe motero ndimalephera nthawi zonse. Ndinali kufunafuna zifukwa zolephera ndipo ndidzapeza zina. Ndinalibe chiyembekezo konse.
Koma tsiku lina… sindikudziwa momwe izi zidachitikira ndendende. Zinali zinthu zazing'ono zambiri. Ndinafunsira GF yanga, ndinayamba kuchita bizinesi yanga, tinayenda kwakanthawi, tinapita kukachita nawo maphunziro anzanga, ndinayamba kudzifunsa za Mulungu… Ndipo ndangoganiza kuti ndikufuna kusiya. Ndidachita mwina masiku 3 ndekha kenako ndidasaina apa. Ndinakumana ndi anyamata pano omwe adandithandiza kumvetsetsa ma kink anga ndipo koposa zonse adandifotokozera kuti sindinasweke mosasunthika ndipo zoyipa zonsezi zimayambitsidwa ndi zolaula. Ndili ndi chiyembekezo. Ndipo inali nthawi yopumira. Ndimakhulupirira kuti nditha kumenya ndipo ndimatha kukhala ndi moyo wabwinobwino.
Ndimamva bwino kwambiri. Pambuyo pazaka zambiri zotaya mtima ndikuchititsidwa manyazi! Zonsezi zimapangitsa kukhala kosavuta kusiya. Ndimadzifunsabe kuti bwanji ndidachita izi kwa nthawi yayitali? Ndikudabwa kuti bwanji ndinali wopusa kwambiri.
Moyo wanga umakhala wokhutira kwambiri komanso wosangalala tsopano. Ndimasangalala ndi zinthu zosavuta padziko lapansi. Kuyimba mbalame, amphaka amisewu, mitengo pachimake. Komanso ndimamva kusintha modabwitsa m'moyo wanga wogonana. Sitipanga chikondi pafupipafupi, mwinanso chocheperapo kuposa kale, koma chilichonse chimakhala chachikulu komanso chokwaniritsa. Ndikumva kulumikizana kwakuya kuposa kale.
Ndimakhalanso ndi nthawi yambiri komanso chidaliro choti ndiziyang'ana kwambiri pantchito yanga komanso zinthu zomwe ndimakonda kuchita. Ndinayambanso kulemba zaka zambiri zapitazo (ndili wachinyamata ndinali ndakatulo), kungosangalala komanso kwa anthu omwe ndimawakonda.
Pakhala masiku 50 okha, koma zasintha moyo wanga kuposa momwe zidasinthira zaka. Ndimangokhala wokondwa komanso wolimba mtima. Ndikumva kuti ndikukhala munthu wabwino.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yanga itha kuthandiza ena ndipo ndili wokondwa kuti nditha kugawana nanu. Tithokze aliyense amene wawerenga zonse, ndinu wamkulu.
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