Ndangopeza kumene tsambali kuchokera ku YBOP, ndipo ndikufuna kuyang'ananso ndikuwonjezera pazambiri zopambana zomwe palibe omwe padziko lonse lapansi ali nazo. Ndipo ineyo ndikuganiza kuti ndine m'modzi mwazovuta kwambiri. Kotero apa pali.
Ndinkadziwa maliseche komanso zolaula ndili ndi zaka 11-12. Pasanapite nthawi ndinakhala chimodzi mwa zinthu zosangalatsa kwambiri pamoyo wanga. Kodi sizingatheke bwanji kuti mwana wazaka 12 azindikire tanthauzo la moyo ndipo ndizotengeka kwambiri?
Zinakhala zovuta kwambiri kotero kuti ndinali kuseweretsa maliseche tsiku ndi tsiku ndipo nthawi zina ndimakhala ndi ma streak a 2-3 nthawi patsiku. Sindinalinso wachikhalidwe, komanso wachinyamata wonenepa kwambiri komanso wotopa yemwe amakonda masewera apakanema, zomwe ndizofala masiku ano.
Zolanda zanga zinakhalanso zonyansa. Ndimayang'ana zachiwerewere ndi nyama zamamuna, mkazi wokwera pakavalo, wamkazi-galu, komanso wamiseche kwambiri. Moyo wanga waku sekondale udadutsa chimodzimodzi momwe sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi ku HC, chifukwa chake ndidatembenukira ku zolaula kuti ndidzipumule.
Posachedwa mchaka changa chaching'ono ku yunivesite, ndachepa ndikuyamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndipo izi zidandipatsa chidaliro chifukwa ndidazindikira mchaka cha rookie kuti ndine wokongola. Tsopano ndikulemera kopitilira apo ndikukhala wolimba mwamphamvu, ndidayamba kukopa atsikana osiyanasiyana mozungulira sukuluyi.
Chilimwe chidayamba, banja langa lili patchuthi, ndidamuyitana m'modzi mwa atsikana aja kuti akhale wamisala, ndipo pomwe amapukuta thukuta lake lonyowa kwambiri kwa membala wanga, NDINALI WOKHALA KWAMBIRI. Ndinadabwa kwambiri. Izi zidabweranso mchilimwe 2017, zidachitika ndi m'modzi mwa zibwenzi zanga zomwe ndimatha kulowa ndikumva kuti sindimamva nkomwe mkati, kuyambira 2018, ndakhala ndi atsikana ena mpaka Marichi 2020, ndipo zinali chimodzimodzi.
Kulowera pang'ono, ndipo chifukwa sichimva chilichonse, membala amayamba kuyenda. Ngakhale zidachitika ndi atsikana kuti ndimakopeka kwambiri ndi kugonana. Nthawi zonse ndinkachita mantha ndi nkhaka zomwe zikundilepheretsa, sindinathe kudzitaya pakadali pano.
Ndipo mwezi watha inali nthawi yomwe ndinadziuza kuti ndikwanira. Ndinali ndi mwayi wodziwa mtsikana wokongola mu Epulo 2020 kuchokera pa Instagram, ndipo tayamba chibwenzi mu Meyi. Ndinali naye tsiku lathu la 4, ndipo zinali kokha mothandizidwa ndi kupitirira, kutuluka kwa magazi kunali kodabwitsa, koma dick wanga samangomva chilichonse!
Ndi pomwe sindinayambe zolaula komanso maliseche. Nthawi yachiwiri (masiku a 2 pambuyo pake) ndidaganiza kuti ndisamwe mapiritsi, ndipo anali ovuta ndipo anali opunduka. Ndinamuuza za vutoli ndipo amandichirikiza.
Usiku watha (masiku 12 opanda P, MO kawiri komanso wofatsa) inali nkhani ina ngakhale. Takhala tikusangalala kwambiri ndi mzanga wapamtima ndi iye, tinkasuta wobiriwira, ndipo tinali ndi nthawi yabwino.
[Yambitsani kuchenjeza kuyambira pano…]
Titafika poti tili tokha, tinayamba kupsopsonana mgalimoto ndipo membala wanga adamva kuti iphulika. Galimotoyo inali yovuta kwambiri kuchita zogonana momasuka monga momwe munthu angafunire, koma tidachotsa mathalauza athu ndikudziwononga munthawiyo. Sindikudziwa kuti inali yobwereranso bwanji koma nditha kuyamba kumverera zabwino zambiri mkati mwake ndipo zimangondipatsa ine mwachangu komanso mwamphamvu. Anadzikongoletsa ndikusamba miyendo yanga kamodzi ndipo anali pafupi ndi wachiwiri. Adandipatsa njuchi, yomwe tidapuma pang'ono ndipo sindinathe kumaliza mkamwa mwake (mwina tikadachita zambiri, ndikadakhala nazo, koma anali kuzikakamira ndipo ndimafuna kuyimba zinthu zankhanzazo pang'ono) koma ndinasewera maliseche mofewa ndikulowa mkamwa mwake.
Mwinamwake sindiyenera kuti ndichite ndi maliseche, koma mwamunayo mkati mwanga amafuna kuti apereke mbeuyo kwa mkazi wake. IT. ANALI. Zodabwitsa, anyamata.
Kuyambira tsiku loyamba ndimangonena kuti "zolaula, sindidzabwerera" ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi chidwi chofuna kuchita izi. Ndikungofuna kuganizira za akazi anga, ndi masiku omwe ndidzakumane nawo. Izi zangondilimbikitsa kwambiri, ndipo tsopano, lupanga langa likhala likudutsa mwa akazi, osayima. Ndikulakalaka lupanga langa lakuthwa kwa Excalibur, anzanu obwezeretsanso.
KUMBUKIRANI, NGATI NDAKHALA BWINO, NDI ZAKA 12 ZA PMO, ZAKA 10 ZAKUFA NDI ZOKHUDZA KWAMBIRI (monga kuwonera ziweto zogonana amuna kapena akazi komanso kulowerera) PITIRIZANI KULIMBITSA !!!
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