Ndizosadabwitsa kuti izi sizingathe horniness kwenikweni imachokera pakungofuna kuonera zolaula. Kuchita maliseche sikunali kokhutiritsa kwenikweni ngakhale ndinali woopsa bwanji.
Ndinasiya zolaula sabata yapitayo ndipo tsiku lachiwiri ndinazindikira kuti sindine wopepuka. Pambuyo pa tsiku lina, ndinazindikira kuti sindingathe kuvutikira ndikaganiza zogonana. Izi zimandidetsa nkhawa, koma kenako ndidazindikira kuti ubongo ndiwongobera chifukwa chongodzutsidwa ndi zolaula kwakanthawi.
Sindikuseweretsa maliseche tsopano, ndipo ndikatero, sizodabwitsa kuti zimamveka bwanji. Osakhalanso ndi mlandu wakuchita mopitilira muyeso, osachita manyazi kuwona mboni zonyansa, zokula mowirikiza ndi ludzu losatha. Kungoyambira mphindi 2 mwachangu kamodzi kapena kawiri pa sabata ndipo ndimamva ngati BOMB. Ndi mwachangu kwambiri tsopano poyerekeza ndikuchita izi mukamaonera zolaula.
Pomaliza ndinakwanitsa kuthana ndi chizolowezi chonyansachi, komanso momasuka…. Ndakhala ndikuyesera kusiya kuseweretsa maliseche kwa zaka pafupifupi 2, kusiya kuzizira kozizira sikunagwirepo ntchito ndipo ndimakhala ndikudzikhululukira nthawi zonse. Koma tsiku lomwe ndinasiya zolaula, sindinathenso kuchita mantha. Nditha kukhala sabata lathunthu osazichita. Ndikufunabe kuwona atsikana amaliseche, zokopa zikadalipo, koma tsopano ndikudziwa bwino tsopano popeza ndawona zomwe zili mtsogolo.
Sindidzayang'ananso zolaula. Ndikhala ngati palibe chilichonse m'moyo wanga chomwe sindingathe kuwauza anzanga ndi abale. Sindidzakhala ndi zinsinsi zochititsa manyazi. Zithunzi zolaula zinali zokhazokha, ndipo tsopano zatha.
Mutha kutero! Ndinalira tulo tanga kugona kwa mausiku ambiri chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti ndinali wofooka kwambiri kuti ndibwererenso pamalo amodzi, kuti ndikhale kapolo wa zikhumbo zanga nthawi zonse, ndipo ndidatero, koma ndidadutsa mwanjira ina, ndipo inunso mudzatero. Dzikhulupirireni!
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