Ukapolo wanga wa PMO unayamba zaka zambiri zapitazo zimatengera nthawi yambiri kuti mukhale ndi ma kinks enaake. Mwinamwake kupatuka kwanga koyamba kunali "panty fetish" yomwe idayamba mwachangu kukhala "crossdressing". Ndinachita izi kwa zaka zambiri ndipo mu gawo lina la moyo wanga, ndinali ndi chikwama chachikulu chogulira chodzaza ndi zovala zamkati zachikazi ndi zovala zamkati. Nthawi zambiri amagula chinthu chomwe chabedwa m'masitolo kapena azimayi enieni. Ngakhale ndiyenera kubisala sindimawona ngati chinthu chovulaza. Kusalakwa chabe.
Koma zinandipangitsa kuganiza. Ndine gay? Kodi ndine trans? Ngakhale nditakhala pachibwenzi ndi atsikana, sindimadziwa momwe ndimagonana. Kupatula apo, ndimapanga zilombo zina monga hentai, furries, ngakhale zoophilia. Sindinasiye chilichonse mwa zovuta izi kotero ndidapitiliza kuzikankhira moyo wanga kuyambira ndili mwana.
Kenako ndinapeza sing'anga. Idakulitsa mawonekedwe anga ndikuyamba kugwa mozama kwambiri mu vortex iyi. Mavidiyo a Hypno, faproulettes (choipa bwanji!) Ndipo ndithudi zoseweretsa zonse zogonana, zovala ndi zipangizo.
Ngakhale ndinali pachibwenzi ndimapitirizabe ndi izi. Ndinkayembekezera nthawi yomwe ndinali ndekha ndikuchita zinthu zonyansa. Nthawi zonse ndikafika kunyumba kale kuposa SO INE PMOed mpaka atabwera kunyumba. Inde, ndinafunika kutsatira ndondomeko yake ndi kumufufuza kuti asaulule. Zinali zopenga komanso zochititsa manyazi. Ndinayamba kutaya chidwi ndi kugonana. Tinasiyana kangapo chifukwa cha zimenezi. (Sindinazindikire kuti ndichifukwa chake - ndimaganiza kuti ndimafunikira malo oti ndidzifotokozere ndekha, koma kwenikweni, chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna chinali kuchita).
Ndinatsegula akaunti yakubanki chifukwa cha zilakolako zanga zonyansa ndipo mwezi uliwonse ndimatumiza x % ya ndalama zanga kumeneko kuti ndizigwiritsa ntchito pazoseweretsa zogonana ndi zida zophatikizira. Pamene SO wanga adachoka kwa sabata imodzi kapena kuposerapo ndidatha kukhala sabata lathunthu mu gawo lachilendo la PMO. Anagula zovala, zidole, zodzoladzola, anakhala masiku mu zovala zamkati wamkazi, anachita maphunziro achikazi, enemas, kudzichititsa manyazi. Inu tchulani izo. Ndinkangokhalira kunjenjemera kwa masiku ambiri kuti ndingogwedezeka, nthawi zina kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo.
Magawo awa atatha ndidamva ngati ndikulakwitsa. Ndinkanyansidwa ndi ine ndekha, ndinataya zinthu zonse zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito ndalama zanga, ndinakhala sabata yathunthu ndipo sindinapindule kalikonse koma chitonthozo chimodzi chokha. Ndinali wosokonezeka. Ndipo ndinali kuyembekezera mwachidwi! Chitsiru chotani!
Ndikhoza kupita masabata ndi miyezi popanda kupanga, koma ndinathera nthawi yanga yopuma ndikuganiza za izo. Ndinkakhulupirira kuti ndi momwe ndiriri. Kuti ine wosweka zonyansa freak. Ndinavomera kuti ndidzakhala chonchi. Kuti ndikwatira mtsikana, ndidzakhala ndi ana ndipo ndidzabisala ku bafa kuti ndipange fap. Kuti ndikhala moyo wanga wonse ndikunama.
Ndinayesa kuleka kambirimbiri. Koma ndinkakhulupirira kuti sindingathe choncho nthawi zonse ndinkalephera. Ndinali kufunafuna zifukwa zolephera ndipo nthawi zonse ndizipeza. Ndinalibe chiyembekezo ngakhale pang’ono.
Koma tsiku lina…
Sindikudziwa momwe izi zidachitikira ndendende. Zinali zinthu zambiri zazing'ono. Ndinafunsira kwa GF wanga, ndinayamba kuchita bizinezi yanga, tinayenda kwa nthawi ndithu, tinapita ku kosi ya zibwenzi, ndinayamba kudabwa za Mulungu… Ndipo ndinangoganiza zongosiya. Ndinachita mwina masiku a 3 ndekha ndiyeno ndidalembetsa pano. Ndidakumana ndi anyamata pano omwe adandithandiza kumvetsetsa ma kinks anga ndipo chofunikira kwambiri adandifotokozera kuti sindine wosweka bwino komanso zoyipa zonse zidayambitsidwa ndi zolaula. Ine ndiri ndi chiyembekezo. Ndipo panali posweka. Ndinkakhulupirira kuti ndikhoza kuzigonjetsa ndipo ndingakhale ndi moyo wabwinobwino.
Ndinamva momasuka kwambiri. Pambuyo pa zaka zambiri zakuthedwa nzeru ndi manyazi! Zonsezi zimapangitsa kukhala kosavuta kwambiri kusiya. Ndimadabwabe kuti n’chifukwa chiyani ndinachita zimenezi kwa nthawi yaitali chonchi? Ndikudabwa chifukwa chake ndinali wopusa kwambiri.
Moyo wanga ukumva kukwaniritsidwa komanso wokondwa tsopano. Ndimakonda zinthu zosavuta kwambiri padziko lapansi. Mbalame zikuimba, amphaka amsewu, mitengo ikuphuka maluwa. Komanso, ndikumva kusintha kodabwitsa m'moyo wanga wogonana. Sitipanga chikondi nthawi zambiri, mwina mocheperapo kuposa kale, koma chochita chilichonse chimakhala chachikulu komanso chokwaniritsa. Ndimamva kulumikizana kozama kuposa kale.
Ndimakhalanso ndi nthawi yochulukirapo komanso chidaliro chokhazikika pa ntchito yanga ndi zomwe ndimakonda. Ndinayambanso kulemba pambuyo pa zaka zambiri (ndili wachinyamata ndinali wolemba ndakatulo), chifukwa cha zosangalatsa komanso kwa anthu omwe ndimawakonda.
Pangopita masiku 50, koma moyo wanga unasintha kwambiri kuposa mmene unasinthira m’zaka. Ndimangomva kukhala wosangalala komanso wodzidalira. Ndimaona kuti ndikukhala munthu wabwino.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yanga ikhoza kukhala yothandiza kwa ena ndipo ndine wokondwa kuti nditha kugawana nanu. Zikomo kwa aliyense amene wawerenga zonse, ndinu wamkulu.
Zabwino zonse kwa inu anyamata
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