Panopa ndakhala ndikusowa zolaula masiku 37. Ndilo chingwe chachitali kwambiri chomwe ndidakhalapo nacho kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba kuwonera zolaula ndili ndi zaka 13. KUYAMBIRA 1 FUCKING 3.
Mnyamata ndikulakalaka ndikadachita izi posachedwa…
Zinanditengera zaka 1-ish kuyambira pomwe ndidazindikira kuti mwina ndikulimbana ndi zolaula / chizolowezi chogonana. Mpaka pano, ndimakhala ndikulimbana ndi zolaula pa moyo wanga. Ndinali ndi maubwenzi ambiri omwe amawonongeka chifukwa sindinkavutika, kapena ndimachita zogonana. Mobwerezabwereza zimachitika. Komabe, sindinachite chilichonse chokhudza izi. Ndidawona ukwati wa abambo / amayi anga ukusokonekera chifukwa abambo anga anali osokoneza bongo. Komabe, ndinadzikhululukira, ndinanyalanyaza vuto langa, ndipo ndinalipira.
Zovala zanga zasiliva zidabwera nditaswa mtima wanga pa mtsikana yemwe ndimagonana naye. Ndimaganiza kuti mtsikanayo anali wangwiro. Tinali ndi zofanana zambiri limodzi, tinali ndi malingaliro ofanana, malingaliro athu, ndi chilichonse! Tinagonana kangapo pomwe tinakumana, mothandizidwa ndi kulimbika kwamadzi ndinatha kuthana ndi vuto langa loledzera usiku womwe tinali limodzi. Nditabwerako kutchuthi komwe ndimachita maliseche kwambiri ndikuwonera zolaula, ndinangopita kunyumba ya atsikana iyi. Sindingadikire kuti ndimuwone! Ndakhala ndikudikirira tchuthi chonse kuti ndibwerere ndikugona naye ndikukumbatirana ndikuwonera makanema, kugonana, ndikupita kwina!
Komabe, sindinathe kukondana usiku ... kapena m'mawa nditadzuka naye. Zinamupweteka. Zachidziwikire, chinali poyambira kutha kwa ubale wathu waufupi.
Ndinayesera ndikuyesera kukhala ndi mwayi umodzi naye, koma sizinachitike. Ndinalumbira kuti sindidzamvanso zoterezi, ndikuti ndichita zonse zomwe ndingathe kuti ndichotse sumu zomwe zindilepheretsa kuyanjana mtsogolo.
Ndinapita kwa dokotala, ndinamuuza kuti ndinali ndi ED. Ndinkayembekeza kuti andipatsa mankhwala, koma adandiuza kuti zinali zamaganizidwe. Ndinamuwuza kuti ndinali ndi nkhawa yocheperako kugonana, koma ndinasiya zofunikira zokhudzana ndi zolaula komanso maliseche.
Patatha masiku 37, ndimapeza zosankha zachilendo. Ndinagona ndi akazi angapo ndipo sindinakhale ndi vuto lovuta. Sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lililonse. Ndi chimodzi mwazomwe ndimamva bwino kwambiri ndipo ndine wokondwa kuti ndagonjetsa nkhaniyi pakadali pano. Ndikutsimikiza kuti ndiyesedwa ngati nditapanda kuuma, koma sindikufuna kubwerera ku zolaula chifukwa cha zomwe zandichitira ine komanso maubwenzi anga.
Ngati muli kunja uko, ndipo mukufuna chilimbikitso. Werengani nkhani yanga. Ngati sikokwanira, pamapeto pake mupeza nthawi yomwe mukuzindikira kuti muyenera kukonza nthawi yomweyo.
Cholinga changa ndikupita masiku 90 osachita zolaula, ndiye ndiyambe kugwira ntchito masiku 90 popanda kuseweretsa maliseche. Makanda aana.
LINK - Maubwenzi ambiri olephera, pamapeto pake china chake chimayenera kuchitidwa.
by CHIANI
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